Recorded Love Foreword*************************************************************PLAY*I am at war.I am. Shit! Im fidgeting again. Do you know how hard it is for me to sit up; prim and proper?(laughs nervously)Aaah.. Of course you can see that! (slaps my forehead) Im sorry for babbling again.As I was saying, I am at war. At war with what? With everything.... or maybe with nothing! I amnot so sure at all. I am at war with my self, with the society, with my feelings, and with my love.My love for my self, for my pride, for my beliefs and for HIM. Him- do you know who Xiah is? Kim Junsu?Well, who wouldnt? especially you.I hate my love for him. I know, now, you hate me too. Yes, I know you love him. You and he are meant to be.I do not have any complaints about that. (in the brink of crying)Yes! You are set to be wed in one week and I am your bridesmaid. I know I have to say this in a video recorder, because..(trying to stop the tears from falling) because, I cannot tell this in front of your face without seeing you hurting!I dont know if youll still consider me your bestfriend, I know youll hate me after this.I am your best friend and I betrayed you for loving him.(sobbing sounds)Shit! (exclaims while trying to laugh) I am very much sorry, I dont want to deceive you, to betray you. I love you and...I do not want to hurt you, but you deserve to know everything, every single detail.(laughs) I know you are not used to this. I usually am the one who listens while you talk- talk about your life, your love life;your love for my one true love. I know I sound bitter but I am! I love you and I love him. I really am sorry. I hope you can and will forgive me.*PAUSE************************************************************Im sorry if the foreword turned out to be the first chapter. =)Ill try and explain, this chapterThe story opens with YOU (the reader) watching a video recorded by her best friend (I). everything inside the Parenthesis (....) is what you see/hear your best friend doing in the video and the words are the words uttered by your bestfriend. Hope you can imagine that. =)I hope this explains the *PLAY* and the *PAUSE*Its my first story. so please bear with me and my not-so-good use of the language. thanks! Id love to hear from you.