In The 30th: Part 3 (1/1)

*Warning: Angst*‘I’ve never thought before, time can be so precious. But then I meet you and him, and suddenly I want to write down every single moment we spent together, so when we’re not here anymore, the story left…’ –Luhan*Luhan tucked his head down.He can feel the cold breeze hit his now reddened cheek and he can see the dark sands under his feet. He can hear steps walked near him but he sat still with his hands hugging himself and a pout on his lips.“Lu,” He heard Jongin whispered dryly, a feet away behind him, “he’s not coming today.”Frown can be seen upon his face too, because he disliked this kind of situation too. He hate it, every single hour since the midnight, he had to approach his broken Lu to tell him the bad news over and over.This is the tenth times they passed the 30th night. This is the tenth times Kai didn’t show up.Lu looked up, and saw the line of dusk on the horizon. His already swollen eyes became teary again as he covered his face with his cold hands, sobbing alone.“Why?” he asked, and Jongin hate it because he didn’t have the answer. He couldn’t find the right reason why Kai just disappeared.“Let’s go home.” He whispered, still giving Lu a distance because that’s what they were now. Nothing but distance.Before, they’re not a lover but friend so without Kai, they became awkward. It became worse each month they had to pass with only the two of them. And what makes Lu disappointed even more, Jongin didn’t even try to make himself closer to him. Jongin just, keep staying away, keep blaming himself because of Kai absence and he didn’t understand what Lu want.Lu wanted both of them. Not because one of them disappeared, the other one became far away.“C’mon.” Jongin raised his voice a little bit, but it’s enough to make Lu cried out loud.“I hate you!” recently, Lu can only say that. He knew it’s wrong. He knew he’ll hurt Jongin even more, but he can’t help it. He hated Jongin for let him waiting outside alone, every 30th night. He hated Jongin who never touch him intimately, and he hated Jongin when he begged Jongin to make love, just the two of them, and jongin just refuse him. He hated Jongin who can’t be bold without Kai around. He hated Jongin who always awkward and being insensitive.But he loved Jongin so much. Because he’s the real one. He’s the one who always come first in the morning and taking care of Lu. He’s the one who smiled gently even though Lu can’t stop talking about himself and his own problem. He’s the one who cook for Lu when Lu was totally blind and deaf about it.“Fine.” Jongin snapped. He turned his back and walked home, drawing more distance between them and all Lu can see was his back. His lonely back. And he can’t hold his urge to slump on his knees and cry.Why Jongin never understand the meaning of love?*Luhan was sneezing,“I’m getting cold.” He murmured, as he curled even more in his blanket. His eyes became heavy after an overnight stay on the beach. He stared at the interior of the beach house, his memory recalled to the eleven months ago, when Jongin asked him to live together.He smiled weakly. Such a precious memories, he thought as he now eyeing his engagement ring. He’s still remember, Jongin proposed him to live together (not to marry – because Jongin still in college) and used most of his savings to buy Lu an expensive white golden ring, with the words ‘light-dark-shadow’ carved inside it.Before the 30th March, everything was so perfect. They really became a couple, like, eat together, cook together, shopping together, bathing together, sleeping together and making love to numerous time, anytime, anywhere.Then, Kai didn’t come anymore, and Jongin started to speculate. Lu knew he was upset, because they both anticipated Kai to come at 30th night. They prepared everything, because it’s Lu’s first time too to see him directly. But then Jongin said, maybe Kai won’t come because he was jealous. Because Jongin cheated and having Lu for himself. Lu already said to him he was wrong, but Kai didn’t come again at April, and then May, and then Jongin stopped touching Lu.In August, he saw the ring still on Lu and he asked flatly, ‘why don’t you throw it away yet?’Lu just slapped him hard, and then ignoring him for weeks.Now it’s the beginning of December, and Jongin already said to him his plan for them to ‘move on’. He said, ‘let’s wait until the New Year, if he didn’t show up anymore, then it’s the end of us.’Why?‘There’re still two of us.’ Lu kept saying this to him. ‘We can go through this together.’‘Not without him.’ that’s Jongin simple answer, and Lu knew he will be double broken heart in the whole New Year, if Kai didn’t show up at the 30th December.Lu took a deep breath, “I’m so cold…” he murmured bitterly, “and no one love me enough to warm me…” he said loud enough for Jongin, who silently brew a coffee in the kitchen, to hear. He got no reaction, except from Monggu who titling his head cutely as the brown poodle rested next to Lu.The only thing that made him stay sane these few months was their kids. Taking care of them giving Lu so much relaxation, much more than facing grumpy Jongin. Maybe he will snatch them away from Jongin when they finally ‘move on’.Stupid Jongin.“Good morning, Monggu.” Lu kissed Monggu and then he drifted into sleep.