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Kyungsoo glares at the paper as if all of the words will suddenly come together and make sense of what he's been trying to read for the past two hours. Concepts like these fail him. Kyungsoo hasi always been gifted with learning, with information, but this... this he just doesn't get. Art has never been one of Kyungsoo's strong suits, always the mediocre at best student in his forced art class electives. Numbers, words, and strategies, he understands, but this might as well be a foreign language... which, since he knows five, isn't even as complicated as this. What does surrealism even mean? Abstract... what even is that?Kyungsoo groans and frowns at the paper, he's been at this for a week and these things still don't make sense to him. Dread fills Kyungsoo as he finally realizes, he's going to fail this test, and he's never failed anything in his life."Stupid art principles for being so hard" he mumbles bitterly under his breath, pouting at his notebook "stupid guidance counselor for making me take this class" his stomach tightens and a sudden wave of nausea flows through him at the impending doom of his dropped GPA. Kyungsoo runs a hand through his hair and takes a deep breath, noticing how tight his chest feels "i'm going to fail. I'm going to flunk out of college. I'm going to end up on the street, selling rice snacks to cars on the side of the highway. I'm going to die a dirty, homeless hobo because i can't understand how the heck light effects painting" Kyungsoo pulls a little too hard on his hair and winces, noticing how his breath is almost to panic attack territory, which he's not unfamiliar with, Kyungsoo's actually on an intimate basis with anxiety."Woah, ok, um breath" a random voice says next to him suddenly.Kyungsoo turns, his eyes wide, and startled. Not many people try to talk to him, having been labeled as weird and insociable a long time ago. His surprise doesn't help his breathing though and the stranger seems to notice, his eyes bulging for a second."Oh, hey" the man suddenly says "you got coffee from the new place just off campus" he points to the cup sitting beside Kyungsoo's notebook "is it good? I've been wanting to try it"Kyungsoo's eybrows bunch and he weezes out a "yeah"The stranger nods and considers it for a second "do they have other things than just coffee though? I'm not a big fan of it."Kyungsoo swallows and takes a breath "yeah, they have teas and other drinks there""What about food? Ooh, do they have bagels? I love bagels" The guys asks, seeming more and more intrigued by this coffee place."Oh yeah, i actually had a bagel there the other day" Kyungsoo says his voice a little horse "It was good, and they have other food. I go there all the time""Really?" the guys asks, "would you mind going there with me now? I have some free time between classes and don't like to eat at a new pace alone"Kyungsoo understands how he feels and nods, beginning to pack up his things "sure, this coffee is old anyways"The guy smiles brightly, and Kyungsoo blinks at him for a second, wondering why his stomach just turned a little... maybe he's hungry. It has been a little bit since he's eaten "Great" the stranger exclaims, helping Kyungsoo pack up. Kyungsoo notes that this guy doesn't make him feel uncomfortable and that's nice. ********

Kyungsoo orders a latte with the foam in the shape of a cat, because they're cute and Kyungsoo likes cute things, almost as much as shiny things, and he likes shiny things almost as much as sparkly things.This guy is cute, he likes this guy... he ordered a green tea. It's not cute, but random guy is. Kyungsoo likes random guy."So why were you freaking out... oh um... what's your name?" the random guy asks.Kyungsoo takes a small sip of his latte, careful not to disturb mittens, his coffee kitten "Kyungsoo, and i was 'freaking' out about my impending failure of life in general"The guy pauses, seeming to wait for something, but smirks slightly, seeming amused, but continues nonetheless. 'Maybe he thought of something funny' Kyungsoo thinks, too busy admiring his coffee kitten to catch his body language."And why would you fail at life, Kyungsoo" the guys asks. Kyungsoo likes how he says his name, his voice is soothing. He likes the nice voice guy, he should do audio books. Kyungsoo would buy one and listen to it before bed to help him sleep. Kyungsoo's stomach kicks again and he wants a sandwich, nice voice orders it for him... he likes nice voice guy."I have a class that i don't get" Kyungsoo pouts at his kitten."What class is it?" nice voice guy asks.Kyungsoo sighs "art principles, i just don't get it. I can't art"Nice voice is smirking when Kyungsoo looks up and he wonders if he's really funny in his head, maybe he should ask nice voice to tell him one of his jokes."And what principles are you having trouble with?" He asks, taking a sip of his green tea. His lips look really pretty around his straw. Kyungsoo likes pretty things, Kyungsoo likes pretty lip guy."All of them" Kyungsoo says, sighing, wishing he could pet his coffee kitten without messing it up.Pretty lips chuckles "well in high school the hardest part about the principles were remembering the concepts behind them. Surrealism for example is basically just like vivid works of art. Like, have you ever experienced a really weird dream, where a lot of it was random and didn't makes sense?"Kyungsoo blinks at the man and nods "yeah, i had one where a chicken was driving me to school one morning... it was weird... i can't look chickens in the eyes anymore"Pretty lip guy bites his lip and Kyungsoo wishes he could hear the jokes in his head, because he must be hilarious "well if you were to draw out that dream or paint it, that would be a form of surrealism.Kyungsoo stares at pretty lips in awe. He's so smart and knowledgeable about art. He made a concept he's been struggling to understand for weeks, so simple. He knows so much about art, Art guy is so cool, Kyungsoo really likes art guy."Can you do that again?" Kyungsoo asks.Art guy's eyebrow shoots up "do what?""Explain things i don't understand in ways i can understand?" Kyungsoo asks, his eyes wide and pleading. If Lu hyung were here, he'd comment on how unfair that look is and scold Kyungsoo for using it to get what he wants.Art guy blinks and takes a deep breath, "how about you give me a list of the principles and i can try to explain them the best i can"Kyungsoo nods excitedly and pulls out his study guide, (Minnie hyung highlighted the things he needed to know for the test) and hands it over to Art guy. He looks over the material and starts talking about each principle, putting it into ways that Kyungsoo understands easily.Kyungsoo's sandwich arrives and he eats it happily, listening to art guy's soothing voice, and soaking up his every word like a sponge. Kyungsoo gives half of his sandwich to art guy who only pauses to take bites and chew occasionally, during which Kyungsoo admires art guys face, he had a beautiful bone structure and exceptionally pretty eyes. Kyungsoo likes pretty things, he likes this guy with the pretty eyes."You have pretty eyes" Kyungsoo says out loud.Pretty eyes pauses mid chew and makes eye contact with Kyungsoo "uh... thanks, Soo"Kyungsoo likes the nickname, especially the way pretty eyes says it. Kyungsoo checks the time and gasps, standing up quickly, nearly knocking over the table, but luckily pretty eyes has nice reflexes."I have to go, my midterm in in twenty minutes" Kyungsoo explains, grabbing his things.Pretty eyes seems surprised by this knowledge and just nods "alright, good luck, Soo"Kyungsoo smiles "Thanks, pretty eyes. See you around"He ushers away before hearing a response and skitters down the street towards the campus. Thanks to pretty eyes Kyungsoo might not end up selling rice snacks on the side of the highway and this makes Kyungsoo very happy. Kyungsoo likes having a home and being happy. He likes pretty eyes. ********They find him in the exact same position in the exact same spot they always do. Kyungsoo's tucked into the back of the small cafe, surrounded by books and notebooks, hurriedly scribbling away on one of them, while stopping to read from one of the books occasionally."Soo" Luhan coos as they approach him, as not to startle their little owlette.Kyungsoo glances up, his wide eyes peering up innocently, that makes Luhan's heart swoon at his darling little bean."How's my Kyunggie, today?" Luhan asks, reaching out to rub the underside of Kyungsoo's chin, as he sits down.Kyungsoo beams up at him with that squishy smile of his and leans into the affection "good, hyung"Luhan pats his head affectionately and chuckles at his cute child, while Baekhyun and Minseok sit down across from them. Minseok watches the display with amused fondness, and Baekhyun just rolls his eyes and hunts down the waitress to order a coffee."So, how'd you do on your test, Soo?" Baekhyun asks once the server bustles away to get their drinks."Fine, i got a ninety eight. What did you guys get?" they all decided to take the class with their Soo, so he would have help, since art isn't his strongest subject. "What?" Baekhyun exclaims "how in the fuck did you get a ninety eight? When i left you in the library, you were ranting about becoming homeless""Language" Luhan chides, holding Soo's ears, even though the smaller had already heard the bad word."Pretty