[M] How to get a squish to ha (1/1)

Kyungsoo swings his legs back and forth as he stares out his bedroom window, watching the sun descend on the horizon. It's beautiful around this time, a scene he never would have payed attention to normally if it wasn't for Jongin. Jongin's made him see things differently, made him focus on things he never saw before.Kyungsoo sighs and places his cheek against his palm, frowning down at the book lying on his desk in front of him. He misses Jongin, it's been two weeks since the hyungs grounded him, and he's only been allowed to see Jongin a handful of times and only with supervision from one of his hyungs.Kyungsoo is miserable and he just wants to see the godlike younger male. Kyungsoo wants to touch Jongin's bronze skin, trace the black lines splayed over his chest and back. He wants to feel Jongin's heartbeat beneath his fingers and hear his stuttering breath as he reacts to Soo's touch.Kyungsoo groans in frustration, never having had such an attachment to another human being before. He had a hamster once that he loved dearly; he even taught the thing to follow him around his house in a little ball and he sometimes carried the thing to school in his book bag. He loved that hamster, it was his only friend growing up. It died when he entered ninth grade, Kyungsoo didn't cry, his mother taught him not to waste tears on lost things. So, Kyungsoo doesn't understand why, when it's completely irrational and pointless, he wants to cry now. It's not like he's even lost or separated from Jongin, but he misses him and needs him. Kyungsoo thinks that he might feel stronger for Jongin than he realized, than he can even begin to understand.Kyungsoo's not big on emotions, he doesn't understand these concepts of love or feelings, but he's beginning to understand what silly girls and guys raved about in high school. He imagines it's something like infatuation, his feelings match the textbook definition, but he wouldn't dare to ask his hyungs about said things. His house arrest and Jongin restrictions, proof to their tendency to overreact.It's not like they were doing anything bad, actually it was good, really really good. Jongin had just wrapped his hand around Kyungsoo's erection when Baekhyun hyung had come barging into their room. Kyungsoo feels that the hysterical scream was a complete overreaction, and when Luhan hyung had fainted after he rushed into the room was ridiculously unnecessary. Kyungsoo was surprised by how strong Minseok was, when he pinned Baekhyun hyung against the wall and motioned for Jongin to make a run for it. After the hyungs had calmed down and Jongin was at a safe distance, they set the punishment at two and a half weeks house arrest and restricted his personal time with Jongin to one meeting a day, in public, and supervised.Kyungsoo has never been cross with his hyungs before, but this is just too unfair. He's refused to talk, eat, or be in the same room with them for the past two weeks, (he's even been making Baekhyun hyung sleep on the couch) and he can tell that they are regretful towards him. Kyungsoo holds no sympathy for them though, they did this to themselves.If Kyungsoo didn't care for his hyungs so much, he would have scoffed at their punishment and ignored it, but he respects them and believes they have his best interest in mind... even though he has a hard time seeing it right now."Soo?" A familiar angelic voice asks, his door creaking open.Soo sighs and pretends to focus his attention on his book."Is there anything I can get you, sweetie? Do you need anything" Luhan asks, his voice careful and full of emotion.Kyungsoo looks up, glancing outside the window and sighs once more "Jongin"He hears an exasperated breath behind him, followed by a click of the door being shut again. A familiar routine over the past two weeks. That's always the answer, that's always what he wants... needs. Jongin is always his answer. But he never gets Jongin, his hyungs would give and do anything for him, but never Jongin. Why of all the people, he had to be caught by the one person his hyungs don't approve of? Why can't his hyungs see Jongin for who he really is, like he does?Kyungsoo doesn't like that people are mean to Jongin. Kyungsoo just wants the mean people to go away and leave him alone. Kyungsoo hates that his hyungs are some of these mean people.It's not fair that people misstrew Jongin's personality. Kyungsoo hasn't heard personally what other people say or even what a reputation means, but from how Jongin and his hyungs talk about it, it can't be good. Apparently people are hateful and give Jongin a bad name, but Jongin is good. Kyungsoo can't understand why people would think someone so cute and nice