[M] How to convince a squish (1/1)

Jongin stands up from his spot on the floor, his body stretching from his previously cramped state. He turns and smiles, watching the steady breathing of the small man he had slipped away from. Kyungsoo lays there, curled up into the millions of blankets Jongin had set out as a makeshift pallet in the corner of his studio. Jongin made this sort of 'bed' because he usually clocks out here on creative binge nights; when everything flows so naturally that by the end of it he's so exhausted, the very idea of dragging his ass home makes him want to cry.Jongin hasn't really left his studio in over a week. Even Chanyeol had sent him a message asking where he was and if he was alright. Chanyeol isn't the type to dote or over-worry, so Jongin felt pretty bad about it, until Soo had walked in. The small bean invaded Jongin's private space, something no one has ever been brave enough to do (Jongin gets a little testy when he's in create mode.), carrying two large bags. One full of cloths (Junmyeon), and one full of food (Minseok). Jongin couldn't even contemplate being mad when Kyungsoo gave him one of his favorite squishy smiles and held up the bags in one of the most triumphant displays he's ever seen.Kyungsoo had spent the evening with Jongin in his studio. Eating Minseok hyung's food, and talking about everything and nothing all at the same time. When another inspiration spark hit Jongin, he immediately started working, only realizing an hour later how rude he probably came across and turned to apologize to a more than likely upset Soo. What he found, startled him though. Kyungsoo was curled up on his makeshift bedding, reading a book. As if sensing eyes on him, he had looked up and gave Jongin a heartbreaking grin, one that had Jongin instantly dropping to his knees and seizing the smaller's lips with his own.Finally, Jongin learnt what it felt like to have Soo's surprisingly strong hands wrapped around his length and it was euphoric. Clearly, Kyungsoo's still a beginner, but he racks up those experience points whenever he gets a chance. Jongin's actually a little worried that he's created a monster.Kyungsoo shifts in his sleep a little, cutely grabbing around the space in front of him, looking for the warmth that was just right there. Jongin chuckles, and picks up the water bottle he had set on his workstation last night. He winces at the sight of his paintbrushes and color pallet. Kyungsoo had distracted him so much, he didn't even bother to clean up. Jongin's always been a neat person, but somehow those things just seem to disappear when the smaller man is in front of him.Jongin can't bring himself to mind though. Kyungsoo fits into his life so naturally. He knows when to give him the things he needs, exactly when he needs them. Jongin doesn't even mind when Soo's in his studio while he's working, something he's never allowed anyone to do. He doesn't even mind when the older watches him, actually he kind of likes being evaluated by Kyungsoo's curious eyes.Jongin begins to clean his brushes, but pauses a few minutes later when he feels tiny arms wrap around his waist and full body warmth press into his back. Jongin shutters as Soo's lips press against his naked back, tracing over the inked lines running across his shoulders."Baby Soo, shouldn't you be sleeping?" Jongin asks, his voice heavy with fondness."Cold" Kyungsoo whines in that cute half asleep way that's just unfairly adorable."You should be at home, baby. In your nice warm bed." Jongin says, glancing over his shoulder to see that fluffy, inky black hair staring up at him.Kyungsoo stubbornly shakes his head, tightening his arms around Jongin's waist."No Jongin. No bed." Kyungsoo explains indignantly.Jongin resists the urge to coo at Kyungsoo's cuteness, which only seems to escalate when he's sleepy."I just need to clean these brushes really quick. If they get hard, it'll ruin the brush." Jongin explains, finally pulling all of his brushes into his hand and turning around in Soo's grasp.Kyungsoo peeks up at him with the cutest expression of half asleep, half pouty, Jongin's ever seen. This time, he does coo at Soo. The older's eyes closing and his cheeks taking on a deep blush due to the attention.Knowing Jongin perfectly, though. Kyungsoo lets his arms fall away and takes a step back, eyes intently  following Jongin's form as he heads over to the sink.Jongin diligently cleans off his brushes, a birthday present given to him by Chanyeol after he received his first real payment for a tattoo. His apprenticeship hadn't been long, because Chanyeol was just that good, but Jongin could tell he was proud of that money. It's one of the first real things Chanyeol had worked for, and it meant things his best friend just didn't know how to express. So, when Chanyeol turned around and bought Jongin an exceptionally nice set of painting brushes, Jongin was at a complete loss for words. (Which meant Jongin ended up crying and Chanyeol trying to awkwardly comfort him.)These brushes are one of his most prized possessions and he's glad Soo seems to understand this. Kyungsoo understands a lot of things about Jongin, that most people doesn't. Even when most things escape Kyungsoo, he still knows Jongin down to the smallest of details, it makes him feel special, and being special to someone like his bean, is something amazing within itself.When he returns to his work station, Kyungsoo is patiently waiting for him. A small, tired pout playing on his lips, which Jongin regards as the beans sleepy default. He turns around and quickly arranges his tools in their proper places, then surrenders himself to the simple pleasure that is Kyungsoo.The smaller welcomes him easily, curling up in his arms and tangling their bodies together, under the thick blankets. Even oncoming winters chill can't penetrate the protective barrier wrapped so snugly around the universe's favorite lovers.>>>>

Kyungsoo hesitantly edges into the room, glancing around nervously. He knows where his Hyungs are at the moment, but that doesn't make his caution lessen. Luhan Hyung should be at the cafe working the only evening shift he works all week. Baekhyun Hyung should be at the student government offices, he should be there till late going over weekly business. But Minseok Hyung...Kyungsoo nods once to himself and slips further into the room when he finds the older sitting in his favorite chair, tucked away in the corner of the living room. Minseok is reading a book, lost in whatever world the book has currently pulled him into. Usually Kyungsoo would leave him be, but this is important.Kyungsoo's socked feet make a light padding sound that Minseok picks up on instantly, his ears twitching at the familiar pit pat of his baby Soo.Minseok looks up when Kyungsoo sits down on the couch and faces him. By the look on the smaller's face, he can tell it's important. He places his book aside and gives Kyungsoo his undivided attention.Deciding to go about this in a rational manor, one that he feels won't prompt an over reaction