Alone (1/1)

My fingers shook as I grasp at the area Kyuhyun had just been standing in. His figure was walking away, my heart was walking away. Slowly, my feet followed. I willed myself to move faster, but I reached him just as the elevator doors closed. I allowed the tears to fall as my knees hit the ground and I kneeled against the cold metal doors."A common whore, that's all you ever have been Sungmin. I allowed you to be with him for this long, and now that he willingly pushes you away, you cling to him. Every older brother must let his younger brother spread their wings sometime." Yesung said as Ryeowook smiled beside him. I glare at the man I once called friend."And what about you and Ryeowook, shouldn't he spread his wings?" I ask."Ryeowook is not my brother, he is adopted." Yesung replied with a smile. "My real brother is Kangin." Ryeowook said as he swayed happily back and forth on the balls of his feet. My heart froze at the name. Yesung walked forward taking my chin in his strong grasp."You are a common whore, I gave you to Kibum, now return to him like an obedient boy and leave Cho Kyuhyun alone." He ordered before letting me go and leading Ryeowook away. I couldn't believe I had been betrayed by my two closest friends. Ryeowook grabbed my arm leading me away back towards Kibum’s closed office. A common whore, that is all I was and would ever be. Kyuhyun didn’t deserve me, I couldn’t change Yesung was right. I was tossed forward at Kibum’s feet. He was younger around Ryeowook’s age with short black hair and a black suit and tie.“Welcome back.” Kibum said, his voice calm and precise alot like Siwon’s had been.“Kibum,” I greet from my spot on the floor. He walked closer to me, his hand caresses my face before his lips meet mine.“He’s better off, trust me, I own you now.” Kibum smiled before ordering me to remove my clothes. I force back the tears as I obey the one order I was raised following.SUJU-SUJU-SUJUI couldn’t help the tears that fell as I rode the taxi back to my small apartment. It seemed even more empty now that Sungmin was gone. But, I had to let him go, as Kangin had said, he was my brother, this wasn’t right. He deserved a future without me. He wasn’t a whore and he needed to learn that, with me around, he couldn’t.“Kyuhyun, you're back.” Kangin smiled as he emerged from my kitchen. I can only nod at him as he moves forward and kisses my lips. I didn’t retract this time, he was to marry me, I had to learn to allow it. My arms wrapped around his neck bringing his face closer as our kiss deepened. I had to pull away though when he started trying to remove my clothes.“I can’t, not yet.” I whisper before leaving for my room and shutting the door. I made sure it was locked before I did remove my clothes and hide under the covers of my bed, my fingers retracing the skin touched by my hyung. I still loved him, even if he would be labeled a whore, even if that was the title he wanted, I would rather he be my whore than anyone elses. My eyes closed as I pictured my hyungs face, dreaming he was beside me, that it was his fingers that inched closer to the one place I craved him most at. If I could, I would keep Kangin from taking me.My body was hyungs body no one elses. I would let no one touch me like that but him. My eyes set in hard determination as I opened them. I was hyungs dongseang, I was his lover even if I had to be his lover alone. I heard Kangin outside my room trying to listen to what I was doing in my room, but he would hear nothing. My eyes turned to the window debating the fall and if it would kill me. I wanted to run to Sungmin’s side. Since he returned, all we had done was fight, I wanted to fix that. I was about to decide on a bath, when my phone rang making me jump as I rush to answer it.“Hey Kyuhyunnie?” Ryeowook’s voice called making a ghost of a smile appear on my face. Was he truly the only friend I had left?“Hey Wook, what are you doing?” I ask surprised he wasn’t being filled balls deep by Yesung at the moment.“Eating, Sungie hyung is at a meeting with Kibum so I’m stuck by myself.” he replied before I hear him moan and someone else whimper but the sound was faint.“That sucks, anyway, why the call are you bored?” I continue this time the moans on the other end getting more noticeable.“No, Sungie gave me a new toy to play with while he was at the meeting. I just wanted to call and check on you, I heard you and Sungmin broke up.” Ryeowook panted out. I felt my heart break at the reminder.“It’s nothing Wook, look I have to go, have fun with your new toy.” I say before ending the call, I couldn't talk about my breakup yet, I still didn’t want it to happen. At the other end of town, Sungmin was tied up as Ryeowook slid in and out of him, behind the door to Yesung’s office, the once friend was speaking with Kibum.