Dilemma (1/1)

7.00 a.m It is morning. I got a headache from crying too much last night. I only slept like 4 hours and now I feel like a zombie and look like one. As cliché as it might sound, a part of me has died last night. I feel so dead. Why? I also don’t know. Maybe this is why they called it heartbroken. Your heart is broken and yet you still alive but you can’t feel anything. Everything is just plain bored and nothing interests you anymore. All the people, all the living things or anything is just pretty meaningless right now. The only thing that is functioning properly is your brain. Maybe if maybe Tiffany were here, I wouldn’t be so broken like this. Good thing today is my off day at least I don’t have to meet any complaining spoil customers. “What I want to do today?” I said to myself. I take my phone and looking someone who are available to go out today. Scroll phone Sunny.  Maybe I should call that shorty. “Hello Tae?” She is still using her cute voice. Good thing we are just talking on the phone. “Are you free?” “Sorry Tae~ I got a date today~~” Goosebumps. Goosebumps everywhere. “Yah! Sungkyu stop using that voice! And it’s ok, have fun with your date.” I know she hates that names, anyway I guess that Shorty out from the list. “Yah! Stop calling me that name, and thanks Tae~!!” She hung up. Now what? Scroll phone Seohyun? Nahhh, she probably busy with her studies. Hyoyeon? Not her. Yuri. Yeah, maybe her. I should try calls her. “Hello?” “Yuri?” “Yeah? Who is this?” “The most beautiful person in the world.” “The heck? Oh! Yah!! Kim Taeyeon!” “What are you doing today?” I silently hope she is free. “Nothing, I am bored. Why? Wanna  go out today?” “Yep.” “Ok, we meet at the usual place.” “Thanks Kwon.” “No prob Kim.” --------   Soshi Café. This place brings a lot of memories with me and the geng including Tiffany. It’s been a while I haven’t go to this place. This place hasn’t change a bit.  “Hello Miss, what can I help y-oh! Kim Taeyeon? How are you?” “Hi Sulli. I am good. Thanks, and um..I’ll have the usual please?” “Ok, sure Taeyeon. Are you here alone?” “No, I’m with my friend but she is not here yet.” “Who? Is it Tiffany?” “No. It’s Yuri.” “Oh,ok. Your drinks will be ready in 5 minutes.” “Thanks Sulli.” There’s a table near the window. That is our favourite spot. I always go here with Tiffany. Where the hell is Yuri? I take out my phone and decide to call her. Scroll phone K Kwon Kwon Y- “Hi Taeng!” “I was about to call you. Haha, hey.” “It’s been a while huh?” “Yeah.” “So how’s life Tae?” “You just got here 3 minutes ago and now you asking about my life? Slow down Yul, we have a lot of time.” “Haha. Sorry midget, I am excited to see you.” I just smiled.I am not usually a social, friendly girl. Not like Tiffany. She always knows how to talk with people, always have funniest jokes and people love her eye-smile.Yuri,Seohyun,Hyoyeon,Tiffany, Jessica, Yoona and Sunny. They are my friends. The only friends I close with and trust. Now, seeing Yuri makes me misses Tiffany so much. “Taeng?” “Yeah?” “Are you ok? You’ve been staring at your drinks for 10 minutes. It’s like you try to change your drinks into something else.” “Oh. I was just thinking.” “Ok. Spill it. I know something is wrong with you.” “I am fine Yuri.” “You rarely asked me to hang out with you.” “Can’t I hang out with my friend?” “Tae..” “Ok,ok. I need someone to talk ok?” “Got it. So let’s talk.” “We all have our deep dark secret right? Got people know about yours?” “Yeah, you.” I remember seeing her kissed with one of our member and the girl is Jessica. We both know about this but we never talked about it. “I like girls.” “I know Tae, takes one to know one.” “I just broke up with my girlfriend.” “Then how are you right now?” “Empty. I love her but I love someone else more.”“What?! Who??” “Guess?” “Do I know her?” “Yeah, you know her very well.” “Let me guess, Tiffany?” “Is it obvious?” “Of course it is!” “Aish. I should’ve control it more.” “Does she know about you?” “Yeah, I told her everything including about my ex-girlfriend” “So, confess to her yet?” “Are you crazy?! What if she rejects me and keeps her distance?” “You should try Tae. It is Tiffany. Do you think she will leave you just like that? I mean, you guys are so close. Wherever she goes, you’re there and wherever you go, she’s there. If I don’t know both of you, I will think you guys are together. I don’t think Tiffany will throw away the friendship between you guys that easily.” “But she got someone else.” “Is she serious with this guy?” “Yeah.” “Oh.” “Usually, I will let this one go. I mean, bury my feelings again but this time I can’t. I have to tell her but I can’t. I don’t want to lose her.” “Make a right decision. Whatever happens, I will still be your friends. Me and Jessica.” “You guys are together?!!” “Haha. Yeah. You know how straight she is, but I just confess to her.”“Congrats Yul.” “Thanks Tae. Anyway, if it is worth the risk then just do what you got to do.” She is right. Does it really worth it? I mean, am I ready to lose her if I confess to her? Dilemma and dilemma again. I am done with asking myself what if. I should just go for it when she is here. When will you come home Tiffany?  COMMENTS AND SUBSCRIBE! ^^P/S: I'M COMING HOME~