The little broken girl. (1/1)

Sori's P.O.V"SO-RI" Kai sang as he came back with our Ice cream. We were just walking on the old town's port. We seated on the edge of the dock and kept silent for some time. (note: it looks something like this upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/c/cf/Muelle_de_Colonia_del_Sacramento.jpg) "Back then, when your brother asked me to visit your parents with him in summer, we used to come here and play all day long. We ended up with horrible sunburns!" He tried to make me think of something else but I was only thinking of the incident of that morning. -Flashback-"YOU DIDN'T LOCK THE DOOR?!" Yelled the one who was on top of Kai. He quickly got off of him."I DIDN'T KNOW WE WERE GOING TO DO THIS!" "It was obvious! We're both males, isn't it natural that we're thinking about this kind of thing?!" "Yes! but you always said you weren't ready! Sorry for trying to wait for you!" "Come on, you were thinking of doing it even before I did anything!" "Okay. Calm down. That's not the real problem here." He buttoned his shirt and they both came closer to me. "Umm Sori, It’s not what it looks like! I mean, it is but we were just-""Don't" Kai interrupt him. "Don't try to fool her, Kyungsoo. She's already a teenager. She knows what we were doing” Kai grabbed him and they tried to talk in whispers, but it didn't worked because I could still hear them."..Yes, I know. But I the poor girl just saw something awful! I mean, If I saw my older brother doing something like that..." "Okay first, it wasn't a big deal, we didn't go that far. And second, I'm not her older brother.""But you are like her role model. You have been with her for some time...""Hey, It's okay. I'll take care of it, okay? I'll talk to her, she will understand. We were only doing a little teasing, so it's fine." "Take care of it? No way! I...It was my fault too...for not locking the door either....so um we'll talk to her together and It will be alright. Right, Sori?" He turned to me but I was still not able to talk. I looked down and tried to nod, but my body wouldn't respond. "No. I'll do it. I've known her for a long time. I have to do it. We'll be back later. Don't worry, It's gonna be fine. Relax and uh finish unpacking" Kai fixed his hair and shirt, and then he extended his hand for me to take it. "Later? Are you sure, Kkamjong?" Kyungsoo asked him while he touched his other arm. Kai flashed a smile at him and kissed his cheek. "Yes, I'm sure." After that we walked out of the house to where we currently are. I was surprised he still remembered the roads. We didn't talk. We didn't looked at each other. -End of Flashback- What bothered me was not that Kai was doing that kind of thing. I've heard from my parents, my brother and even from him that he was a player. I'm actually surprised that he never got any girl pregnant. And a guy seemed more convenient cause like he said "It's only natural we're thinking about this kind of thing". I was okay with it because I knew he'd never get serious with anyone. Not a girl, not a boy and I...I trusted that in the end he would notice me and pick me. So when I saw him with that guy...the way he talked to him, the way he looked at him, I understood that his days of playing around were over. That even if it was a guy, he found the one he loves. I..I kind of wished they were only fuck buddies but deep inside I knew it was something more special than that."You didn't want to talk to me about what happened earlier, did you?" I asked after a long silence."You're as sharp as ever" He laughed but he still wouldn't look at me. "Then what is it? If it's nothing serious you could have brought that 'friend' of yours""Sori, I care about you a lot. I love you but I'm sorry, I can't let you talk about Kyungsoo like that" His voiced turned firm and strict."I wasn't saying anything bad""You know what I mean"I didn't answer him. I looked down, and saw how the fish were swimming. The ice cream was melting in my hand."You know, right? You know about my feelings." I said seriously and looked down to my hands. "I'm...aware of them, yeah." He nodded and kept looking at the water."For how long?""Probably since the last summer I spend here. When you cried because you didn't know when I was coming back.""Ah...yes""So that's why you wanted to talk alone?" "No. Well, it does have a little to do with it but it's not completly about that." "Then what is it?" I began to nibble the cold ice cream. It was vainilla...my favorite. "You probably figured out this much but, Kyungsoo and I are umm we're dating. I just didn't want you to think that I'm playing around with him." "I know. You look serious