*Jongin stared at sleeping Lu. He was sleepy too, but Monggu and Jjanggu circled around his legs, asking for a morning walk.He sighed, “Monggu, Jjanggu, Daddy really tired now…”One of them barked at him. Jongin almost jumped in surprise. Then they leaved Jongin and ran to the sleeping Lu. They began tugging Lu’s blanket opened, so Jongin immediately held both of the poodle on their collar. “hey, don’t disturb mommy, ok? He’s sleeping…”He stared at Lu, while struggling with the kids. They keep whining at him and even poked Kai with their front leg (I’m sorry I only have cat) to ask for attention.Jongin took the leg away from his face while Jjanggu decided to step on his feet. Well, it’s not hurt but it’s still annoying.“Fine.” Jongin finally sighed. “We’ll walk, but let Daddy took Mommy to the bed first okay?”They seemed understand, because they stopped fussing around the man and let him lifted Lu up. Then he brought Lu to their bedroom, their kids followed behind.   He placed Lu in the middle of bed. For a moment, he stared at the beauty. He smiled a bit. Even though the area under his eyes darkened and swollen, even though his face became paler, Jongin never stop loving him. Never blame him to hate Jongin, because Jongin knew it’s his fault.“I love you.” Jongin whispered on Lu’s dry lips, “and I’m sorry for everything happened between us.”He kissed Lu, before he left the bedroom with their kids still following around him.*“Jjanggu! Don’t run too far!”He heard something barking.“What is that? Don’t get near it!”He tried to move his body, but so far, he can only move a few fingers.“Jjanggu, don’t touch it!”He felt stung. This thing bites him. He tried to yank it away but he can barely move.“Hey!” He felt someone kneeling in front of him, “Jjanggu stop biting him!” he said to his (maybe) dog before he turned around this body, “hey, are you alive?”Kai blinked a few times. He let out a small groan as his eyes saw his first morning cloud ever, “huh?” his voice sounds hoarse, due to… he don’t know what’s happen to him. The last thing he remembered was he was here, chest facing the dirty sand, eyes staring at the nothingness and he was totally naked.“Where am I?” his head hurt a lot, “where is this?” he tried to sit up and look around. Everything was grey, the cloud, the sea, the sand, and it was so damn cold.“Kai?”The man called his name.Kai looked at the man again and he remembered Jongin. His Jongin. He can’t help but chuckled, “hey, you look terrible.” He laughed at the brunette, and sure, even though Kai naked and just got bite by a stupid dog, Jongin look… old, and grumpy and tired, and just… old.“What are you doing here? How you get here?” Jongin grabbed both his shoulder.Kai yanked both his hands away. “I don’t know.” He grunted, “why you looked like you just saw a ghost?”True Jongin eyes widened and his face paled.“Where is this?” Kai tried to get up, “hey, can I get some clothes, whoaaa!”In a sudden, Jongin jumped at him and just hugged him they lost balance and fell on the cold sands.“Hey what are you doing?!” Kai shouted in annoyance, “This is gross! Get off me!”But Jongin just hugged him even tighter and silently cried.“Great, now you cried.” Kai grumbled under his breath, “why don’t you carried me bridal style and just threw me from the cliff after this? Crying like I’m dead.”Jongin can’t help but choked a laugh. He got up a bit and wipe his tears away, “sorry brother, I missed you so much.”“Freak.” Kai smirked, “I never left you.”“But it feels like you’re taking a long journey.”They both got up and Jongin gave Kai his jumper, “here.”“So,” Kai felt weird if he just wearing a top without something covering his balls, so he tied the jumper around his waist instead, “you live around here?” he asked Jongin who now busy gathering over his poodles.He waited until Jongin finally catch his pets, “yes. I live with Lu in the beach house.” He said, “It’s ten month already…”They walked side by side, Kai tried to kick Jjanggu who want to pull his jumper away. This stupid dog!“Wait? So I was away for that long?!” Kai stared at Jongin in disbelief, “What happen to me?!”Jongin laughed, “how should I know?!” it feels weird. He never laughed again these past months. “Lu must be happy seeing you. He always eager to see you, because both of you never officially met.”Kai tapped Jongin shoulder. “I really want to see him too.” He hummed in happy tone, “so, you’re living together? Did you propose him?”Jongin blushed. “I do.” He said shyly, silently thanked God that Lu still believe there is something between them. Lu never left him or threw the ring away.Kai smiled gently at his half, “you’re finally grown up. Older though, but I think in a good way.” he said.Jongin frowned.“I know what you went through, both of you,” Kai now stared at the visible white colored small house near the beach, “I know you’re suffering. I can feel it.”“Kai…”He tapped Jongin back and chuckled, “I’ll help you, gaining your light back once again.” he whispered and with that Jongin snapped.“Then how about you?”Kai smirked at his half, “Silly, I have both of you already.” Then he tucked Jongin into his arm, “C’mon. My balls were freezing.”Jongin can’t help but laughed again.