like it would with his other hyung's. Minseok has always been the more understanding one and he thinks always has the most correct advice. Kyungsoo wonders briefly if Minseok hyung is a robot. Robots scare him. But he likes Minseok hyung. He'd accept Minseok hyung if he were a lifeless form of artificial intelligence."I want to know more about sex." Kyungsoo states bluntly.Minseok blinks steadily at the younger and nods observantly, waiting for Kyungsoo to elaborate."I've been online to do research, I've read books from the library, and i even spent an evening on a really weird site. Did you know that people film themselves having sex? It's called porn apparently. It didn't look pleasant. They just looked uncomfortable, making the same faces and looking like androids." Kyungsoo pauses and widens his eyes. "Not that androids are bad. They are a step in the right direction for the technological advancement of our society."Minseok smirks and nods despite the other's ramblings, clearly displaying strong gifts of patience. Kyungsoo takes that as the signal to continue and spends a few seconds trying to regroup himself to his main point. His mother always taught him that rambling is due to lack of proper planning and therefore a failure of the person presenting their ideas. Kyungsoo bites at his lip and curls into himself a bit. Kyungsoo wishes Jongin was with him. His mother is scary. Jongin protects Kyungsoo from scary things.Kyungsoo gasps and sits up straight remembering his original point. "I want to know more about intercourse between two men, but i'm having trouble finding anything that will help me understand."The older nods his head once again, letting his eyes train to the side in a thoughtful pose, before sighing decidedly and standing from his chair. Minseok holds up his finger to Kyungsoo, telling him to wait, then leaves the room. So, Kyungsoo waits, knowing from experience that Minseok always has a reason for his actions.When Minseok comes back, he's holding a thick folder. It looks like a folder a grad student would use to carry around research. He hands the folder to Kyungsoo and takes a seat next to him, regarding him with curiosity.Kyungsoo opens the thick book like binder and starts rifling through the pages. Articulate charts, pages full of definitions, and full explanations, and even picture graphs, slide page by page into Kyungsoo's hands. He's never had access to so much information in one correlated binder. Even an index page and source sited pages in the front and back. This binder can literally answer any question Kyungsoo still has, and it's put together in the easiest way to understand."Did you do this, for me?" Kyungsoo asks, glancing over at his hyung.Minseok smiles softly and reaches over, petting the boy affectionately. He'd known that Kyungsoo would grow up one day, and would need to be ready. He just wants Kyungsoo to be safe and smart about his decisions, even if he trusts Jongin fully. Education is most important when it comes to these things. He just hopes that Kyungsoo is ready for everything else. You can learn everything there is about the technical side of sex, but the emotional, which is Kyungsoo's hardest downfall, is a bit more complicated.Kyungsoo grins and gains a determined look in his eyes, one Minseok recognizes from when he's got his face buried in a text book. "Thank you, Hyung. I knew coming to you was the right choice."The older grins and watches Kyungsoo skip off to his room, praying to whatever god will hear him that Jongin is prepared for whatever is about to happen.

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"I think you're overreacting." Junmyeon comments casually as he flips through his appointment book, going over what he has scheduled for the next week.Jongin sighs and taps his pencil against his blank sketch pad. He's supposed to have a still life by tomorrow for a short assignment for one of his realism classes, but he can't seem to find the inspiration. "Every time i ask him what he's been up to he just says studying. I know for a fact that he doesn't have any tests coming up and i know he already completed the one project he had due. So, like, what is he spending so much time on? Why is he avoiding me?""Maybe he realizes what a D class level idiot you were and moved to greener pastures." Sehun cracks, and receives a nasty ear pull from Junmyeon in retaliation."Jongin, have you actually made plans with him? Have you tried to ask to go see him, or even just dropped by?" Chanyeol asks, a bored sounding yawn leaving his mouth after his questions.Jongin frowns. "Not, exactly. I didn't want to bother him. But it's been days. Usually...""He's up your ass and follows you around like a little lost duckling. We know." Chanyeol helpfully supplies.Jongin groans and lets his head fall to the counter. "I hate you all."Junmyeon sighs in his typical supportive dad type of way. "Jongin, why don't you take the rest of the evening off. We're dead anyways. so, go see your mini muse and try to resolve this."Chanyeol hums in agreement. "Jun's right. You know he doesn't think like other people, Nini. Kyungsoo is different. So to him, studying might be just that. He probably doesn't even realize he's causing you distress or notices the distance like you do. If you want this relationship to work, you're going to have to be more vocal with your feelings, because he's not going to pick up on them like anyone else would."The helpless assistant sits up and glances sideways at his best friend. "That's oddly profound."Chanyeol shrugs. "I have my moments... plus, i like Kyungsoo. I don't want him to get hurt because of your stupidity."Jongin pouts and once again questions if his friends really love him.......Whatever Jongin had imagined Kyungsoo's 'studying' to be, this was the furthest thing from it. Jongin stands at the door, hand still poised on the knob, and just stares at Kyungsoo with wide, disbelieving eyes.Kyungsoo blinks at his boyfriend and pouts. "What's wrong? Am i doing this right? Page sixteen said this was the easiest way, but i'm just not sure if i'm doing this right." Kyungsoo groans in frustration and starts mumbling to himself about not understanding. It's like the first day he met Kyungsoo all over again.Jongin swallows thickly, his heart lodged in his throat, and fully enters the room, shutting the door behind him. He pats himself on the back when he remembers to actually lock it this time."Soo... baby... what are you doing? Page sixteen? What are you talking about?" Jongin's voice comes out a lot more pitched than he would like, but of course Kyungsoo doesn't pick up on it.Kyungsoo grunts and forces his fingers deeper inside of himself, for where he's kneeling on his bed, ass in the air and chest pressed firmly against the bed. He has one hand twisted behind his back and three fingers pumping into his stretched and reddened hole. Clearly he's been at this for a while."Baby Soo, um... can you uh, stop for a second and talk to me?" Jongin asks, an edge in his voice as he's willing the steadily