Hinata falls deeply in love with Kageyama.Which he used to get closer to Oikawa,and stole his heart to give it to him.Leaving Hinata, feeling like a masochist. Foreword"we never get over a break up,its impossible when the person you love is just right in front of youwith the person they promised you they would never be with."—Theres so many things Ive hidden from you. Kageyama, why did you have to leave me?why? I gave you my everything and all I gotback was betrayal. are his kisses better than mine?does he love you as much as I do?is he a better person for you?       The way your fingertips warmed me up when I was cold. The way your smile lighten up my whole world. The way your lips fit perfectly with mine. I wonder what you felt about me when I felt invincible by your side. Kageyama, dont you miss me one bit? It feels cold without you.you were the fire to my frozen heart.       All the tears Ive cried are not going to bring you back to me. You know what hurt the most? while you were with me you considered him your everything and while I played every single card to be with you, you took them all and cut them. I automatically had lost to the person you told me not to worry about, and that made me lose the trust I had in humanity.what do I have to do to be like him?should my hair be brown? maybe Ill become a setter. all I want is you in my arms.        All those lies that made me believe that we could really be something. That maybe love wasnt so bad after all. That maybe you could be the one to change me for good. Valentines Day:a day you reunite with a friend or lover to appreciate what theyve done for you. the day that ruined me completely. the day I wish I couldnt remember.        How silly of me it was to give you flowers with chocolates that day. Because the one you were expecting was Oikawa, not me. Because the person you adore is him and not me. Because you cheated on me to be with him. Because you never cared about being with me. Because all you wanted was to get closer to him. and I fell in your trap. I believed in your lies.I made you get closer to him.and got myself replaced.        I fell in love with the lies that you said to me. I fell in love with the Kageyama I thought you were. And now, Ive lost the thing I trusted you with. my heart. because I gave it to you.thinking you would take care of it.but all you wanted to do was replace it with yours and give it to him.        You dont know how much you mean to me, how I still find you irresistible. I keep hurting myself with your thoughts. Because you made me a masochist for love.your love.the one I could never in a million years obtain. —"Hinata Shouyou"