Confession. (1/1)

Kai’s P.O.VI was walking slowly even when I wanted to get back as soon as possible. I felt heavier and heavier with every step I gave. I was walking back from meeting Sori and the only thing in my mind was “How the fuck am I going to tell Kyungsoo?” Since it wasn’t my fault there was no need for me to feel so guilty but hell, I was feeling like I cheated on him on purpose. Maybe worse than that.Sori wanted to go on a date and I thought that it couldn’t be that bad. It was a good chance to tell her that she could do whatever she wanted and say whatever she thought, but I wasn’t going to leave Kyungsoo and I wasn’t going to keep pretending that we were dating. I had to find a good moment though. I got the chance when we were walking by the park and I began to say the speech I had practiced before. But of course things couldn’t turn out good. The next thing I know is that I’m trapped against the wall and Sori was kissing me.I must have walked faster than I thought because when I shook those thoughts away, I was already standing outside of the house. I reached for the knob and noticed I was shaking a little. The least thing I wanted was to hurt Kyungsoo but I felt like I already did. Dragging my feet instead of walking properly I made my way inside. It was silent but I knew Kyungsoo was there. I didn’t bother looking in our room cause I figured he’d be cooking something.I pushed the door open and found him eating a cookie. His brows were furrowed together but when he saw me, his expression changed. He was happy to see me and that made things worst. Because I felt like I didn’t deserve it.“Hey” –I said softly, walking closer to him. He put the cookie down and did the same.“This might sound silly but I’ve missed you” –He chuckled. He held on to my hand and stared at me. Kyungsoo’s expression asked me if I’d missed him too.“It’s not silly. I don’t like being apart from you either”Then we remained quiet. I had a presentment that he already knew. Maybe Sori told him. If he did, why wasn’t he angry at me? Why was he acting as if nothing had happened? Then it occurred to me that he just wanted me to confirm it and while I wanted to make sure he was calm before telling him, there was no point on delaying the inevitable. But it was so hard to tell him and even when I made up different speeches on my way back I still had no clue of what to say. “Actually, there’s something that I need to tell you.” I said, leaning against the counter and asking him to sit down. Kyunsoo looked at me curiously before pulling a chair and sitting on it. “Before anything, I just wanted to remind you that I love you and that I never meant to hurt you but I have to tell you because you deserve to know. Kyung nodded. I bit down on my lower lip, thinking of what to say next. He, noticing this, moved closer to me and put his hand on top of mine reassuringly. “The other day…Sori kind of asked me to pretend we were dating because we’ll you see, she has liked me for a while now. Anyway, I first told her a straight no because even if it wasn’t real it could be consider cheating and by no means was I okay with doing that. But in the end I agreed. I’m still not sure why I did that. Today I went out with her. That was what I was doing. I planned on telling her that this whole thing was pointless because I love you and only you and that would remain unchanged. But when I was doing so, she kind of …kissed me. I’m sorry” – I was looking down to avoid his eyes because I was afraid of what he was thinking at the moment and I could tell what that was just by looking at him.There was a brief silence before he talked.“Did you kiss her back?”“No,” –I answered instantly, shaking my head.“But I’m guessing you didn’t pushed her away either, did you?”“No” –I repeated. I held back my breath when he stood up and walked around the kitchen restlessly. “W-what are you thinking?”“I’m thinking …that it really is hard to hate you. I’m angry and disappointed and honestly, It makes me question if you were being serious when you proposed last night or if it was something to cover up these lies. But I…I understand and while I’m everything but happy at the moment, I have to thank you for telling me. It means a lot to me because you didn’t try to hide it.” “I was being completely serious though. I still am. I can’t imagine my life without you. I just can’t. I know that my acts are confusing but please never doubt that I love you with all I have because that’s the way it is. “Kyungsoo’s eyes were teary. You could tell he was desperately trying to hold some tears back from his eyes. Even so, he still smiled at me.“I know. I just need to calm down” –He whispered “I must really look silly right now. Feeling and acting like this when I know perfectly that you didn’t mean to and it was a simple kiss anyways but I just can’t help myself.”Without saying a word, I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him closer to myself, carefully watching his reaction in case he was too upset for me to touch him just yet. It pained me because he didn’t embrace me back. Of course I knew he wouldn’t but it still hurt me.“Do you think you’ll be able to forgive me?”“…Of course. It’s gonna take some time, but I will. I’ll always forgive you, stupid. But you’re not gonna do it again, right?” –He said, barely hiding his face from me.“I won’t. I swear” –I kissed his forehead. Kyungsoo’s eyes closed shut and a couple of tears rolled down his round cheeks.“I told you before, didn’t I? You’re not allowed to leave me. I won’t forgive you if you do”“I know. I don’t want to leave you and I hope you won’t leave me either” –I whispered.After a while, Kyungsoo’s trembling hands hugged me back, holding me tightly. He dug his face in my chest and only then did he start crying. Every time he sobbed I felt like dying. His warm tears soaked my shirt.“I feel like shit. This is the second time I make you cry like this even when I said I wouldn’t do it anymore. I’m sorry, Kyunggie. Please don’t cry. I’ll do anything! If you want me to dress up in a banana costume and dance around, I’ll do it so please stop crying”Kyungsoo’s sobbing got louder.“You’re just making it worse!”