growing boner in his pants to chill out for a second.Kyungsoo makes a low hum and pulls his fingers out, then sits up and turns around to face Jongin. The younger nearly loses his self control at the sight of his boyfriend, looking like his biggest wet dream come to life. He looks so disheveled, hair a mess, lips bitten a bright red and swollen, and eyes blown wide. Not to mention his pretty little cock is still sitting hard between his beautifully thick thighs."Did i do something wrong?" Kyungsoo asks as if he were asking a teacher for guidance.Jongin sighs and finally reaches Kyungsoo, pulling the boys plump little face into his hands, trying not to think about having the other kneeling before him, looking every bit of fuckable. "No, you didn't do anything wrong. It's perfectly fine to play with yourself."Kyungsoo's eyebrows bunch in the way they do when a miscommunication happens, and Jongin internally winces. This might be harder than he thought."I-" Kyungsoo stops and tries his best to piece together the thoughts in his head. "I know i can play with myself." Soo finally says, like he locked onto a big discovery. "This is embarrassing for other people, right? Getting caught preforming sexual acts on yourself?"Jongin smiles and tries his best not to laugh at Kyungsoo's bluntness. "Yes, right. Other people would be embarrassed.""Oh," Kyungsoo refrains. "Well, i'm not... i meant doing the technique wrong, not how the act is perceived. Plus, you've seen me naked a bunch of times, i don't know why this would be different."Jongin's eyebrows shoot up. If only everyone would be as confident as Kyungsoo. "Alright, good. I'm glad you're not embarrassed. And um... what exactly were you trying to do? I'd have to know what you were trying to preform before i can help." Jongin says, grasping at a way to explain it best to the other.Kyungsoo's eyes widen and he gasps. "Oh, of course. People can't read minds. Explain yourself, Kyungsoo." Kyungsoo reaches up to hit himself in reprimand, but Jongin catches his hand in time.This is a habit he's noticed Soo has. Whenever Kyungsoo forgets to do a certain thing or to properly react a certain way, he tends to slap or hit himself. The first time he did it Jongin was shocked and a little upset that his precious bean would do such a thing, but luckily Luhan and Baekhyun were there to explain the situation. Jongin doesn't know Kyungsoo's mother, but he hopes for the sake of his baby, he's never acquainted with that monster.Kyungsoo blinks up at Jongin and takes a deep breath. They've had a few talks about this, about Kyungsoo's habit and how it's not good to harm himself. Jongin says Kyungsoo is a good boy. Jongin says that it's okay that he doesn't understand some things. Jongin doesn't like it when Kyungsoo hits himself. Jongin takes care of Kyungsoo. Kyungsoo likes Jongin. A lot."It's okay, Soo. Explain to me what you were doing?" Jongin says in a soothing tone.Kyungsoo relaxes under Jongin's pretty chocolate eyes. "I was trying something called prostate milking. Have you ever heard of it?"Jongin swears to the gods he stops breathing. "Um, I've heard of it. How exactly have YOU heard of it?"The small beans eyes light up and he moves across the bed, his lithe, compact body bending in a way Jongin swears will be the death of him. Needless to say, Jongin is struggling. Kyungsoo comes back with a thesis style binder and holds it out for the other, showing him what exactly page sixteen entails.Stunned, Jongin just stares at the page covered in diagrams and paragraphs right out of his AP anatomy textbook from high school, except this one is going highly in depth over a sexual act that even he would feel is slightly too erotic for sex education. It even includes a website link that offers a step by step on how to do it. Where the fuck did Kyungsoo get this?"Wow, that's... that's definitely academic." Jongin says, his voice hoarse. "Is, uh.. the rest of the book like this?"Kyungsoo nods and looks down at the page. "It's helpful. I read up to this point, but when i came to this one, it sounded interesting. I knew the prostate is an erogenous zone for males, and is often used to stimulate the male who is on the receiving end, but i never knew it could be used to extract an orgasm"Jongin licks his lips and nods, clearing his throat awkwardly, then sits next to Kyungsoo on the bed, because he feels like the room in spinning a bit. Of course he neglects to think that through, because the next second he gets a whole lap full of Kyungsoo, the other's thighs finding purchase on either side of his. Usually he loves this position. It's his favorite because he can just hold the boy and feel him cuddled up to his chest, but right now it's almost torture.All Jongin would have to do is unzip his jeans and pull down his boxers and he could slide right into his favorite person. He's already stretched and ready to go. Kyungsoo would probably let him, too. He'd probably love it. But Jongin's not that type of guy. Kyungsoo can sit here with charts and detailed list, all he wants, but he'd never really gasp the true connection of sex. He'd never understand the true importance of that level of intimacy.Kyungsoo is still reading over the page like he missed something, lost in his head, and Jongin takes a deep breath, stabilizing himself. "Okay, well one of the most important parts is locating your prostate. Did you do that?"The bean looks up at Jongin and blinks as if the thought hadn't crossed his mind. Jongin wonders if he just thought it would come naturally if he decided to stick his fingers up his ass. Sometimes Jongin worries that he's tainting pure innocence.Jongin nods and takes the book out of the other's hands and places it on Kyungsoo's desk, before opening the drawer and retrieving the bottle of lube that he had bought Kyungsoo after the last time he was scrambling to find anything useful. Luhan it seems, had taken it upon himself to hide the bottle after they had clearly used it that one time in the bathroom. He pours a small amount on his fingers, since Kyungsoo was a bit generous with his usage. Jongin is glad that whoever wrote this book had enough sense to put a star next to the 'Important Note' informing the reader to use plenty of lubricant.When Jongin pulls back, he lifts his eyes to meet Kyungsoo's and notices that the other's is once again lust blown. He also recognizes the familiar fidgeting Kyungsoo does when he's excited for something, and tilts his head."You want this bad, don't you?" Jongin asks, smirking a bit up at the other.Kyungsoo bites at his lip and leans down pressing a kiss to Jongin's lips. "I like it when you touch me. Good touch. Feels good."Jongin nods, having heard this many times for the other. He can't imagine what it's like for Kyungsoo not to be able properly explain how he feels. If anyone were to hug him or grab him and it made him uncomfortable, he'd have trouble telling them not to and why. But Jogin is careful and always makes sure to pay attention to Soo's tells. If you care enough to focus, Kyungsoo can be