[M] Danger (1/1)

The car ride back was different, I tried to keep myself from glancing at him too much but I couldnt help it, he felt good against me earlier like that and I hate to admit it because it feels wrong to be able to say that about someone else. Staring out the window I watched the cars and people go by and just sighed for a moment I didnt want to go home that was another scary fact....truth is I wanted to stay with him longer and that was bad...Yoseob smiled and said "I have fun this morning with you and I hope maybe if you want to we could do it again sometime?"Smiling I said "Id love to do you sometime" then my eyes got big and I looked at him and he slowed the car down and pulled over to the curb. My hand went over my face and I felt like dying like seriously can I just die here please!"Leo what does that mean?"I shook my head and said "what does what mean......." please let me play this off he is my only friend right now and now Im making things weird just because I said I wanted to do him.....God do I really? I chanced a glance at him and my eyes are evil! They sized him up the way I used to do N back in the day, looking at his knee's and then those thighs.....that stomach and chest till finally I saw his face and he let out a sigh and then he said"Leo you are making me nervous right now, looking at me like that"Licking my lips I said "I need to walk it off" he reached over and grabbed my wrist and said"Are you attracted to me like that?"His small hand was so soft against mine, and I looked at it and he let go and said"Im sorry I didnt mean to touch you, I just dont want you to go just yet....I know im being selfish right now and Im sorry for that too"I looked at his hand and reached over and touched it, it was softer then anything Ive ever felt before and for a moment I wonder if all of that smooth skin hiding under his clothes felt like that. Soft and delicate just like he was, but only he wasnt my boyfriend and this should feel wrong....right?"You are not being selfish I just need to get out of this car before I do something that I cant undo, I need a moment to myself" I could feel that I was hard now and that made this whole situation more uncomfortable then ever! Yoseob looked over at my pants and let go of my hand and said"oh, I think I see what you are talking about now"I huffing and put my hand over my lap hoping that would help but since Im rather...large its hard to hide it once it gets this big, just thinking about taking him here in this car is a real turn on for some reason. Letting go of his hand I pulled away and said"I will see you tonight at the musical, dont worry I will be fine by then"He smiled at me and said "I will see you tonight" and I knew he was trying not to make this any more awkward then it had to be, I sighed and said"Take care" and opened the door and made myself get out before I lost control, what was that just now between us? It felt like something but that cant be, it just cant happen again either. I started walking and heard him turn the car around and go back to his dorm, come to think of it Ive never been to his place before maybe I could stay the night. What the hell am I thinking wanting to stay over, am I really that lonely right now? Its only been almost a week since Suho left and after tomorrow he comes home finally, and then we can pick up where things left off and I can give him this ring. Smiling to myself I pulled out my sunglasses and walked the few blocks back to the dorm, my mind went back to Suho and our first time together. He was so nervous and as much as I could have waited forever to have sex with him I made sure everything was on his terms. My cock twitched at just remembering our first kiss, how I wish I could kiss those lips right now. Sighing to myself I wondered what he was doing right now? It was almost noon so I guess he would be getting ready for the show right?Pulling out my phone I sent him a text that was simple and to the point "I miss you so much today, do you miss me too? I cant wait till I can hold you in my arms again and feel your breath on my skin...Love you always your Lion" I hit send and waited for a reply, he wrote back:How could I not miss you? I will be home soon, XO 2 your Suho: I smiled at it and picked up my pace heading back to the dorm going even faster, the wind hit me and I got a whiff of myself and I smelled like Yoseob....he wore expensive cologne and it was a mixture of spice with a floral smell to it....I kept walking passing by the dorm twice trying to get the smell of of me but I had to admit it was a nice smell. Stopping for a coffee at my favorite hole in the wall coffee shop I got my latte and went to the darkest corner of the place. My mind was scrambled right now, I got my phone out and re read Suho's text and then my mind went back to earlier with Yoseob, its true that I do feel something...how can I even think that right now! Its just because Im horny and I need sex, thats all any of this is its just hormones right? But what about that girl, the one I danced with who I saw crying at the jewelry store....Ive worked with her for months now but she always kept to herself and did her lines perfectly she was always so professional about everything and Ive never looked at a woman before. Why did I tell her that I might not be gay, of course Im gay Im with a man for crying out loud. I had sex with him, I do other things with him and I find him irresistible and perfect in every single way...but she did feel good in my arms, didnt she? She reminded me of....herSipping my latte I tried to clear my head to think about anything else but it was difficult, part of me wanted to get back into Yoseob's car and go home with him...the other part wanted something that terrified me more the anything else did, what should I do? Letting