Reasons (1/1)

Reason |ˈrēzən|(n) a cause, explanation, or justification for an action or event    “You need to find someone better than me.” Sungyeol whispered.    And that last sentence killed Myungsoo inside. Myungsoo had never cried that much in his life. He held Sungyeol’s hand so tight. He clenched his other fist, his knuckle became white. Every word that came from Sungyeol was the one he had never heard of. The feelings that kept hidden from him. He pushed Sungyeol to the wall.“Take it back...” he growled. Sungyeol closed his eyes, still tears kept flowing from his eyes. “I said take it back Sungyeol… Take. Your. Words. Back.”“I am going to die anyway. Not later most likely. Sooner. Sooner Soo. So I guess it’s best for you to…” Sungyeol didn’t get to finish his sentence; Myungsoo had kissed him roughly, desperately.“Take it back. Take it back Yeol. Take it back…” Myungsoo began to cry and loosen his grip to Sungyeol. “I’m begging you take it back…”“Soo…”“Take it back… Please…”“Soo…”“Please… I’m here for you… I will always be here with you. I don’t give a fuck if I need to stay up all night and sleep all day just to spend every moment with you… I don’t care if I need to shield you from the sun… I don’t care how much you wanted me to leave you the fuck alone. I will stay with you…”“Soo…” Sungyeol sobbed heavily.   “There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love for you…” Myungsoo said.     Myungsoo's POV & Inner thoughts  I closed my eyes. I wish I could take his pain away. I wish I were there when he needed me. I wish… I wish… I wish…He deserve coffee and kisses in the morning, someone to lean on, or a shoulder to cry on. He deserve honesty everyday, loyalty every minute, love for every second. He deserve to be reminded how beautiful he is, how nice he has been to me, how I want him to survive. He deserves a fair life. He deserves something most people don’t. He deserves to be happy.“Why?” Sungyeol asked. “Why do you love me? Why are you doing this? Why? Don’t fight for me Soo… I have been fighting with myself and I have lost. I don’t need anyone to fight for me anymore…” “Because you have saved me before.” I need to say it to him… I need to… He needs to know the truth. “Because you’ve loved me all along… Because I have never felt a love like yours before. Not even from my parents.” He looks puzzled. His eyes have turned red from all the crying, and I can see he demands explanation. I took his hands and sit on the floor. He takes a good look at me and sits beside me. “You saved me before Yeol…” I can feel he’s staring at me now… “My parents, didn’t leave because Monsoo got sick. He was, and probably still is… It’s Asthma… An asthma…A fucking asthma. They… Didn’t ask me to leave with them either. The day I cried on your shoulder wasn’t because I regretted my decision not to leave. No… I cried because they didn’t ask me to go with them at the first place. I cried because my dad didn’t and probably never will look at me in the eyes anymore… I cried because it took him 3 days to make up his mind that he no longer has a child named Kim Myung Soo anymore. And I cried because my mom couldn’t do anything because she is disgusted by me too. I cried because both of them couldn’t accept the fact that I told them… I’m gay…” I hold his hands tight.   No one's POV  “And you’ve saved me… That day… before I ran to your house, I prepared myself a razor. I prepared myself to die that day. I was prepared to say goodbye to you… But then you saved me… You held my hand and told me I’ll be fine… You held my hand so tight you told me I have you here… You saved me since then Yeol… I’m more broken than you think” Myungsoo said. His tears had run dried. He felt anger boiling within him every time he remembered his family. He was confused when he felt Sungyeol’s hand caressed his cheek and his chin, and turned his head. He was surprised when Sungyeol kissed him softly… His lips were salty from all the tears and sweet at the same time. “I know… I have known it all along…” Sungyeol whispered.       “Excuse me?”“They came barging in to my house… They told my parents to tell me to stay away from you…”“What?!”“They told my parents I made you sick…”“What the hell?! Yeol?!”“They told me I made you gay…”“Why didn’t you tell me this Yeol?!”“Because I don’t want to be the one who break your heart, or mine. It was the lowest point of your life and I don’t want to bring you back there… Because some things are best left unsaid…” Sungyeol said, and Myungsoo began to kiss him softly. “You didn’t just save me once… You have saved me all along… You have saved me too many times Yeol. I can’t bear the thought of living without you…”  And just like the day they met for the very first time, Myungsoo had once again made Sungyeol smiled for the first time that day after a rough day.      ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hello again! :D I think I'm too cheesy in this chapter. yes? no? thank you for all of your comments :') they motivate me to write a better storyI'm flattered :'''''')m style="font-size:12px;">i ship myungyeol so hard it's no longer healthyyy aaaah, here goes L's sweet stare to Yeollie~ :')and another one. Yeol's sweeeet stare to L (it's pretty rare isnt it? Sungyeol isnt as clingy as L..... am i right? okay this is just me being a damn pushy fangirl dont mind me.) happy reading! 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