an open book.He reaches back and easily slips his fingers into Soo. He goes ahead with two to start. Kyungsoo had stretched himself out really well due to his fingers being a bit thicker than Jongin's. But Jongin's are longer.Kyungsoo gaps and arches his back out at the feeling of Jongin's fingers slipping inside of him and he leans forward, burying his head in Jongin's neck.Jongin knows how to make Kyungsoo feel good. He knows how to touch. Kyungsoo trusts Jongin.Jongin spends a few minutes, just pumping his fingers in and out of the smaller, loving the soft mewls and sighs coming from him. His favorite sound in the world is the sound of his name on the lips of the other and when Kyungsoo lets it drop from his tongue, Jongin can't help himself. He locates Kyungsoo's prostate easily, feeling the slightly harder patch against the tips of his finger.The loud moan and twitch Kyungsoo lets out is deliciously maddening. He couldn't imagine the sounds Kyungsoo would make if he was seated inside of him."This is your prostate. Next time you try to find it yourself, remember it's to the front, near your bladder. If you go aimlessly thrusting around in there, you could hurt yourself." Jongin says, stroking over the sensitive area gently.Kyungsoo trembles and pulls away from Jongin's, neck to nod once, showing that he heard the other, then sits up straighter, pushing himself back on Jongin's fingers and adding friction to his prostate. Kyungsoo's jaw drops slightly, separating his lips to a small 'o', and he closes his eyes at the feeling.Jongin knows how to make kyungsoo feel good. Kyungsoo trusts Jongin to touch him. Kyungsoo loves Jongin's touch.Jongin slips his fingers to the spot once again and begins tracing patterns, pressing harder, massaging the area as if working a knot out of a sore limb. Kyungsoo's sounds and pitch gets louder and Jongin briefly is concerned about the Hyung's hearing, but when Kyungsoo starts moving his hips, following Jongin's movements, he really can't care any less.They get lost in the time and the feeling of it. Kyungsoo surrenders to a new, more intense kind of pleasure, and Jongin steals away to Kyungsoo's. He never imagined that giving another person satisfaction would be this addictive, but the more he touches Kyungsoo, the more he craves it. The looks, when Kyungsoo is wrapped in bliss, his eyes blown with a thousand universes bursting. The sounds when Kyungsoo is close to coming undone is the most indulgent high he's ever experienced. The feel of Kyungsoo under his fingertips is like holding a brush, or a graphite in his hand; like he's creating a masterpiece. Jongin could care less about his own precipice, as long as he can keep touching this little god in his arms."Jongin" Kyungsoo moans out extra dirty and grasp at Jongin's arms, squeezing tightly.Jongin takes that as his queue and add more pressure to his motions as well as speeding them up. The delicious arch to Kyungsoo's back and the piercing wail that fills the room, tells Jongin that he was correct in his assumption. Kyungsoo's hips begin to move in earnest and Jongin pulls out of the boys hole, and add another finger before a protest can even be thought of.A shaky breath out and a toe curling shutter proves how close Kyungsoo is, encouraging Jongin to get a bit more intricate, flicking his fingers, and harshly rubbing at the area, careful not to scratch or jab. He doesn't want to hurt his precious baby.Kyungsoo is shaking now. Jongin's not surprised. The last time he had someone do this to him, he nearly passed out from the intensity. Just to be sure, he secures his free arm around the other's waist and pulls him closer.The other mewls at the contact and leans forward, clearly not lost too deep in the pleasure. Jongin chuckles and pulls him in for a deep kiss, flicking his tongue into the other's mouth in time with his fingers. Kyungsoo's voice shallowly skates across his lip, tingling his beverage in their wake.Jongin feels ready to blow at the feeling of the other's pleasure building, he can't imagine what it feels like for Kyungsoo.The first sign that Kyungsoo is on the edge surprises him with the smaller's eyes flying open, looking wild and glossy. He almost looks crazed and squeezes Jongin's arms so tightly it's a strong possibility he'll leave bruises. Jongin bites at his lip and hates how much that idea has his dick twitching in his pants."Jongin." Kyungsoo calls desperately, his lips parting  and his eyes rolling back.Jongin smirks and whispers a reassuring. "It's okay, baby. I have you." Then leans in and begins to suck a claim into the other's neck.Such a stimulation just adds to the intensity and before either of them are prepared, Kyungsoo screams, his thighs tightening, and arching up as his orgasm hits him with the impact of a train ramming into a gingerbread house.Jongin continues his ministrations through it, Kyungsoo jolting with every wave of his release. Jongin wants to stop, worrying that it's too much for the other, but this is all part of a prostate massage. He wants to show Kyungsoo how to do it properly. That, and the complete bliss on Kyungsoo's face as he spasms through his orgasm leaves a smug feeling in Jongin's stomach.Eventually Kyungsoo comes down and releases a sort of distressed whine, prompting Jongin to stop and slowly drag his fingers out. Kyungsoo sighs and lets his head fall to Jongin's shoulder and the younger chuckles at his Soo's reaction.Kyungsoo still trembles in his arms, so he resituates them, to lie down on the bed and reaches over to pull the wipes he had stashed in the drawer of Kyungsoo's desk a while ago. Kyungsoo doesn't like it when Jongin leaves him after doing sexual things, but Jongin doesn't like to leave Kyungsoo unclean. So Jongin compromised.Jongin cleans the other's tummy, where kyungsoo had spilled on himself earlier and then, wipes down the others thighs and cleans what he can of his bottom. Kyungsoo tiredly moans and shifts back, trying to get more friction and Jongin shakes his head in disbelief. The man just had an orgasm that's still making his legs shake and he wants more."Jongin." Kyungsoo mumbles, his voice heavy with sleep. "Dirty." He says, pointing at Jongin.The younger looks down at his hoodie and represses a groan when he realizes that he has some of Kyungsoo's release smudged on the front of it. He rolls his eyes when he realizes that this is his last clean sweatshirt and he's going to have to bribe Sehun into doing some laundry for him.He shakes his head, not bothering to dwell on it and tugs it over his head, tossing it onto the floor. Kyungsoo frowns at him when he looks back at the other but chuckles and kisses it away from his beautiful lips. He lays down next to his naked lover and wraps his arms around him, pulling the blanket up around them. Kyungsoo snuggles into his chest and hums contently.They stay like that floating between conscious and happily aware of only each other before Jongin's eyes fly open when he feels a small hand on his still half hard dick. It starts as almost curious