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Yang selalu kuinginkan, yang selalu kunanti(What I always wanna see in you, what I always wait in you)Kau coba tuk mengerti apalah arti mencinta(Is that you someday understand the real meaning of love)   There was a thunder in his heart. There was shock, along with sadness and rage, and a wish that everything was just a really bad dream. But it wasn't nightmare. It was real, very real that he started feeling dizzy and he couldn't breath at all.Jongin, the love of his life, was kissing another person.Jongin, the love of his life, was cheating on him.Jongin, the love of his life, betrayed him ...They, after a full minute of slow, lazy kiss, pulled apart. They blushed and it was both sickening and killing for Joonmyeon. It smashed him right into the deepest pit of sadness and twisted him in the most painful torture he ever had.It was my kiss. It was my kiss. It was the one we shared when we first dated. How dare he shared it to other person other than me? How dare he did this all of this to me?!And blood raised to his head, pulsating him with pain and pressure. As much sadness ruling inside him, there was also anger. Joonmyeon was quickly burned with rage and disappointment. With all the emotion he was feeling, he could just explode anytime.He gulped before he pulled his leg apart and started walking to the couple's table. It was fast, he was never faster in his life before. He didn't pay any attention to the track he was taking nor did he give a damn when he abruptly nudged or kicked people's table or chairs in his attempt to reach them. He didn't care about anything. Jongin's table was the only thing he focused on.Jongdae was the one noticing his appearance first. His face dropped white, very pale as he saw Joonmyeon moving closer to Jongin."What's wrong, Babe?"Babe? He even called him 'babe'?"Jongin!"His husband would have collapsed from the chair if he hadn't grabbed one of the table's side to prevent him from falling. He stood up fast and the same horrified expression as Jongdae's was on his face."J ..., Joon ..., Joonmyeon ....?"SLAP!His hand was faster than his thought and when Joonmyeon could get a grip on the situation, there was red marks on Jongin's cheek and his palm was pulsating in pain. Jongdae froze. Everyone was looking at them now."So this is the client you are seeing today? This is the one who is more important than me? This is the one that makes you skip our anniversary day just to be with? This is the one that makes you change, that makes you stop loving me? IS THIS HIM?!"By the end of his scream, tears had been running all over his face. Joonmyeon sobbed, hugging himself to hang on because there was a black hole in his chest, sucking energy and life he barely had a moment ago. He felt a touch on his shoulder but when he realized it was from Jongin, it was making him more devastated."DON'T TOUCH ME!"He hit the hand and the hand stopped in the air."Joonmyeon, please .... It's not what you are thinking about .... It's ....""Enough! Enough, Jongin! You betray me!"Joonmyeon spinned around and dashed out of the restaurant. His heart was squeezed by sadness and he just wanted to get out of here."Joonmyeon, wait!"He kept running but a second an arm grabbed him and it turned him around. Joonmyeon's arms were trapped in Jongin's hand."GET OFF OF ME!""JOONMYEON, PLEASE! Listen to me!""I don't need explanation! You lie to me! You choose to be on his side, not mine! How dare you ask time for explanation! You betray me, Jongin! YOU BETRAY ME! I don't wanna see you! I don't wanna see you again! I HATE YOU!"The grips loosened up and Jongin was left petrified on his spot. Joonmyeon had nothing in mind but to keep running. He wanted to disappear.He had run for quite a good distance when he heard, faintly, that his name was being called by Jongin. It made him more determined to lose his track. He walked past the park now. He had to escape to somewhere else's place, hide himself there, and find a solace."NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! JOOOONMYEOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNN!!!!!!!"There was a piercing scream that hit his ears. Jongin had been just several meter of him, looking at him with horror. The first silly thing that came to Joonmyeon's mind was the fact that Jongin was much faster than he was. However, it was before he realized that he was suddenly entrapped in a white light. There was an accompanying blaring sound that was deafening him.There was also some force that pushed him, flew him to the sky, and smashed him to the ground.It was a matter of second before his body was screaming in agony. Joonmyeon wanted to scream, pain was burning on every spot on his body, but his mouth and throat were full of something and when he opened his mouth there was flow of blood spilled to the smooth asphalt. He could only jerk like fish pulled out of the pool, making a muffled groan and choked hiss as he couldn't speak at all.Just when the pain start to subside, he felt he was being hugged. Or probably the hug was subsiding the pain. He blinked his eyes which were also red with blood and saw Jongin's tears on his face."No! NO! NO! Joonmyeon, hang on! Please HANG ON! PLEASE HANG ON!!!!!"Joonmyeon was still jerking, intermittently, voice halted by blood on his throat."Akh .... Akh ...."And the memory flashed in his in his mind. He met Jongin for the first time, Jongin wasked him to be his boyfriend, they kissed for the first time, Jongin proposed him in front of his parents, they vowed their love in the alter, they made love for the first time, they went to Bali for honeymoon, they celebrated their anniversary.Jongin smiled happily to him.Joonmyeon raised his limpy hand, the one where his bone was not protruding out of his flesh and coated by deep crimson blood. He lifted slowly to Jongin's face where tears were glistening. He put it to the cheek where the red mark was apparent on it. He put it there and felt it burned on his palm.Joonmyeon smiled to him, while a drop of tear fell from his eye.I love you, Jongin.The hand fell to the ground just after Joonmyeon's body gave a final jerk."JOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNMYEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!" #   #   #October 1, 2014 What a roller coaster of emotion I was experiencing while making this. God Sake.... Schandelierre