November (1/1)

November, 2017. My baby cousin was born. I was thrilled and I couldn't help, but want to hold him. Over time I watched him grow, but something wasn't right. He wasn't developing like everyone else. I thought, maybe he is a late developer. No. A few weeks later a get a call. It was my aunt. My baby cousin had Cerebral Palsy. Knowing the type of struggles he would face and the trouble this would cause was devestating. I was torn. I wasn't sure how to react. I slipped into bad habits during November tht later turned into Bulimia. I couldn't keep anything down. My weight dropped to only 108 pounds. By this point I had begun to get sick. People were negative and I began to slip away from friends and family. I almost quit BTS.