[M] Spiral Of Silence (1/1)

BAEKHYUN Why?Why does messing around with Luna feel so different? In the first place, why do I feel something? I shouldn't even be feeling anything. When it's with other girls, I'm just really game for the sex. With Luna, it's more than that. It's like I want to know every part of her. I want to memorize her scent, her taste, her physique, the lines on her body, the sounds she make...everything.  My head is screaming why. I'm so confused. Why is Luna making me feel stuff that I shouldn't be feeling? Why do I crave her so much?Is it because I'm escaping from my own problems? Is Luna just another girl?No. I'm both happy and sad about that answer. Happy, because I've finally confirmed to myself that I do like Luna. No more denial, and hopefully one day, I'll be man enough to tell her how I feel.The sad part is I'm pretty sure I will never be more than a friend in Luna's eyes. Luna hated me just as much as my parents despised me and I'm starting to think that the only reason she befriended me is when she found a confidant in me.Girls used to chase me, but I won't be that guy anymore. Park Luna, I'm chasing after you. I'll make you fall for me.I swept away strands of hair on Luna's face. I rubbed her soft lips with my thumb, then I leaned down and kissed her hungrily. Luna tightened her arms around my neck and I can hear her throat starting to make the sounds that I love. In one effortless movement, I cradled Luna and we made out until we reached my room. I gently laid her down on my bed. I took off my shirt in one swoop then crawled on top of her. I'm surprising myself by being gentle today. That wasn't even my plan. A part of me just wanted to be slow, to adore Luna, to make her feel good about herself. I leaned down laid deep yet gentle kisses on Luna's lips. My fingers fumbled as I unbuttoned her blouse (why can't she just wear a simple shirt?) and pulled down her jeans. I went back up and laid soft, damp kisses on her neck while she took off her bra."Are you ready?" I whispered in her ear. I can see her smile from the corner of my eye. She held on to my arms and pecked my lips."I hate you for ruining the moment. Go do what you want to do. Just...please don't hurt me."I chuckled and pecked back her lips. "I won't hurt you. I'm going to please you.""Good."  LUNA Every time Baekhyun and I messed around, my body would take total control over me and my mind would totally shut down.This time was diiferent. I was aware of everything that happened.First, Baekhyun was gentle with me. We used to be aggressive with each other. We didn't make love. It was a war of the raging hormones. But that wasn't the case today. This was not just an escape and I have the strangest feeling that Baekhyun might actually want me.But then again, maybe he just wanted to get laid.Baekhyun ran his hands from my face to my neck. His fingers followed the lines of my collarbones, my breasts, and my stomach. He gazed at me. Gaze. He never did that. Baekhyun lusted over me but he never venerated me. Just when I thought his hands stopped surveying my body, Baekhyun tugged at the hem of my underwear and pulled it off of my legs in one quick yet careful swoosh. My legs unconsciously opened for him. Baekhyun caressed my thighs and laid soft kisses that made me let out a soft moan. I have never experienced such sweet and gentle pleasure and I did not expect that from him at all.My hips suddenly rose when my body jumped from what Baekhyun did -- he went down on me. I felt his warm tongue slowly yet roughly darting and sliding on my core. My hands gripped the bed sheets and I became breathless. I gasped in pleasure and arched my back. His tongue circled my core and it felt euphoric. His hands ran up and down my thighs and I swear I started to move my hips against his tongue. My fingers snaked through Baekhyun's hair and I didn't want him to go up until I couldn't take it anymore. Baekhyun picked up the pace and my hips did the same thing until I became weak when his tongue started to go inside me."Baekhyun!" I screamed his name when I finally came. I shocked myself when I did. Neither of us have said each other's names in bed. I know he noticed when I felt him stop for a split second but continued to lick up my juices. I crashed on the bed and let him finish. My chest rose and fell as I took deep breaths. When Baekhyun finished, I pulled up my panties and put back my bra. I sat on the bed and looked at Baekhyun who leaned his back behind me.I waited for him to say something, but there was nothing."I think I should go. The girls must be looking for me already." I said while I grabbed my clothes and got dressed. Baekhyun moved closer to me and faced me."Did you like it?"Did I like it? God! I don't even know what to say."To be honest, nobody has ever went down on me.""Oh," was all he said."I scared you there," I laughed half-heartedly, "I did like it."Baekhyun smiled. He was about to throw his arms around me but he realized he was topless. He threw over his shirt and gave me  quick hug."I'll see you tomorrow, dearest friend."My heart skipped a beat. The sound of his voice after sex is excruciatingly and painfully orgasmic. I pecked his cheek and whispered, "Thank you for that mind blowing oral."He chuckled and pinched my cheeks. Eww. He's getting comfortable."Goodbye, Looney bear.""I will shove my fist up your ass if you call me that again.""Can't get enough of me, huh?""God, Baekhyun! You never stop, do you?"He chuckled and the disgusting signature pervy grin appeared on his butter face."Say hi to the girls for me.""You're forgetting that they don't know about us.""Aren't you going to tell them about our new friendship? Hahaha!""Goodbye, Baekhyun!" I called out as I walked out of his room."I know you like me, Luna," he yelled back, "You don't hate me so much."I still hate Baekhyun, but for very different reasons now. We're friends now, and I'm going to miss our sarcastic exchanges in school.