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Jimin´s POVWe met when I was twenty years old. That day, when I first saw you, was written into my life history, and I still remeber it in a good way. I didn´t know, that someone else knew about place like a roof of half ruined old school on the edge of this city, where is acces forbbiden, even exist. It was 10.PM and I really didn´t expect company in that late hour.,,What are you doing here?" You asked and I couldn´t see you in the dark at the moment. Your voice was extraordinary, so I was afraid, that you were someone adult or even a policeman. I did not answer, but I stood up. I saw you were heading toward me, I wanted to take few steps back, but the roof, I was standing on, was ending right behind me. ,,Don´t be afraid," you chuckled. ,,And sit down again or you may fall," you warned me. I did as you told and you came to me. You were so close, that I could see your face and when I saw you were the same age as I, I calmed down. You sat down next to me and looked at the sky, like I while ago.,,I found it here by an accident," I decided to speak, ,,It is a really good view." You nodded.,,I am Min Yoongi," you intruduced yourself.,,Park Jimin."Silence came after my answer. You said nothing and even didn´t look at me. I decided to do the same.  From that moment, when you first visited that roof, you were coming regularly. Every Monday and Friday. But you didn´t said anything to me. Silence. You didn´t know anything about me and I didn´t know anything about you. I did not want it to be like that, I liked your company, even if you were here just for two days in week. Even I wasn´t there every day and loneliness was forcing me to leave earlier and earlier. But now, I was staying longer because of you.  ,,Yoongi?" I said. I didn´t bear the silence anymore. I heard sigh.,,Yes?" You asked, but didn´t look at me.,,Where are you from?" I started with an easy question. I did not expect an answer, but you looked at me and said:,,Daegu, I moved into Busan few years ago.",,I was actually born here. But this city is getting more and more strange to me," I said and looked into your eyes.,,That´s because you´re staying on this stupid roof the whole time, Jimin," you smiled.,,Stupid? I though you like it here, so that´s why you´re coming back," I said confused.,,Who said, that I am going here, because I like it here?" After this question, silence followed.----As I said: You came here every monday and every friday. I didn´t know anything about you expect your name and your place of birth. I was afraid of asking for another informations because I remembered your look when you were answering me. I was scared that you´ll stop going here.So, it was another friday and I was waiting for you. But you didn´t came. I was confused. I didn´t know what happed. You came here all the time, you did not skip any day, so I thought, that this monday was the last day I saw you. I was waiting on the roof long time. Longer then I ever stayed, because I was hoping you´ll come. At least for a moment. I didn´t know you, Yoongi. You were a stranger to me, but you were very close to me at the same time. Really.Monday came again and I was waiting the worst possibility. It was few minutes after ten when you greeted me. It was strange...you´d never greeted me before. You sat next to me, maybe a little bit too close. I looked at your face. I was looking for something...different - any change or something like that. But you were the same. Your eyes was still that cold.,,I am going to visit my parents. I don´t know when I´ll come back," you said. I didn´t know what I was supposed to say. But when I´m thinking about it now, I think that you didn´t want me to say something. We weren´t friends, but there was something bigger than friendship between us. That´s why it hurted so much.,,Don´t be afraind," you smiled when you saw my expression. ,,I´ll come back," you told me and putted your arm on my shoulder.----You were gone for one month. Or maybe it was more than that....When you came back, winter started. I still remember your face expression, when you were sitting there. On the roof of the old school. You were first who arrived here from both of us..,,Yoongi...," I was glad that you´re back. You did not say something nor look at me. ,,I am glad-,",,How were you, Jimin?" You interrupted me. Your voice was different.,,I think, that I´m the one that´s supposed to ask," I answered nervously. I sat next to you. ,,What happend?" I asked. I was afraid of your answer. You were´t answering, so I was afraid you won´t answer.,,I don´t want to talk about that," you said finally. It was obvious, that you were crying, even if you tried to hide it.,,Yoongi..," I didn´t know what to say. You turned toward me and at that moment, I knew what to do. I hugged you and was hoping that I´ll never see you that broken.Since that day you didn´t show again.----You came again few days before Christmas. I tried to ask you what happend, but you kept ignoring my answer, so I gived up.,,It will be Christmas soon, Jimin," you said and lay down on the roof.,,I think I won´t be celebrating this year," I answered. You said nothing to that.