Im Sorry (1/1)

I woke up to the ringing sound of my phone. It was Joon.“Hello.”I croaked, and I looked at the clock, it said 8:30 pm.“Hey, it’s me. Are you sleeping?”“Uhuh.”I must have fallen asleep while I...  Junhyung.  “Hani?”“Y-- Yeah?”“I’m actually outside your house, but if you’re tired, continue to sleep. I’ll see you on Monday.”  Junhyung.  “Hani? Are you there? I guess you fall back to sleep--”“Joon, wait! I’ll-- I’ll come down.” I opened the front door, and there he was, smiling warmly.“Hi.”I managed to breathe out. I didn’t know if it was a good decision seeing him right now.“Hi to you too. Oh, are you okay? You are looking pale.”He touched my face, and I shivered at his sudden contact. My heart was aching, Joon was so good to me, he did treat me like a queen, but I, I had to return his heart. I took down his hand, and he instinctively grabbed my hand and held it tenderly.“I’m okay, Joon. You don’t have to worry. What are you doing here?” He stroked my hair, and again, I felt my heart pierced with pain.“I come to check up on you. I meant to call, but I guess I wanted to see you. And I’m glad I came.”“Joon...”Tears were starting to blur my vision, and if he didn’t stop talking, I could guarantee that I won’t be able to hold my tears back.“Hey hey Hani, what’s wrong?”I pushed myself to him, tightly wrapped my arms around his waist, and trying so hard to restrain my uncontrollable tremble.“Hani? What’s wrong?”He asked again, stroking my back ever so gently.“Joon, we need to talk.” We were at the playground, and both of us were sitting in silence. I believed that Joon had sensed what I was about to say, that he had guessed what was about to come, as I could see the hints of fear in his eyes and the lost of smile on his lips.“I’m sorry, Joon.”I was unable to look at him, but I knew he was looking at me, waiting for me to continue.“I’m sor--”“I don’t understand.”His voice was low, and full of pain. I unexpectedly found the courage to face him.“I’m sorry.” “I thought the feeling was mutual.”“It was, Joon, it was--”“But then, what happened?”His trembling voice triggered the held back tears in my eyes.“I was wrong.”I took a deep breath to block the tears from flowing.“I liked you for a long time, Joon, and when you asked me out, I was the happiest.”He furrowed his brows in confusion.“But at that time, I failed to see that there is somebody else that already has a hold of my heart. I lead you on, and I am so sorry for that, but soon I realised, I couldn’t lie to my heart anymore.” He looked at me with pain-stricken eyes.  “I-- Could we at least try, Hani?”His darken eyes were starting to brim with tears. His lips were shaking, he was trying to hold in the long-lasting wound I gave him.“I’m sorry, J--”“No, don’t. Hani... I can’t.”I couldn’t hold it anymore. I let my tears streaming down my face. Joon reached for me, wiping my warm tears with his cold hands, while he let his own tears flowing down.“I--”He chocked his words, and his quivering hands were cupping my face. Behind those teary orbs, I could see the passion he had for me.“I’m in love with you, Lee Hani.”“Oh God.”I pulled him in and enveloped him in my arms. His sobs were clearer to my ears, they were comparable with my own, he was trembling hard, and I could feel the sorrow he was going through right at the moment. “I’m sorry, Joon.”