Apology (1/1)

Your POVI hate him.It’s all his fault that I feel like this. This stupid guilt for not telling him the truth and the anger that he reacted in such a way when he found the truth out. So instead of getting some sleep i write an apology letter to him and hope that he’ll read it. It started off easy.“Dear Key,I’m sorry that I didn't tell you the truth. It’s just I was scared that you’d leave me. After all this time of crushing on you after my first day at your middle school. I know that I never told you this, but I was worried you’d call me a barbarian even more. I’m not even sure if you remember going to the same school as me.Since I had left that early spring looking like a nerd and entered high school looking like any other girl. I was worried you wouldn’t noticed me, but you did, didn't you?You noticed me as a barbarian since in that first week I had put three kids in the hospital for bullying some younger kids on my way home.Do you hate my violent side? I know I do. I hate it with a passion. I’m not even sure why i’m so violent at times… Maybe it’s mental issue. Maybe I should get myself checked in and see why the violent issue of mine happens so often.Yet when i saw you I was always happy and calm until something stupid came from your mouth. What did I ever do to make you hate me so much?I’m sorry. That I didn't tell you. I’m sorry that I didn't’ also tell you that I knew you were the boy from the hospital or at least I had my suspicions. Sincerely with all my love,Choi Jung Ae.”I look down at the letter as I reread it and decide that its good enough. I hope Key stops by today so I can give it to him. I want to see him even though I’m mad at him. Key is my boyfriend… He still is isn’t he…I add a small P.s. part that read, “Ki, I have a question. Are you going to break up with me because I didn't’ tell you right away?”I sigh as I lay down on my couch and feel myself fall to sleep. I hope he comes when I’m more alive looking. I wake up to someone knocking at my door to see that I got 3 hours of sleep. I sigh as I walk to the dorm to find Key just standing there looking at me. He looked terrible and he went into public looking like that. He looks like a zombie, but worse with his puffy baggy and purple eyes and deathly pale skin.Key’s POVWe had gone to do what we needed to at the company and then I decided I waited long enough to apologize to my girlfriend and explain to her. What exactly do I have to explain to her though?I shrug my shoulders as I walk up to my girlfriend's door and knock on it.I have a key, but I don’t want to bother with it since I’m not sure if I should do that if she’s mad at me. I hear a shout then a small sound of her unlocking her door. I start preparing myself for a slap or maybe even a punch.Still when she opens the door I see that her eyes are puffy from crying and she doesn’t truly look like she spent half of the day sleeping. Without even thinking I say, “I’m sorry, I was a jerk.”She looks at me stunned, “You’re apologizing.”I nod my head and ask, “Can I come inside?”She nods letting me in.I walk to her couch and sit down and pat the seat next to me.She walks over and sits on the other end of the couch and looks at me.“Explain,” she says in a tired tone.“I’m sorry I was a jerk in high school and I turned into a jerk the other night. It’s just I didn’t think you liked me at all.”She chuckles, “I loved you Kibum it’s just you turned into a jerk and I didn’t like that. Yet no matter how much i tried I still thought of you.”I look at her shocked since I felt the same way. “When i thought you liked my friend I thought so many what if’s I never really thought straight. I always thought of you. Then when we graduated I thought i was never going to see you and thought maybe I can get over this feeling. Now here you are in my sights again. I don't’ want to mess things up and lose you again. I really mean that it’s just i’m quick to react without thinking everything through.”She smiles at me as she nods her head moving closer to me. When she reaches my side she lays her head in my lap and closes her eyes, “I’m going to catch up on some sleep. You should too you look like you didn’t get a good nights sleep last night.”I nod my head as I lean back and watch her fall asleep. When was it that I fell in love with her…Oh yeah it was back in middle school where she transferred in after her parents’ move. She was always quiet and acted shy, but when a she caught a group of kids picking on someone she was quick to react and get them away. I look at the table to see my name written on an envelopeI lean over and pick it up careful of Jung Ae since she’s finally sleeping. “Dear Key,I’m sorry that I didn't tell you the truth. It’s just I was scared that you’d leave me. After all this time of crushing on you after my first day at your middle school. I know that I never told you this, but I was worried you’d call me a barbarian even more. I’m not even sure if you remember going to the same school as me.Since I had left that early spring looking like a nerd and entered high school looking like any other girl. I was worried you wouldn’t noticed me, but you did, didn't you?You noticed me as a barbarian since in that first week I had put three kids in the hospital for bullying some younger kids on my way home.Do you hate my violent side? I know I do. I hate it with a passion. I’m not even sure why i’m so violent at times… Maybe it’s mental issue. Maybe I should get myself checked in and see why the violent issue of mine happens so often.Yet when i saw you I was always happy and calm until something stupid came from your mouth. What did I ever do to make you hate me so much?I’m sorry. That I didn't tell you. I’m sorry that I didn't’ also tell you that I knew you were the boy from the hospital or at least I had my suspicions. Sincerely with all my love,Choi Jung Ae.P.S.Ki, I have a question. Are you going to break up with me because I didn't’ tell you right away?”I smile sadly as I look down at my girlfriend and kiss her cheek waking her up. “Huh, Ki are you alright?”“I never hated you. I was more upset, because I thought you liked my friend, but I never knew what he did to you. I never knew anything. Just whenever i was near I’d come up with these smooth sweet lines to say to you, but they came out…”“Like you’re an egotistical maniac of a jerk.”“Wrong,” I finish my sentence ignoring what she said, “I should have realized when he spoke to you, you’d look like you wanted to vomit. When I did you looked purely happy until I opened my big fat mouth.”She giggles sleepily as she starts to fall asleep she still says, “That’s what is funny. You still open your big fat mouth you’re just a bit more careful than before.”She falls back asleep with a goofy grin on her face. I sigh in relief when I notice that I didn't’ get hurt with her amounts of anger issues.Lean down and kiss her forehead as I whisper, “There nothing wrong with you, because I love you just the way you are.”