*It’s weird. Today Jongin is weird, Lu thought, when he woke up in the mid-day and found Jongin was cleaning the house while humming a song. He looked happy, which it became weirder because the last thing he would do lately was being happy.Lu decided to take a shower. Maybe it’s just his vision, because of these sleepy eyes. So he walked back to the bedroom and stripped naked. Then he went inside the bathroom and just put the clothes in the basket. He stood in front of mirror, felt hopeless at seeing his bed hair, and his gothic face. He used to have it after he cried too much, not mention he got lack of sleep.He sighed out loud, “I wish thing went differently…” he murmured much to himself, before walked into the shower box.He turned on the water, and lifted his face up, standing still as he felt the hot water burning his skin. He gasped at the sensation, “so good…” he whispered breathlessly. He looked down, staring at his crotch. For a moment he’s just hesitating, if he should relieve it or not. Having a sex-less life was already torturing, and having an insensitive boyfriend who didn’t care his needs just add his frustration over his recent life.Lu turned off the shower.He grabbed his own length, and stroked it gently while closing his eyes. He moaned a bit, but who cares. The last time Jongin caught him masturbating (and he never tried to hide it), Jongin just turned away and then leave the house for hours. Lu pretended Jongin was masturbating too somewhere, he just too shy to do it boldly.“Jongin…” Lu started calling Jongin name, tried to imagine Jongin hands whom jerking him, “God…” he held on the shower wall and fastened his rhythm as he remembered again the time he was being sandwiched between Jongin and Kai.He felt presence of someone opened his bathroom door, it might be Jongin, he thought, so he turned while still jerking himself and…“You can hide here.”His eyes widened as he saw Jongin came in with another brunette, and the time their eyes met, Lu just froze.OMG!In front of him, stood Kai (he’s Kai, right?), shared twins figure and face and the same surprised expression with Jongin as they saw Lu from the now visible glass.And with that Lu shrieking in shame shock.*Lu pouted.He sat on the daybed in the deck, Jongin sat hugging him to comfort him while Kai sat near his leg, laughed out loud everytime he took a glance over Lu.Never in his life before, Lu wanted to disappear. His face still flustered in shame, as he buried himself into Jongin hug.That’s his first-time-meeting with Kai. He wants to meet Kai in romantic way, not being caught doing something so embarrassing like that.Now he knew why Jongin always backed away when he did it. It’s really embarrassing, though.“You…” Lu still pouted as he murmured at laughing Kai, “you must think I’m a weirdo.”“No, you’re not.” Jongin looked down at Lu.“Huh?” Kai stopped laughing. He put his hands on Lu’s naked toes and warming him. Lu can’t help but blushed even more. “Of course you’re not.” Kai smiled too, but soon it cracked into another series of laugh.Lu look up at Jongin, frowning.Jongin saw this and threw a pillow at his half, “hey.”Kai turned again, and as soon as he saw Lu was frowning, he shifted a bit and leaned his face closer to Lu, “I’m sorry.” He whispered. “Jongin told me, you wanted to see me in a special way.”Lu’s eyes became cloudy with lust at hearing such husky voice. He’s still hard, after all.“It’s okay.” He said. “I’m sorry for doing something embarrassing…”Kai bit his bottom lips, “how about we started from the beginning?” He properly sat and gave Lu a hand, “hello, my name is Kai.”Lu turned at Jongin and with that they entwined their fingers, before Lu took Kai hand. “Hi, my name is Luhan, but you can call me Lu.” His heart thumped wildly every time the words came outta his mouth, and when Kai bring his pale hand to his lips, he grabbed Jongin’s a little bit hard because of the nervousness.“My princess…” Kai attacked Lu with his husky voice again, “I’m sorry for my absence these past months. Jongin must bore you to death.”Jongin tried hard not to kick Kai away, because he saw Lu shook his head while giggling happily, “of course not, because he loves me so much he always make sure I'm always happy.”Jongin felt his heart fell at such gentleness. Even when all Jongin can do was hurting him, to hear him saying something so heartful like that excited Jongin. He felt so thankful Lu still didn’t forget him the time this beauty met Kai. That's why he leaned in and kissed Lu’s side head, whispering ‘sorry’ to Lu’s ear.He's very sorry for not believing, sorry for not being a supportive boyfriend, sorry for asking Lu to throw the ring away, sorry for thinking of giving Lu up...He knew it didn’t enough, but then Lu turned and gave him a warm smile. That slowly easing his worry away and made him believe he can make it up. They can make it up, the time they spent in sorrow and sadness. Later on, they had plenty of time to forgive and be forgiven.“Then how about you?” Lu turned at Kai again, “do you love me?”Kai just cupped Lu’s face and smiled widely, “can you see how much I love you?” he referred to his presence, “I’m here, became this real, because I love you. Do you still need more proof?”Feeling such gentle words tickling his ears, smelling his scent all over and leaning into the warmness of his touch, this is can't be real even more, Lu thought. So he shook his head, “no, this is enough for me.” He said while touching both Kai hands on his face, didn’t even realized his tears falls apart,“Thank you for giving me this chance to see you again…” he sobbed, when this closeness cured his longing, and as if they knew it, they showered him with kisses, touching him everywhere they could and all Lu can do is crying even more."I love you..." Lu choked the words out, "both of you..."*A/N: I want curse, but that will be inappropriate so just, aasdhjkglkl, it’s 4.a.m and I had work tomorrow yet I’m listening to ‘Painkiller’ Spica and I can’t stop writing TT_TTSorry Kyungkitty-sshi, the smut will be in the next chappie, but I hope you like this chapter. And this is not the last chapter, Eru persuaded me to make the story longer. Damn XD (not that I dislike it, though)