eyes helped me" Kyungsoo commented, ignoring his hyungs and going back to his studies."What's a pretty eyes?" Baekhyun asked, looking at the boy with barely contained annoyance."Not what. Who." Kyungsoo corrects, not bothering to look up from his notebook."And who is pretty eyes?" Baekhyun asks, putting emphasis on the 'who' to appease the great grammar Nazi. Kyungsoo sighs and finally looks up to make eye contact with his nosy hyung "he's some guy i met in the library the other day. We went out to lunch and he helped me with studying. He's really smart, has nice lips and pretty eyes" This gets his hyung's attention. Kyungsoo rarely speaks to anyone, let alone someone unknown by his hyungs. They have a detailed list of things they have to go over and approve before they let anyone around their precious Soo. He's just too innocent and impressionable to let common people around him."So you just had lunch with a stranger and talked about art principles?" Baekhyun asks in disbelief. Their Soo barely has the capability to hold a normal conversation with one of them, let alone one with a stranger... how did this person not run away two minutes into talking to him, that's what most people who don't know Soo, do.Hell, Baekhyun and Luhan almost did back in high school, when they found him in the fetal position on the library floor the one time they decided to walk in that dreadful place their senior year. Baekhyun was well on his way to getting the fuck out of there, but Luhan stopped him and gave him the Bambi look, it was the same look that talked him into helping Luhan nurse a baby bunny back to health when they were kids. Luhan has a habit being a saint and helping poor defenseless things, Baekhyun loves his best friend for it, but he also hates him for it too.Baekhyun can still hear the conversation he and Luhan had back then..."We have to help him" Luhan said, his voice distressed.Baekhyun rolled his eyes "he'll be fine, just leave him be to figure it out"Luhan's eyes widened and he glanced over at the boy "Baek, he's so tiny... he needs us""He's not a baby animal" Baekhyun whisper yelled, they were still in a library afterall."Of course he is" Luhan stomped his foot, looking back at the poor little lump of human "look at him"Baekhyun shook his head "Luhan, we can't"Luhan narrowed his eyes and curled his lip in a way Baekhyun knows won't have him hearing the end of this for a while "fine, i'll help him myself. You sir, can go frick yourself"Baekhyun sighed, watching the deer walk over to the small bean and lightly touch his shoulder. What he saw next he'll never forget. Kyungsoo had looked up at Luhan with the widest and most desperate eyes he'd ever seen, it made his heart tremble at the sight. Kyungsoo then sat up and folded himself into Luhan's arms, refusing to let go. Luhan had frozen in surprise, but soon wrapped his arms around the little guy and held him tight. Luhan had stayed beside Kyungsoo for the rest of the day, refusing to leave Kyungsoo alone, and Baekhyun had stayed beside Luhan's refusing to admit that Kyungsoo had stolen his heart just as much as he did his best friends. After that, taking care of Kyungsoo had just become a natural part of their life, they adopted him in a way and babying him was normal to them, which is why when anyone tries to invade their Soo's personal space, they go into overdrive protective mama bear mode."So, sweetie. You know that's not normal, right?" Baekhyun asks in a gentle tone, trying not to freak out on the kid.Soo pouts "why not? Pretty eyes helped me... i like him"Luhan makes eye contact with Baekhyun, disbelief shared between them. Soo rarely notices people or makes and effort to socialize. The only way Baekhyun, Luhan, and Minseok are his friends is because they kind of refused to leave him alone and just started taking care of him without his input on the whole thing. Kyungsoo's just the type of person who's so smart, his brain never had the patience or need to socialize or form bonds with other people. "Who is this guy then? Do you know anything about him?" Luhan asks, his maternal protectiveness kicking in.Kyungsoo pushes out his bottom lip, thinking it over "he knows a lot about art"Baekhyun pinches the bride of his nose "anything else?"Kyungsoo blinks and bites at his lips, trying to come up with anything else, then gasps when he realizes something "he likes bagels and has a great voice. He should become a voice actor"Baekhyun groans and runs a frustrated hand through his hair "What's his name at least?" thinking he has a lot of connections on campus and can at least find this guy through networks.Kyungsoo tilts his head and grabs his cup, smirking down at his coffee kitten "i don't know. I didn't ask"Both Baekhyun and Luhan face palm, while Minseok smirks taking a drink of his coffee. ******** Kyungsoo spends the next week trying to find Pretty Eyes. He eats at the cafe, and he spends any available time in the library, but he never shows up. Kyungsoo is sad to think that he might never see that guys pretty features, hear his silky voice again, or that he won't even be able to thank the stranger for helping him with his test, but Pretty Eyes never shows up, so Kyungsoo forgets and moves on with his normal routine. The man with the pretty eyes and the soothing voice becoming nothing more than a memory.It's a couple days later that Kyungsoo's Art teacher gives him an assignment that he can turn in before the end of the semester for extra credit. He's assigned to find an art major on campus and watch them work, observe the styles, techniques, and emotions they use while creating their work, but there's a small catch. The teacher also wants his own feelings, how the piece that's being created makes him feel, what it inspires within him. Kyungsoo doesn't really understand, but he accepts the assignment anyways.He sets out immediately for the art studio buildings across campus, but he underestimates his sense of direction and soon starts walking around aimlessly, trying to find the studios, realizing that he's never actually been there before. Dread sets into Kyungsoo's stomach, and he feels immediately uncomfortable and scared. Kyungsoo doesn't like not knowing things and he doesn't like feeling lost.Kyungsoo pulls out his phone and brings up a copy of the school's map that Luhan hyung had put on his phone at the beginning of his freshman year, for this very reason. Kyungsoo feels thankful to have Luhan hyung.He keeps walking, turning his phone at different angles, trying to figure out where he is, failing to watch where he's going, which would have been a good idea, especially when he runs face first into someone and ends up landing hard on his butt. ******** Jongin sketches vigorously on his sketch pad. He's been trying to catch this squirrel for a while, but the damn thing never stays still long enough. Finally Jongin had managed to coax it out of it's hiding place with food and it's not moving, so Jongin has to work quickly. A crunch of shoes walking over leaves near by startles the squirrel and it takes off, running away. Jongin rushes froward, trying to keep the detail on the squirrel's tail in his sights, but he fails to notice the small being who's also not watching where he's going. He smacks right into the tiny human and watches it fall hard onto it's ass. Jongin winces and forgets all about the small animal to help this one. "Are you okay?" he asks, checking the little guy over, making sure he didn't actually damage him, and squats down, setting his sketch pad aside, to get a good look at him.Pleasant surprise ripples through him as he realizes the tiny human is Kyungsoo, the kid he helped with his art midterm the other day. He had meant to find him and ask how it went, but he got wrapped up in one of his assignments."Soo?" he asks softly "you okay?"Kyungsoo looks up, his eyes glassy and his lower lip wobbling, and that's all it takes for Jongin's instincts to take over. He reaches out and pets at Kyungsoo's hair, and looks him over more closely for injuries "shh, Soo. Don't cry. It's okay"Kyungsoo sniffles and looks into Jongin's eyes with those wide, sparkling ones Jongin noticed the second he met the little guy. Jongin panics, not wanting Soo to cry and wraps his arms around him, pulling him against his chest, and rubbing his back comfortingly. A small arm slips around his waist and grasps onto his t-shirt, holding on tight. The gesture touches Jongin and he leans down placing his cheek on top of Soo's head, feeling the boy steadily calming down."Come on, lets go get you cleaned up" Jongin says, when he feels that Kyungsoo's ok now.Soo shakes his head against his chest and holds onto him tighter. Jongin chuckles and pats the boys bottom on instinct. "come on, it's going to get dark soon and you don't want to be caught outside after dark, do you"Kyungsoo shakes his head more intensely and Jongin chuckles again, pulling away from the boy and peering into his eyes, reaching up to wipe away some of the wetness around his eyelashes. Soo hums and leans into the gesture, which has Jongin's heart kick with adoring fondness for a kid he barely knows, but he chooses not to think too hard on it.