Aftermath (1/1)

=Yes, Hyung?= He sighed in relief when he heard Jun Su's voice on the other line."Su-ah, c-can you come pick me. . .up?" Jae Joong found himself nodding to Georgina's every wish absentmindedly that night. His mind was else where.=Sure, Hyung. Where are you?= Jae Joong heard a slight commotion in the background. It was Jun Su ordering Yoo Chun to get the keys from the dresser. He ended the call after giving Jun Su his location.Jae Joong slid to sit on the cold pavement, his box beside him. He burried his face in between his knees and before he knew it, his shoulders were shaking, his tears flowing uncontrollably. He didn't know how long he was in that position until he felt someone sat beside him."Finally." Jun Su snaked an arm around him and pulled him against his body. "Do you feel better now?" Jae Joong shook his head gently."He's hurting, Su." He managed to say in between sobs. "I can see that he's hurting like I am." He was wailing again. It took him sometime to finally calm down and Jun Su guided him to his car and turned the heater on."Now, start from the very beginning. I can tell that you're not telling me everything. What really happened between you and Yun Ho-hyung?" Jun Su ordered in a serious tone."I let him go 'cause I thought he'll be happy without me. But I hurt him so bad that I wanted to die!" He was shaking violently again. "I wanna die, Su-ah!"******************************************************************************Yun Ho pulled over in a deserted shoulder. He knew that if he'll continue driving, it will be the end of him. He hit the steering wheel harshly and banged his head on the headrest. He held a hand up to his mouth to stop himself from sobbing. Jae Joong has been cheating on him for a year now. Maybe not with another person but he was not telling him everything like he used to.He got tired waiting. He got fed up with the excuses he used to give him. He thought they were just going through a phase. All relationships go through that, right? But maybe he waited too much. Gave too much. And it's a well-known fact that doing too much does little to foster relationships.Maybe it's best that they ended it already. While they still have respect for each other. Even so, there were a lot of unanswered questions whirring in his mind right now. Like, why would Jae Joong do this to him in the first place? Was he doing it on purpose? But he can see the longing in his eyes! And they loved each other! He admits that he's still very much in love with him. So much that it hurts.Why didn't he even protest when he ended the relationship? Was he just waiting for him to break it up with him?[flashback]"We have to talk." He towered in the middle of the spacious living room of his boyfriend's flat. Jae Joong was living alone. He insisted on having his own place after graduation even if he will gladly take him in. He remembered that they had a fight because of that. He told him bluntly that they were gay alright but they didn't have to be promiscuous. And he loved him all the more because of that. Jae Joong, after living in America for so long, still had his values intact. And for him who grew up in New York, it was like a breath of fresh air."Hmn? What about?" He asked from the kitchen. He was busy wrapping the garlic mashed potatoes that he made. They were running late and the stupid saran wrap was pissing him off. "Can we talk about it in the car, honey? I can't seem to do this right!""No, please. This won't take long." He was determined to do this. It's now or never."Oh, okay." He appeared in front of him, his hands in silicon mittens. He looked like he slaved in the kitchen for the whole day when he only made mashed potatoes. If not for the acerbity of the situation, he might have laughed out loud. He cleared his throat. Once. Twice. *You can do it, goddamnit!* He cursed himself. He saw Jae Joong's happy expression turn into forlorn at once after seeing his hesitation.

"Is there a problem?" He asked gently."I--" He closed his mouth for the lack of anything to say. He can't believe he's going chicken for something as trivial as this. Jae Joong occupied an armchair and removed his mittens absently and stared at him, obviously waiting for whatever it was that he wanted to say. "I-It's just that I don't know where to start.""Just tell me and I promise I'll understand.""Jae. . .""Do you want to break up with me?" Jae Joong's voice didn't even waver. But it wasn't what he wanted to say! He was about to suggest that maybe they could give each other some space to think things over. But him talking about break up? Maybe Jae Joong's thinking about it for sometime now? He wanted out, yes! But he believes there's hope for them still. Eight years wasn't a joke! He's willing to stick it out, to compromise, whatever!"I--It's not you. . .I mean--" What was he saying? He groped for words in the dark but his mind was in shambles. This wasn't happening, was it?"You don't really have to explain. I told you I'll understand." Yun Ho was speechless for a long moment. "Okay." Jae Joong looked up and gave Yun Ho a smile that didn't even reach his eyes."O--what? Okay? Just 'okay'? That's all you have to say?" His eyes widened in disbelief. A surge of anger was starting to dominate his system. He didn't know why he had to be angry when it was him who initiated this."What do you want me to say, Yun Ho-ah?" He asked instead.

