Thief (1/1)

He was my first and last kiss, it was his lips I remembered most and craved most. The man who I declared a thief, the man who stole my heart, Lee Sungmin. This man was my life, my whole. I could do nothing without him, he invaded my every thought and dream was of my brother. As I lean against his desk waiting for him to return with lunch, I smile thinking of our time together, of how we were before. Thinking of how hyung would hug me and together we would sleep in the safety of each other's arms. Back then I lived in a world of pretend, refusing to believe how my brother or I really lived. Then, even after my brother rescued me by sending me away, I still was selfish and demanded him by my side.Even now, nothing had changed I still cling to him. I still called his name at night when I was scared, still whimpered when I thought of our past. Sungmin was my savior and safety net. I could never go against him, but it was that same thinking, that stole his youth. So was he really a thief? Was he really the one who held that title, or was it I?"Kyuhyun, what are you doing here?" Ryeowook asked leaning over Sungmin's new desk and smiling at me."Waiting on hyung to return with food." I reply climbing onto the big leather chair. Ryeowook smiled, his eyes bright with mischief."So, I heard about you and Kangin hyung." The older smirked making me glare at him. How was it Ryeowook learned all the gossip in this town?"And?" I ask as I examine the stapler. Ryeowook leaned closer, whispering so no one could hear."Hoping to become a whore like your brother?" The questioned surprised me for multiple reasons. The first was that such a pretend innocent kid had said such a thing, the other being I had not tried copying my hyung in years."Both hyung and I have put that part of our lives behind us." I tell him leaning back in the seat. A smile pulled at his lips as I glare at him."If that's so, then why did I just see Sungmin lip locked with Kim Kibum a few minutes ago?" He asks me making me blink. Sungmin kissed someone? What was Ryeowook on about now?"Hyung loves me, I trust hyung." I state turning away from my old friend."Love is complicated and has many faces. Sungmin was raised a whore his whole life, he saved you from a fate he cannot escape." Ryeowook announced before walking away. A fate he couldn't escape, what did that mean? Was my hyung still doing lucrative acts at night? I shiver thinking of Ryeowook's words. Sungmin was a thief, but could he really take my heart and leave like before? He had done it once already, what was stopping him now? My hands clenched into fists the more I thought about it. Was I still pretending, was I still ignoring the fact that he slept around? Unlike as kids when I fell asleep hearing him, as adults he could leave from my sight and hearing. It was easier for him to lie and me to pretend. Tears filled my eyes as I thought hard on the accusation. Was hyung cheating? It was what he was good at, I had yelled it to him just days before right. Was it my fault if he was?"Kyuhyun?" His voice, so soft and gentle. A voice I craved to drive away the nightmares, it now gave me nightmares. I look up at his worried face, I see those swollen lips I had claimed so many times. We were brothers of sin. I was born from cheating, hyung was raised by sex, and we grew up tainted loving each other. Our union was never meant to be."Kyuhyun!" Sungmin calls again this time closer to me as I feel his arms around me. Those soft lips inches from my ear. He was my brother, my elder brother. All our lives he has only tried to make me happy, I always messed things up. I ruined his family, I ruined his life, and now, I was ruining his future."Kyuhyun, talk to me!" He panicked as I look up at those sweet lips and soft face I dreamed of. My hand caressed his scarred face as it dipped under his mask. I felt the bumps from the fire he caused because of me. Everything was my fault. It was because of me that my hyung had no life. Our lips moved closer, my eyes closed as our lips meet. My hands tightened on his shoulders as our kiss deepened. When we pulled away, it made my choice harder. Sungmin looked at me curiously as I smile sadly at him. I stole his heart, I stole his past, his present, and his future. It was me who held the title of the thief. I allowed the tears to fall as I spoke my words so silently."Good bye."