****Pretty eyes manages to get Kyungsoo up of the ground and leads him inside. He leads him down to a room filled with a lot of art stuff. Kyungsoo doesn't even know what half of it is for. Kyungsoo doesn't like knowing things. Kyungsoo doesn't like this room.Pretty eyes helps him over to the sink, grabbing his hips and helping him up onto the counter. Kyungsoo likes the feeling of Pretty eye's hands on his hips, and watches intently as the the guy starts to clean his hands, that got a little scrapped, up. Kyungsoo likes the way pretty eye's hands feel, strong and sure, but soft and gentle. Kyungsoo doesn't like being touched. Kyungsoo likes the way Pretty Eyes touches, though."You're good at this" Kyungsoo points out, motioning to the delicate way Pretty Eye's cleans his hands.Pretty eyes smiles up at him "i have three sisters, one older and two younger, and my dad stayed at home with us while my mom worked and supported the family. So i helped raise my younger siblings and i guess i just grew up a little more softer than other guys. Taking care of people just comes natural to me"Kyungsoo blinks at pretty eyes and reaches out, touching pretty eye's face. He jumps but doesn't pull away, just lets Kyungsoo curiously trace his new friend's face "your skin is soft, but the structure is sharp. You're eyes are intense, though gentle. You're kind of a walking paradox"Pretty eyes smiles softly to himself, like he told a joke again, but luhan hyung said that it means he's amused by something Kyungsoo said, not a joke in his head. Kyungsoo pouts and drops his hand into his lap."So what brings you over to this side of campus, Soo? As i recall you're not really good with art, so i don't think you'd be trying to acquire a studio" he says, seeming to busy himself with cleaning up the sink area.Kyungsoo swings his legs and explains the assignment his teacher gave him, still not quit understanding it himself. He relays exactly what the teacher said, so maybe pretty eyes can help him understand what it means, like he did with the principles."You know, Soo... I'm an art major and i'm actually about to start my semester final piece" Pretty eyes mentions and Kyungsoo is unsure what it has to do with him."That's great" he says "do you want me to leave so you can get started with it?"Pretty eyes sighs and closes his eyes briefly "no, Soo... I... I meant if you wanted someone to observe, you can always observe me and i can help you a bit with your paper.Kyungsoo gasps in surprise and bounces slightly on the table "really? You'd let me watch you?"Pretty eyes chuckles and nods "sure. Anytime you want, Soo"Soo smiles at him and he knows he's giving him what Luhan hyung calls his squishy smile, but he doesn't care. Pretty eyes is awesome. He really likes pretty eyes."Soo, do you want to go out for dinner with me? I was just about to go get some food before we ran into each other" pretty eyes chuckles and so does Kyungsoo, because he actually gets why that was funny.Kyungsoo nods and pretty eyes walks over, once again grabbing his hips. Kyungsoo really likes the feeling of his hands on his hips, and frowns when he lets go. Pretty eyes grabs Kyungsoo's bag and offers him a hand, which he takes easily. He likes pretty eye's hands, he like pretty eye's touch."Oh, pretty eyes?" the man seems surprised by something, but doesn't say anything, just stares at Kyungsoo with questioning eyes. "Yeah?""What's your name?"Pretty eyes smiles and shakes his head slightly "Jongin. My name is Jongin"Kyungsoo takes the name in and decides he likes it. It's simple, and pretty. Kyungsoo likes pretty things. Kyungsoo likes knowing things. He likes Jongin's name.

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It becomes a regular thing. Jongin and Soo starts to spend time together. They go out to eat together. Kyungsoo loves food, Jongin notices, and he has a fascination with watching him eat. Soo is also exceedingly innocent, he doesn't seem to pick up or understand things the way other people do, but in the same light, Jongin is shocked to find out the classes Soo is taking. Kyungsoo is in all of the advanced classes, well on his way to getting his masters, instead of an undergraduate as he had once thought. Kyungsoo is so ridiculously smart that it kind of makes sense that he fails to understand social construct and doesn't pick up social queues naturally. Normally it would be so intimidating to talk to someone so smart, but Kyungsoo's so humble and doesn't even seem to realize that being super smart is out of the norm.Kyungsoo mentions a bit about his hyungs, which has Jongin curious about these men who, by the way Soo talks about them, seem to mother the man who's actually older than Jongin himself. He's also surprised to find himself a little jealous by how close the men are to Kyungsoo, how well they have to know him. Jongin prides himself in his ability to read people, to be able to figure people out almost instantly. But not Soo. Kyungsoo is so hard to figure out. One second Soo acts a certain way, then another, the next. The second he thinks he has Soo figured out and that he knows what the guy is thinking, he throws him off and says something completely different from what he thought. It's confusing, frustrating, and at the same time invigorating and exciting.Soo's the first person who hasn't been an open book for Jongin and he doesn't feel bored by what Kyungsoo has to say. He actually is usually heavily anticipating what could possibly come out of the man's mouth next.Jongin had come to the conclusion that he likes Kyungsoo a while ago. In all honestly he probably liked him the second he decided to step in and help the random kid about to have a panic attack in the library, since he's usually not one to dabble in others's affairs.Jongin is just confused. Kyungsoo and him have been spending a lot of time together, even allowing the small bean to watch him in his studio, which he rarely allows people to do. But Soo just doesn't seem to respond to him in the way others would, he has no idea how Soo feels or thinks. He's so naive, Jongin would feel like a terrible person if he were to force Kyungsoo into something he doesn't quiet understand, or heaven forbid if he tried to touch him in an intimate way. Jongin doesn't know if Kyungsoo even knows what a kiss really is, or means.Jongin just doesn't know what to do."Just throw him against a wall and fuck him" Chanyeol supplies unhelpfully.Jongin rolls his eyes, tapping his brush pen against the sketch he's been working on for Junmyeon "have you not been listening to me? He's too innocent. He wouldn't understand things like that, plus I'm not that way""Please, the almighty play boy Kim Jongin, not that way? How can this be?" Chanyeol mock scoffs. He's one of the few people to know what Jongin is really like outside of the rumors and his reputation."Seriously, Yeol... what do I do here?" Jongin pleads.Chanyeol sighs "I wasn't kidding, you don't have to fuck him, but like... I don't know... just grab him and kiss him. He'll like it or he won't... you'll find out pretty quickly""Yeah and if he doesn't like it, then he pushes me away and hates me forever" Jongin deadpans, resisting the urge to throw something at the giant idiot.Chanyeol takes a breath and shrugs, never once stilling his pencil moving across the tracing paper so expertly. Chanyeol's come a long way since Junmyeon hyung made him his apprentice. Jongin has been working at The Guardian tattoo shop since his senior year of high school. Chanyeol would come in everyday and sit around the shop till Jongin's shift ended, not having anything better to do and not really having any other friends to hang out with. Eventually Junmyeon told him that if he was going to hang around he could at least help out and put some work in. It wasn't until the summer before Jongin started university, that Junmyeon offered the apprenticeship to Chanyeol, who displayed equal if not better skills at art than Jongin, but lacked the interest in taking on higher education.Jongin will never admit it, but he was worried about his giant friend and his lack of motivation to do anything with his life. He will forever be grateful to Junmyeon, who, when he expressed this emotion, just stated that he couldn't let talent like that just go to waste. Chanyeol has done amazing tattoo's, a couple of Jongin's actually, and really seems to have found his calling. Jongin can see the passionate sparkle on his friends eyes when he's doing a piece for a client, despite his lasse fair attitude about everything."The hummingbird will fly away if you try to snatch it, but will stay perfectly still if you rest your palm calmly" voiced a certain furniture piece known as Yixing.He'd come into the shop one day and just never left. He's always sitting around the lounge area or even behind (sometimes on) the counter. He meditates a lot and speaks in metaphors and gives advice that no one understands, but he's a sensitive guy, so they don't have the heart to kick him out. Plus it seems that Junmyeon knows him somehow, whenever Jongin had asked he just shrugged and said "it's a long story". Junmyeon is also the only one who understands what Yixing is saying, so it works out, he guesses."Yixing, you're speaking riddles again" Jongin sighs, staring at the man currently sitting on the counter beside Jongin, with his legs crossed and arms out in a meditation pose."He means that you have to let Kyungsoo figure it out and come to you. I know it's frustrating, but pushing him will only add to his confusion and possibly make his apprehension worse. Let him come to you" Junmyeon supplies, coming