[M] Commander Compando (1/1)

Once I was reading a blog on Tumblr, that quoted an unknown philosopher that said, "Don't let people drive you crazy when you know it's in walking distance." I'm pretty sure, if I was out of this hospital bed, I could walk right out of this little catastrophe. Let's get real with ourselves, Tae, we'd hobble. But at least that wouldn't be here. In room 1408. Staring at Biyu, whose staring at Yixing, whose staring at me. What the hell is this anyway? I'm pretty sure I told that bimbo of a nurse I wanted to see no one at this point. Too much had been said, and yet much still needed to be said. "So, you have a sister?" I ask, already seeing the resemblance. Yixing, unknowingly, carried a confused look on his face, I thought was his trademark.  This Biyu, as he introduced her as, looked just as, and if not more, puzzled. Her eyes danced about my body, almost judgingly, while scrunching up her nose like Yixing before he sneezes. The eyes were youthful and vibrant behind their judgment, much like Yixings. She even had the dimples, but hers shined through when she puckered her thin, red lips. "Yeah. My younger sister.""Only by a few months, Honey-Bear." She remarked, diva attitude shining through. "And you are just AH!-dorable. Well...except for the, you know, the fact that your in the hospital." She stalked over to me and patted my shoulder gently. I look at her queerly, "Uh...thank you?""Oh your more than welcome, Lovely. What is your name, of beautiful one?""Tae Ah." I whisper, currently intimidated by her closeness. We've only been in each other's sight for few seconds, yet she's already breaking my tough-girl shell and throwing me into coward corner."Awe, isn't that just precious? Yixing talks about you all the time...""Zhang Biyu!""He even mumbles your name while he's sleeping" I shot her a look of horror, "oh yeah, he's like, 'Oh Tae, emmm right there baby. Oh come on baby, just a little more. Ahh yeah, like that'." My mouth dropped, sad to say not literally, to the floor. "My brother's a freak!"Yixing's cheeks turned a violent pink and he balled his fists while counting slowly to ten. "He does that when he's angry." Biyu nodded over to her troubled brother. "He keeps denying himself the right to love you. Like there is something wrong with it. But he's in too deep, love's caught him.""Just stop talking Biyu." He sighs, visibly more calm. "What about you, Tae Ah?" "What about me?"Biyu kept a poker face while Yixing looked at me expectantly. And then I caught a glimpse of Hyun Seongseangnim while looking into the eyes of the boy I loved and this scared me. It took a while for my mind to convince my heart that this was Yixing and Seongseangnim is far away. "In not so many words, I value Yixing very much. So I don't want to be without him because he is important to me." Biyu gave me a cheshire grim and a small squeeze to the shoulder. "AAWWWE, young love!" She cheered, jumping over to Yixing. "Now you confess to her too, come on.""Aniyo." I interrupted. "Waeyo?" Yixing saddened.I take in a big breath of air, here goes everything. "Since I decided that I'd like to be together with Yixing, I asked myself when had I become acceptable. I wasn't on the first day I met you, a cry little baby in need of shelter and attention, which you gave generously. Maybe I was that night on the swings, when you were dancing for me and shining brighter than the stars. I wasn't ready to admit it when we went out for slushies and we almost kissed. Oh, how badly I wanted, needed you to kiss me." I lost my nervousness and let my feelings flow. "Then I was afraid. Afraid that Hyun Bin Seongseangnim would do something really crazy and mess up everything. But I can't let him win. Your the one I wanna talk to when I'm happy and sad and lonely and just miss your soothing voice. So until I'm out of this hospital and acceptable, don't confess. Kindle it in your heart and share that fire with mine when I am well."In the brief moment it took for me to exhale Yixing grabbed me into a tight hug. "I won't confess until we're both acceptable."I smile, lightly patting his back. "Don't leave me in suspense. I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever." **It was about 12 o'clock when Biyu and Yixing went home. Biyu, being the outgoing person she is, got my number without my knowledge and texted me for a while. She was very different from the laid back Yixing but in the best ways. It's like their opposite personalities made them seem more similar and in perfect sync. A kind of Ying and Yang sort of thing. Knock knock"Dae?" I yelled loud enough for the person to hear me. "It's me, can I come in?" Why her?"Can I say