could ever be bad.Jongin's always been nice to him. Ever since the second he met Kyungsoo he's helped him, took care of him, and Kyungsoo couldn't be more thankful. Jongin knows Kyungsoo. He knows how to talk to him, he knows how Kyungsoo thinks and he knows how to touch Kyungsoo the way he likes. Kyungsoo doesn't like being touched. Kyungsoo likes Jongin's touch. A light knock fills the sulky silence around Kyungsoo and he sighs. Clearly the hyungs are relentless tonight. "What?" Kyungsoo barks at the door, wishing to just be left alone to pout in peace."Well that's just a rude way to welcome someone" an amused sounding voice says behind him... a voice he wasn't expecting... that voice.Kyungsoo spins around in his chair, wide eyes and parted lips "Jongin?"Jongin gives him an easy, casual smile, but his eyes... his eyes offer just as much relief and need as Soo feels "hey, baby"Kyungsoo has never moved faster in his life. Jongin pulls him into a tight hug, a sigh of relief falling from his lips. Kyungsoo sighs in mutual and whimpers into the hug."I've missed you" Kyungsoo says, feeling pathetic. He's never relied on another persons presence before and he's not sure what it means that he craves Jongin's so entirely now.Jongin wraps a hand around the back of Kyungsoo's neck and squeezes, making Kyungsoo keen at the wonderful feeling."I've missed you too, Soo. Your hyungs called and said you were starting to look like a kicked puppy" he chuckles, but Kyungsoo doesn't understand why that's funny. Kicking puppies is awful, he frowns and snuggles further into Jongin. The world is a scary place.Jongin squeezes his neck again, making him relax and kisses his temple "my baby Soo" he coos, rocking them back and forth "it's late, you should be getting ready for bed"Kyungsoo shakes his head. Jongin is here with him now. Jongin is here and he smells good. Kyungsoo likes Jongin's smell. Kyungsoo is never going to bed again."I'll stay with you, okay?" Jongin suggests and Kyungsoo's heart beats rapidly at the thought of being able to sleep with Jongin again.Kyungsoo nods and Jongin smiles pulling him towards the bathroom to get the little bean ready for bed......."Shh, Soo. You have to be quiet" Jongin says as a small breathless whine escapes his little lover.Kyungsoo squeezes Jongin's forearm with one hand and clamps the other over his mouth to keep quiet. Jongin's mouth bobs up and down on his length and he squirms. Jongin didn't realize how bad it had been for the little guy, but he guesses that when you spend so long without any sort of release, then you're suddenly exposed to it... you can't exactly shut it off at will. Jongin remembers when he was a teenager, he needed to get off constantly, even going as far as jerking off in the school bathroom just to alleviate the need.Soo was never the type to think about these things and now his body is craving the suppressed desires ten fold. Jongin is surprised the bean has held out this long."Baby, I really need to teach you to jerk off" Jongin says, pulling off Soo's hardness and continuing with his hand.Kyungsoo's eyes are screwed shut, and his head is thrown back. A beautiful angle to his body while he sits perched on the bathroom counter, his knees thrown over Jongin's shoulders.Kyungsoo breaths out and shakes his head "I like you better. My hands don't feel like yours""So you've tried?" Jongin asks, feeling a little stirred by the imagine of his Soo touching himself.Kyungsoo nods "i didn't like it. It didn't feel like when you do it"Jongin tilts his head and smirks "well that's a bit of an ego pump"Soo opens his eyes and bites back a moan when Jongin flicks his wrist "J-Jongin?"Jongin hums and meets eyes with the older "what, baby boy?"Soo feels a pulse of pleasure from that endearment, but pushes it away for the question he's about to ask "I read something in the internet and I want to try it. Can we?Jongin stops his mentrations and he swears he hears his heart stop. The last time Soo mentioned about reading something on the internet Jongin nearly had a heart attack. What the boy had asked for... Jongin knew he was far from ready for. Jongin had turned it down immediately and had to deal with a pouty Soo all day. He doesn't want to go through that again, especially since he just got a good taste of him after so long."Alright, what was it?" Jongin questions cautiously.Kyungsoo tilts his head and squints his eyes like he can recall the actual text in his mind "I want you to go inside me"Jongin stops breathing and widens his eyes "S-Soo... that's.... but""Just your fingers" Kyungsoo further explains "the internet said this is a good starting place for sexual relations between two men."Jongin regains brain function