out of the back with a black tank top on, showcasing the impressive collection of art scrawling across his arms and upper torso. It always surprises Jongin to see him like this. His hyung who always wears ugly dad sweaters and cracks terrible jokes, can look so bad ass when his sweater is taken off and he has a tattoo gun in his hand."Don't cage the hummingbird when he lands in your palm, and feed it sugar water to keep his wings aflutter" Yixing says."Don't push Kyungsoo too fast if he does come to you, treat him gently and sweetly, and he'll progressively get more comfortable with you" Junmyeon translates.Jongin bites at his lip and nods "but what if he never comes to me? What if he never shows interest?""If you offer the humming bird your flower and it refuses, the hummingbird was never interested in that of flowers to begin with" Yixing supplies, humming a little at the end.Junmyeon smiles and picks up the bundle of mail, Jongin had brought in earlier "if Kyungsoo doesn't show interest, then it's possible he may never be interested in anyone"Jongin's eyebrows bunch together "in anyone? What does that mean?"Chanyeol stands up and picks up his paper, holding it up to the light and sizing it "it means that the guy might be straight... or asexual"Jongin's eyes widen and he sucks in a sharp breath, he's never thought of that. He curses mentally and sags against the counter, laying his head down in a pathetic display. Kyungsoo may not think about that stuff or see Jongin that way because he's just not interred, and that's just one of the worse possibilities he can think off, but a completely probable one.A hand pats his head gently and begins to pet his hair. He knows it's Yixing, and hums happily at the affection. He knows Yixing is right, he just really hopes that his hummingbird will want a flower, and hopefully his flower specifically.

********Kyungsoo's eyes pop open wide as he wakes with a jolt. He can't remember the dream he's been having, but judging by his quickly beating heart, it wasn't a good one.He rolls over and squints at the clock, waiting for the numbers to come together and make sense to his sleep fogged brain. It's 2:48 am. Kyungsoo rolls onto his back and stares up at the ceiling, trying to find that part of his consciousness that makes him want to sleep, but it isn't there.He knows he'll be up for the rest of the night, having experienced this many times before. Usually he studies when he can't go back to sleep or grabs a book and reads for a bit until he feels tired, but he feels too restless tonight.He sits up and grabs his phone off the desk beside his bed, glancing over and making sure he hasn't woken Baekhyun hyung. When he notices the slow, steady breathing patters from the older, he sighs lightly in relief.He opens his phone and quickly finds the person he's looking for, then sends them a quick message. Jongin usually responds within a couple seconds, even when it's late, so when Kyungsoo sits there waiting for over ten minutes, he frowns at his phone. Kyungsoo decides after waiting a little longer to just call the man, and hold his phone up to his ear patiently as the dial tone rings in his ear.After a couple of rings, it goes to voicemail and Jongin's smooth, soothing voice sounds through the small speaker. Kyungsoo feels a little more relaxed by the sound of Jongin's voice, but it's nowhere near where it would be if he could actually talk to him.Kyungsoo knows that Jongin would have picked up, even if he had been in a dead sleep, so the only answer that remains is that Jongin must be in his studio. Jongin has a habit of blocking the world out when he gets into his art, a concept Kyungsoo understands because he does that same with his studies.Kyungsoo takes a deep breath and decides that he wants to see and talk to Jongin now. He climbs out of bed, careful to be quiet so Baekhyun hyung doesn't wake up. He can't imagine the lecture and scolding he'd get if he caught Kyungsoo sneaking out this late.Kyungsoo throws on some pants and pulls on a jacket, quietly opening the bedroom door and walking out into the hallway. He passes Luhan and Minseok hyung's room, hearing a faint squeaking of a bed mattresses and wonders if Luhan or Minseok are having a sleepless night with the excessive tossing and turning they're clearly doing. Kyungsoo hears a low moan and frowns thinking one of them must have a stomach ache. Luhan hyung seems to have a problem with those, since he's woken up and heard him moaning and groaning in the middle of the night before.He hurries to the bathroom and gets some antacid pills, then heads to the kitchen and grabs a bottle of water, placing them outside the door, so they'd find them if they decide to get up and go looking for them. Satisfied, Kyungsoo leaves the apartment, making sure to grab his key and put on shoes, thinking that if he gets caught, at least he won't get scolded for leaving the house without his shoes again or getting locked out as he has many times before.His trek across campus is a frightening one. The dark and desolate campus feels ominous and scary. He pulls his sweater closer around him and wishes for the hundredth time tonight that he had Jongin with him. Jongin makes him feel safe, makes him feel protected.He reaches the art building, not surprised to find it open because a lot of students come in and work late in their studios. Jongin spends a lot of time here, and he's even admitted to working till the sun came in through the window of his work room, many times. Kyungsoo doesn't like when he works that late, he doesn't like to think of Jongin not getting sleep. It worries him and Kyungsoo doesn't like feeling worried.Kyungsoo finds the room easily, having come to this place so many times before. It feels familiar, comfortable, peaceful... kind of like he's coming home. Kyungsoo can hear music playing inside and knows that Jongin is here, because that's his music. It's deep, soulful, and pleasant. It reminds him of Jongin's voice, he like Jongin's voice. He likes Jongin's music.He opens the door and steps inside the room, noticing the apparent darkness of the room except for a bright light across the room centered on one area. He knows it's Jongin's lamp that he usually uses, it helps him manipulate the light and focus on his work rather than what's around him.Kyungsoo's eyes adjust to the dark and he finds Jongin easily, stepping forward, but freezes when he finally gets a firm look at what's in front of him.Jongin stands before him, his upper body naked and exposed, his tan skin tight and perfect, as if he's been sculpted from marble, but that's not the main thing that catches Kyungsoo's eye. Wings sprawl across the expanse of Jongin's back. Black, beautiful lines roll over his skin, in dazzling and enchanting shapes. Kyungsoo's mesmerized by the design covering the man's back and find himself just really wanting to touch it.Soo reaches up to do just that, and wonders briefly when he had gotten so close to Jongin, but pays it no mind when his fingertips touch the smooth skin covered in the black ink.**Jongin jumps a little and holds his breath at the feather light touch to his back, he glances quickly over his shoulder and notices a soft looking dark tuff of hair peeking at him."Soo?" Jongin asks, his voice a little strained. "Pretty" Kyungsoo replies simply, that deep voice crunching around the syllables in a way that still amazes Jongin that such a strong voice can come out of such a small bean.Soo keeps running his fingers in sync with the sprawling designs, mesmerized by them and how beautiful they are in contrast with Jongin's skin.Jongin takes a deep steadying breath and slowly places his paintbrush down, before slowly turning around, surprising the tiny human in front of him with even more ink flowing across Jongin's chest. A dragon paints across the younger's front, starting at his chest and wrapping down his torso, till it flows down onto his hip and disappears into his pants."Oh" Soo exclaims, gasping breathlessly. He runs his fingers gently across the lines, staring intently at the colorful piece.Jongin swallows hard, his breath labored and coming out in short pants. The more Soo touches him, each feather light touch, every slightly harder press, or slide of his soft fingers over the sensitive skin, sends electric shocks to his nerves making his whole body tingle with awareness. Soo leaves one hand pressed to Jongin's chest, right in the center, almost like he's feeling for a heartbeat, (which is erratic at this point) and lets the other hand wonder, his curious little fingers not leaving one area untouched, driving Jongin to the brink of insanity.Kyungsoo's touches venture lower and lower, seeming to be determined to follow the dragon all the way down, but once his fingers get too low, touching parts of Jongin's hip few have touched, he reacts. Jongin grabs Soo's wrists and holds them out, away from his body, like the older had burnt him.Soo jumps and looks up surprised, seeming to snap out of whatever type of trance he was in, and just blinks at Jongin. The younger bunches his eyebrows and gives Kyungsoo abquestioning, searching look. This is one of those times, he really wishes he knew what was going on in the boys head.Soo's eyes bounce between Jongin's gaze, and his tattoos "want to touch" he whispers.Jongin's throat tightens and he smiles forcefully at Soo, not wanting to upset