about him" The sadness in my voice was notable but I didn't try to hide it. “I am. There's no other reason why I'd be with a boy, right?" He smiled and paused. He must have thought of him. “So what's your point?" I gave the ice cream a bite. I usually just lick it, but I wanted to eat it fast."I don't know," He sighed "I feel like I owe you an explanation. A real one of why I can't be with you." He finally turned to me “Sori, you're a beautiful girl. And I'm not saying that because we're friends. I'm saying it because it's the truth. I know when a girl is cute and you are by far the cutest I've seen. You help your parents a lot with the house and you are very smart. I'm sure you're even smarter than me. Your personality is also very cute. I'm sure you're going to find someone who will answer your feelings properly. But I'm afraid that's not me. The person I love is Kyungsoo. It's always been him I just happened to notice really late. He's the main reason why I can't date you. He's the main reason why I won't date anyone else, in fact."He paused and looked at my reaction, after a short silence he continued. "I know people will judge us and that we won't be able to get married or have kids. I know I won't be able to hold his hand freely on the street or kiss him in public. I also know neither of our parents will be happy about our relationship. But he's everything I need, so those things that once seemed important...I don't care about them anymore. I'm sorry if I'm hurting you by telling you this, but I have to. I want you to understand how beautiful it is to love someone and to be loved back. I'm sure you'll find someone waaayyy better than me. He'll make you so happy...and you'll want to be with him all the time. Just wait a little more."As he finished talking I felt how the tears were begging me to let them come out. But I didn't want cry, not in front of Kai. I'll do it later, when I'm alone. However, I can't do this with my voice. I won't be able to hold back the sadness and the brokenness it'll show. "But I...I already feel that way. Is there really no chance? Not even a tiny little one?" He smiled sweetly and hugged me.Idiot...how am not supposed to love you even more when you keep doing things like this? Why can't you reject me like other boys would? Coldly, with just a clear "no""I'm really sorry to ask you a favor but...could we keep this as a secret? I don't need problems with your brother. He'd kill me for sure if he were to find out I hurt you like this"I don't know what I was thinking at that moment but the words just escaped my mouth. "...only if you go out with me. Just for this week. You don't have to break up with Kyungsoo or anything. But please, let me go out with you just this once. If you don't, I'll tell everyone. Even my parents about your relationship with him" I don't know what was worse, the fact that I was blackmailing him or that I was desperate enough to do it. Luhan's P.O.VI don't know what's wrong with me. Since I saw Sehun, I was filled with ...dirty thoughts. I-I remember going a little further than kissing with him in the past but I never wanted it so bad. Just to think that tonight we're going to...do it, makes my body tremble."Luhannie?" He asked from across the room."Yeah?" I was lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling."Are we," He paused and walked towards me "Are we going to do it tonight?""Uh" I blushed and seated "...yes? Why?""I don't ... I don't know how to do it with a guy" He looked down and I couldn't help but chuckle at his cute reaction."What happened to that confidence you had?" I stood up and kissed his jaw. "It's not fair...you're too tall. I have to stand on tip toe to kiss you!" He let his lips form into small smile. "It's gonna be fine. We've done this before" I winked and walked out of the room."W-wait!" He tried to catch up to me "We have?!""Nope" I laughed "That's why it's going to be so special"I'm really looking forward to tonight. And I bet he is, too.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Short chapter! but yeah Thank you to the people who actually read my author notes <3 haha It makes me happy that you do.Anywayyy, I feel bad for Sori ;-; she really liked Kai so when she saw him with D.O her heart completely broke...poor bby D: and I like to turn innocent people into pervs  WE REALLY NEED SMUT IN THE NEXT CHAPTER KThank you for subscribing and for your comments, as always! Love you~By the way, I'm sorry if this chapter has bad grammar too askdjfhalskdj I tried my best to write properly ;w; But if you find mistakes please do tell me, I'm always looking to improve so I would really appreciate your honesty<3