but just barely "you want me to finger you?"Kyungsoo blinks and pushes his lips out, thinking over the word "yes, I believe that's what it was called"The younger male leans forward and places his forehead against the older's "what are you doing to me, Soo?"Kyungsoo peers up into Jongin's eyes and furrows his eyebrows "I believe I was asking a question, or more like for a favor"Jongin closes his eyes and sighs, then pulls back and lets go of the boy. Kyungsoo protests but Jongin shushes him and starts seachring through the drawers. Sure enough he stumbles across a bottle of lube on the top shelf of the cabinet. Definitely a place Kyungsoo probably can't reach, and even if he did he probably wouldn't know what it was.Jongin understands that something exists between Minseok and Luhan, but he doesn't care to know what exactly. It seems that Kyungsoo is completely oblivious to this however, and honestly, Jongin is kind of thankful for that."Alright" Jongin says, "I need you to communicate with me Soo. Tell me what feels good, bad, or even a little weird. Be honest and trust me""I trust you completely, Jongin" Kyungsoo says, staring at Jongin with such truth it shakes the younger a bit.Jongin leans forward and pops the cap on the lube, putting some on his fingers, just as he pulls Kyungsoo in for a deep kiss. Kyungsoo quietly moans, then gasps when Jongin grabs his lips and yanks him forward. The tan male then props his feet up on the counter, opening him up.Kyungsoo feels a little exposed and shy in this position, but is comforted by the fact that it's Jongin seeing him like this. Jongin gives Kyungsoo a searching look, and nods when the smaller gives him a determined expression.Jongin prods against Soo's entrance, adding pressure and circling the knot, trying to give Soo a feel of thing. But he's also doing this to give Kyungsoo a chance to change his mind, to tell him he isn't ready after all. When Jongin looks up however, he sees nothing but a fire burning in Kyungsoo's eyes. This is all the confirmation he needs. He pushes inside.Kyungsoo gasps and tenses at the unusual feeling of being breached. He thought it might be painful, but it's not bad, a little odd but not uncomfortable at all. Jongin's long finger actually slips inside of him really well, and he feels content with it inside him."Soo?" Jongin's demanding voice inquiries."Feels... good" Kyungsoo says, kind of wishing Jongin would go faster "more"Jongin mentally curses and swears that's Kyungsoo will be the death of him. He pushes in as far as his finger will go and gives it a slight twitch.Kyungsoo gasps and jolts. He doesn't know what that was but he liked it. "Again"Jongin moves his finger around and watches in fascination as Kyungsoo pants and throws his head back. Kyungsoo never ceases to amaze him, and watching him pleasured by his finger moving inside of him is no exception.Jongin pulls his finger back out, receiving a small whine from the man sitting in front of him. Then he thrusts back in, smiling triumphantly at the breathless "oh" he gets in response.Jongin very much enjoys this. Playing with Kyungsoo and waiting for the responses. It's like molding something from clay and watching as it slowly forms in your hands. Kyungsoo is his best masterpiece yet.Kyungsoo leans back onto his hands, and curves his body back, pushing his chest up. Definitely a work of art.Soo huffs out a breath, and his hips start to move forward on their own accord. This encourages Jongin to go ahead and add another finger. Kyungsoo hisses at the abrupt intrusion, but soon gets used to it and starts rocking back and forth. Kyungsoo loves the feeling of being full, of being stretched."Jongin" Kyungsoo moans, his deep voice echoing.Jongin reaches up and places his free hand over Kyungsoo's mouth, before starting to thrust his fingers in quick and deep. Kyungsoo's eyes roll back into his head and he calls out in a double tone.Jongin is speechless at how beautiful, a wrecked Soo is. It pushes him to thrust his fingers harder making Kyungsoo spasm and scream a muffled form of Jongin's name as he cums all over the younger man's hand.Jongin pulls his fingers out and finds a towel, quickly cleaning the both of them up. Jongin turns around to dispose of the towel and chuckles to himself "so I guess we can mark that off the list, right?" He receives no response and turns around with a worried "Soo?"Another chuckles leaves his lips when he finds the boy, half asleep, leaning back against the mirror behind the counter. When will this boy cease to surprise him? Jongin hopes the answer is never.