This is my own personal Hell. I live through the days here atoning for past sins, in the hope that someday I will be able to break out of here. Whether what waits for me is a whole new Hell or Salvation remains to be seen. Wont you pray for me? ForewordOkay, so I have no idea what just happened. I was trying to write an emotional, sort of depressing moment for my ongoing story, and before I even realized it, Id written almost a whole page of really dark, gritty angst. It doesnt fit with the tone of my other story at all, but it seemed like a shame to just delete it so I made it a one-shot with a few changes. This is from Suhos point of view when he was still a trainee six years in. It explores the side of trainee life that we dont know, that we cant possibly know unless we live through it for ourselves. Ive always imagined and wondered what its really like so I like to explore different ideas through my stories and this is one of the products. Im posting this on an impulse because Im not at all confident that Ive managed to convey all the emotions and feelings running through my head when I was writing this. I might come back and make changes later, but thats doubtful.Be warned, this isnt a light-hearted romance, or a story about Joonmyeon overcoming the odds to become Exos Suho, but just a short, very very dark, angsty look at what it might possible be like to be a trainee at South Koreas most successful entertainment agency.WARNING: There are very brief mentions of self-harm and abortion. The mentions are quite brief and do not go into any amount of detail so Im not rating this as Mature, but if they bother you at all, please procceed with caution. If youve read the story, and find that it merits a Mature rating, comment or PM me and let me know and I will change it asap. I dont own anything (or anyone) you might recognize, and credits for the cover picture to the owner. Its not mine. The storyline, however, is mine, so hands off. Please, please comment if youve read the story as to what you think about it because its my first time trying something like this and I want to know what I should work on. Thank you! Love, Prathyu P.S. - If angst is not your thing, or youre looking for lighter fare, do check out my other ongoing story, Its also about traineelife, except its an Original Character trying to make it. I promise lots of fun, laughter, hijinks and bonding! Chasing Butterflies - OC X Sehun