Forgiven...not (1/1)

December 12/Key 2 AM But you promised me. I looked at the person lying on the bed. Pale, trembling, and looked like dying.I held her hand, abstaining from giving in to the temptation of bawling my eyes out. I put my hand on her neck; and the hot dryness of me scorched me.I moved my arm, and I winced as I felt a sharp stab of pain. The cut was deep, and now it’s swelling. My eyes travelled once again and stopped on the one lying down, who, apparently, was the one who caused this. Last night, 11pm The rain was pouring hard, and as I looked out the window, I thought of HyunMi. Truth be told, she never really escaped my mind. Her presence in my head ballasts my spirits and it’s accompanied by the concern I have for her. Moreover, I long for the old her, which I think, is impossible to be found as of the moment. Or maybe even never. I thought to myself. Usually in other things, I’m really optimistic. But now I suppose my optimism just lost its ability to function. I rested my forehead on my palm and it swept the bangs upward. I sighed. I clutched the handle of the mug, and in my inhalation the warm air of the Americano wafted in my nose. The shower gets harder and the violent beating sound of the raindrops on the glass-windows becomes evil.Though I couldn’t point out what it was exactly, something was agonizing me. I was waiting for something which is popularly known to be nothing. I was startled when something vibrated next to my hand. The screen showed So Eul-noona’s name, and I gulped before picking up the call. “Yobosseyo?”“Key!” a startled voice from the other end exclaimed.“What’s the matter, noona?”“It’s HyunMi! She—she’s—missing!”My heart felt like it jumped to my throat. “Since when?!” I jolted up from my seat and sandwiched my phone in between my ear and shoulder as I frantically looked for my jacket.“I’m sorry, Key. But I don’t know! I haven’t seen her since this morning! And I’m afraid  she’s been gone missing since last night! I tried to call her, only to find out that she left her phone here!” here noona was sobbing in panic. “Help me, Key. Please! She might be in danger!”“I will noona, I will.” I swore in between gritted teeth. “Just wait for me there,” and I ended the call. I took huge steps for the door, in the resolution to look for my partner with sheer alacrity. But I was halted when a voice said, coming from the other side of the room: “where are you going?”My hand gripped the doorknob tightly. “Just tell the others that I went out to buy something, hyung, please,” I said, beseech present in my voice, that something in my expression made Onew-hyung understand that there was some trouble going on. So started my racking cavalcade of looking for HyunMi. As I looked for her I prayed silently in my mind that no calamity had befallen her. Or at least, just yet.Hang in there. Hang in there.  As much as I didn’t want to think about it, the idea kept on daunting me. The probabilities were so high I lived under its delusion. I went to every bar and every place possible in the city, but I found no HyunMi. I was on the verge of giving up when alas—three hours of searching brought me to her.Where? In front of a liquor store not so far from the mansion. “WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?” I stood before her.No response.I knelt. “Hey,” I tapped her cheek. The rain was becoming a drizzle now. “HyunMi?”“Muh?” she woke up. “That was rude, Key, I was sleeping,”Normally I’d prefer being called ‘Key’ instead of ‘Kibum’, but when it comes to HyunMi, it’s turned all the way around. “In the middle of the street? At night? In the rain? Get up. Let’s go home. You’re drunk.” I hoisted up her arm.“I am NOT.” She swatted it out of my hold.“Let’s go home. I MEAN IT!” I yelled.She stood up by herself,  oh so groggily, and started walking. “I’ll go home by myself. You go home to your dorm.” She was swaying back and forth, until finally she crashed on the concrete.And a great deal of cussing followed.A moment later she stood up again, the fragments of her dignity left scattered on the ground. My heart was being crushed at the sight of her in shambles. Even more, I was the one who caused her this. With a stomp, I followed after her and swung her over my shoulder like a bag.“L-let go f me! I DON’T NEED YOU!”she thrashed against me, beating my back with her fists. She flapped her legs as I walked, but I held her tight as I resisted the urge of dropping her. Good thing her resistance was what sedated her. I put her in the car and we went to the mansion. “Thank goodness you found her!” So Eul-noona’s pale face welcomed us.“I’ll put her in her room, noona,” I stated, making my way to the stairs.“I’ll get her water,” she said shakily.“That would be wise,” and I climbed up. I settled her on a chair, and went to the cabinet to get a towel. I leafed through her clothes, and I heard a crash. Looking over my shoulder, I realized what it was. “HEY PUT THAT DOWN!” I scrambled forward and tried to get the scissors from her hold.“I WANNA DIE, OKAY?! LET ME GO!”We fought over it, and as luck would have it, I won, with it and my scathed arm as the reward.I groaned in pain, and I was ready to hit her when she fainted. I didn’t know which hurt more, my pride or my arm. The cut was deep, truly.I lifted her up and escorted her to the bed. I plopped her there. Just in time, So Eul noona entered.              * * * Her fingers flicked. I sat in silence as I anticipated for her waking up. But she didn’t. instead, she sleep-talked.“Ki—Kibum-ah… I’m sorry…” she mewled. “Kibum-ah, I’m so sorry…” she kept on saying. I didn’t know what I was doing but I replied—“Yes. What is it for?”If there was no incident of an asleep person talking to an awake one ever recorded in history, ours would be first. “D-Dongwoon…” she whimpered, making soft moans. “I…he…we…I’m sorry... but we…”I swallowed the big lump on my throat. “You…?”She trailed off, but her last whisper was, “…kissed.” I pursed my lips, not knowing whether I should cry or curse. I closed my eyes tightly. Having made up my mind, I laughed.“No surprise there,” I replied to the air.  -HyunMi -____- I opened my eyes and it cataloged the familiar sight of my room’s ceiling. My head was throbbing; it felt like it’d explode anytime.Why are you here? I turned my head and there he was. Then I saw something on his arm, and it sent a chill across my spine when I realized what it was: a deep cut.What have I done? “Ki-Kibum-ah…I’m sorry…” I whispered, and sobbed silently.  Key.Something soft was on my arm, caressing it so softly. I opened my eyes a little to peek, and it registered the amusing sight of HyunMi putting something on my wound while crying.I prevented to smile while I listened to all that she said.Oh yes. I am such a sadist at times.“I’ve been pushing you away. But why’d you help me? Nobody told you to! Now look what you made me do!” she said in broken whispers. Because I wouldn’t let you die on the streets, idiot. I opened my eyes and yawned. “What are you doing?”She looked at me, her hazel brown eyes shining with moist. Her lips were trembling, and her chin was starting to quiver.I acted like I was oblivious of the idea. “What are you doing?” I asked again.She finally exploded, out came her cries as she repeated on saying, “Mianhae”. She buried her face in her hands and wept with the penitence of a little child. To be honest I wanted to tell her to stop, but I hadn’t the courage to do so. Of course the cut did hurt, and it annoyed me for it marred my flawless skin. I rolled down my sleeve to cover the wound. “I’m fine. You don’t need to—“ I was on the act of standing up, but something tugged me back.“A-at least j-just…let me tend it…” she hiccupped. Ohohohoho this is amusing me. I went back to my seat betraying no sign of my joy. I offered her my arm, and she did her job. “OUCH!” I flinched.“S-sorry! I’m so sorry!” she cried.“Aiiiiiissshhh this is all your fault!” I hissed.“I’m sorry…” she hiccupped, tears threatening to stream down her cheeks. Nevertheless, she continued mending my injury. I observed her for a while, and presently I said, “Guilty, aren’t you?”She covered her nose with the back of her hand and sniffed. “Hm-mm.”Suddenly my sadism crumbled, that I put down her hand. “Stop crying.” Subconsciously, I was leaning forwards her. “Shhh… I’m sorry, too…” now our faces were just inches from each other and I was rubbing her back.“I’m sorry…”“Stop saying sorry,” I said commandingly, but softly.She was still sobbing, and didn’t heed my order. “I’m sorry… Dongwoon and I—““—shhh.” I put my hand on her mouth. “Don’t,”She put it down. “But you gotta know—““—I know, HyunMi. I know.” At first she wore a confused expression, but when she realized I meant it literally, she cried yet again. I took possession of both of her cheeks and made her face me. And I said in a soothing voice; though the pain was, undeniably, eating me up inside. “I know. I know.”“But we—““—yes, yes. You kissed, okay. You kissed.” I said grimly, a little annoyed. “And it’s not like I—“ and my sentence was left hanging on my mouth, for I was interrupted with a hug.I would’ve gladly leapt out of my skin for what she did utterly electrified me, but I said, succeeding in being natural, “For the endth time, HyunMi. Stop crying,”“But I—““—HyunMi, stop. You’re becoming ridiculous.” I pulled out, and the sight of her face reminded me of the gravity of what she did. I stood up, and hardened my heart. “And I saw that one coming,”“You mean you’re not—““—Jealous?” I scoffed, and laughed. “Jealous? Oh, no!” I twirled around the room in the most dramatic manner. “Of course not! I know my worth, HyunMi. You like Dongwoon and he likes you, and that’s the story, yes? See? And I’ll just…I’ll just…I’ll just…I…” my words failed me. Good thing my back was on her, so she didn’t see my face of stupor while I tried hard to think of anything to add for the continuity of my sentence.I didn’t know I was taking too long until a pair of arms muffed themselves around me, and a head stuck itself on my shoulder. “Kibum…please…”I lowered my head and heaved a sharp sigh. “Just…don’t…” I shook my head, not really knowing what to say. I removed her arms off around my torso and walked towards the door. “And that’s Key for you.” I said before going out of the room. ------------------------lol ok so I'M BACK FROM MY MONTH-LONG HIATUS!READERS, I'M SORRY. I'M VERY, VERY SORRY. I'LL MAKE IT UP TO YOU. I know you won't believe me this time but IT'S SUMMER VACATION SO I HAVE 2 MONTHS TO FEED YOU WITH CHAPTER UPDATES. and oh yeah for the endth time this fic is coming to an end. I don't ship HyunKey or DongwoonxHyunMi (somebody please make me a couple name for them) but LOL I WANT DONGKEY TO END UP TOGETHER INSTEADHAHAHAHHAkbye