no?" In Ri comes in anyway, teddy bear and popsicles in hand. I wish I hadn't told her I had a soft spot for Turquoise teddy bears and had an orgasm almost every time I ate a popsicle. Why did that sound very sexual? "I see I can't.""I'm sorry Tae Ah. I was so worried and when you broke down, it was like watching Kim Myungsoo try to hold back his tears. It's so heartbreaking that you want to do anything to fix it. And that's what I was doing, fixing this. I didn't tell Mrs. Oh his name, so you shouldn't even be this mad.""I'm not mad?" I said matter a factually."Then why don't you return any of my calls?""My appa has my phone. AND hello! I'm dying over here!" I point to the back of my head, where a nasty little gash was covered with ointment and bandages. In Ri crossed her arms, a manner she used when annoyed, "And when did you become so sassy?" I stick out my tongue. "Are those Firecrackers?" (These things are bitchin'!)"Yes, oh bitchy one.""I'm very thankful for your help, In Ri, thank you." I opened my arms for a hug. Just before we were enveloped into each other I snatch my gifts from her hand and begin savagely ripping open the popsicle box. "Their not going any where." She smiled at my eagerness."Yes they are. Right into my mouth!" I took out two of those American delicacies and ripped the rappers off with my teeth. "You want one, Ri?" "If your offering."We sat eating those in content. "It's so relaxing.""So worth the earth shattering brain freeze."I smile. "You understand me. I don't know whether to be scared or elated.""Most likely you should be scared."Things grew quiet. "You can ask, yah know." She said.I shrugged. "I don't want to pry.""Don't worry about it." she licked the icy treat. "It was December of last year and I was really into acting. I joined the Seoul Theatre Company on a whim and got cast in the main cast of the play Sierra Leone. Throughout my practices I noticed a very handsome sumbae with the most amazing voice I'd ever heard. I never had the courage to approach him, but he found his way to me. And I remember asking him where did he come from to my side and he would tell me he was my personal angel. It was magical and nonphysical for a while. Just soft kisses on the cheek and one armed hugs. But as time went on his hands lingered longer and longer on my waist and he wouldn't pull away from the kisses as reluctantly. That's when it became physical, like touching my ass and yanking at my hair when me made out. On our first date, he put his hand under my shirt and play with my breast. On the second date, he got my shirt off, sucked on my nipples until my back arched and I called out his name. On the third date, he fingered me and I cried after. He said it must have been a big deal, since I was a virgin. He'd apparently never been with a virgin, so I was an experiment to him. About two days after that he asked me to blow him, so I did. I choked the entire time and almost threw up trying to swallow. I thought that maybe I could suck out some kind of future together after that. But like his sperm, it was thrown up and discarded. The last time I met him was the 11th of December. It was a Thursday and considerably warm for snowy weather. He picked me up in his Durango and we got ice-cream. He had just talked to me about music and his dreams. I was so happy, thinking this would just be another sexual encounter and nothing more, but sadly it was. He took it from me. He was gentle but he knew I wasn't ready. It hurt so bad, but i didn't cry. After I slipped on my blue sweater and black shorts, leaving my leggings behind in his jeep, and threw myself out. He closed the door and drove off. I didn't return to the theater company and gave up singing all together." I didn't know how I could possibly make this better. "At least nothing serious resulted from that."She laughed sarcastically. "Yeah, those initial 3 months of anxiety were well worth it."I smile weakly. "You know, I sometimes wish I would have been pregnant so that I could say something good came out of that relationship." She bit the red tip off of her Firecracker and visibly saddened. I reached for her hand and grasped it in mine. And I noticed that she was just as, if not more, lonely as me. "Well, when you can't go on, go on."--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Feel like a long update? I hope this was a buffer chapter so I hpe u guys like it. I'm suppose to be asleep but guilt is fucking with my mind so I updated. Lots of shit has happened and if I wasnt delirious with tiredness I might rant, maybe in the next author note. anyways gotta catch some zzz'sHave a nice day/night, or not, it's your choice.LilyLycan B.d(^~^)b