or confuse the tiny thing "I can't let you. I won't be able to control myself if you keep touching me like that"Kyungsoo's eyebrows furrow, confused and failing to understand why he can't just touch. He wants to touch, he needs to touch."Please, Jongin" Soo begs, desperate to touch Jongin.Jongin closes his eyes and gently squeezes Soo's hands, "I can't let you, Soo. I'm sorry" his voice coming out tight and forced.Soo whimpers, trying to free his hands from Jongin's grasp, surprising the younger by how strong he is. Jongin huffs out, in disbelief that he's actually fighting with a grown man to keep him from touching him. He knows he can't let Soo touch him, he can't let Soo keep going, igniting fire through his bones. Jongin just might snap and he can't do that to Soo, he needs to let him come to him, he needs to let Soo figure it out for himself, and.... Ah, fuck this...Jongin rushes forward and pushes his lips against Kyungsoo's immediately stopping the struggle. Soo gasps against Jongin's lips, but doesn't pull away. Jongin takes this as incentive to deepen the kiss, and takes Soo's hands, placing on them on his hips, while he caresses the elder's jaw with one hand and rests the other on his lower back, pulling the both if their bodies together. Kyungsoo had never saw the point to kissing, or payed too much attention to people preforming the act, (even though it's all over campus) but this, he likes this. He likes the feeling of Jongin's lips against his, moving gently and a little too cautiously, but Soo thinks it's sweet that he's being so careful with him. Jongin's lips are soft, and full, they feel good and Kyungsoo just wants to keep feeling them against his. He likes this feeling, he likes being touched by Jongin... he likes Jongin.Soo feels a warm, tingly sensation spread through his lower body, which pulses through his veins pushing heat all over. His stomach clenches and he feels oddly hungry, why now of all times, he feels hungry. He's felt this feeling before, when Jongin's touched him before, when Jongin's hands flutter over his skin or when he looks at him a certain way. Kyungsoo will feel this aggressive hunger in his stomach and it won't go away until Jongin isn't with him anymore.The hunger grows and Soo pulls back with a struggled gasp.Jongin worries, searching Soo over for any damage, even though he knows it's ridiculous to do so. "Are you ok? Did I do something wrong?" "I'm ok" Soo says breathlessly, biting his lip in uncertainty. "I...I liked it"Jongin breaths out a relived breath and smiles down at the elder "me too" Inside Jongin's head, he nearly does backflips. Soo liked it, he liked kissing Jongin, he's into him."Jongin?" Kyungsoo asks right before Jongin leans in for another kiss."Yeah, baby" Jongin asks, the endearment falling out naturally, having called Soo things like that in his head for a while.Kyungsoo experiences an almost pleasant shiver slide up his spine at the pet name and the hunger only grows "Jongin, I feel weird.Jongin blinks at the man, confusion stirring in his head. Well maybe Soo didn't like it as much as he thought. "Weird how?"Kyungsoo looks down suddenly, attempting to explain the storm going on in his lower stomach, but makes a surprised squeak when he notices a small bump in his sweatpants. He tilts his head at it, curious of why it's there, and releases his hold on Jongin's hip with one hand to reach down and touch it gently. The pleasured gasp that falls from his lips nearly has Jongin moaning, while Kyungsoo looks up at Jongin alarmed.Jongin blinks at him with wide eyes and takes in a shaky breath, trying to calm himself "Soo, you're hard""Hard?" Soo questions, not familiar with this term.Jongin clears his throat and glances away briefly, slightly flustered, trying to put this into terms the bean will understand "your penis is erect. You're aroused, Soo"Kyungsoo sucks in a surprised breath and nods in understanding "oh, that's what that is. So this feeling of hunger, isn't actually my body caving food, but sexual pleasure or release"Jongin doesn't know how to react to that, and just nods, not really able to say anything else. A part of him is proud that he got Soo hard just from one kiss, but another part of him feels like he's defiling innocence personified. "How do I make it go away?" Soo asks, a hint of desperation in his voice.Jongin closes his eyes for a second, attempting to hold himself together "you... you have to take care of it""How?" Kyungsoo asks, clearly distressed.That's all it takes for Jongin to break, to push away all of the apprehension and worry. His Soo needs him, his Soo needs to be taken care of."Do you want me to help you, baby? Do you want me to take care of you?" Jongin asks, rubbing a gentle hand over Soo's lower back.That hunger increases, almost becoming painful at the feeling of Jongin's hands on him, and he nods erratically, just needing this feeling, this pressure to go away.Jongin sighs and tilts Kyungsoo's head up, to force the elder to look him directly in the eyes "I need a verbal consent, Soo. When someone touches you this way, they always need your consent first"Kyungsoo licks his lips "yes, Jongin. Please help me"Jongin resists the urge to growl at the beautiful sound of Kyungsoo begging for him, but instead situates his hands on Kyungsoo's hips, damn near rounded to his plump little ass and tells Kyungsoo to jump for him. He picks Soo up and wraps his legs around his hips, trying not to think about the hardness being pressed into his own half hard length. He carries Kyungsoo over to the counter by the sink and tries not to drop him when the elder starts grinding against him, subconsciously seeking friction.He sets Kyungsoo down on the edge, the man whining at the loss and reaching out for Jongin with desperate hands to bring him closer. He sighs and decides to give Soo a little taste of wat he wants, and cups the man's ass in his hands, bringing him forward, and pressing in between his legs, grinding slowly against him.Soo gasps and Jongin watches in awe as he tilts his head back and his eyes roll back in his head. Kyungsoo has clearly never known this type of pleasure, has never felt the bliss of being touched this way, and Jongin is more than happy to give it to him.He pushes through the want of just throwing Soo on the counter and fucking him into it. He refuses to be that guy, he refuses to be the person everyone thinks he is. Soo is important to him and he will take his time worshiping his body, feeing every inch of Soo's beautiful alabaster skin.He circles his hips and gives Kyungsoo one more taste of friction before pulling back, and setting the tiny human back on the table, followed with a great deal of protests. Jongin has to force Soo to stay on the surface, placing a gentle hand on his hip and stilling his search for friction. A loud whine falls from the boy's lips, which Jongin is quick to quit with his lips seizing the others demanding submission.Kyungsoo sighs into it and wraps a hand around the back of Jongin's neck, being a lot more responsive than Jongin had expected, but it's not unwelcome. Jongin's hands wonder, fluttering down Kyungsoo's thighs, which are just as thick and perfect as Jongin had imagined. He wants to sink his teeth into the white flesh and leave marks all over them, but one step at a time, his bean needs help. There will be more time to explore and advance later.His hands run up to his inguinal creases and squeezes, loving the way Kyungsoo's breathe catches in his throat, right before he lets his right hand slide over the bulge in Kyungsoo's pants. Kyungsoo moans lowly and Jongin has to pause to compose himself. He could make a whole song out of Kyungsoo's moans and it would be destroyed for being too sinful. The man's moan nearly makes Jongin cream his pants and that's almost too much for him.Jongin can't take it anymore, he needs to get his hands on the elder, now. He reaches up and tugs on the waist of Kyungsoo's pants, bringing them down slightly. Kyungsoo squeaks and looks at Jongin with wide eyes, a little bit of fear and apprehension in them."Soo" Jongin says. Kyungsoo's pupils dilate at the sound of the others voice and he sucks in a sharp breath. "we can stop if you want... we don't have to do this if you're not ready"Kyungsoo blinks and thinks about that hunger in his stomach, that pain and pressure that he just needs alleviated "no, please... don't stop, Jongin"Jongin nods and continues slowly sliding Kyungsoo's pants down, prompting Kyungsoo to lift his hips so he can slide the fabric down onto the elder's thighs, which Jongin stares at with his mouth watering. Kyungsoo squirms and tries to bring his thighs closer together so he can hide himself, but Jongin stops him, rubbing the bare skin affectionately, trying to relax him."Baby, you're beautiful" Jongin says, his voice like an aphrodisiac to the smaller.Kyungsoo slowly relaxes and lets his thighs lay slack into a comfortable position, while Jongin captures his lips in another passion fueled lip lock. Which is broken quickly when Kyungsoo cries out, as Jongin grasps the boy's hardness in his hand.Jongin doesn't dare move his hand, waiting for Kyungsoo to get used to the sensitivity, letting his thumb rub slightly over the tip, spreading the pre-cum across the head. Kyungsoo jerks and whimpers, his hand moving quickly from behind him, where it was supporting him on the counter, to