[V] (1/1)

Seulgi wakes up startled from her bad dream. She's just dreamed that the three of them rejected them. It was just like a bad k-drama. Just as she was about to go back home, she found Yerim at the front door with a suitcase. She was leaving her too. However, the anxiety from that dream vanishes when she feels two arms around her waist. She turns and she finds sleepy Wendy, just barely opening her eyes. "You okay?" Seungwan asks with a breathy voice. Seulgi nods and puts her hands on top of Seungwan's. "I'm okay now."Seungwan has been nothing but caring and sweet all night. She listened to the whole story Seulgi had to tell her. She told her about how she met Joy and how they flirted. She told her about their first date and how Joy was looking forward to their next date. Then she explained the recent events with Joohyun, but she also told her about her piano lessons and how they seemed to be flirting.Seungwan just listened to her as she caressed her hair. It was reassuring and comfortable.Seungwan was fine with all of this.It is such a relief..."So that's what I felt, right?" Seungwan asked her when they got to bed. Seulgi had lent her a pyjama and it was cute to see her in her clothes. It felt like they were a couple. "What do you mean?""Compersion." Seungwan voiced out, not sure if she got the word right. "I didn't know it had a name. When Yerim told me that you were dating someone, she kept telling me that I was going to lose you if I didn't hurry up and tell you my feelings. But... I felt happy for you. You are not the type of person who is straightforward about her feelings, so... I was happy. And I was looking forward to how your relationship went."Seulgi smiled as she felt the soft caresses of Seungwan on her arm."But at the same time, I wanted to be a part of it. I just didn't know... how." Seungwan chuckled and brought her hand up to caress her loved one's face."So I'm happy that you are thinking about a polyamorous relationship. I didn't know it even existed, but... I'm willing to give it a try."Seungwan said it first."I love you, Seulgi."Seulgi nuzzled the palm of her hand and left a kiss on it. She sighed in content and closed the distance to give Seungwan a kiss that would hopefully express everything she felt. She voiced it out, however, just to make sure she understood."I love you."Seulgi smiles as she feels Seungwan placing a kiss on her shoulder. Seulgi closes her eyes and lets out a sigh. She remembers the words she said last night and she voices them out again."I love you, Wan-ah."Just like that, she falls asleep again. She just felt content.Telling Yerim has been hard, but now that they are sitting together in the living room, Seulgi is starting to feel calmer. Yerim was harsh at first. She gripped at the edges of the armchair's armrests. "Then how many girlfriends are you planning to have?" "Yerim..." Seungwan warned her. "Don't be like that."But as Seulgi explained further, Yerim became more understanding, to the point that she's now the one saying:"It's nice of you that you are going to talk with them face to face." Seulgi thanks her with a little bow. Seungwan puts her arm around Seulgi's shoulder, letting out a sigh. "Thank you, Yerim."Seulgi can't look at Yerim in the eyes. "Are you mad at me?"Seungwan and Yerim's eyes meet and Yerim averts her gaze. Seungwan huffs. Yerim is not mad at her. She's mad about her."I'm not. It's just that this... This situation is a little bit too much."Seungwan gives her a knowing look. "We know." Seulgi rests her head on Seungwan's chest, letting her caress her head. "I just want everything to be okay. I know it's selfish for me to ask but... it would be better if you supported me."Yerim rolls her eyes. "Of course I support you, silly!" She lets that outraged claim louder than she expected. She lowers the volume of her voice. "It's just that this is all new to me. I guess I need some getting used to. But of course, you can count on me."Seulgi covers her face on Seungwan's chest. The blonde caresses her hair and that's when Yerim stands up. She walks up to them and she sits next to Seulgi. Her bear friend looks at her, trying to guess what Yerim is thinking about. Yerim already begins to feel bad for being harsh on her."What I want to say is that I'll be there for you. I'll help you."Yerim puts her hand on Seulgi's shoulder and Seulgi leans her hand on top of it. She squeezes it. "Thank you. