Letting Go, Shining On (1/2)
Woohyun didn't say anything.
Woohyun didn't move at all.
He looked straight ahead;
His eyes were glassy and wet.
Sunggyu looked at Woohyun desperately;
He couldn't help but feel that he had brought this hurt upon him.
He could not stop his thoughts
Or his heart from racing.
I am so sorry, Woohyun.
I am so, so sorry.
I should have told you sooner -
I'm sorry.
I shouldn't have pretended like this didn't happen.
I'm so terribly sorry.
I shouldn't have prolonged your pain;
You don't deserve to hurt like this.
It's all my fault.
Your tears;
Your heartbreak;
Your open wounds -
Everything is my fault.
I hurt you
When I was trying to save you.
I am so sorry.
"I am so sorry, Woohyun," Sunggyu said, choking on his tears.
"I am so sorry it hurts.
But I can't match your hurt;
I don't even come close.
Are you alright, Woohyun?
Is there anything I can do to help you -
To make it all disappear,
Even just for a moment?
I...I never meant to hurt you, Woohyun.
I thought that...hiding the truth...
Would help you heal.
I thought that you move on
And start life anew...
With me...
As 'us.'
But I was wrong.
I could not have been more stupid.
I didn't realize how much you cared about her.
I didn't realize...how much she needed you...
How much you needed her.
I was so selfish, Woohyun.
I don't even deserve your forgiveness.
You don't have to forgive me, Woohyun;
I just want you to know...
How sorry I am.
I could have stopped all of this
Before it spiraled out of control.
But...I didn't...
Just because I wanted you so badly.
I left you hurt
Because I loved you so much.
But...love is meant to heal,
Not to hurt.
My love is broken
Because my love only hurts.
My love is broken
And so are you.
You don't deserve defective love.
You don't deserve any of the hurt I have inflicted upon you.
And not a day will pass
When I don't regret hurting you so.
I am so, so, so sorry, Woohyun.
I just...need you to know that.
I am sorry.
I am truly sorry."
Woohyun sat so still
It was scaring Sunggyu.
Woohyun's eyes didn't blink;
His chest didn't seem to rise or fall;
His lips stayed pressed together;
His expression never changed.
Woohyun was not thinking about anything
For the first time in years.
He was so quiet.
He felt nothing.
He was just there.
A soft whisper floated against his skin -
He recognized it right away.
He heard her voice.
And moments later,
He saw her face.
Sunggyu watched Woohyun worriedly
As Woohyun watched her carefully,
Listening to all she had to say,
Taking in the sight of her face
And the sweet sound of her voice
For the very last time.
"Oh, Woohyun,
My beloved Woohyun!
I cannot believe this!
I have finally found it, Woohyun -
I have finally found light.
After traveling so far on my hands and knees...
I am standing in it, Woohyun!
Look!
I am standing in it!"
She stands before me
And light is all around her.
She is laughing and crying
And spinning in circles with outstretched arms.
She has never looked so happy;
She has never looked more beautiful.
"This must be my home.
I feel like I have never left this place.
I feel like I belong here.
And this -
This must be my Father.
He looks like me
And I look so much like him,