>>>>"I'm shocked by how fast you guys broke" Jongin says, sitting down on the couch, having just left the bed of a fast asleep Kyungsoo.Luhan's jaw clenches and he looks uncomfortable, clearly not someone who likes losing "I had to put Soo over my own distaste for you"Jongin sighs and nods "I'm glad you did, I think he smiled for the first time in days tonight"That warms something up in Luhan's heart and he smiles momentarily before remembering the enemy in the room "good, you can leave now"Jongin raises an eyebrow "are you prepared to deal with him when he wakes up to me not being here?"Baekhyun glances over at Jongin and curls his lip in disgust "you play dirty"Jongin shrugs and sits back, way too relaxed in Baekhyun's opinion "I'll do whatever I have to for him. I decided last night as I was sitting alone in my studio, missing the crap out of that kid, that I'm not going to let you two dictate our relationship anymore... I really care about Soo and despite his innocence, he's an adult and can make decisions for himself"Baekhyun shakes his head "of course he can, if they're the right ones""And why am I not the right one?" Jongin asks, his pride taking hit after hit from these two."Because you are Kim fucking Jongin... I know your reputation, I know just how many hearts you've left pulverized behind you... I have a very large social group Jongin and your name comes up way more than any one person's should"Jongin scoffs and turns his head away, narrowing his eyes in an ominous expression "my reputation isn't who i really am, what people say about me isn't true... but I don't have to explain it to you two. I really care about Soo and if you are going to attempt to keep us apart, then I might just have to become the guy everyone assumes me to be. I will never hurt him, but I won't hesitate to fuck someone up if they try to stand in my way"Jongin stands up and glances up one last time at the death glares he's receiving "oh and here, if you want to know the actual truth behind my name, go talk to this guy"He drops a card onto the table and makes his way back to his sleeping angel, excited for the prospect of his first night of actual sleep in over a week.Luhan seethes, his body nearly shaking from the want to walk in that room and rib that tan fuck boy out of his baby's bed, but he knows what that would do to Soo. He's damaged their relationship so much already and he's not sure it could handle a tug like that.Baekhyun, the slightly more calm one leans forward and picks up the card, reading the name and rolling his eyes "he wants us to go to a tattoo shop, to see this guy?"Luhan bunches his eyebrows and takes the card from Baekhyun, then reads it carefully "who the heck is Park Chanyeol?">>>>"What the fuck do you want?" Chanyeol asks, his eyes boring into Luhan and Baekhyun as they stand before him.Luhan blinks incredulously and puts his hand on his chest "excuse me, is that any way to talk to customers?"Chanyeol rolls his eyes "you two are not customers. I know exactly who you are and I have no reason to be polite to you"Baekhyun growls in frustration, offended by the very audacity of this guy "does he have any friends that aren't assholes?" He mutters under his breath, then asks more clearly "we're here to see Park Chanyeol, and I'm almost positive you have no idea who we are.. I've never met you a day in my life"Chanyeol leans against the counter in front of him, lifting a hand and pointing at the boys "Luhan and Baekhyun... congratulations you've found Park Chanyeol, now I ask again what the hell do you two want? This is a business and I'm busy"Luhan makes a sound of equal annoyance and offense "how do you know us?"Chanyeol narrows his eyes, piercing his lips in distaste "you two have been making my best friend's life hell and I have no patience for you two... tell me why your here or fuck off"Baekhyun places a hand on Luhan's shoulder to keep the boy in place. Luhan may be scrappy but he'd be no challenge to this giant. "Jongin is your best friend?"Chanyeol takes a deep breath and nods "since we were kids"Baekhyun closes his eyes briefly, seriously not wanting to do this, but Soo's just that important "tell us the truth behind Jongin's reputation"Chanyeol raises an eyebrow and a slight smirk takes over his lips "and here I thought you two were ignorant idiots... glad to know there's some logic in those thick heads... Yixing, tea?"A strange man who Baekhyun and Luhan just noticed sitting on the couch in the waiting area, (who had been sitting way to still to be comfortable,) stands up and makes his way to the back, disappearing into a room. "Come on, sit. I have appointments later" Chanyeol motions for the two to sit on the couch the odd man just got up from and takes a seat across from them in a chair. "What could I possibly say to get you guys to believe me? I imagine you two are