Hurt (1/1)

As his best friend, it’s a rare sight to see him cry in front of people including us. He’s a tough guy. So when he cries right in front of me, its means he really hurts. ‘You really did this time Jung Yunho. He doesn't cried when you not kiss him on the wedding day, he doesn't cried when you slapped him or ignore him..Well maybe he got watery eye but not really cry. I can't help you this time Jung Yunho. If you really do love him, you have to work on you own to get him back.’ Junsu remembered the talk he had with Jaejoong before as that guy stayed in front of his door without knocking it and Junsu only found him when he want to take out the trash. *-Flashback-* “Jae? What are you doing here? Since when did you get here?” asked Junsu worried when he bring the cold Jaejoong into the house. “Junsu.” “What is happen Jae?” “Do you have any idea how much its hurt me? He never loves me. Marry me because of the family. Treat me nicely just to fulfill her wish. It’s hurt Junsu. It’s really hurt.  I thought I’m tough and strong to handle it. I thought it’s enough to have him physically by my side even just the body. I thought it’s okay cause she’d dead.  But I’m wrong. I’m totally wrong.  I’m being greedy.  It’s not enough.   Am I wrong? Am I selfish to want my own husband to love me back?” said Jaejoong with tears already falls down to his cheeks.  “Jae..” “He thinks our first kiss is at the gym but it’s not, it’s her first kiss not mine. I’m at my limit, Su. I can’t do this anymore. It’s killing me inside. No wonder he can change easily, its to fulfill her wish.” “No, Jae you’re wrong. He’s already in love with you, he really does love you.  Why don’t you give him a chance? Jae you guys just have a couple fight.  Isn’t he being nicer to you? He cooked for you. Do you know how rare that thing to happen?  That’s the first time ok that he ever succeed.  And how he can succeed?  It’s all because of you, he cooked while thinking about you.  He cooked with full of love. “Anybody can do that.” “Maybe anybody but Jung Yunho is a different story.”  *- End of flashback-* Ding Dong Junsu open the door after put Jae to bed. “Su, I know he is here, please let me see him.” “He already asleep, Yun.” answered Junsu as he makes way for Yunho to enter and showed him the room. Yunho come closer to his sleeping wife and he can see the stain of tears. “He cry didn’t he?” asked Yunho sadly after kiss Jaejoong’s forehead and eye. Junsu nod. “I’ve never see him crying like that Yun, he’s not that kind of guy. What is actually happened?” Junsu followed Yunho to the living room. “Told you the truth I’ve no idea.” Yunho explained to Junsu that he just came back from the store and Jaejong asking question that he didn’t answer yet. “Why wouldn’t you answer it? Did you-” “I love him, Su. I love him so much.” “Then why on earth did you not tell him that?” “I want to but he already left.” “Yunho, where you guys had your first kiss?” “At the dojo.” “What? When? You did not confuse it with your first kiss with her right?” “What?” suddenly it trigger Yunho’s memory about why suddenly Jaejoong not in the mood when they kissed at the dojo. “Owh no! He didn’t think like that right?” “Yun, we all know that you got your first kiss with her at the dojo. He also witness it remembered?” “Owh shoot. I forgot that she and I also kiss at the dojo.” “What do you mean?” “Well I already kissed him before I met her.” “And why he doesn’t know about it?” “Maybe because I stole it?” “What?” “I stole the kiss. I’m a straight guy back then remember? But seeing his cute sleeping face is so hard for me to resist the urge to kiss him. So I kiss him while he took a nap at the dojo and nobody knows about it until today.” “You need to tell him that. And Su, next time please locked the door.” both of them shocked and turn to face Yoochun who just enter the house. “Chunnie.. you got me scared.” whined Junsu. “You better be. Please be more careful next time.” Yoochun warned Junsu. “Ne.. Chun. Why are you here?” asked Junsu. “To know what happened. To know why you denied him and treat him badly after married when you already kiss him since high school.” “Maybe because I don’t want to admit that I like men. I’m confused. This guy comes to my life and made me kiss him without doing anything.” “But that doesn’t give you the rights to treat him badly after you guys got married. You agreed to it after all.” scolded Yoochun. “Well at that time, I think I’m mad at myself more for easily forget about her. I am a bad boyfriend. My girlfriend is suffered before she died and when I got married, I slowly forgot about her. Maybe that is why I always visit her grave to make sure I keep remembering her.” “Chunnie, what is going on that make Jae become like that?” “Because of this.” answered Yoochun while showing them her will. “What is this?” asked Yunho after finish reading it. “Her will. She asked me to give it to you after she is dead. But I kept it because I trust my instinct that you guys loves each other and he deserved to be love not because of the will.” “And he jump to conclusion that I love him because of this? After all that happened he still not trusts me yet? Not trust my love?” Yunho said disbelief with what he heard. “You cannot blame him Yunho when you are the one who hesitated to answer his question before. He asked you twice but still no answer. You never said that three words to him Yun.” “But I did many things to make him feel loved.  I showed him that I love him. That’s not enough?” Yunho started to feel annoyed. “It’s true that action speaks louder than word but sometimes we cannot just assume things.” “But..” Yunho doesn’t know what to say anymore. He fells sad because Jaejoong still not full trust him yet but he also confused why he didn’t say the three magic words. “Can I sleep here tonight, Su? Please…” beg Yunho. “Me too Su please.. I want to sleep next to you.” teased Yoochun. After all both of them already tired and it is already past midnight. “Fine! but you guys will sleep here in the living room ok?  And Yunho you better make up with Jaejooong tomorrow.” warned Junsu.