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Apalah maumu kasih kau pilih diriku di dalam hidupmu(What did you have in mind, Dear, when you chose me in your life)Nyatanya kulihat kini tak bisa kau coba untuk setia(That I see it in truth that you never try to be faithful)Sudah cukuplah, sudah, kumemberikan waktu(It's enough, just enough, the time I have given to you)Kau selalu tak bisa mencoba untuk setia(You can never bring yourself to be faithful to me)  "Joonmyeon, wake up! I am leaving"The words finally made his eyes open. He had actually acquired his consciousness since the first awakening call in the form of body shake on his arm. He was closing his eyes before as he was waiting for, expecting a particular reaction from the other person in the room. Sadly, not all expectation was met, his wasn't. After the third calling, with tone raising on each time, Joonmyeon had no choice but opening his eyes."Yes, Jongin. I am up."Joonmyeon sat on his bed, eyes examining Jongin who had dressed in gray semi formal suit on a white sweater. Jongin looked spectacular, as usual. He could wear rag and would still appear magnificent at the end of the day. He looked radiant today, brightly handsome.If only there was a smile on his face, for me ....Joonmyeon sighed at this spot."Do you really have to go today?""How many times do I have to tell you, Joonmyeon? I told you last night that I would be having a meeting today with a client." Jongin grumbled in front of the mirror. "It would be hard for him to arrange a meeting in workdays, so he volunteered to have one on the weekend."Joonyeon blinked, swallowing his argument. Is your meeting more important than me? He eyed Jongin again, who was styling his hair."Sorry. I forgot. Well, do you want to at least have some breakfast first?""I can't. I will be late. I will get it with him later.""I see. Will you come early today? I plan to cook something nice for us. You know it's bee --.""I don't know. I would probably be late. Just don't wait for me, I don't know when I will return home."It was actually a good stab on his heart. Jongin was ignoring him again, for the umptenth time already. There was nothing Joonmyeon was able to do other than looking down and exhaled a slow, painful breath."I am leaving Joonmyeon. Have a nice day today."Jongin took his car key and quickly walked out of the room. Joonmyeon watched him out with apparent sadness on his face.How could I have a nice day today?Joonmyeon threw his back on the bed once again, a mixture of a bit of upsetness and a huge sadness was thumping on his chest.How could you forget this day, Jongin?He huffed a sigh, giving up on his own thought before he jolted out of the bed and dashed like crazy to the front door.Tell him, tell him, TELL HIM!"Shit ...."Standing on the door frame, panting, Joonmyeon was looking at the back of Jongin who was about to enter his car door. A second later the said man disappeared into the black, shiny vehicle. The wheels rolled on the pavement, the car was quick to get out of the yard.Joonmyeon leaned on the door frame, eyes trailing at the car until it vanished from his sight. There was somberness punching him in the center of his heart, tightening his chest, making it really hard to simply breath.Unable to contain the sadness, Joonmyeon retreated to the house. Locking the door, he then moved to couch in the living room. He let himself fall into the fluffy couch and his eyes caught the date on the wall.June 23.How different it was today and last year. Today of a year ago, this room was filled with laughter. Now it was the emptiness only that crowned in this space, supressing him into his spine."Happy anniversary, Myeonnie! Long live our happiness! I love you!""Hahaha! Happy anniversary too, Jong-Jong! I love you too!"No more happy smile, no more kisses and hugs, no more happiness. Jongin he knew once had disappeared. He changed.He looked up, trying very hard not to spill his tears. There was a growl in his stomach, his tummy was hungry, but he had no appetite to eat. He, however, walked to the kitchen and opened the fridge. It took a while for him to freeze on the cooling machine, fixing his eyes on a box that fulfilled the bottom part of the fridge. Sighing, he finally took the box out and closed the fridge door, rather hard, before returning to the living room again.He opened the box. There was a cake, beautifully decorated with an exquisite writing on the surface of it. He lifted it and put it on the table, lit the candle, and looked at it for a very long time before he closed his eyes."Happy anniversary, Jongin ...."Eyes open and candles blown. Joonmyeon blinked as he could no longer hold the sting on his eyes. Tears flew down one by one and it fell faster as he hugged himself and burried his head on his arms, letting all the pain out along with the hot, painful tears. *   *   * September 26, 2014 Such a tease? Just wait for the second part. Schandelierre