Ne Me Quitte Pas (1/1)

LUNA  "Ah jinjjaaaa!" I squealed as I hurriedly buttoned up my blouse. Chanyeol groped at the nightstand for his glasses. "Baekhyun, how did you get in here?" I asked, out of breath and almost yelling in embarrassment."The door was open," he said. "I kept knocking and there was no answer....I can see why." His dark brown eyes glared directly toward at us...no, at Chanyeol. They were filled with disgust, resent, hate, shock...I'm so confused. Why is he resenting and why is he shocked?Is it so shocking that he's not the only one who had the guts to screw Chubbo? Didn't think that another boy would be willing to fool around with the ugly duckling?"What are you doing here?" I said, finally finished fixing myself. I stood up from the bed but still remaining on Chanyeol's side.Baekhyun sighed and slowly shook his head. "I..I got worried. I got worried, okay? I've been trying to reach you. I've been calling you for ten times...shit. Forget I said that. Point is you weren't answering and that worried the fuck out of me." He returned his gaze to Chanyeol, this time his eyes were softer, sadder, and it just makes me more confused. Then he turned back to me. "Turns out you're fine. My mistake."What the major fuck?I sat down on the bed and turned to Chanyeol who has been looking away all this time. I reached for his face and gave him a reassuring smile."Hey, I'll be back kay? Let me take care of this."He pressed my hand and smiled back at me. "I'll try at that nap again.""Okay."I carefully shut the bedroom door then dragged Baekhyun by his wrist and headed downstairs."That's really low, perving on me." I hissed as we sat down in the living room sofa. I was waiting for him to remark on that, maybe tease me or snap something cocky. But he's quiet, his eyes up in the ceiling.Silence.More silence."So I guess it's serious." He finally said."What is?""You and Chanyeol.""Hell yeah it is." I mumbled as I looked down at my feet. This is so fucking awkward."How long..""Almost a month now. Wait...why do you even want to know? It's none of your business." Another attempt at making him pull a wisecrack."Right...sorry."Nothing."Good lord, Baekhyun. Why are you here?""I already told you. You stopped hanging out with me, stopped talking to me. Hell, you were practically avoiding me. I have no idea whatsoever what came up. And then I remember about your parents divorce and...""Dad is fine. He's so much better now and..""And you weren't going to tell me?""Uhh..why? Am I fucking obliged to?""BECAUSE I FUCKING CARE!"Baekhyun's words were like a trash truck dumping shitloads of garbage on me."I've been fucking worried about you since the day you told me to 'have a nice life' because after that, you became a completely different person. I have no idea what the fuck happened back there. I knew it started there but you wouldn't give two shits and tell me what the fuck happened. You were ignoring my calls. You were avoiding me in class, in the parking lot --""Get a load of yourself, Byun Baekhyun!" Now I'm the one yelling. "I'm not avoiding you.""Fuck, Luna! Don't lie to me. I know you damn well. You have! You didn't act like this back when you hated me--""I still hate you." I said, forcing my voice to raise, but it came out as a squeak. "I hate you even more now for barging...no, fuck you! I don't even know why you're acting like this. Do I owe you something? I can't be around you anymore. I decided that. I'm done escaping. I'm done running away from my problems. I have no use for you anymore."Baekhyun let out a frustrated cry and clenched his fists. "Are you even hearing yourself? That's exactly what you're doing now. You're running away again. Admit it, Luna.""Admit what?""That you're running away from me.".......................?I gave him the biggest scoff I could ever produce. This was ridiculous...at least I'm trying to think that it is. Ugh!"Fuck me on a stick, Byun Baekhyun! You're really full of yourself.""It's true, isn't it?""Oh my-- let it go! And even if it is, what does it matter, huh? Huh?! So what if I really was running away? What if I did have feelings for you? I'm nothing to you, Baekhyun. Nothing! I'm just another girl in your long list of screws. I thought we were fine. But then I saw you again getting cozy with a girl in the lockers--""Luna, that was Krystal. My sister."Well, I'll be."Okay. I'm sorry about that.. But that's not the point. The point is..you could never commit to anyone, not even to the prettiest girl in school, so why would you to me? Why would you commit to Chubbo?"Baekhyun covered his head over his arms and knelt on the floor. "Enough!"  BAEKHYUNI couldn't take it anymore.I thought I was ready to face her. I had no idea it would be this fucked up.And I remember it all now.And she didn't stop there.Luna started sobbing. I have never seen her break down like this."Why?" She faintly said. It was almost inaudible and it hurt. "Why do you call me that? Why did you tell me I was the odd one out? Why Baekhyun?"I was speechless. I fucked it up big time and now I'm the one trying to pick up the pieces. I deserve every bit of this but I never knew it could hurt so much."Do you have any idea how much it hurts? I know myself that I'm nothing attractive, I'm not pretty, I'm not --""Luna, please.." Now it was my voice's turn to crack. "I never -- I didn't-- Shity.. I'm sorry." I reached out to touch her but she slapped my hand away."Don't you dare touch me ever again." She sucked in a deep breath before stabbing me again with that one sentence.""I didn't mean anything to you..""Then why on earth am I here, on my knees, in front of you?" I asked, almost helpless, like a lost kid begging to be taken home."You want to know?" Luna hissed in an angry tone. Her voice was low and soft, but it made me feel more vulnerable than I already was. "You want to know why, Baekhyun? Your lack of familial love has made you lead this kind of lifestyle. You say I'm the one running away. Well speak for yourself. Ever wonder why you've been messing around with girls you'll never been serious with? You must be running away from something too. And now you're devastated. You know why? Because there's this one girl who actually walked away before you did. She didn't worship you. She didn't chase after you. Your prized possession that is your ego can't handle that."I curled into a ball. She killed me. Every single word she spat struck me and not in a good way. Part of it was true, but the latter half enraged me.All this time I spent with her..all this time I tried to change for her..for my sister..for myself..And I'm still that guy in her eyes.I slowly stood up, almost stumbling as I tried to balance myself on the wall. I took a deep breath and nodded slowly."Fine. Have it your way. I should go.""Yes, you should."I practically dragged my feet out of the house. My hands felt heavy so when I shut the door, I didn't intend to slam it. But it did. And there was no turning back.Love surely makes a fool out of everyone, because in some fucked up corner of my brain (or my heart), I knew this wasn't one-sided.I'm going to make her mine. One way or another.