Jongin, where he grasps onto his bicep with a near death grip.Jongin waits for a second, then gets what he wants, Kyungsoo starts moving his hips up, seeking stimulation, and Jongin smiles, pumping his hand twice. Kyungsoo makes a choked moan and parts his lips in pleasure, while stilling his hips. Jongin takes that as the go ahead and slowly begins to move his hand, giving Kyungsoo short and slow strokes, occasionally rubbing a couple circles over the tip, which the boy seems to respond to.Kyungsoo begins to tremble and leans forward, placing his head on Jongin's shoulder, panting heavily, and releasing moans so lewd, Jongin has to keep himself from cumming in his pants. Kyungsoo's hips initiate some movement, seeming to move with a mind of their own, thrusting into Jongin's hand. Jongin allows it, wanting Soo to experience his own pleasure here, wanting Soo to figure a bit of this out for himself and go with what feels good.Jongin experimentally quickens his pace, causing Kyungsoo to tighten his hand and let out a high pitched whimper, making Jongin slow back down. Kyungsoo releases a small breath and swallows audibly, releasing some of the tension in his grip. Clearly, Soo can't deal with too much sensitivity, but that's something they can work up to. This is about helping so, right now, not pushing him.Kyungsoo's moans get louder and his body trembles more, becoming jerky and erratic. Jongin can feel his length pulse in his hand and he knows Kyungsoo is close. He pumps a couple more time and circles the tip with his thumb, then presses against the slit lightly, and Kyungsoo raises his head, sucking in a breath and calling out Jongin's name, as he paints the younger's hand in white.Jongin pumps his hardness through it, until Kyungsoo starts pulling at Jongin's arm and he releases him, reaching for a paper towel to clean himself and Kyungsoo off, then he wraps his arms around the boy and pulls him close, letting him come down from his euphoria. Kyungsoo's quiet, too quit. Jongin can't keep his mind from freaking out, thinking of all the possibilities of what could happen from here. What if Soo realizes what just happened and calls him a pervert for taking advantage of him in such a vulnerable state? What if he didn't like it and decides he never wants Jongin to come near him again? What if he starts crying and freaks out on him?"Jongin" Kyungsoo whispers suddenly, causing Jongin to pull back and give him a questioning look "I'm sleepy"Jongin smiles and releases a relived chuckle "ok, baby... let's get you home""No" Kyungsoo abruptly states "I snuck out... the hyungs don't know I'm here... if they wake up to you in my bed, they'll kill you"Jongin is surprised by this, not only does Kyungsoo talk about leaving his apartment, like he's a teenage boy who snuck out to see a boy (and well he guesses he kind of did), but the idea that his hyungs are basically his overprotective parents, is a little odd, but endearing at the same time."I could just drop you off. You could slip into bed without anyone ever noticing" Jongin suggests, but the looks on Kyungsoo's face makes him wish he'd never suggested it."You don't want to stay with me?" Kyungsoo asks, and Jongin is quick to hush him, leaning in to drop kisses to the boy's lips, and making a small smile replace the pout."No, no, baby. Of course I want to stay with you... I just don't want you to get into trouble" Jongin explains, then gets an idea "How pissed would your hyungs be if you don't come home at all?" Jongin asks, thinking something over.Kyungsoo's eye widen in disbelief at what Jongin is saying and blinks at the man like he just grew two heads "they would lose it"Jongin nods his head, debating "have you never left the house in the middle of the night before?"Kyungsoo glances away and tilts his head "I've gone to the library before, the librarian gave me the key for when I stay after hours so I can just close up"Jongin smirks and leans forward placing his head against Kyungsoo's "so tell them you couldn't sleep and went to the library. Send them a message so they don't have police fanned out all over the campus the second we wake up, and I'll take you home with me"The slow, delighted smile that spreads over Kyungsoo's face is breathtaking and Jongin can't resist leaning forward and placing a slow, emotional kiss to Kyungsoo's lips."Come on, Soo. I'm a little sleepy myself" he pulls the boy's pants back up and slides him off the counter, wrapping his legs around his waist and carrying him over to his work area, then sets him down on the stool by his easel. He closes up all of his materials and places the sheet over his work, and puts his shirt back on, (much to Kyungsoo's disappointment) before turning to Soo and offering him a hand.Soo grins and takes it, standing up on slightly wobbly legs, but it's a good kind of wobbly. The shakiness feels good, his body feels so relaxed and floaty. He likes the feeling of this, he liked the way Jongin touched him, and he really, really likes Jongin.The walk across campus is a lot easier with Jongin by Kyungsoo's side, he feels safe, protected, cared for and he thinks he can get use to this feeling.Jongin lives in a cute, comfortable apartment closer to downtown and he clearly lives with other people, based on the sounds coming from another room. The younger rolls his eyes "please ignore the fog horn, known as my best friend, Chanyeol. You can't hear it from my room, so don't worry about his snoring keeping you up" He leads Kyungsoo into a room across the hall from the loud snores and shuts the door, blocking out the noise, much to Jongin's word. The younger helps him out of his jacket, then asks him how he likes to sleep, to which Kyungsoo turns red."I usually just sleep in a shirt" Kyungsoo mumbles, but Jongin catches every word."Like a t-shirt?" Jongin asks, riffling through his dresser drawer.."Yeah" Kyungsoo says, his hands nervously twisting in his shirt, which is kind of dirty because some of the ejaculation got on it earlier."Here, beautiful" Jongin says, making Kyungsoo look up, and realize that Jongin is holding a shirt out to him."I noticed you got a little messy earlier. You can wear this to sleep in" Kyungsoo takes the shirt and stares at it debating what to do, playing nervously with the waist of his pants.Jongin sighs, smiling a little at the little shy bean and grabs the boys pants, sliding them down his legs, helping him step out of them, then lifts Kyungsoo's shirt over his head. He goes to grab the shirt, but stops when he gets a good look at Kyungsoo in the low light of the lamp on the other side of the room. The longer Jongin stares the more fidgety Kyungsoo gets and whines, trying to cover his body with his arms."Don't" Jongin says, taking Soo's hands in his "You're beautiful, Kyungsoo" Kyungsoo blinks up at Jongin through his eyelashes and gives him a look of raw vulnerability in which Jongin takes as a sign to give the boy affection. He steps closer and wraps the mostly naked boy in his arms and pulls him against his chest, sighing as the boy folds into him, tucking his head under his chin. They slot together perfectly and rest there for a couple beats, relishing in the comfort of the other.Kyungsoo eventually manages to slide his hands up under Jongin shirt and starts running his hands all over the smooth skin, forcing a pleasant shiver out of the man. Jongin has to force himself to pull away because if he doesn't, the whole thing that happened back in the studio will start all over again.He throws the shirt on a pouty Kyungsoo, and resists the urge to coo at his adorableness, then tells Kyungsoo to head over to the bed, while he changes into a pair of sleep shorts and a tank top. Normally he sleeps without a shirt on, but he doesn't think Kyungsoo can handle that right now. He climbs into bed beside Kyungsoo, who seems to have already made himself comfortable, and pulls him close, snuggling the boy in his arms. Kyungsoo huddles right up against Jongin, clearly no stranger to cuddling and he feels a small strike of jealousy at who Kyungsoo is that comfortable with.Kyungsoo places his ear against Jongin chest and listens to his steady heartbeat, the sound lulling him to sleep, while Jongin takes comfort in the sound of Soo's small steady breaths. They fall asleep together, feeling safe, and content, even if they know they'll have to be up in a couple hours.