My Shattered Heart (1/1)

Heechul was lying on his queen-sized bed while looking blankly towards the ceiling . He's been like this for a months already . Ever since he got out of the army , he's been spending a lot of time on his own . The cloak already strucked 12am but Heechul's still hesistating to sleep . He's been getting flashbacks about him and Hangeng a few days ago . He can't get that flashback out of his mind althought it's been a long time since he ever met up with Hangeng after he dropped out . Now Heechul is with someone who is very loving and loved him ever since debuted . Siwon and Heechul have feelings for each other but both of them are two shy to tell .Heechul's been getting frustrated ever since Siwon went abroad for a shooting of his movie . He can't even spend a day without his loved dongsaeng . Although his heart is now Siwon , he can't deny that his love Hangeng is still in there . He misses Hangeng dearly and everyday he hopes for him to comeback .He even hurt himself just to let the pain go . He even has scars on his arms that he had made a few days ago. "Argghh !! Get out of my head !!" Heechul screamed while he was pulling onto his hair roughly. Tears started to roll down Heechul's pale white cheek .He cries himself to sleep everynight and even the other members noticed it but they just stayed quiet since they already know what answer will they get from Heechul . He misses Siwon so much right now . He really wants to feel the aura of the younger beside him and his attracting scent when he goes to sleep . But each time he thinks about Siwon , one figure will also come out of Heechul's mind . Heechul misses Hangeng so much and he really hopes he can meet Hangeng soon . He then stood up from his bed and headed towards his closet . He opens his closet and grabbed a piece of picture of him and Hangeng which was hiden securely under Heechul's clothes .He looked at the picture and more tears came out . It was a picture of him and Hangeng when they went on a stroll together . "I still love you Hangeng " he said while placing the picture to his broken heart . He went over to his bed and placed the picture under his pillow . He tucked it nicely under his pillow . " I love you Hangeng even I'm Siwon's right now " . he said while looking at the bright moonlight that was coming from his opened window . He can't even closed his eyes even though he had a really tight schedule before and tomorrow he has a lot of things to do . But he doens't care whether he'll be fine or not for the previous day because it's been a routine for him to sleep late and still being able to do a great appearance . He has the charismatic diva-self that will never change . After a few minutes of looking blankly at the moon , he eyes are starting to close . He was apparently really tired of being depressed the whole day . He then took he last look of the picture and then like usual , tears came running down again . He just placed under his pillow again . " Goodnight Woonie and Hannie " he said while closing his eyes trying to sleep . He finally drifted off to dreamland with a very angelic face . Heyyo !! My fellow readers .. Look I updated this fic .. I'm happy about this .. Please do comment alright . Comments fasten my updating .. HeHeHe .. Thank you .. BuBye !!