caressing, feeling the form and squeezing gently at the shaft, but quickly evolves into full on pumps.Jongin wants to protest and tell Soo to rest, but he can't find the words, especially when the other quickly works him back up to full hardness.Soon the hand is dipping into Jongin's pants and pulling him out to wrap around him fully. Jongin's breath stutters and his arms wrap around the other tighter. Jongin's right hand quickly finding its way to palm at Soo's full ass.Kyungsoo hums happily and his own hand speeds up. It would normally be a bit uncomfortable having your dick stroked dry, but with Kyungsoo he somehow knows how to make it pleasurable. Kyungsoo's thump swipes over the head, twisting his pointer finger into a circle and twisting just under the crown.Jongin's hips snap forward in autopilot and he gasps out of surprise. "H-how'd you learn how to do that?"The bean makes a soft sound, still pressed into his chest and flicks his wrist gently, tracing a vein with his ring finger, before trailing down to cup and massage his balls. Jesus."Page 5." Kyungsoo says simply, applying a bit of pressure to the underside of his dick at the base, near his perineum. Jongin sees white for a second. Fucking hell. He's going to see personally to the destruction of that damn book.After Jongin spills all over Kyungsoo's hand and swears his name under his breath, he proceeds to clean them up again and digs through Kyungsoo's closet for an extra blanket.When Jongin looks over at his naked angel spread out on the bed, already passing into the land of dreams, he finds himself caught between wanting to burn and wanting to worship that book. Whoever wrote it knew Soo well, and it will help him become more familiar with his body, but it also might be the end of Jongin.>>>>Kyungsoo wakes up to the sound of loud shouts of his name and hard pounding. He groans and sits up, stretching his pleasantly sore limbs and feels a smile slip into his lips when he glances down at the man laying next to him.Jongin makes a soft whine and shifts on the bed, his eyebrows bunching. This man can sleep through anything, so it's a testament to how disruptive Baekhyun Hyung is being right now.Kyungsoo crawls over Jongin and pads over to the door, ignoring how much his legs feel like silica gel. He unlocks the door and throws it open, then fixes his Hyung with a pout, as the other freezes and stares down at Kyungsoo with wide, alarmed eyes."Hyung, you're going to wake Jongin-ah." Kyungsoo says, rubbing at his eyes sleepily.Baekhyun is really still, his eyes looking a bit like a hawk he saw on a nature documentary. The hawk was protecting it's baby form a predator. It's was scary. Kyungsoo doesn't like scary things. Kyungsoo doesn't like hawks. Where's Jongin?"Jongin's in there? Now? With you like this?" Baekhyun hyung's voice sounds raspy, and Kyungsoo pouts further. It reminds him of when his mother used to get mad at him for doing things wrong."Calm down, Baek. You're scaring him." Jongin pops up behind Kyungsoo, startling him, but then he wraps his arms around his waist, draping them in a blanket and Kyungsoo's heart calms down again.Kyungsoo really appreciates Jongin. Jongin protects Kyungsoo from scary things. Jongin's brave and strong. Kyungsoo needs Jongin.Baekhyun looks over Kyungsoo's shoulder, staring holes at his Soo's boyfriend. His eyes narrow and his face pulls into a look of dissatisfaction. Kyungsoo's seen a similar one on his Luhan hyung's face when Baekhyun says inappropriate things. But Kyungsoo doesn't think Jongin said anything bad. At least he doesn't think he did.Kyungsoo frowns and looks down at his feet, not understanding. Kyungsoo hates that he can't understand things."Baby, what's wrong?" Jongin's voice eases the angry ball bouncing around in his belly.Kyungsoo blinks and looks back up at his hyung, who is staring at him with concern now. The angry ball disappears now that Baekhyun hyung isn't in a bad mood."Is Hyung's mad at you?" Kyungsoo asks, grabbing Jongin's hand in his own and squeezing it.Baekhyun's eyes widen and he opens his mouth a bit like a fish would when gasping for air. It's a bit concerning and he's briefly worried if he's breathing properly. Kyungsoo knows CPR. He thinks. He read it in a book, but has never practiced it in person. Wait, Baekhyun hyung can't breathe. This isn't a time to hesitate. Kyungsoo panics as he tries to recall every step in the CPR, while he reaches up and grabs at Baekhyun's jaw to try and open his mouth."What are you doing?" Baekhyun shrieks, slapping Kyungsoo's hands away.Kyungsoo stops and stares at the other. "You looked like you couldn't breath, i was going to give you mouth to mouth."Behind him shrill laughter pulls his attention away from his hyung and he finds Jongin doubled over, laughing hysterically and Kyungsoo wonders what's so funny. He turns back to Baekhyun, who just looks defeated. He looks tired. Maybe he hasn't gotten a lot of sleep lately.Wait. Sleep. Kyungsoo gasps. "Baekhyun Hyung. Did you want to come inside of our room?"Baekhyun just nods and Kyungsoo steps back to let his hyung into the room. He grabs Jongin by his shirt sleeve and pushes him over to the bed. Jongin stops at the edge of the mattress and glances over at Baekhyun hyung, a look on his face that Kyungsoo's learned to recognize as hesitance."Um, Soo. Maybe i should go home. It's getting late and i don't think Baekhyun would be very comfortable with me sleeping in here." Jongin says, reaching up to scratch at the back of his neck. Luhan said it's a nervous habit some people have. Why would Jongin be nervous?Kyungsoo's eyebrows pull together and he begins to piece things together, then lets out a loud gasp. "Wait, Hyung. Are you mad at me for Jongin being in my room?" He asks, finally getting Baekhyun hyung's reaction to finding him at the door and then his attitude changed when Kyungsoo mentioned Jongin.Baekhyun sighs from his closet and turns around, then grimaces. "Kyungsoo can you please put on clothes?"Kyungsoo looks down at himself then feels stupid. Of course. Kyungsoo smacks himself on the forehead for not being observant over his hyung's discomfort. Most people don't like seeing other people naked."Hey, Soo. Easy. It's okay." Jongin says, stepping in and handing Kyungsoo a pair of boxers, along with an over sized t-shirt. Kyungsoo takes them and Jongin steps closer to him, inches away, and frowns down at him, rubbing a thumb over his forehead where he had hit himself. "We had this talk, baby. Take it easy on yourself. It's not your fault." Jongin says softly and Kyungsoo closes his eyes, feeling a calmness sweep through him at the others voice.Kyungsoo hums, laying his head on Jongin's chest and closes his eyes, prompting the taller to chuckle. Kyungsoo still doesn't know what's funny, but he likes Jongin's laugh. He hopes it keeps being funny so Jongin will continue to laugh.The clothes disappear from his hands and Kyungsoo doesn't realize he's being dressed until Jongin prompts his arms up and fabric is slipping down his