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you." "You would probably eat a lot healthier." Yerim jokes, trying to ease the mood. It works when she sees how both Seungwan and Seulgi laugh at her words."I highly doubt that. I have seen this girl eating three pizzas way before she met you." Seungwan points at Seulgi and she lets out a groan."I hadn't eaten anything in all-day! You know I was anxious because of that exam.""Trigonometry, I know. That teacher really hated you." Yerim chuckles at how the best friends, now lovers, mock a bicker while looking at each other. She's happy that Seungwan has finally told Seulgi about her feelings, but there's something that is making her uncomfortable about the situation. Maybe it's the polyamorous thing that it's new to her. Seulgi pokes Seungwan's side and sticks her tongue at her. "It's nice that you admit it now. You used to tell me that I was just imagining things."Seungwan smiles at her. "There are so many things I haven't told you, but I can change that now." Yerim looks down at her nails and she lets go of her hand that has been standing on Seulgi's shoulder. Seulgi averts her gaze from Seungwan to look at Yerim. They look at each other and Yerim finds it amazing that they are telling each other so much through their eyes.I know there's something you aren't telling me, either.Yerim knows what Seulgi means with the way she's looking at her, but she changes the topic before Seulgi can keep questioning her further."So, when are they coming over?"Seungwan looks at the clock hanging on the wall. "They should be here in half an hour.""Then I'll go get ready." Yerim stands up and walks to her room. "I'll call Nayeon and ask her what's she's up to."Seulgi understands that Yerim wouldn't want to stay over with this weird situation going on, but she still hopes that she would be there for her. She nuzzles Seungwan's neck and she embraces her for comfort. Seungwan leaves a gentle kiss on her cheek. "It will be okay."Will it be okay, though?Seulgi wonders as she leaves a kiss on Seungwan's neck. "I really hope so."When she hears the doorbell ring, Seulgi panics a little. Yerim is faster than her and she opens the door. She expects to find Joy but she's now facing a beautiful stranger. "Hey..." The girl greets awkwardly, pulling a lock behind her ear. "Hi. You must be Joohyun." Yerim steps aside and lets her in. "Come in. I was leaving now." Joohyun bows a little as she steps into the house. Yerim turns around to face Seulgi and Seungwan, who are standing together next to the kitchen door. "Hey, your friend is here! I gotta go. Call me if you need anything, okay?" With that and a little wave at Joohyun's way, she closes the door behind herself. Now that she can't be seen by the others, Yerim leans on the wall and lets out a long sigh. It takes her a long minute to regain her composure. She doesn't know what she's feeling or how she feels. It's confusing. Call me if you need anything.Yerim sighs as she remembers the last words she has said.I don't think they will need anything from me.She wasn't going to meet Nayeon. She just needs some alone time to think about what she feels. Playing with the car's keys, she walks to the elevator. When it reaches the ground floor and the doors open, she's shocked when she bumps into Joy."Hey!" Joy greets her with enthusiasm. "You didn't see my texts?" Of course, Yerim had seen them. She just pretended that she didn't. "Oh, you did? Damn, I'm so brainless." Yerim tries to fake her laughter, but she doesn't know if it's convincing enough. "I'm sorry girl. I had a hectic day."That could have been true. Being a freelance graphic designer was hectic, and keeping track with her studies along with her work could be a pain sometimes. But today she didn't have any commission and ever since Seulgi's car-crash happened, she had kept her studies aside. "Where are you going now?" Joy asks. Yerim doesn't understand why this girl is trying to keep the conversation going when she has somewhere to be. She's just being polite. I don't think she cares much about me."I don't know... just... around?" Yerim plays with her keys and lets out a nervous chuckle. "I was just going to get the car and drive around.""Oh, that sounds nice." Joy smiles at her in a way that makes Yerim blush at the sight. "I hope that helps you.""Y-yeah." Yerim manages to say. "Okay, well, I'll... see you around?""Sure!" Joy gets into the elevator and waves her hand at her. "Have fun!" Yerim waves at Joy and watches as the doors close. Yerim tries to not be self-destructive for once and she starts to think that maybe Joy does care about her.M eanwhile, Seulgi and Seungwan are surprised that greeting Joohyun into the house isn't as awkward as they expected it to be. Maybe it is because of how naturally charming Joohyun is. As soon as she meets Seungwan, her eyes widen at the sweater Seungwan is wearing. "Did you study in Juilliard?" Seungwan rubs the back of her neck. "Yeah, I studied there for two years.""Wow" Joohyun looks at her in awe. "And how was it? Is it as incredible as it sounds?""I did the Composition Master of Music there for two years," Seungwan explains, a smile appearing on her face as she remembers those days. "It was one of the greatest experiences I've ever had. It was hard though.""Wow." It's all Joohyun manages to say, amazed at what the girl in front of her has managed to do."Well, I told you Joohyun studied overseas as well," Seulgi adds, not sure of what to say, but wanting to make her presence known to the two of them.Joohyun gives her a knowing look and an amused look. "I guess they never got your name right.""They never!" Seungwan chuckles. "What's your name overseas?" She