-I brought you a scarf. It was monday and it was Christmas at wednesday. I wrapped it in old wrapping paper, but it was everything I found.,,Hi, Yoongi," I waved at you even if I knew that you can´t see me.,,You´re too much happy today, what happed?" You said.,,Just...it´ll be Christmas in two days and...I brought you a present," I said and stepped closer toward you.,,Really?" You didn´t believe me. I nodded and handed it to you. You looked at me. ,,Thank you," you said. I smiled.,,I hope you´ll like it, I didn´t know what else buy, so...,",,It´s pretty," you nodded, ,,but...I don´t have anything for you," you looked down at ground.,,It doesn´t matter," I smiled. You´re here and that´s enough. You said nothing. I sat on the roof and looked at the sky. Stars were shining really beautufully today. I was sure that today is the best day in my life. You sat next to me and I was watching you while you were putting the scarf on your neck. It was a nice feeling.,,Jimin, I don´t think it´s the best present I can give you, but you can wish better things by it," you said suddenly.,,What?" I asked. ,,What do you mean?",,Jimin, it´s not much, but you can wish something by each one star," you smiled and I tried to understand it, ,,so that´s why I want to give you all stars on the sky," you said. ,,They  are now yours." You gave me stars, Yoongi. Something,  that connected us and it was the best present, I could get.---From that day, our relationship moved. You started to open more to me and I was looking forward to each day with you. It started to snow. It was few days after christmas and first snowflakes fell down from sky. You said that you like winter and I think you were happy when it started to snow.,,Did you wish something already, Jimin?" Once you asked.,,Not yet, I am saving them," I laughed.,,But you have infinity wishes, Jimin, you can wish everything," you said and I couldn´t stop the smile on my face to appear.,,That´s right, but I have everything I can wish right now, Yoongi, I don´t need any wishes now," I answered and looked at you. You were lying on that roof again and you didn´t care that the roof was under snow.,,Really? So you are lucky person, Jimin," you said. There was sadness in your voice.,,What are you excatly doing whe-,",,I´ll go now, see you later, Jimin. I don´t know, if I´ll came at friday, but I´ll definitely be there at monday," you intterupted me and got up quickly. I didn´t have a chance to do something, you were gone in a second.You were one big mystery, Yoongi. I didn´t have certainty that you´ll come back, so every day was harder for me. How many times you left and I didn´t know if I´m going to see you again? It wasn´t your fault, you didn´t need to come here at all, but the pain was something uncomfortable. i don´t know how long I can take it, Yoongi.It will be end of the year in a while and I hope I´ll see you.----,,I am sorry, Jimin, I am sorry that I didn´t came." I thought it is just a dream. You were stading there, dark blue knitted scarf around your neck, and your eyes...there was something I never saw before.,,Yoongi...," it was here again, i didn´t know what to say. ,,Don´t be sorry,  you said you don´t like this roof, you don´t need to be there and I think...I think it´ll be better if you don´t come here again," I looked at the ground.,,I am sorry but maybe...Jimin," you ignored my answer, ,,Jimin, do you want to go somewhere?"This question surprised me. I didn´t believe that you will invite me somewhere. I was speachless.,,Say something," you urged. I didn´t know you like that, Yoongi. You didn´t show me that side of your´s.,,You mean it?" I didn´t believe.,,Of course, I want make it up for you," you agreeded. It was strange. Weird. You were strange that day, Yoongi. I did not understand when it got to you, but you took my hand. And as you said, we went to dinner next day. We met really early, I think you were there for me around five o´clock (PM). I was surprised. Again. I seen your face only at night, so you were a lot more beautiful that day.-A lot of things happened, Yoongi. Since the day you came to the roof, you really changed my life. And even if you left, you came back, so I didn´t know, that the day you left and left me alone there, we saw each other for the last time.-It was friday, few weeks after new year. You arrived late today, it was eleven o´clock (PM). You act normal and you even worn the scarf I gave to you. I didn´t know you won´t come on monday. I didn´t know that you won´t come ever again.,,Jimin, if you had ever three wishes, what would you wish?" You asked.,,Three wishes? I don´t know, maybe things I don´t have that time," I answered.,,And what you don´t have right now?" I needed to think over this question.,,I don´t know...I think, that I have everything," I smiled, ,,what would you wish, Yoongi?" You were thinkig over it, I knew that. But I never got the answer.,,Do you know stars constellation?" You asked.,,No, I don´t, do you?",,Me neither, but....once, I want to learn them," you shooked your head. ,,I think I would have more the three wishes, you know, but once we got older...," you looked into my eyes, ,,I have a lot of things to do now and I think that...that I will be gone for a while. But I want to watch stars again with you."I don´t know what was going through my head back then. I don´t know what I felt back then, but it was mostly pain.,,You promise? You promise, that you wil be back? You promise that...that we will watch stars again?",,I promise, Jimin," you answered. I didn´t know,  that you can lie to me like that. ★ I know you lied to me back then. That friday was the last day I saw you. The last day we were with each other. It hurted, Yoongi, and it still hurts, but I don´t regret the day I spoke to you the first time. You never told me the reason why you kept coming on that roof, you never told me the reason why you cried that day, you never told me the reason why you kept leaving, but I had patience with you, I trusted you. So why you didn´t trust me?  You gave me stars, stars were the thing what brought us together, stars are the thing what´s still connecting us, because I still believe, that you´ll fulfil your promise.I miss you, really.I have infinity wishes, but I have only one, that I want to fulfil. Yoongi, I don´t know, if you´re still watching stars like me, I don´t know, if you´re still thinking about me or if you still remember the promise you gave me, but if so, I know that stars will deliver it to you.I want to watch stars with you. At least once more. For the last time.