arms. Jongin leaves him for a second to bend down and help him with his underwear, then pulls him to the bed, tucking him in."Wait. Are you not staying?" Kyungsoo asks, his eyes flying open when he doesn't feel Jongin's familiar weight settling down next to him.Jongin smiles down at Kyungsoo and he feels a slight flutter in his stomach. Luhan told him that it's emotional rather than physical. He's not hungry. Kyungsoo doesn't know what feeling this is though. Kyungsoo doesn't get emotions. Emotions are confusing. Kyungsoo doesn't like being confused."I think it might be better if i go." Jongin says, his eyes shifting to the corner where Baekhyun is standing, watching the two of them. There's an expression on Baekhyun's face that Kyungsoo can't quite pick up."But..." Kyungsoo says pouting and using what luhan likes to call his puppy eyes.Kyungsoo doesn't want Jongin to leave. Kyungsoo sleeps better with Jongin here. Jongin is warm and holds him. Kyungsoo likes to be held by Jongin. Jongin knows how to hold properly. Kyungsoo wants Jongin to stay."Oh my gods, my heart is breaking. Just fucking stay. It's not like you two haven't already fucked before i got here anyways." Baekhyun hyung says. Kyungsoo holds a hand to his mouth hoping Luhan hyung isn't here. He'd be mad at Baekhyun for using a bad word. A word which is unusual in Kyungsoo's ears. Kyungsoo has heard that word before, but not in this context."What does fucked mean?" Kyungsoo asks, and both of them look shocked.Jongin sighs and runs a hand down his face, before sitting on the bed next to Kyungsoo. "It means sex. Which we haven't done." He lifts a hand and looks towards Baekhyun.Baekhyun raises an eyebrow. Kyungsoo wishes he could do that. Maybe he can. He's never tried. "Oh, so a vulgar way of saying sexual acts?" Kyungsoo asks, attempting to raise an eyebrow."Yes, basically." Jongin says, looking back at Kyungsoo with a sort of pained expression. Kyungsoo forgets about his eyebrows and reaches out to Jongin. Is Jongin hurt? Does he need medical attention? Kyungsoo doesn't want Jongin to be hurt. Jongin smiles at him, his face smoothing out. "I'm fine. Just sometimes you catch me off guard.Kyungsoo nods, aware that his bluntness can be overwhelming to people at times. He doesn't exactly have a filter around his hyungs or Jongin. "But... we have fucked then, yes?"Jongin swallows visibly and closes his eyes, pinching the bridge of his nose. Kyungsoo sits up and reaches into his desk drawer pulling out a bottle of pain medication. "No, fucking and what we do are different. Fucking is more so the main act of sexual intercourse."Kyungsoo's eyebrows pull together as he fishes out two small pills and hands them to Jongin who accepts them with a small amused smile. Kyungsoo wonders what funny thing he keeps thinking of. Kyungsoo wishes Jongin would tell him what's funny so he can laugh too. Kyungsoo doesn't know how Jongin can laugh if he's in pain. Kyungsoo doesn't find anything funny when he has a headache. Jongin should have said something sooner, Maybe he'd be laughing more and share the joke with Kyungsoo."So, like insertion of the penis would be considered fucking?" Kyungsoo asks.Jongin takes a deep breath and pops the pain pills into his mouth, gladly accepting the water Kyungsoo hands him. He swallows them down, then takes a large drink. "Yup, that's one of the ways""Ah, so blowjobs, hand-jobs, fingering, and prostate milking doesn't count as us fucking?" Kyungsoo asks, as Jongin takes another drink of water. "We should fuck then."Water sprays out of Jongin's mouth as he begins coughing and choking. Kyungsoo jumps to his knees on the bed, patting at the other's back to help him through it. He looks across the room to Baekhyun to ask if he can do anything to help Jongin, but just finds his hyung siting on the edge of his own bed with his head in his hands.Kyungsoo frowns trying to remember if he's ever read anything about headaches being contagious.>>>>>Jongin stretches his arms out, hearing a few distressing pops and shuffles into the kitchen. Minseok had showed him where they keep the tea after running into each other a few times late in the night. Apparently the oldest of Kyungsoo's hyung's is also a bit of a night owl like him. After a few offended looks when he explained that he doesn't like coffee, the eldest had lead him over to the cabinet. Jongin thanks the universe for the lifesaver named Minseok.Putting on the electric kettle, Jongin picks out a mild tea and takes out a mug. It's become sort of a relaxing ritual for him. Even back in the comfort of his own apartment, he's woken up and spent many of nights like this. Usually he'd go read a book, or pull out his sketch book, but right now his head is just too busy.He's worried. Jongin loves Kyungsoo, he really does. It's of no surprise to himself how quickly the little bean just worked his way under his skin and became such an unmovable force. He's starting to imagine a future for them. He's starting to want roots in Kyungsoo's life, but he's so worried that he can lose Kyungsoo just as fast as he fell for him.Jongin has never denied Kyungsoo anything. He's always been inclined to spoil the other, but gods he can't fathom going into the territory of sex right now. It's a big commitment. Something he doesn't feel that Soo is ready for. This is something he doesn't really know how to explain to Kyungsoo in a way that he'd understand. If he tries to explain his lack of feeling a connection between them due to Kyungsoo's personal struggles with grasping emotions, will Kyungsoo understand? Will he get upset at himself and feel like he's lacking? That's the last thing Jongin wants for Soo. It's not that Kyungsoo doesn't get it, it's just that he takes more time, and that's okay, but Kyungsoo is always so hard on himself for not being like everyone else."You know that water won't get any hotter." A voice echoes in the still darkness of the kitchen.Jongin jumps and makes a small yelp, spinning around. Darkness greets him and he's quick to flip on the small light above the sink. "Jesus, Baekhyun. You cared the crap out of me."Baekhyun smirks lightly and brings a mug to his lips. "Sorry." He doesn't look sorry at all. Baekhyun just sits at the small table tucked into the corner of the tight kitchen, staring down at the liquid swirling in his cup. He looks deep in thought, so Jongin leaves him be. Everyone knows Jongin isn't Baekhyun's favorite person.Jongin sighs and turns back around to pour out the water into the awaiting cup. Enjoying the soothing aura that falls around him at the steam and smells coming from the steeping herbs. It eases a bit of his tense muscles and he breathes a bit easier when he pulls the cup to his lips to take a small smell. Chamomile. His favorite. It seems that Minseok is his biggest fan based on the presence of the new chamomile sleepy time tea. He almost laughs at that."You two really haven't had sex yet?" Baekhyun asks over his shoulder.Jongin's face pulls into a grimace and his shoulder sag before he turns around. "No, we've