asks."Wendy." Seungwan shrugs. "It's the most similar name, right?""Wendy, I like it." Joohyun nods. She clears her throat and holds her hand out for a handshake. "Hello, nice to meet you, Wendy. My name is Irene."Seungwan expected the first time she saw Joohyun was going to be awkward, but instead, here they are, talking about their time in the USA with cheesy English talking included. "It's nice to meet you, Irene." Seungwan shakes her hand and the two of them chuckle at the situation. Seulgi is relieved that the first time they are meeting is being quite friendly. She just hopes that it's the same when Joy comes in.Just as if she could read her mind, there's a knock on the door. Seulgi is the one who opens the door this time, letting a sigh as she does so.Joy greets her with a smile and a kiss on her cheek.Seulgi pulls her into a hug and hides her face on Joy's shoulder.She just doesn't want to know how Joohyun or Seungwan have reacted.Joohyun is just smiling at them. Seungwan, on the other hand, is tense at seeing them together. "How are you? You had me worried over the phone." Joy says as she pulls away. She then acknowledges the other two girls standing in the room. "Hello."Joohyun finds endearing the way she waves her hand at her.This must be Joy then. She's cute.Joohyun waves back and Seungwan manages to get a little "Hey" out of her mouth. Seulgi puts her hand on the small of Joy's back and she guides her inside the room. "I... I think it's better if we sit down. Come here."Joy is a little bit weirded about the situation but she bows at the other two as they make their way to the living room.Seungwan and Seulgi had talked about how arranging the furniture, but every combination seemed weird. So now, each of them decides where to sit.Seulgi is on the armchair with Seungwan sitting next to her on the armrest, while Joohyun and Joy are sitting next to each other on the couch. Seulgi breathes in and tries to think of a way to start."I think that before I mess everything further, I want you to know that the three of you matter to me. I guess that's why I prefer you to know at what point of the relationship I am with each of you."Joy is the only one who doesn't understand the meaning of those words and her eyes widen at that. "What do you mean?""Well, Joy, this isn't easy for me to say but... I like you, Joy. And the timing of all of this hasn't been the best but... both Joohyun and Seungwan confessed their feelings to me just yesterday."Oh.Joy doesn't know how to react. What's this? An audition to become Seulgi's girlfriend?And how am I going to win against these two?!Joy's mind is racing as Seulgi keeps explaining."I didn't want you to think that I was doing something behind your back. I just... I don't know. I will explain the whole situation."Seulgi clears her throat again. Now she wishes she had brought some water. She tries to make eye contact with Joy, who keeps a shocked expression on her face."Joy, I like you much more than I like the ice cream in your store," Seulgi confesses, letting out a sigh of relief for voicing out her feelings. Joy can't help but smile a little. "I always joke around telling you that I go there because I love the ice cream you sell, but I go there because I like seeing you."Joy can't deny that Seulgi's visits were the best part of the day. "When I asked you out on a date, I didn't expect you would say yes." Seulgi chuckles. "I don't know. I always think that I'm nothing much, that nobody would like to date me. I guess I'm wrong now."Joy glances at Joohyun and then at Seungwan. Seungwan gives her a shy smile and averts her gaze to look at Seulgi. Seulgi gulps as she turns to look at Joohyun."Joohyun... You... You drive me crazy, you know." Seulgi brings a hand to her forehead. The words make Joohyun chuckle. "I mean it. You are a mystery to me. I don't know. I thought I was misunderstanding your signs but... I guess I can't imagine this feeling there's between us, right?"Joohyun smiles at her and shakes her head. Seulgi looks up at her best friend. "And Seungwan... I think you are the reason we are sitting here right now. I don't want to do anything behind your back. I don't want you to think that I don't care about what you feel about me, because I feel the same way about you."Seungwan leans a hand on her shoulder, giving it a small squeeze. Seulgi silently thanks her by putting her hand on top of hers."Look... I almost died this year. When I woke up, I couldn't stop thinking about 'what if I had done this?' or 'what if I do this now?'" Seulgi let go of Seungwan's hand, bringing her knees up and holding them against her chest. "And I couldn't stop imagining all the possible paths and thinking about all the paths I've been through. I couldn't stop going back to the paths I could have taken."Seulgi closes her eyes and begins to hide her face behind her knees. Seungwan caresses her head and Seulgi looks up at her. She sees Seungwan's encouraging gaze and she feels better. She feels like she can keep going."And it was exhausting." She let out a groan. "All of it was