>>>>> Kyungsoo's eyes flutter open, blinking against the sunlight flooding his vision and wondering why the window drapes aren't closed. Usually Baekhyun hyung is very picky about how he wakes up, and sunlight burning into his retinas isn't one of them.Kyungsoo rolls over away from the window, but holds his breath by what he finds. Jongin lays beside him on the bed, looking perfect and godlike in the dusky morning light. The memories of last night flood back to the surface and Kyungsoo feels a warmth spread to his cheeks.His hand reaches out and touches Jongin's cheek gently, tracing the defined edge of his jaw. Jongin stirs and Kyungsoo quickly yanks his hand back, not wanting to get caught. Jongin rolls onto his back and mumbles something incoherent in his sleep, making Kyungsoo smile at how cute it is. Kyungsoo doesn't really pay attention to other's actions or special qualities. People just blend into the background and to anyone that isn't close to him, they just all look the same. Not Jongin though, Kyungsoo notices Jongin, he's memorized every feature, every mark, every angle. Jongin isn't just background noise to him, when it comes to the younger, he's the focal point. Kyungsoo does wonder what it means to feel like this and why he feels so strongly for the man, but he can't answer those questions for himself, so there's no sense in dwelling on it.Kyungsoo risks reaching out again, but pauses when he realizes that Jongin's shoulders and collarbones are bare. He doesn't have a shirt on. Kyungsoo's certain that the man had one when they went to bed, so Jongin must have taken it off in the middle of the night. Kyungsoo can feel his heartbeat in his ears and something about the exhilaration of Jongin waking up any second, gives him an odd sort of excitement.Soo slowly slips the blankets down to expose a bit of Jongin's upper body and sighs when he sees that tattoo standing out magnificently against Jongin's dark skin. It's so beautiful and Kyungsoo can't resist the urge to run his fingers over the lines. He follows the design, losing himself in the complexity of the black shape."What is it with you and my tattoos?" A deep, husky voice asks, making Kyungsoo jump and pull back quickly.Risking a peep up, Kyungsoo's eyes widen at a heavy lidded, and smirking Jongin that greets him. That pull in his stomach, that Jongin helped him identify as arousal tugs harshly and he tightens his thighs subconsciously.Kyungsoo whines and closes his eyes, pulling the blanket over his head, while Jongin chuckles at him and raises the comforter peering in at the small bean trying to hide from him."Baby" Jongin coos, catching the boy's attention at the endearment "my Soo"Kyungsoo glances at Jongin hesitantly, but melts once those chocolate brown eyes meet his. Jongin grabs Kyungsoo and pulls him up to where the smaller's chest rests on his own, then places a small kiss to the boy's lips.Kyungsoo squirms a bit and lets himself get comfortable, then nudges Jongin with his nose "Jongin?""Yeah, Soo?" Jongin asks resisting the urge to pinch the boy's cheeks."Will we do... what we did last night again?" Kyungsoo asks hesitantly. His hyungs have always freaked out on him when he asked a straightforward question about sexual things, telling him that he doesn't need to be concerned over those matters and that he's too innocent for those things... but he actually liked what they did last night, and he wants to explore this, he wants to learn everything about it. Kyungsoo likes research, and he likes learning things, and Jongin would be perfect to help him with experimenting and figuring things out."Uh... do you want to?" Jongin asks, uncertainly, seeming nervous over the matter."Very much so" Kyungsoo deadpans.Jongin soaks on a bit of air, caught of guard by Kyungsoo's bluntness "Then yeah, of course""Now?" Kyungsoo asks, eager to get started on his lesson.Jongin makes a strangled noise and can't keep himself from laughing at Soo a little bit, causing the bean to pout at him "sorry, Soo. it's just... you're so blunt sometimes, it surprises me, is all"Kyungsoo nods a bit in understanding "oh, ok... so, can we experiment now then?"Jongin snorts and shakes his head "how about we go out to lunch and then to our classes, and we can meet tonight and go from there"Kyungsoo pouts again, as Jongin slips out of bed, and starts changing "But..."Jongin turns back to the cute sulking bean on his bed and smiles adoringly at him "we have plenty of time to experiment later, Soo. It's a pretty day, and i think one hand-job is enough for now"Kyungsoo tilts his head, about to ask a question, but Jongin is already leaving the room before he can form it properly. Kyungsoo sits there for a second, wondering where Jongin went, and decides to just go look for him when he doesn't come back in adequate enough time for him. He pads down the small hallway, and rounds the corner, but stops dead in his tracks when he comes face to face with three strangers staring at him in surprise and confusion.Kyungsoo's social anxiety kicks into overdrive and he starts backing up, ready to make a run for it back to Jongin's room, but he runs into an almost solid object, hearing a muffled "umf" and freezes."There you are" the object says softly and Kyungsoo breaths in relief at the sound of Jongin's voice "here, you're about Junmyeon's size, so i'm sure he wouldn't mind you borrowing them" he says, turning Soo around and handing a handful of cloths to him.Kyungsoo takes the cloths and nods, hurrying back to Jongin's room, closing the door quickly behind him.Jongin chuckles and shakes his head at the boy, then joins his roommates in the kitchen. Jongin can feel their stares on his back as he searches through the cupboards for a coffee mug. He eventually sighs and turns around, leaning against the counter."Alright, let me hear it""So, i'm guessing that's the hummingbird?" Junmyeon is the first to ask.Jongin nods, grunting into his coffee "indeed it is""I'm guessing he wanted the flower?" Chanyeol asks, finding his Cheerios very amusing.Jongin rolls his eyes, but can't help the slight smirk that takes up his lips "indeed he did""Does he know what he's getting into? With your reputation? With what people will think of him for being with you?" Sehun drops honestly.Jongin swallows hard and stares at the swirling blackness of his coffee, never having developed a taste for it, but drinks it to give him a jump start sometimes. "I don't really think he pays attention to that stuff, actually i don't even think he's aware of my reputation""Jongin, this kid is kind of unscathed by the public, gossip arena of our school... maybe you should keep it that way" Sehun suggests.Jongin feels his chest clench. It's not that he hasn't thought about it, it's not that he hasn't pondered over if he should walk away from Kyungsoo and keep him away from all of the nonsense that comes along with his name, but he's not sure he can do it... he's not sure he can give up Kyungsoo even if he tried now."I won't let anything or anyone hurt him, i'll protect him" Jongin states, knowing he'll do whatever it takes to keep Kyungsoo out of his mess."Jongin" Sehun sighs sympathetically, but incredulously "you know you can't keep him from all of it"Jongin lowers his head further, watching the inky liquid in his cup ripple over the surface, about to reply, but Chanyeol beats him to it "enough" he says, silencing Sehun with that definite tone, no one dares to argue with "Jongin is a grown man and can make his own decisions. If he lets the opinions of others stop him from living his life, he might as well become the person they think him to be."Jongin glances up and lets the edges of his lips tick upwards. Chanyeol's always had his back, through all of the shit he's experienced in the past couple of years, Chanyeol's been right beside him, ready to fight and defend his honor. Chanyeol is and will always be his best friend.Chanyeol gets up and sets his bowl in the sink, turning to give Jongin a meaningful look "you do know what you're doing, right? You're going to be ok?"Kyungsoo suddenly peeks his head out around the corner and Jongin looks over and smiles at him, waving for him to come over. Kyungsoo nervously moves out from behind the wall and shuffles over to the kitchen, climbing up onto a stool, and playing with the sleeves of Junmyeon's sweater. It's ugly as sin and he should have really paid more attention to which one he grabbed, but somehow it still looks good on Soo. Junmyeon glances up from his paper and smiles at Soo, pushing over a plate with some toast on it and some jam, causing Soo to smile shyly at him and accept the food, beginning to spread some jam onto the toast."I'll be fine, as long as that little bean stays by my side" Jongin comments, setting his mug in the sink.Chanyeol breaths a short laugh "well, anyone that can make you smile like that will always have my approval, and i'll always have you're back"Jongin cracks a small smile for his friend and claps him on the arm "i know, same here, man" then he heads over to help his little penguin figure out how to eat his toast without getting it all over the too long sweater sleeves.