my mind ramble on I thought back to my friend in school that passed away, if she grew up would she look like Leilah? Would she be kind like Yoseob, would she love me? Or would she have met someone else and started a life with out me, they say that you never get over your first love..is that what we shared together? Was it love or just a deep crush....I guess if she had lived maybe my life would have been different then what it is now.Once the latte was finished it was mid afternoon and I needed to get back to the dorm and shower and get changed for the musical, then comes the date tonight...Is it really a date? I mean it isnt a date date just plans with a friend, someone that I care for...come to think about it maybe I should have invited Leilah along I wonder how she is doing considering she just got dumped a few days ago. Maybe I will ask her tonight at the show, I smiled remembering how she came into my dressing room right before Ren arrived and was being flirty and bold, I do like boldness in a person. What am I thinking she is a GIRL!Shaking my head I forced myself to get up and finally go home, at least for a short while. I left the coffee shop and headed back towards the dorm which was only a few short blocks away. My mind went back to N and finding him like that earlier this morning, not something I wanted to think about but still it was heavy on my mind. How could someone like that exist in this world someone so dangerous to kidnap someone and try to force themselves on another person. That reminds me there is still one guy out there somewhere isnt there? The one that hurt N I cant believe someone is still out there like that, but at least I know that now my Suho is safe even if he is with a snake. I took my phone out again and looked at the text he sent me and smiled, soon he would be back home with me where he belongs and we can pick up where we left off. Hopefully he wont be too upset by Kris leaving because lets face it thats what he does doesnt he? He uses people then leaves them and you know what else I hope he does love Suho and I hope when he leaves him that it breaks his heart because thats only a small amount of what he deserves. Smiling to myself I had to enjoy thinking about the look on Kris's face, watching Suho with me and watching him take my ring and put it on his hand.Soon I arrived at the dorm and got in the elevator I could still smell Yoseob on me and my dick was still.....begging for attention, really after all of this and still it wants me to take care of it. I opened the door to the dorm and walked in Ken and N were sitting on the couch near the big window and my heart sank looking at him. He didnt look defeated but he looked worn out, and his poor arm was in a sling but it didnt appear to be broke. I barely remember walking across the room towards him all I remember was saying"Im just so glad we found you, I was so scared for you so scared"He hugged me back and said "hush its alright now, Kat is put away and Ren is in jail also"I pulled back and said looking into his face "that still leaves one guy left though, what do you want to do about him?"N shook his head and Ken spoke up and said "He doesnt want to catch him, and I cant blame him. These two were dangerous enough I cant imagine how this guy would be, especially alone"N was still so close to me and I had to admit it felt good when his hand went up the side of my neck, it wasnt in the least bit sexual but it felt good. I looked at him and he said"I know how much you miss Suho, and how confused you must be about his choices"I pulled farther away from him and said  "I dont want to talk about me, this is about you right now"I didnt want to think about him with Kris, just him coming back to me...even if he had sex with Kris that wouldnt matter to me, because I will heal him and be everything that he ever needs, just me.N smiled a little and said "Make sure you are at the airport when Suho comes in, he is going to need you more then ever"I sighed and tried to change the subject "I know, well I need a shower I have a musical to attend to tonight"N was smart enough to know when I didnt want to discuss something he huffed at me and said"Jung Taekwoon will you listen to me  please?"I started walking towards the bathroom and said "what mom!"He got back up and started walking towards me with a purpose and said"Look you are just playing a dangerous game right now and trust me from experience if you are not clear with Yoseob how you feel he will fall for you"I couldnt help myself I smirked at him and said "He already has but he knows the rules and which lines I wont cross, Im not a whore after all. I dont go around sleeping with someone just because I like them"N hung his head and said "you like him dont you?"That was it I couldnt take it anymore I went into the bathroom and slammed the door shut not caring who heard me or not, how could he just say that! I dont like Yoseob that way....do I? Taking off my clothes I smelled then once and sighed before throwing them into the dirty hamper, standing there naked I looked down at myself and saw my..sticking out and proud, shaking my head I felt the pain start in it and knew that if I didnt take care of this now I would be in no position to be on stage in a few hours. Walking over to the shower I turned on the water and stepped in, my hard cock bounced a little at the movements and that also bothered me. I dont like doing this but maybe I can force myself, if I just think about him. Sighing to myself I moved so the water was hitting my chest and I closed my eyes and let me imagination over take my mind. Someone's lips on my head slowly sucking on the end up my tip, looking down I saw blonde hair and it was my Suho but for a moment I saw a darker hair color and a different mouth was sucking on me...am I going crazy?