five (1/1)

There was a knock on Luhan’s door. It took him two minutes to get to the door and opened it. The moment the door was slowly opened, Sehun pulled Luhan into his embrace, squeezing the smaller male because Sehun too, missed Luhan a lot. Sehun lifted up the smaller male and carried him onto his bed. Sehun wasn’t the strongest person on earth, but because Luhan was so frail, Sehun could easily lift him up without breaking a sweat. Usually people would think this sort of action is sweet, however it broke Sehun’s heart. He didn’t want to see Luhan being so weak and sick, so instead of treating Luhan dinner, maybe cooking something for him was a better choice. “You stay in bed, I’ll cook something for you.” Sehun said as he laid Luhan on the bed and tucked him in the blanket. He looked at the smaller male, he wasn’t sure if sympathy struck him or his motherly love evolved after seeing Luhan lying in bed helplessly. Sehun quickly moved to the kitchen and started to measure the rice for gruel. That’s what he always eats when he fell sick, although being unsure about the reason behind it. He read it online that bread was actually easier to be digested as compared to gruel when an individual is sick, but he didn’t like it as bread is usually cold and dry which made his sore throat worse. He liked it when the food is warm. As he was recalling about all these information, he was already done with the cooking and served it in a glass bowl. With the bowl of gruel carried in his hands he walked into Luhan’s bedroom and found Luhan asleep. He sat on the bed beside Luhan and the smaller male was awakened by the slight movement of his mattress. Sehun brought a smile to Luhan’s face even though he was unwell, knowing that the man he loves was there for him when he needed him the most. The taller male helped Luhan up and sat closer to him. He gently blew off the heat of the gruel and fed Luhan spoon by spoon, Luhan was like an obedient kid nibbling on the gruel. After he finished the food, Sehun ruffled Luhan’s hair and smiled, showing his satisfaction over Luhan’s obedience.  He then gave a peck on Luhan’s forehead before heading to the kitchen to do the dishes.  “You’re… not afraid?” Luhan asked as he slid down into his bed again.“About what?” Sehun opened the water tap and began washing, turned his head over to look at Luhan in his bedroom.“You hugged and kissed me and all…”  Sehun didn’t say a word until he was done with the dishes. He wiped his hands dry and walked back into Luhan’s bedroom. Luhan felt that a warm body snuggled into his bed and ended up lying beside him, sharing the same single bed and blanket. Sehun snaked his arms around Luhan’s torso and pecked his neck. “So where were we?” Sehun asked as he smiled.“I have an incurable disease, aren’t you afraid?”“Afraid of what, Xiao Lu?”“That you… you might get infected as well…” Sehun hugged Luhan tighter and let out a sigh. “No. I’m not afraid. I googled up and found out that HIV won’t be transmitted as long as there’s no body fluid contact, or wounds. Don’t worry, Xiao Lu, don’t worry about me. I still love you.” Luhan shut his eyes and cuddled into Sehun’s embrace. “I love you too.” ** Luhan’s sickness subsided and he went back to work again. He would go home and find Sehun waiting for him at home and occasionally would cook dinner for Luhan. Luhan indeed felt blessed because Sehun chose to stay beside him even though he has HIV. There is no one like Sehun. Their couple life was back to normal, just that they could no longer have sex. Luhan didn’t have any problems with it because he has lost his mood to even think of having sex, because it would only haunt him more, that sooner or later, he would die. However it wasn’t easy for Sehun.He missed having sex with Luhan, he missed having sex. But he tried to swallow all the thoughts up, he could no longer have sex with Luhan for the obvious reason: he didn’t want to get infected. Sehun would ignore his thoughts when he cuddled with Luhan at night, as if this would ever work out.  “No babe I can’t make it tonight.”Luhan overheard Sehun who was on the phone when he opened the apartment door after coming back from work. Babe? Who was Sehun calling ‘babe’? He didn’t recall Sehun having anyone close to him, other than Luhan himself.While they’re having dinner together that night, Luhan couldn’t help but to bring up his trouble.  “Who have you been hanging out with recently?”“What are you talking about?” Sehun lifted up his head after gulping down some hot soup.“You’re not cheating on me right?” Luhan hadn’t touched his food at all.“Xiao Lu…”