already bias to his reputation"Baekhyun situates himself as comfortably as he can, and gives the tall man a scrutinizing glance "you don't seem like the type who would make shit up, just to make a friend sound good. Honestly you seem like the type of call a friend an idiot along with everyone else if it's true"Chanyeol smirks again and nods "Jongin is an idiot..."Baekhyun sighs and Luhan chews nervously at his lip. They kind of guessed that the kid isn't the brightest bulb in the box, but they also know Jongin's not stupid by any means."But Jongin is one of the kindest, funniest, and most sincere people I've ever had the privilege of meeting" Chanyeol adds, making Baekhyun and Luhan glance at each other "Jongin has been dealt a pretty shit hand these past couple of years. His reputation being the only thing that defines him, when he isn't at all the person people make him out to be. Fuck, Jongin's probably only been with two people since I've know him and we've been friends for as long as I can remember"Baekhyun holds out a hand, stopping Yoda personified "but I've heard so many stories of Jongin's endless string of one night stands, of people he's had his way with and cast aside. That boy is responsible for more heartbreaks than John Green"Chanyeol rolls his eyes "that's exactly what they are, stories... it started in high school, one girl asked him out because she had just broken up with her boyfriend and wanted to get back at him by dating one of the schools most unobtainable guys and he agreed even though he wasn't interested in her, he was too nice to turn her down. They went out on a date and Jongin thought it would be the end of it, that she'd make her ex jealous and get what she wanted out of it" Chanyeol pauses and clenches his jaw "Jongin came to school the Monday after to the rumor that the girl and he had slept together. Jongin was mortifieted, but never corrected it because he didn't want it to cause trouble for the girl, he let everyone think they had fucked because he was protecting her. He even got the shit beat out of him by her ex boyfriend and his friends"Baekhyun looks down at his shoes, feeling an unpleasant sting in his stomach, and knows Luhan feels the same when he reaches over and takes his hand."It didn't stop there though, it suddenly became the cool thing to 'sleep' with Kim Jongin. Rumors started flying left and right of his one night stands and weekend conquests. Before long Jongin had gained a reputation of being the school slut and girls were constantly using him for popularity. It was disgusting... how many times, how long, and the details offered of what these people 'did' with Jongin made them gain status and he never denied any of it" Chanyeol explains an almost pained expression playing in his eyes."Why though, why didn't he step forward and deny these things?" Luhan asks, his voice breaking. Baekhyun knows what that means, he imagines Jongin as a helpless puppy with a broke leg now and knows Luhan won't hesitate to take the younger under his wing."Jongin grew up in a household full of strong women, he has very high regards for them. His mother is the main bread winner and his father stayed home and raised his sisters and him. The rolls were revered in his house, so he was always kind of submissive and more sensitive. Jongin didn't want to bother his parents and he honestly felt like he was helping these girls, plus by the time he realized what was happening and the negative implications... it had already snowballed. Only his real friends knew what was really happening and we tried to protect him from so much of it, but it kind of hit him hard and he became a recluse."Chanyeol sighs deeply and lowers his head, as if the memories are hard to relive "He folded into himself and basically made himself into a shadow... honestly I was waiting for the call that he'd done something stupid every day, but luckily he held on and made it to graduation" Chanyeol pauses when Yixing comes back into the room and sets three mugs on the coffee table in between them. Chanyeol thanks him and Yixing bends down and places a hand to his cheek, giving him an affectionate caress, then retreats back into the other room."We assumed he'd be fine in college, you know thousands of people who's never met him and his reputation would die, but it seems it only grew with the student populous" Chanyeol says, taking a sip of his tea.Luhan places a hand over his heart and swallows roughly "did he get better, though? Did he pull out of his dark place?"Chanyeol nods and the corner of his lips tug upwards a bit "yeah, he threw himself into his art and started hanging around in places full of people who didn't judge him. He still keeps to himself a lot, but