Chapter 14 (1/1)

(Shim Changmin's P.O.V)The longer I had my eyes closed, the keener my other senses grew. I noticed many little sounds but none of them pointed to any indication that C.L was in the room.What was I going to do? I had to wake up at some point.Then what?Beg for forgiveness? - She wouldn't forgive me. Even I wouldn't forgive me if I were her.Tell her the truth? - She wouldn't believe me if I told her.When I thought of the truth, my breath hitched and I felt that same uncomfortable pain in my gut that I felt whenever I thought of the truth. I felt my head spin a little. I was trying my best to forget it all, but the 'alliance' with Dara had take the uncomfortable feelings up a notch.Yes, alliance. Not a marriage.The wedding? It was for show. No way in hell did he let them register it. <>(1 and a half years ago: When Max and C.L lost touch)" I'm WHAT?? " I yelled. No way! They couldn't just do this to me. It was my body and I had the right to do what I wanted with it." I'm sorry Changmin- " began my dad." I don't believe this! " I yelled once more. " Well, be a man and listen to me! Those 'headaches' you've been experiencing have been induced by a chip in your system- " began my dad once again." How can a chip be put into my system?! " I yelled again. This was outrageous. Was he making fun of me? I may not be the smartest guy in the universe - although I do have a 4.0 GPA, but that's besides the point!  A chip?" Well, ask yourself! Were you so careless enough as to fling yourself around to enable such an occurrence?! " yelled back my dad.I kept my mouth shut. I knew that over the last year I'd been rebelling a bit. Staying out late. Partying with friends. I even let my friends smoke and drink around me so that I'd smell of cigarettes and booze when I got home. I threw tantrums. Faked a couple of report cards which would show that I'd been failing. The works. Anything to finally get my parents to yield to my wishes. And why was I behaving like the ultimate spoiled brat?I was trying to go to Paris to complete college with C.L. Not that she knew. It was a surprise for her. I wanted to complete final year with her...But now.." Mr. Park has admitted that it was Sandara's doing- " began my dad again." WHAT?!!!!! " I yelled. I was going to tear that tiny little b**** into shreds and feed her to the alligators! " They've explained to me how complex the removal of this 'chip' is since it was only a prototype and not even the completed product. The accomplishment hasn't even been announced due to its side effects- " continued my dad which I of course took the liberty of interrupting again." So she's trying to kill me? " I asked bluntly. The headaches I'd been experiencing for the last one month were no joke. They'd occur every few days and when they did, it made me want to die. The pain would be so intense my nose and ears would bleed. I had to clench my jaw to prevent myself from smashing my teeth. My eyes were on fire and I'd see white. It would leave me paralysed for about an hour!It first occured when I was in a bathroom stall. I had made my way to the sink and when the pain set in, I couldn't scream. And when I was paralysed no one came. It was only I'd passed out that someone had taken me to the hospital. But the doctors said I was fine.My dad kept silent for a while." They will remove it, " he said in a low voice." When? " I yelled impatiently." When you marry her, " said my dad in a voice so monotone I couldn't tell his emotions." MARRY HER? " I yelled. " THEY THINK I'M GOING TO MARRY THE LITTLE B**** WHO TRIED TO KILL ME?!!!!! NO WAY IN HELL IS THAT HAPPENING!! I'D RATHER DIE! I HATE HER! - "" Enough! " yelled my father. " It is upto you but if your mother hears of this, she will have you married. But I will allow you to make your own decision. "With that he walked out of the room.   I suffered through a year of pain. The final year of college that I'd wanted to spend with C.L. was gone. I couldn't contact her in that state. Pain so blinding I wanted to die. It was then that I went through a paralysis so severe that I fell into a coma like state.Dr. Park, Dara's father performed the 'complex' surgery on me to remove the chip and its alterations in my body's system.After that, I was forced into an engagement. I pretended well. I had no intention of marrying Dara. I was going to run for it. But I changed my plans when I overheard Dara's conversation. From eavesdropping over the conversation I learned a few things...One. They had not completely removed the chip. It would act up again. But manageable if I took the 'medicine' that only Dara could give me (supplied of course by her father). Without it, though manageable, it would eventually bring me back to the previous stage and I would die in about two years.Two. They were to use it to bind us together. Make the situation such that I needed her.Three. She wanted to take over as heiress to the hotels that I was the heir to.That's all I needed to know. I was a dead fish. And soon the dead fish ended up married...It was goodbye to C.L.I didn't contact her because I knew I was wrong. I shouldn't have given in, in the first place. I should've gone to Paris anyway. Spent time with C.L. if I knew the chip was going to kill me anyway, what was the point in my 'alliance' with Dara now? I made up my mind. I would leave as soon as night came over the city.I would leave C.L. The woman I loved.I had stopped contact at first because I didn't want her to feel my pain.Then later, because of my shame.And now, because I couldn't reverse any of it and the only thing I could do now was bring her more pain. She didn't need that. She didn't deserve that. I would leave her...... because I loved her...No, I love her..