>>>>Jongin giggles as he watches Soo smile with childlike amusement as the foam kitten in his mug swishes back and forth with the liquid as he moves the cup. No matter how hard he tries, he can't help but to like this kid. His innocence and wonder reminds him that there's still good in this world, and he's become quite attached to the way Kyungsoo makes him feel that indirect delight for life that Kyungsoo holds.Soo picks up his glass and takes a sip, crinkling his nose as the foam tickles his lip. Jongin shakes his head and stands up, dodging the urge to coo at Soo when he stares up at him with wide, curious eyes."I'm going to go get some napkins, i'll be right back." He leans down and places a small kiss to Soo's lips, and can't help the laugh he releases at the squishy smile Kyungsoo gives him in response.Jongin walks away and Soo fondly watches as he glides over to the drink station to get a hand full of napkins."Do Kyungsoo" Kyungsoo's eyes widen at that familiar high pitched, hysterical voice, and he instantly know, he messed up.He forgot to text his hyungs this morning, and his phone... is back in his pants... currently on the floor of Jongin's room. Kyungsoo groans and closes his eyes, not ready for the verbal butt chewing he's about to receive.Kyungsoo is all but ripped out of his seat as Luhan examines him, looking him up and down to make sure he's ok, and once he realizes that his child is fine, Kyungsoo watches luhan's eye twitch and knows that this isn't going to be pretty."Where in the fiery saints of hell, have you been? We woke up this morning to your bed empty and no note, no message, no anything. Do you have any idea the things that went through my mind, do you have any idea the possibilities of what could have happened to you? YOU BETTER HAVE A DAMN GOOD EXCUSE FROM THIS" Luhan yells dramatically, practically shaking Soo by the shoulders."Ok, Ok. Put down the delicate squish" Baekhyun intervenes, being the rational one in this situation.The rage dies a little in Luhan's eyes as he realizes he could be causing his son physical harm, and sets Soo back down in his seat, quickly joining him and wrapping him up in a hug when Soo looks up at him with sparkly eyes and a wobbly lip."I'm sorry" Luhan wails, holding Soo close to his chest "you just scared the crap out of me, that's all. Where have you been? Why weren't you answering your phone?"Kyungsoo clears his throat and winces "they're in my pants"Luhan's eyebrows bunch and he looks down at Kyungsoo's pants unsure if he forgot how to work them again, but then realizes he's never seen these before "Kyungsoo, who's pants are these? And who's sweater is this?" Soo's always had a simple wardrobe, with plenty of sweaters, but this is way too ugly, even for his fashion clueless Soo.Kyungsoo looks down "oh, these are Junmyeon hyung's"Luhan blinks steadily and takes a deep calming breath "and who's Junmyeon?""Jongin's roommate and boss" Kyungsoo answers honestly."Wait, Jongin? What's his surname?" Baekhyun interjects.Kyungsoo is about to answer, but looks up and smiles when he sees the man in question cautiously heading back towards the table. His hyungs follow his gaze and gawk in disbelief as Kim Jongin comes straight towards them, then sits down in the seat on the other side of Kyungsoo.Kyungsoo grins at him and reaches over taking his hand, hoping it helps him feel better, knowing it makes him feel better when Luhan does it for him. He turns back to Baekhyun and remembers his hyung asked him a question."Oh, he's a Kim" Kyungsoo provides.Baekhyun hums, seeming distressed "yeah, yeah. I gathered that"Kyungsoo lifts and eyebrow "you know him?""No, but i know of him... this one has quite the reputation, Soo" Baekhyun says, trying to remain calm, not wanting to go all Luhan on Kyungsoo."I know" Soo says, gaining the whole tables undivided attention "he's different though. He's not who everyone says he is"Baekhyun and Luhan exchange a look and release a collective sigh, while Minseok rolls his eyes, knowing what's about to come."Soo, sweetie, can we have a moment alone with Jongin?" Luhan questions gently.Kyungsoo's lips form an 'o' and he's about to question, but one look from Minseok, lets him know it's useless. Kyungsoo's shoulders sag and he stands up, trying to give Jongin a sympathetic expression to answer his terrified one. He slowly shuffles off to the front of the cafe, choosing to sit outside and watch the clouds, after giving one last hopeless look back at Jongin and sending a silent prayer for him to be strong."We're not going to ask the stereotypical questions of what you're intentions are or anything about your future, actually what we want to talk about, is Soo" Luhan begins.Baekhyun nods "we don't want to scare you or make you uncomfortable. Honestly, we know Kyungsoo's been seeing someone, with the way he's been acting and the way he's been spending less and less time with us... we just weren't aware that it was... you"Jongin tilts his head "i'm not sure whether or not to be offended by that""Let's not bullshit, Jongin. We all know what people say about you, being true or not, that's none of our business, but Soo is. Kyungsoo is very important to us and i'm not above a first degree charge to protect him" Baekhyun states bluntly, vaguely reminding Jongin of the way Kyungsoo says rough things so simply."Listen, i know you guys love him and want the best for him, but i promise i'm not that guy everyone thinks I am... i promise i have nothing more than respectable interests in Soo" Jongin explains.Luhan nods, taking this into account "i understand that, Jongin, but what we really need you to understand, is that Soo's different than other people""I've noticed""No, i don't think you know how deep it goes. Kyungsoo was raised by a professor and a scientist, they didn't coddle him and taught him to seek comfort in books and information rather than people. Kyungsoo doesn't know how to properly conduct himself in social situations and he doesn't understand social queues... it just doesn't connect to him and he doesn't understand basic things that come naturally to others" Luhan explains.Jongin sighs "i know he's a little off and doesn't pick up things sometimes, but there's a lot he does get that you guys don't seem to give him credit for""Jongin, i once went to pick Soo up to go out for the night and found him with a babysitter... he was a senior in high school, Jongin. The babysitter was younger than him. When i asked his parents about it, they said it's because he almost burned down the kitchen trying to make ramen once when they left him alone... he's so fucking intelligent, that common sense surpasses him... he doesn't know better" Baekhyun deadpans.Jongin laughs once in disbelief as realization touches him "So you're saying he's naive?""Yes, very" Luhan says, glad Jongin's finally getting it."So, you're saying he doesn't know better than to stay away from me?" Jongin drops, the unspoken, though heavily implied words.Luhan opens his mouth to protest, but Jongin holds up a hand, stopping him "listen, i know you guys are trying to protect Soo, but he's not as innocent and naive as you guys seem to think, and you should trust him to make his own choices. You can hate me all you want, but i know i make him happy and that i'll do everything i can to protect him... i'm not trying to change your minds, but i do want you to respect Kyungsoo enough to treat him like an adult and let him make his own decisions" Jongin stands up and bows lightly "i have to get to class. It was nice to meet the hyungs Kyungsoo talks to highly of"They watch Jongin walk outside and Kyungsoo greet him with a bright smile, a happiness radiating from him that they have to give Jongin a bit of credit for. They watch as the boys hug, both men expressing a surprised gasp when the boys also share a gentle kiss. Baekhyun turns around in his seat and sighs, looking at Luhan dejectedly "we fucked up didn't we?" Luhan whines and stares down at the table."Yeah you guys did... big time. Jongin was still Jongin, but i could tell his eyes weren't as sparkly when he left... what did you say to him" Kyungsoo demands, causing the boys to shoot up to look at him."Kyungsoo-ah" Luhan tries to calm down the boy."Don't" Kyungsoo says, a sternness in his voice his hyungs have never heard before. Kyungsoo slides back into his seat and fixes his hyungs with an intense gaze "Guys, I've never felt this way before, and i don't even have words to explain or the understanding of what it is that i feel, but i know that i'm happy when he's happy, I'm sad when he's sad, and i worry when he's worried. I understand that i have an innocent way about me and some things i just don't get like others do, but i understand that i just want to be around Jongin all the time and when i'm not with him, i feel like a piece of me is empty, waiting to be filled. I crave his attention and affection. I like Jongin's voice, and the way it sounds when he says my name. I like Jongin for who he is, and you can believe me or not, but i know who he is, and he's a beautiful, fascinating person and i really care about him. I know if he were to leave and never come back that it would really hurt... i don't know what this is or what it means, but Jongin makes me happy and that's all that matters, that i feel good when i'm with him"Kyungsoo takes a deep breath and looks up, his hyungs blankly stare at him in disbelief, but after a shared look, they just say "okay"Kyungsoo looks between the two of them and nods "okay, then. Next time Jongin is in front of you two, you'll treat him like a human and give him a chance?"Baekhyun smiles and reaches over petting Kyungsoo's hair affectionately "we promise, Soo. We're sorry... we just got a little over protective"Soo smiles lightly and takes a deep breath "i forgive you... i can't be too mad since you guys were just looking out for me" His hyungs beam at him and Luhan pulls him into a death grip hug, then they settle into their normal morning routine of looking over social media (Kyungsoo a book) and talking occasionally, that is until Kyungsoo breaks it."Oh, i want to ask you guys something" Kyungsoo asks, looking up from his text book."What's that, sweetie?" Luhan asks, glancing up at him from his phone.Kyungsoo mulls over the word, then tilts his head innocently "What's a hand-job?"Baekhyun spits his tea all across the table, Luhan starts ugly crying, and Minseok just smirks into his coffee cup.************Chickens!!!Here's this monster for you. Innocent Soo's been intriguing me lately, so this little gem popped out. enjoy! I love you guys!! thanks so much for all of your love and support!!kisses!!사랑해