doesn't have nearly as many panic attacks as he used to and now the whispers and stares don't bother him as much as they once did... but lately... lately I've seen a side of Jongin I haven't seen in a while. It's almost like he has a fire burning inside of him again, it's like he's finally breathing after so long of holding his breath... there's only one thing I can attribute that to""Soo" Baekhyun and Luhan say in unison.Chanyeol agrees with a hum "I haven't seen a genuine smile on his face in years, and the day after he met that little guy, he was smiling so hard I thought his face would break"Luhan whines and lowers his head "what have we been doing, Baek?"Baekhyun shakes his head and looks away "we're no better than anyone else. Believing what we're told rather than what we see. Jongin is a good guy and he's always treated Soo like he's made of the most precious of glass... we're monsters"Chanyeol smiles and catches Baekhyun's eyes "a monster would have chosen to continue hating someone even after hearing the truth just to appease the masses... you think and feel differently after what I've told you, meaning you're capable of change. You two aren't monsters, just human. I've seen plenty of monsters in my time and trust me, you two are far from that"Baekhyun stares sympathetically into Chanyeol's eyes and feels a kick of desire to comfort the stone giant in front of him. Luhan must be rubbing off on him. Luhan sighs and squeezes Baekhyun's hand "we need to apologize to Jongin and disband Soo's grounding... he's fricking 22 for crying out loud, why did we even try to ground him?"Baekhyun shrugs and curses their stupidity "I don't know... I'm not too keen on the idea of those two doing anything sexual, but it's not our place to decide that... he's an adult and not our child"Luhan frowns "but he is our baby, Baek. I don't like the idea of him being tainted, even if Jongin isn't a bad guy, he's still touching our Soo"Chanyeol chuckles and clears his throat "well based on the things I've heard and seen, Jongin isn't the one initiating most of it. Actually it seems like Jongin let's Soo come to him for most of it"Luhan places an uncomfortable hand on his stomach, probably feeling a little queasy "Soo asks for those things?"Chanyeol nods "someone who's never been exposed to such things is bound to be curious and eager... honestly though, Jongin has the patience of a saint and really knows how to take care of people... I'd put my life in his hands any day"Baekhyun glances over at Luhan who just nods and mutually decides to stop meddling and let things happen naturally. It's time for them to take a step back and let Soo steer his own life. They just hope to gods Jongin is prepared for the little chaotic mess known as Do Kyungsoo.>>>>Kyungsoo stares at the clock. He's never felt restless in class before, rather he's always enjoyed the structure and predictably of it. Today, however, the routine of it feels suffocating. Kyungsoo wants to be anywhere else than in this room, but he still has another forty minutes of this lecture left. It's nothing he doesn't already know, having already read ahead. He just can't focus for anything today.Kyungsoo places his cheek in his hand and pulls out his phone. He makes a habit of turning it off during the school day, not wanting to be disturbed during his classes, but something about today forces him to turn it on.He waits impatiently till it loads, tapping his foot melodiously. Kyungsoo stares at the screen, considering his options. Luhan hyung had loaded a couple games on his phone that he could play while he's on the bus ride home, but usually Soo just reads. Kyungsoo really doesn't feel like playing games either, games are a waste of time. Kyungsoo likes to spend his time wisely... Kyungsoo doesn't really like games.Kyungsoo stares at the screen in his hand wondering what to do, when a notification pops up on his phone.From: Jongin-ah ❤️

How's my baby Soo today?Kyungsoo automatically smiles down at his screen. Kyungsoo's never really understood the reason for smiling. He knows it's an automatic response when a chemical is released in your brain making you feel 'happy', but he never understood why people smile all the time. He's not incapable of happiness, nor is he an emotionless robot, he just doesn't get the concept of smiling... at least he didn't until... Jongin. Jongin makes him smile, he makes him happy. A subconscious reaction to dopamine or not, Kyungsoo doesn't feel like his smiles are silly or pointless. They signify how hard Jongin makes his heart beat, and how fluttery Jongin makes his tummy. Smiling isn't a senseless act anymore. No, since Jongin... smiling feels... right... natural.From: Jongin's Soo