Self-Control (1/1)

Momo shuts the door to her bedroom and tries to calm herself down. She takes one deep breath after another as she throws herself onto the bed, trying to ignore the fact that she has just lost her temper at the members. Her arm is covering her eyes, unsuccessfully blocking out the shame she is feeling for treating her members poorly when the bedroom door opens. She doesn't even need to look to know that it is Dahyun who has entered the room."Well, everyone is quiet now," Dahyun says with a soft voice, almost whispering.Momo sighs deeply. "I'll go apologize in a bit."Out of all the members, Momo is known to be the most sinister and unapproachable when she is annoyed about something or just having a bad day. Today, she went a little too overboard. When it got a bit too loud in the living room with everyone talking at the same time and a random video playing on the TV at too high of a volume, Momo couldn't hold back anymore."I don't know why I'm like this. I shouldn't have yelled at everyone." She is stressed and everyone knows that, but Momo doesn't want to make excuses for her behavior. It's a busy time and she is aware that everyone is stressed, not just her."Everyone will forgive you," Dahyun states simply. "We always have and always will."Momo then feels Dahyun's gentle fingers intertwining with her own, fueling her regret over her behavior."You guys shouldn't forgive me. I need to learn to deal with my feelings better. Who cares if it's too loud? It's no reason for me to make everyone feel bad," Momo says with a weak voice.Dahyun's hand squeezes hers. "Honey, if you hadn't told us to be quiet, the neighbors would have come by and complained sooner or later. So don't worry about it, okay? We'll go apologize when you're ready. Just lie here for a while and relax first."Momo smiles a bit with her eyes still covered by her arm. "You just want me to take my time so you don't have to join them and just sit there in silence."A light giggle escapes Dahyun's lips. "Busted."The older one can't help but giggle as well. There is no one who can cheer up Momo better than Dahyun. They have seen each other at their best, but more importantly, they have seen each other at their worst."Would you love me more if I was a better person?" Momo suddenly asks, still unable to meet the younger one's eyes despite having their hands intertwined.There is a pause from Dahyun before she can answer. "If you were a better person, I wouldn't have fallen in love with you. I only love you as much as I do now because I've seen you at your worst."Without looking at Dahyun's expression, Momo can feel that she really means it. Their reward for supporting each other through difficult, uncertain, and ugly times is a love that is stronger than anything else in the world."Besides," Dahyun adds, "I don't think I could love you any more than I do right now."Momo is quiet for a while, the squeeze she has on Dahyun's hand is the only indication that Momo has heard the younger one. Dahyun smiles, knowing that her words have embarrassed Momo. And because Dahyun loves her so much, and perhaps to embarrass her further, Dahyun leans down and places a gentle kiss on Momo's lips while Momo's eyes are still covered."No more talking about being a better person. Just be yourself, okay? I love you as you are," Dahyun murmurs.Momo then holds Dahyun's hand even harder, grateful that the love she feels for the younger one really is mutual. Then, she finally uncovers her eyes and pulls Dahyun down to her, hugging her."I love you too."Then, a few minutes later, Momo manages to apologize to everyone for her behavior. Everything turns back to normal when the girls grab her for a big group hug.The next day is one of those calm days in their apartment; no schedules or phone calls, just rest. So, there Momo and Dahyun are, lying on their bed, cozily wrapped up in each other's arms while they chat, whilst Momo is being a really good listener."And Jihyo told me that I should have more self-control. It made no sense to me because I already have a great amount of it!" Dahyun is truly outraged by their leader's collocation and she is showing it by frantically waving her hands in disbelief."Are you sure about that?" Momo asks. Well, mostly a good listener until now."What?" That question catches Dahyun by surprise. She has to pause for a moment to process what she has just heard. "You doubt my self-control? Of all people, you?" Dahyun continues with a dumbfounded expression, partly really shocked and partly being overly dramatic."You may not notice, but you can be pretty impulsive sometimes." The words come out of lips that sport a smug grin, Momo satisfied with the reaction she is getting."Oh, like when?" Dahyun gives a challenging look before continuing, "And for the record, pretty. I am pretty all the time." Her extremely confident self can't resist the pun. She doesn't take a second to continue again, though. "But you, of all people, have no right to accuse me of impulsiveness. The second you see food in front of you, you're already speeding to eat it. And don't let me start on the uncontrollable habit you have to hug what you're allergic to.""What? You're definitely exaggerating." Momo's provocative expression is replaced by her characteristic gasp."I don't think so." Dahyun can be incredibly stubborn sometimes. This time, specifically with her arms crossed and pouty face.Momo can't deny that Dahyun is extremely adorable and staring at her girlfriend's beautiful lips gives her an idea, although a not so innocent one. "Okay, I have a suggestion to