exhausting. And I was sick of thinking about it. I realized that I would never know."She looks at Joy and then at Joohyun."That's why I can't decide who I want to date. And thanks to Joohyun I realized that... I don't have to decide. And I don't want to decide."Joy is starting to understand now and she tilts her head, looking between Joohyun, Seungwan and Seulgi. "I want... I don't know. This is going to sound so stupid. But I kind of want that... the four of us... become a relationship?"There's an awkward silence. Seungwan is quiet because she thinks that Seulgi wants to say something else.Joohyun is quiet because she wants to know what the other two think before voicing out her thoughts.And Joy is quiet because it's too much to process.It's too much.And we aren't a thing yet. "I'm..." Joy starts, trying to put her thoughts in order. She stands up from her seat, which startles Joohyun a little. "I'm sorry, Seulgi."She walks up to Seulgi, who is still hugging her legs against her chest. "I think it's cool that you have decided to talk this out and... I think that your feelings are valid and all... But I don't think I can do this. I'm sorry Seulgi, but I'm out of this."And hanging her bag from her shoulder, Joy leaves a squeeze on Seulgi's shoulder and turns around. Seulgi takes a few seconds to react and she stands up from her seat. "Joy, wait!" Seulgi exclaims. But Joy can't turn around. She doesn't want to see Seulgi's face because she's going to be upset. She walks on a fast pace to the front door and she leaves without looking back not even once. Not even when Seulgi tries to get a hold on her arm. She gets out of her grip easily and she takes the doorknob, opening the door. She knows that Seulgi is still calling her name but she makes sure she doesn't look back.She doesn't want to know more about this.Not now.Seulgi leans her head on the doorframe and tries to get her breath to even. She lets out a groan as she closes the door. She leans her back against it and she puts her hands on her face, trying to regain her composure.When she gets back to the living room, she finds that Seungwan is now sitting next to Joohyun on the couch."And what do you think?" Joohyun is asking her, still not aware that Seulgi is back in the room. Seungwan lets out a sigh."I must admit that I found it weird and... maybe a little bit painful. Because I somehow feel jealous and... but... I don't know. The idea of Seulgi dating someone else also makes me happy? I guess that's weird."Joohyun gives her a shy grin and she plays with her own hands. "Feeling jealous is something natural, Wendy." Seungwan is amused that she's using her English name and she can't help but smile. That's when she realizes that Seulgi is back in the room. Joohyun's grin turns into a charming eye-smile as she sees Seulgi standing by the couch. She still turns her attention to Seungwan."Wendy, I have already been in a relationship like this and I know how you might feel. And I think that the best thing we can do is..." Joohyun tries to find the right words and she looks at Seulgi for some kind of reaffirmation. "The best thing you can do is simply talk to me. Get to know me. I want you to see how my relationship with Seulgi is."She smiles at Seungwan, hoping that she has managed to help her. Seulgi goes back to the armchair and Joohyun follows her with her gaze. "Our relationship is just starting. We just kissed yesterday... And I think that's made Seulgi end up in this situation." Seulgi smiles at her, though her mind is still clouded over the fact that Joy has left.Joohyun looks back at Seungwan and the blonde is looking down at her hands. Joohyun carefully reaches out and places her trembling hand on top of hers. "It's up to you if you want to go on or not... I know that I want to keep seeing Seulgi, no matter where we stand."Seungwan now knows that what Seulgi has told her about Joohyun being caring and a good listener is true.Seungwan manages to mouth her a little 'Thank you' before she lets go of her hand. She stands up and she walks up to Seulgi, who automatically stands up to meet Seungwan halfway.Seulgi holds Seungwan's sleeve and what comes out of her mouth is, with no filter, what she's thinking."Please, don't leave me."Seungwan's heart flutters at that and she hugs her. Seulgi closes her eyes and lets out a sigh. This is just what she needed. When she opens her eyes, she sees Joohyun, who is smiling at them. She closes her eyes and she can't help but smile too. "I will never leave you. You know that." Seungwan barely whispers, but it's enough to make Seulgi burst into tears.Seungwan holds her in her arms and presses a kiss against her cheek. She caresses her back as she does so, trying to reassure her.That's when Seulgi feels two arms more around her body, which is joined with the warmth of a body. The arms get all aroudn her body and reach Seungwan.Seungwan tenses a little at the sudden movement, now feeling two hands on her back."Sorry. Is it too soon?" Joohyun asks in a tender whisper.Seungwan's body relaxes."No. It's just... right."