“I-I’m sorry” –I stuttered and then I stopped trying to say anything.I wiped away his tears, erasing every single track of them and planted hundred of kisses on his ticklish spot behind his ear. I never let the tight grip loosen. If I was the cause of his tears then I also wanted to be the one who stopped them, the one who calmed him down.  Chen’s P.O.V“Minnie, please don’t get angry!” –I pouted. Xiumin looked at me a couple of seconds before giving me a ‘hmph!’ and then turned away, avoiding my gaze at any cost. “Come on, it’s not that bad! It could’ve been worse!”“Not that bad?”  -He scoffed. “Do you have any idea of the trouble you got me into?!”“I didn’t mean to!”  “Right” –He said sarcastically. “I honestly can’t believe you did something so reckless! Do you even know me?!”“Well yea-““Wait wait wait, what did he do again?” –Yixing asked. “Lay, it’s kind of a private conversation” –Xiumin said a little annoyed. “Well excuse me but you’re the ones who are being awfully loud. It’s not my fault. But seriously, what did you do?” –He asked again, this time looking directly at me. “I…I called Mother last night.” –I confessed. “Xiumin’s mom, actually.” “That sounds interesting.” –He laughed. “Keep going” “Well- I kind of told her that Min and I were together.” –I said. I glanced at Xiumin and saw him glaring at me. Hard. “So?”“So?!” –Xiumin scoffed. “Ever since this fucker appeared in my life, she has been pestering me to date him and now that I’m doing it and by my own will she will surely be fangirling all over. I bet she has called everyone and she went like ‘They’re really gonna get married!’ and that’s not even the worst part” “Then what is it?”“She has been waiting for this moment for years and I, her son, was not even the one who told her. This is the same woman who grounded me just because I didn’t want to share my room with my ‘fiancé’. Do you have a clue of how pissed off she’s gonna be?! It’s scary!” “I don’t think so, really. I think it’s more stupid than scary” –Yixing laughed again earning a punch on the shoulder by Xiumin. “What do you know, Yixing?! You weren’t even part of the conversation” –Xiumin said and returned to his gloomy state. “Minnie, I already apologized. I’ll call her later and make up for it so don’t be angry.” –I said. I always hated when Minseok ignored me like this. It was possibly the worst punishment I could get from him. His phone began to ring at that time and as soon as he saw the caller’s name, he threw his phone at me. “If you’re really sorry then it’s your chance to prove it. There’s no way in hell I’m picking that shit up.” –He did sounded a little scared but I never understood why he was a afraid of his mother. She was always an angel, well, at least to me. I sighed heavily and nodded before answering to probably the most awkward conversation I had in my life.  Tao’s P.O.V “Un-pack everything, pack everything, could you just decide already?” –Kris growled as he kept throwing his clothes angrily at his suitcase rather than folding them. “Kris, do it properly! I don’t know what you’re complaining about. You’re just doing your luggage this time. See? Mine is nice and organized~” –I said as I pointed out to my suitcase, proud. “That’s only because stupid Suho helped you” –He pouted. “That’s the benefits you get when you’re nice to people and don’t want to rip their heads off.” –I said, rolling my eyes. Actually Suho did offered to help Kris do his luggage but he assured him he had ‘everything under control’ “But still! We have to leave already?! I don’t want to go back. You guys left the apartment a mess and I’ll have to bitch around so you’ll actually clean. God, I hate this.” “But look at the bright side, we’ll have a free room soon” –I said, smiling widely. “So?”“So I’ll have another room to store plushies and wushu equipment. Doesn’t that sound amazing?” “I-“ Kris got cut off by Baekhyun who knocked the door and then walked in really pissed. “What did you do to Channie?!” –He asked angrily and crossed his arms over his chest. Kris backed away and muttered a nothing. “Lies!” –He yelled. “You drugged him, didn’t you? He’s been sleeping since we came back!”“No” –Kris said then he backed away further “Okay, fine, I might gave him a sleeping pill but it was just because he wouldn’t shut up!” “So you did drugged him?” –I asked, raising a brow. “Oh god. You were planning on taking advantage of him in that state, weren’t you?!” “What?!” –Baek and Kris said at the same time. Baekhyun had a disgusted face the whole time while I was trying my best not to laugh my ass off at how Kris was trying to tell the truth to Baekhyun who was seriously fuming. “Stay away from my boyfriend, Kris! I know he’s sexy and everything but you had your chance when he was single. Plus, you have Tao. If you want to be nasty then drug him instead but don’t you dare try doing something to my baby!” –Baekhyun hissed and then he turned around and left, slamming the door shut. I let out my laugher and Kris got even angrier. “I-I can’t breathe!” –I laughed as I held my stomach. “It’s not funny! I’m going to kill you. Everyone will be pestering me about this for my whole life!”“Count on it” –I said, barely managing to calm down. “Oh my god that was seriously the best part of this trip.”Kris kept glaring at me so I decided to help him do his luggage. But he still glared at me even then.  ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------I bet you didn't expect me to double update huh. Did I surprised you ^^? I really hope you understood chapter 34 cause I was having my  SERIOUS doubts about it plus I'm not really goot at explaining what I have in my head so sorry if it's no good. How to say this...? We're kind of...sort of....approaching the end. Omg I just don't want to finish this fic but that's just the way this works T^T Not yet though but soon. In other news, I'm really bitting my tongue so I don't say anything about all the craziness going around in the fandom these days. Uh it's too much to handle. Thank you guys for your support and for being so lovely♥ I shall call my subbies GDTOP NATION YAY okay fine I won't. But I love you a lot and I'm really thankful. See you soon!