settle this disagreement then. How about we play a game to decide who has more self-control?""What game?" Confusion is evident in Dahyun's voice. What could Momo possibly be up to?"Well... I might have just come up with it, but it's simple. Two people have to kiss each other without stopping and without touching. The first one that touches the other loses and the winner can do whatever they want with them." The explanation is accompanied by a defiantly look.But Dahyun would never deny it, her pride is on the line after all. "I don't understand why you are suggesting your defeat, but I'm in. Nothing better than to be able to do whatever I want with you."Momo has to admit that the last line sent shivers down her spine, although she wouldn't give her girlfriend the pleasure to hear that out loud, so she just silently sits on the bed, facing the challenged girl. Without further delay, she leans in slowly, finding support for her hands on the bed sheets instead of Dahyun's thighs.This kiss starts with just a brush of soft lips, small pecks and tongue teases. Dahyun knows right at this moment that Momo is in fact fully compromised into making her lose control, but the younger one isn't going to give in so easily. She has a point to prove. So, increasing the difficult of the game, Dahyun passes her tongue on her kisser's lips, suggesting that they open for her. But Momo isn't interested in being compliant, so rather than attending the request, she uses her own tongue to part Dahyun's lips instead. The action is followed by a soft gasp, after which a smile forms on Momo's lips.They do that for about five minutes, just dancing in each other's mouths. Both continue the teasing, but neither is willing to give up. However, after all that kissing, Dahyun is starting to feel her temperature rise. Why is Dahyun feeling so hot? Did someone leave the heat on? But it wasn't cold enough to turn it on in the first place. Then why is she getting so confused all of sudden? Her mind seems fuzzy and her thoughts seem filled with sensations than facts. Then it hits her; she is totally giving in.But no, she quickly puts her thoughts back on track. The reason why she accepted the challenge in the first place is because she wants to prove both Momo and Jihyo wrong. That is her goal with this and she should stick with it. The winner reward of this game is only a bonus, a pleasant one, but still just a bonus. She is competitive, she isn't going to lose. Momo can't have such power over her, could she? Or is Dahyun just trying to convince herself about all of this?Nevertheless, the need to win the competition is slowly fading away in the pleasurable sensations that the kiss is giving Dahyun. The temperature keeps getting higher and higher. The air is failing her, leaving her breathless. She really needs to gasp and hold onto something. Momo's waist is a really good thing for her to hold, to caress. Slim, but at the same time firm, toned...Again, Dahyun fights off the thoughts. She has a game to win. She knows she has a good amount of self-control. In spite of that, she starts to wonder if she has that much of it when it comes to the sweet girl currently kissing her. But why does her girlfriend seem so calm? Why does Momo seem so unaffected? Does Dahyun have absolutely no effect over her or is she just that good in hiding her tension? Probably the second option. Yeah, it has to be it.To prove it to herself, Dahyun leans in closer to provoke Momo, make her weaken, make her show the tension. Of course it is not because Dahyun herself is shaking in her will and needs to grab onto something, which she does as she uses her new position to grab the mattress with real force because of all the desire that is building up inside her. No, definitely not because of that.However, her actions don't go unnoticed by Momo. She knows Dahyun is giving in. The girl just needs a little push. So, Momo bites Dahyun's lower lip, softly though, almost just a brush of her teeth, but she is completely aware of how that always makes Dahyun go crazy. It sends shivers through Dahyun's whole body, but she manages to resist. Then, a second bite, with slightly more force this time. And just as Momo was expecting, a hand slides under her shirt and grabs her waist firmly, maybe even desperately. The next second, their lips are parted."I guess this means you don't have that much self-control as you thought," Momo says with a chuckle.As Momo boasts her accomplishment, she expects to see a pouty girl complaining about her unproved point, but all she sees is a heavy breathing Dahyun, looking like she has long forgotten her initial objective. Perfect moment to put her winner's reward into use. "Since it doesn't seem like this matters much to you anymore, I think it's time for you to do whatever I want.""Well, just say what you want then." Now more recomposed, Dahyun sounds a little bothered by the fact that the provoker of all this mess apparently went unaffected by the heated kiss that made Dahyun lose her mind. "I bet you're just gonna ask me to order some food or something like that, which is probably why you were controlling yourself so much," she says, sulkily looking to the side.Momo finds her girlfriend adorable again, but she thinks cuddles and innocent little kisses can wait for the time being. "No, I have a much better idea for what I want you to do," saying that, she shifts herself to get closer.Their eyes meet again and the younger one sees a change in Momo's expression. With half-lidded eyes and a raspy voice, to Dahyun's biggest surprise, Momo says: "Touch me."...