.YOONGI. (1/1)

Someday, Yoongi adds in to the long list of his promises, he would say “let’s go home” instead of masking it with “I’ll send you home”.Jimin probably has had enough by then, before he gets to fulfil any of them but he adds it in anyway.“Go wash up and sleep,” he tells the younger man, who is sprawling face first on the couch where Yoongi dumps him, having no longer strength to support the weight, even if Jimin is not that heavy.Jimin grunts and makes no further movement and Yoongi sighs. There’s no helping to it when Jimin got himself dead drunk like that; he knows more than anyone – after all these nights Jimin come home from his end of promotions parties. So he hauls Jimin up again, despite the protest from his sore hips and drags him to the bedroom, taking off the leather jacket Jimin has been donning before he plops him down onto the bed.“Get changed,” Yoongi throws a pair of boxers to Jimin’s direction, even though Jimin could probably just sleep in those tight jeans, considering the state he is in now. “Park Jiminnie, do you hear me?”There is another grunt as a response and it’s the best he could get so Yoongi grabs a towel and heads to the bathroom.  Jimin is deep asleep when Yoongi returns in his sleepwear, giving his damp hair a last tousle before discarding the towel carelessly. He kicks Jimin’s jeans that’s lying on floor, pleased that Jimin has listened to him at least but shakes his head to see the untouched blanket at the foot of the bed. He climbs onto the bed and pulls the comforter up to cover both of them.“Brat,” he sighs softly as he rests his head on the pillow, his muscles rejoicing at the contact of the fluffy surface.Jimin has always been a brat – and Yoongi has always been in love with the said brat.  It’s an unconventional love but Yoongi never wants to live his life the way others do anyway so it sits well to him; his sexuality.It isn’t about being in love with a man, really, Yoongi could not care less about that. It’s the fact that he is in love with Park Jimin.If he is to put it simply, he would want to give Jimin the world because Jimin deserves at least that. He would want to give Jimin everything, the best while at it.Only that he has nothing to offer, nothing at his disposal.Jimin deserves as much as Yoongi is flawed; and Yoongi would never forgive himself for keeping Jimin for himself, for being so selfish all this time.But how could he let go, really, Yoongi is reminded again, as he watches Jimin’s slightly parted lips, eliciting light snore as he sleeps – when Jimin was the one who made him change his mind and gave the newly introduced line-up of the group a chance, and it ended up being the best decision he had ever made? Jimin who sent lengthy messages of apology when Yoongi leashed out on him even at those time Jimin was not at fault, Jimin who asked for hip hop playlists recommendation every now and then, and listened attentively as Yoongi rambled on his favourites, Jimin who had come home with him at wee hours of days, practising his dance as Yoongi worked on his tracks, Jimin, sweet Jimin who loved him despite the fact that Yoongi never knew how to love, who had jumped head first with him in this endless pit of relationship despite being so scared – how could he let such a Jimin go?Yoongi finds it very accurate to call it an endless pit of a relationship, because he could not see the end at all, it is all dark in front of them, confusing and scary.He could not see the end at all, but he knows it is there.Writing Jimin songs, is nothing but an excuse. They all have promised to keep in touch, but the thing that is going on between Yoongi and Jimin is not a friendship spawned out of years working together as the rest of the members, it is something way more fragile so Yoongi did not want to take chances of drifting apart, and thus he writes him songs. He has lots of songs written for Jimin, after all.He has wished that it is enough, just being able to see each other almost every day when Jimin is in the country, and for him to return home from his midnight radio show to Jimin waiting on the bed, to hold Jimin during the coldest of the nights and to watch him sleep when his eyes refuse to close.At most of the time it feels enough for him – but he watches as Jimin grows frustrated days by days, as people around pressure him about his secret music angel, asking for contacts, and when he has to lie to the members in their group chat, and sometimes his parents, when he is with Yoongi.Yoongi catches him browsing through their photos in his phone more than once, and the fact that he has no one to share those photos with hit him with a pang.Someday, he mulls in his head every time, someday he will let Jimin tell them – will tell them personally – someday, when he sees the light at the end of the tunnel, when he is sure he can gives Jimin at least his share of happiness.That’s the first of his long list of promises, and many among them too, piles of same promises repeated again and again over the years.Yoongi just hopes Jimin would stay until then.  There is something about tonight, though, that makes Yoongi feels like the light is probably there all this time, only he is too blinded to see it.There is something in Jeongguk’s frown when he averted the topic on Jimin’s songs, something in Hoseok’s resigned shake of head, something in Namjoon’s knowing look that makes Yoongi feels like they have always been there in the end of the tunnel, ready to pull both of them out.Yoongi sighs, conflicted, and his phone buzzes on the night stand as if on cue.The photo spam from tonight is over half an hour ago so the new notification is for a selca of Taehyung – a good night selca as he calls it in his message, along with his nth apology for not attending the showcase. Yoongi gives a quiet chuckle; Taehyung never lets a case go easily. Hoseok replies with a selca of his own, followed by Namjoon with his waive on Taehyung’s apology and a thanks for those who came again. Jeongguk posts one of him doing a peace sign on his bang, his face conveniently cut out – “make-up free now, one of you might use this as a blackmail so no face allowed – namjoon-hyung great showcase, taehyung-hyung you suck. everyone goodnight”.  Seokjin’s photo comes next, top of his wife’s head poking at the bottom of the photo; “she refuses to let goㅠㅠㅠ next time let’s go somewhere all together goodnight!!!”That leaves only both of them not replying. Yoongi could simply post his at the very moment but Jimin would be upset next morning to know he misses this little event, Yoongi is so sure of it he could almost see the frown now.A thought brushes past his mind and he almost laughs out loud for the absurdity – only that it doesn’t seem that absurd the second time he ponders it over.It might just be the very thing he should do.He gives it another two seconds of contemplating before deciding to go the fuck with it.  Jimin should have woke up to the shutter when Yoongi snaps their photo together, or he should have woke up when Yoongi curses his uncoordinated thumbs for hitting wrong characters, or at least when Yoongi throws the phone under the pillow, switched off, after the message is sent, as he buries his face into the fluffiness and shuts his system down to sleep.But no, Jimin doesn’t wake up then – he wakes up the next morning, to a bad case of headache and a badly lit but well captured photo of him sleeping, Yoongi smiling next to him, captioned “lightweight brat is already out namjoon you dope good night from both of us” in their group KaTalk.He wakes up on his someday, and Yoongi’s someday – their someday.  P.S. there you go! I hope the ending is good enough. overall, I think I did myself justice for this story, even though it started with just a small part of Jimin but I have had the idea of Hoseok being the observer and tells the story of Jimin-Yoongi for quite some time so I thought, why not just merge the idea lol. of course there are little things that I wish I could have written out better because some parts don't really flow well enough (point them out if you notice! xD) but I really would not like to dwell on a story for too long lol. thanks for reading and tell me what you think! (I'll tell you that my favourite part is Jeongguk-Taehyung, I hope you guys like it too!) P.S.S. next chapter is just the compilation of all the chapters in a one-shot.