messed around, but we haven't gone all the way yet. Not for the lack of Kyungsoo trying though." Jongin explains, wondering if Baekhyun will even believe him. Luhan and Baekhyun have Kyungsoo on a pedestal and anyone be damned if they try to make Soo out to be anything other than an innocent little bunny."What's stopping you?" Baekhyun asks without any type of judgment or ice in his tone. Jongin's jaw nearly drops at the sight. Is Baekhyun actually being a decent person?Jongin takes a deep breath and makes his way over to the table, sitting across from the other. "I'm afraid he's not ready. Sex is a big deal. I know people act nonchalant about it all the time, but in reality Sex is very intimate, especially between two people who care a great deal for one another. It's a connection, a sort of bond that can strengthen a relationship. There are numerous feelings that go into sex and i'm just not sure if Kyungsoo is ready to fully grasp this yet."Baekhyun purses his lips and takes another sip from his mug. It has a puppy with hearts on it. It's adorable and doesn't at all fit Byun Baekhyun. Maybe the other has a bit of a soft side Jongin isn't aware of. "My first time was in the back of a Prius with a guy who kept calling me Brian. Trust me, anything you can give him will be a thousand times better than what most of us get." Well... maybe not."Kyungsoo deserves to know what love feels like before we make a bond like that. Even if it was awful, you still remember everything about it, don't you?" Baekhyun drops his eyes and Jongin takes that as an answer. "I want a future with Kyungsoo. I'm possibly thinking on end game with him, so i want to do this right and take our time for Kyungsoo to fully understand things."The other blinks at him slowly, his expression surprised if not a little proud. Clearly they had seriously pegged Jongin wrong if he's already this serious about their Soo. Baekhyun feels a little guilty from being a bit cross with Jongin. It was just a tad shocking to come home to such a scene."Alright, let me drop some actual advice on you, Nini." Baekhyun says, and Jongin's eye twitches as he regrets sending Baekhyun to see Chanyeol.  "The way you handle Kyungsoo shocks me. Tonight for example. I watched our baby reading social cues like he never has before. Kyungsoo tends to block out the world. He was never socialized properly as a child. He's so damn intelligent and logical that he just lacks the ability to connect, mainly because he's never cared enough to try. His mother taught him that books and information were better than friends. He learned about life from cold, distant people. No one laughed in his home. No one cried. The despondent, soulless look he gets sometimes was all he got from his parents. It took Luhan and me years to get him to express emotions openly, and even then he still really doesn't understand them. He's never had a name for joy because he's not used to the feeling, but I've seen it. Moments when he quits thinking so hard and allows himself to feel. He smiles and it's pure. I'm seeing more and more of those moments the longer he's with you."Jongin takes in Baekhyun's words and sits back in his chair. There's a warmth over his chest, right where his heart is. It glows so bright he wonders if Baekhyun can see it. He feels so full. So whole. Kyungsoo's done this. He's awoken a fire in him and it burns so wonderfully bright."I never even realized it went that deep. I recognized that Kyungsoo acted a bit different than other people, but to me, he's just a sweet, kind, curious little soul. I think i might have loved him from the second i saw him." Jongin explains.Jongin looks up and is shocked to find Baekhyun with a small smile on his face. "Jongin, listen. Kyungsoo isn't unaware. He misses things, but that's only because he can't get his big ass brain to focus, but with you he's different. Every second he's focused; he's trained on your every move. I'd have to be physically doubled over, balled up for him to recognize that i'm in pain, but with you all he had to do was see your face pinch." Baekhyun laughs in disbelief. "That's not something i'd ever thought i'd hear myself say, Jongin. Kyungsoo is actually picking up social cues. Not just every one in a while, but every second he's with you, he's reading you. He's understanding your feelings, even if he gets it wrong at times, he's getting it." Baekhyun says, attempting to swallow that sudden wave of emotions and wipes away a stray tear before it can slide down his cheek.Jongin sits there stunned. He hasn't realized it before, but now he sees it clearly. Moments Soo had been observant, run through his head. Times Kyungsoo has initiated a hug or taken his hand when he knew Jongin was stressed, because he knows it usually makes himself feel better when Jongin does it for him. Kyungsoo showing up at the studio with food when Jongin never even said he hadn't eaten all day, just that he was in the studio, but Soo knew Jongin's habit of not eating. Even last night he had picked up on the situation about being caught pleasuring himself without being told it should be embarrassing. He hadn't batted an eye when he stood naked in front of Baekhyun, but he felt something was wrong when Jongin had walked in and froze."He's learning." Jongin announces, suddenly feeling very proud of his tiny lover.Baekhyun smiles softly. "Slowly, but he is. It's because of you, Nini. It's because of the way he feels for you. He feels more than you think, but he just doesn't know how to fully express it. He cares enough to want to make that deep connection with you. I'm not saying go and jump him as soon as we're done talking, but he's getting there. Trust him a bit and explain about what you feel. Kyungsoo understands more than people give him credit for, he just doesn't pick up on it naturally."Jongin bites at his lip and pulls the cooling cup of liquid closer to his chest. "Do you think he can really love me?"Baekhyun smirks and leans forward to pet at Jongin's head affectionately. "Nini, i think he already does."....An hour later when Jongin finally crawls back under the covers with his baby bean, and the other rolls towards him, snuffling around till he finds what he's looking for and buries his head in Jongin's chest, he can't help but think over Baekhyun's words. Maybe all of this time, Kyungsoo was pushing things because he trusted Jongin. Maybe Kyungsoo is more ready than he thought, and it was actually Jongin who wasn't ready.He's been down that road of throwing his heart into the ring. He's had people abuse his love for sex, and though he's never doubted Kyungsoo's intentions, sex has always been a bigger deal to him. Jongin's made deals with himself, promising that he'd never give his heart away to just another person who wanted a notch in their bed. Maybe when sex was brought into their relationship, Jongin panicked a little bit. He recognized himself falling and he was scared of getting hurt again.But Kyungsoo is different. Kyungsoo cares for him in his own ways. Kyungsoo cares enough to pay attention and tries his hardest to take care of him. Kyungsoo in his own way, loves Jongin. Jongin should give him a bit more credit and meet him half way. After all, it's not like that book can go that much further than prostate milking... right?