Leave me if you love me (1/1)

I was dragged from place to place, forced into clothes I hated as Diana smiled and conducted everything. The false love we had, was the only thing protecting Ryeowook though, and making her happy meant protecting my love, then so be it. I thought back to the rooftop the night before and how dead Ryeowook seemed after I had asked him to be my best man. My heart had shattered at the exclamation I had forced him into.  He didn’t need to be in the spotlight, he didn’t need Diana’s wrath. But, it was my fault.“Kyu, what’s wrong do you not like this tux?” Diana asked with false concern, it didn’t matter if I liked it or not, I would wear it if she liked it.“It’s fine, I was just thinking about the wedding.” I explain hoping she believed me. Just by her glare I knew she didn’t. As she typed on her phone I felt my heart constrict, what would she do now? What worse thing could she possibly do to me that she hadn’t done already? I felt my phone buzz making me look down and retrieve the object. Diana had sent me a text. I open it quickly searching around for any eavesdroppers as I notice the picture. It was one I was aware of, and it was originally on my phone as a blackmail excuse long ago.“Forget him, or it goes viral.” Diana hissed before kissing my lips. I nod closing my phone and praying Ryeowook never saw the picture. He had been drunk and horny that was all, I had never touched him. The day continued with her watching me and screening my calls. Even a small mention of Ryeowook’s name or something had her gripping my arm in a bone crushing hold, faking our way through our non-existent love. I was finally allowed back to the dorms, Sungmin was busy fixing some food when I entered the kitchen.“Hello, Kyuhyun, take a seat.” Sungmin hissed making me cower into the indicated seat. A mad Sungmin scared me.“Is something wrong?” I ask with a small whimper. Sungmin turned to me tossing his phone making me race to grab it before it fell to the ground. The tabooed picture of Ryeowook greeted me when I opened the screen. My breathing picked up pace as I looked up at a furious Sungmin.“Yesung hyung is with Ryeowook. It was sent to all of us.” he growled, his eyes like fire burning into me.“This is my fault,” I whisper hanging my head.“Damn right, gah when we broke up I had high hopes you and he would get together, instead I get this. Fuck! my ramen burned.” Sungmin hissed eyeing his now burnt meal.“I- hyung, how do I fix this?” I wail hoping my hyung would aid me.  Sungmin simply glared at me before pointing his finger to the door.“Figure it out, you're smart” Sungmin ordered before ignoring me in favor of fixing his ruined dinner. I stand making my way out the door. I passed Yewook's room pausing when I hear Ryeowook’s cries. I wanted to burst into the room and hold him, crush him too my side and tell him it would be alright, pretend this had all just been a bad dream, but it would just be another lie, and I had lied to him enough.  I tried to move away, ignore those pained cries, but the image was in my mind carved. An image meant for only my eyes and now were seen by the very people who once respected our eternal makanae. The door opened before I could act, a furious Yesung glaring at me with hate. The only emotion I seemed to get now.“Why are you here?” Yesung spat making me flinch back.  I struggled with my words totally at a loss when a small figure appeared beside the angered hyung.“It’s fine Sungie hyung, let him in.” Ryeowook whispered earning a look from Yesung before he sighed and said he was going to find Sungmin. Ryeowook moved allowing me in the room. It was silent, a painful symbol of how our relation had become.“Why, when?” Ryeowook began making me look up from the bed I had taken a seat on.“The night after mine and Sungmin hyung’s breakup, we were drunk, you more than me.” I begin.  Ryeowook took a seat at his desk watching me.“You wanted it, you begged for it, but before we could go any farther than the picture, you fell asleep.” I explain.“Does she know this?” he asked with a bowed head. I shake my head.“She only knows I like you, that picture was supposed to be deleted from my phone, I don’t know how she got it.” I reply.  Ryeowook suddenly stood up moving to sit beside me on the bed. Tears were still falling from his eyes as I move to wipe them away with the pad of my thumb.  I was so close to him, those brown eyes I loved so dim because of me. We lean closer, our eyes shutting as our lips move inches apart. Fireworks burst in my vision when I feel his soft lips against mine. He was eager, I was eager but he pulled away before I could do anything.“We can’t do this, you're engaged and I’m just trouble for you. Delete the picture, delete me from everything. Please leave Cho Kyuhyun, leave here, leave me, leave this room.” Ryeowook ordered eyes closed and fist clenched.“Ryeowook hyung,” I whisper but he shook his head.“I’m sorry Kyuhyun, but it hurts to much to love you.” he exclaimed making me nod and leave.