Yun Ho-ah? His own name sounded strange coming from Jae Joong's mouth. What happened to 'Yunnie'? "N-nothing. I guess this is goodbye then." He added brusquely and stood up. He was expecting anything but a calm 'okay' from Jae Joong. Knowing his temper, he wouldn't be surprised if he will hit him with just anything within his reach. He wasn't just putting an end to an eight-year relationship afterall. He also did it just minutes before the Thanksgiving dinner.He held the doorknob and paused momentarily at the door. Was he waiting for Jae Joong to go after him? That sounded really stupid. It was what he wanted for the longest time now. He's getting tired and bored of the relationship and he wanted out so badly. Jae Joong remained seated at the couch, unmoving. Yun Ho sighed heavily as he opened the door and stepped out of the apartment. And of Jae Joong's life. For good."Yun Ho." Jae Joong called weakly. He turned around and almost bumped into him. What was taking the damn elevator so long? Jae Joong's face was expressionless and before he can attempt to read what was on his mind, Jae Joong was kissing him senseless, his arms snaked around his neck. He nibbled his lower lip and pushed his tongue inside his mouth. It took him sometime to respond to Jae Joong's bold move. He didn't even know how long they were kissing when the warning tone of the elevator coming up woke them up and Jae Joong ended the kiss abruptly. "Goodbye. Take care of yourself always." He entered his unit and closed the door in haste, leaving him on the hallway before he can react.[end of flashback]His eyes fell on the AmbiPur attached on the car's air conditioning unit. He pulled it out harshly threw it carelessly at the back. He opened the glove compartments and emptied them it haste, throwing its contents all around. His cries were muffled by the steering wheel and his miserable state was hidden by the heavily-tinted car windows.****************************************************************************"I came to see Dr. Dennis Park." Yoo Chun flashed the receptionist a smile and she nearly melted into goo. If she only knew that he doesn't play for her team"One moment." She picked the interphone. "Dr. Park?--Yes. Your brother's here to see you.--Okay." She looked up at him after saying goodbye to his brother. "He'll see you, Mr. Park.""Thank you." He proceeded to Lee Teuk's office. He was just transferred from the Miami office to New York. He was glad he'll be spending more time with his brother since they'll be in the same city. Park Lee Teuk or Dennis Park was a forensics doctor. He's been with the CSI right after graduation and he's really proud of what his brother had achieved in such a young age. He gave a warning knock before pushing the door open. He found him looking intently at a set of x-ray films stuck on one side of the spacious office. "Hyung." He called and Lee Teuk looked at him and smiled."Have a seat Yoo Chun-ah. I'll just finish this one." He took his palm pilot out and wrote something in it before finally reverting his attention to him. He removed his eyeglasses and massaged his temples. Yoo Chun relaxed on the couch, his arms streched on the backseat."So, how do you find New York so far?""Crowded but fancy." Lee Teuk let out a chuckle. If he can only decide for himself, he won't move out of Miami. It has become his sanctuary and his skills were so much valued in there. But the higher ups thought otherwise. They said moving to New York will make wonders to his career. And since his brother's in New York, he considered it. "What brings you here?""Can't I see my brother without reason?""Oh, you can. But I know you so I won't believe that." He added and saw Yoo Chun pouting. Yoo Chun offered him his old pad since he lives with his boyfriend anyways. The boyfriend which he haven't met. They heard he was a lawyer and a busy one at that so the last time Yoo Chun went to Virginia, he wasn't able to join."Tsk. Okay. Let us have dinner. Su, you and I, what do you say?""In Bisque?" He cocked an eyebrow."No, at home.""I can see that you're still my old, stingy little brother! What would you do with your money, Micky Park?" He chortled."I have to save for my and Atty. Xiah Kim's future, okay?" He glowered at him."Did you say, Xiah Kim?" Lee Teuk prayed that he just misheard it.****************************************************************************A/N: Please forgive any typo error. I don't have time to go through it again. Thank you for reading and as always, comments are loved:)and oh, Dennis is Lee Teuk's official English name:)