>>>>>>Colors litter the man's fingers, splotches of pigment staining his skin. Its probably Jongin's favorite feeling in the world. He knows it's odd, but he lives for the feeling of paint smudged across his skin. Even as a child, getting into his sisters finger paints and making pictures on the walls. He loved having the substance vividly dying his hands, becoming a work of art within itself. Jongin loves it.A smile stretches across his hips as he looks down at the large dollop of purple that just landed on his thumb. It reminds him of the day his father had caught him paining a large flower on the side of his car. He didn't yell or reprimand, just smiled and asked Jongin to use more purple since it's his favorite color. Jongin's biggest supporter has always been his father. Never once discouraging his dreams or failing to come for a showcase. That flower had washed off of the car the next time it rained, but the unwavering encouragement has never faded."Jongin?" He hears over his shoulder and knows exactly who that small voice belongs to."Baby, you should be at home." Jongin says, the tone in his voice giving away that he's not in any way bothered that his Soo is here."I woke up and you weren't there, but i got your note. Is... is everything okay?" Kyungsoo asks.Jongin blinks and turns around to finally stare at his little bean properly. Kyungsoo looks hesitant and for the first time Kyungsoo seems uncomfortable in his studio."Why would you think something is wrong?" Jongin asks, placing his brush and palette down. He walks over to Kyungsoo, who seem to be a bit folded into himself. He looks like a little kid who's getting scolded, arms wrapped around himself and head lowered.Kyungsoo's eyebrows pinch in the way they do when he's trying to figure something out. "You usually only come to your studio without telling me when your in a bad mood."Jongin's heart throbs and he sighs deeply. "Actually there is something that is bothering me. Can we talk about it?"Kyungsoo perks up and seems a little gleeful to have Jongin open up to him. He wonders how many times Kyungsoo's been left out of situations his friends are going through because they feel he won't understand nor be able to take it. He wonders how many times Kyungsoo has been unintentionally pushed away. It must be hard to watch his friends go through a hard time and not have them trust him enough to confide in him. Jongin makes a mental note to talk to the hyungs about this later.Jongin takes Kyungsoo's hand and leads him over to the small pallet bed still covering the floor beside his work station. Jongin sits and chuckles when Kyungsoo climbs into his lap. Its close and intimate, maybe a good position for such a heavy talk."Okay, so, I'm going to talk about my feelings. Are you okay with this?" Jongin asks, rubbing his hands over the others back gently.Kyungsoo straightens up a bit and nods. "I'll try my best to understand."Jongin nods and licks at his lip nervously. "Okay, i'm going to come out and say it. I don't think we're ready to have sex."Kyungsoo tilts his head slightly and a short look for confusion presses through his stunningly large eyes. "Alright. Sex, as in the act of inserting your penis into my anal canal?"Releasing a small sigh, Jongin nods. "Yes, that's the intimate act I'm talking about."The other nods slowly, thinking this over. "Did... did you feel like i was pressuring you to do it?"Jongin's eyes widen and he shakes his head rapidly. "Gods, no. I just feel that everything we've been doing has sort of been leading to the final stages of intercourse and i feel like we've been moving a little fast. I really care about you and i want to do this relationship right. I want us to be in the right place mentally before we take that step. Sex is a big deal, Kyungsoo. It's a connection that has a lot of emotions tethered to it. I need to know that you understand what all of this means before we jump into something so serious."Kyungsoo slides his jaw to the left, pressing his lips flat together in a contemplative gesture. "I would have never gone further with you than that first night if i didn't trust you, Jongin. I like to experiment and i like to do new things because it's you, not because i haven't experienced those things. You know how to touch me and make me feel good. I didn't think about how you were feeling about it." Kyungsoo says, a frown pulling at his lips."Hey, it's okay. I like touching you. I like experiencing new things too, especially with you... but maybe we slow it down a bit. Prostate milking might have been a bit too much." Jongin explains, caressing the smol's jaw.He leans into the gesture and nods slightly. "Okay. Then we slow down. You tell me what you are and aren't ready for."Jongin blinks at the other. "Really? That's it. You understand what I'm saying?"Kyungsoo giggles and grabs Jongin's face in his hands. "I'm not completely inept, Jongin-ah. I may not understand what your face is trying to tell me, but words i get. All you had to do was say something. No wonder love stories are dramatic and messy. If people would just verbally communicate with each other, it would save so much misunderstanding."Jongin chuckles. "Why do I feel like you've had this thought before."Kyungsoo puckers his lips. "I wrote a whole paper about the uselessness and flaws of Romeo and Juliet. My English teacher was not impressed, but he was forced to give me a good grade when Luhan hung reported his biased interpretation of my paper to the English department."Loud piercing laughter fills the quiet, echoey space around them, as Jongin rests his head on Kyungsoo's shoulder. Kyungsoo doesn't really get the joke, but he's glad he made it. Jongin's laughter is one of his favorite things, up there with soft things, shiny things, and foam kitties.After Jongin has calmed down some and they just lay there in silence, relishing in the sound of each other's breathing. Kyungsoo cards his fingers through Jongin's hair. Jongin's hair is soft. Kyungsoo likes soft things. Kyungsoo really likes Jongin."Would it be okay if we kissed?" Kyungsoo asks.Jongin hums and snorts. "You don't have to ask for little things like that. Kissing is one of those boyfriend rights. You get kisses whenever you want." He says pulling away and smiling fondly at his little love.Kyungsoo smiles and wiggles his cute little butt. "Okay, but I want that kind of kissing we do where we kiss for a long time and you touch my butt, and sometimes press your crotch into mine. I believe the book called it grinding. It feels good, and i like it."Jongin takes a deep breath and shakes his head in wonder at the other. "Sure."As Kyungsoo beams and dives right in, pressing his lips into the other's, Jongin briefly thinks that it's not the book that will be the death of him, but Kyungsoo himself.