Chapter 2 (1/1)

I don’t know what happen with me, it hurt me to see how happy he is with his wife but I can't leave the building. I just stand at the back of the room watch how they smiling happily. It still feels like a dream, I still can’t believe that he marry another woman. I just can’t bring my self to stop watching them.I still remember how I feel when my I saw their wedding invitation between all the important letters on my desk. I just stare at it, I didn’t feel anything, my mind just went blank.“I’m sorry Miss, but we have a meeting at 11 am so we have to go now.” My assistent, Jo Won, knock my door.“Oh! Miss, are you okay?” He rushed to my desk.“Huh?” I stared at him blankly.“Are you okay? Are you in pain? Why are you crying?” He panicked.“Crying?” I touch my face and feel my face is wet. “No, I’m okay. Do you need anything?” I wiped my face.“Uh.... Oh, we have a meeting at 11 am so we need to go now Miss.”“Oh right, give me a sec. Wait for me at lobby.”“Yes, Miss.”He get out of my room. I stare at the invitation again and I have a lot of thing in my mind right now. I don’t know exactly what I feel. Is it anger because did he want to rub on my face that he had move on? Is it disappontment because he already move on? Is it jealousy? Is it sadness? I can’t explain how I feel right now and it make me can’t work properly. 5 years ago..... “What? Are you mean it Dae Han?” I starting to get annoyed with his reaction.“I never said that I want to break up. Can’t you be supportive like another man when his fiance want to try something new? Can you?” “Then you should find someone that will be support your decision because I can’t. I can’t if you want to leave without we getting married. Jin Ah, I always let you win can you just let me win this time?” He sat down on the couch and rub his face. I just stare at him, I don’t know how to respond. Yes, I want to get married with him. Yes, I love him. Yes, I don’t want to break up with him. But, I want to try something that I know I can't to that after we get married. “Jin Ah look at me,” I look at those sad eyes, “don’t you want to get married? Don’t you want to have 2 kids, a boy and a girl? Aren’t we already plan everything perfectly? Do you have to destroy everything?” “I do. I do, Dae Han. How many times do I have to tell you that I don’t want to break up with you? That I just want to postpone our wedding not cancel it? That I don’t want to destroy everthing we had?” “I can’t Jin Ah, we already postpone it 3 years ago! We already postpone our wedding because you want to study in France, don’t you remember it? We already postpone it because you want to do something new before we settle down! I can’t wait any longer! How long do I have to wait?” I just keep quiet. I just stare at my hands on my lap. I forgot that we already postpone our wedding before, now I understand why he react like this. “Be honest with yourself Jin Ah. You’re not love me that much to take that step, right? You’re not love me that much to sacrifice your dream, right? If we have to wait because you want to do something new before we settle down, then we’re never going to get married because I know you Jin Ah. I know you really well to know that you have a lot of dreams. And you won't stop. Just be honest with me.” He’s crying. This is the second time I saw him crying. He never crying after his sister’s funeral and now he’s crying. Really hard. I don’t know what to say. Something in his words struck me. Suddenly my hidden doubt about marriage showed up. Maybe he’s right, I don’t love him that much to let him win. But, I don’t want to break up with him. I can’t imagine my life without him. I can't lose him but I can't let go my dream. “Answer me Jin Ah. Say something! Say that is not true! Say that you love me so much that you want to get married or even better to stay with me here! Say it Jin Ah! Say it!” He walk towards me and kneel down in front me then he grab my shoulder. He look me straight in my eyes with tears streaming down his face. I avoid his eyes and the next thing I know, I stand up and release his hands from my shoulder. “Can we just talk about this later?” I walk out from his apartment without waiting his answer. And for him that is my answer.  Author's Note:Sorry for my limited english and sorry if there's any grammatical error. Thank you for reading:D Please give me your feedback with comment below^^ Please subscribe if you like my story. Thank you so much:D