Better to never love me (1/1)

I felt sick, like my life was ending. Kyuhyun was in his room playing now as Sungmin and Yesung hung around my room.“Kyu said you were sick, now tell hyung’s what is wrong.” Yesung ordered crossing his arms. I lean back on my pillows with a pout.“I’m fine,” I state earning a raised brow from the two worry warts.“Do you wanna talk about it?” Sungmin asked sounding like a girlfriend asking her friend about a bad date. He was sitting cross-legged at the end of my bed.“No, I just wanna be alone.” I reply hoping the two got the hint. Yesung lay beside me grabbing my hand in his.“What did Kyuhyun do this time, you only get like this when he’s being his usual stupid self.” Yesung whispered making Sungmin nod eagerly. I hide my face from the two, hiding my red puffy eyes, hiding my embarrassment at thinking I could love him.“Wook I know he’s an ass, hell I dated him when he first joined our group I know him!” Sungmin exclaimed making me groan.“He’s marrying Diana.” I whimper making the two pause at the news.“Say what?” Sungmin asked looking over Yesung’s shoulder.“That ass!” Yesung hissed standing and pacing the floor. I tighten my hold on my pillow as tears fall once more.“Why?” Sungmin asked completely stunned. “I know for a fact he likes dicks.” he continued.“That’s not all,” I whisper, feeling the need to release the last bit of info I had. Besides, they were my friends.“Diana cornered me at the store earlier today.” I begin earning the two’s attention.“What did she want with you?” Yesung asked eyeing me. I take a deep breath before telling them about the threats. As I thought, Yesung was furious and Sungmin was going over murder plans.“Guys, it’s no big deal, he chose her anyway.” I announce making them growl.“It’s not the point, she threatened you. Ryeowook we have too tell Kyuhyun.” Yesung said already heading for the door. I made to stop him but Sungmin got to him first.“Look, it’s better if Kyu still has no clue about this. It could hurt Wookie more.” Sungmin whispered surprising us. I waited for Sungmin to continue as Yesung sputtered before taking a seat as well.  “It’s up to us to keep him safe, for now, let’s not say anything, just keep Wook near us.” Sungmin explained. I sigh, what had I done, what was I going to do? Sungmin suddenly smiled eyeing me and Yesung.“Wanna make Kyu jealous?” he asked eyeing me.SUJU-SUJU-SUJUI put my controller too the side with a sigh. Even games could not make me happy right now. I felt betrayed, I was betrayed by my family and I betrayed the one person I loved more than anything. Ryeowook was sick, that bright look usually in his eyes were dulled since meeting Diana and then darkened when I told him about the marriage. A growl left my lips. This was all a mistake, one I couldn’t fix. Diana had threatened to hurt Ryeowook if I didn’t marry her. My parents had threatened to disown me. I could care less about the disownment, but I couldn’t wager Ryeowook hyung’s life, never that.“Kyuhyun-ah~” Sungmin called opening the door and sprinting in. I smile as he flops on the bed and smirks at me.“I’m horny,” he announced making me blink. It was not really unusual for him to tell me this, but it was unusual for yewook to enter right after he says it.“Should I leave?” I ask trying to ignore the pained look of Ryeowook.“No, I want you too join us. It’s a KIKI.” Sungmin smiled earning a confused look from me. What the hell was a Kiki? Are we talking about Ryeowook’s giraffe because Wook might be like that but I was not having sex with a giraffe if that was what was happening.“A kiki is spanish like for blowjobs, and we are all sexually frustrated.” Yesung smiled pulling me towards the small invasion. Ryeowook shot me an apologetic look as Yesung and Sungmin began making out and stripping each other. I turn to Ryeowook, this could be my last time with him. My last chance to touch him. I raise my hand to cup his face, when he pulls away with sad eyes.“I can’t, I’m sorry guys, I-I just can’t handle this.” Ryeowook whispered before rushing away. I watch as he leaves my room fighting back tears. My heart clenches, those tears were because of me.“Damn, and here I thought I had him.” Sungmin pouted.“You knew he was upset?” I ask turning to my hyung.“Yeah, he’s all upset you're going to marry a total bitch who threatened him at the grocery store earlier. Kyu, listen too hyung’s, kick her ass!” Sungmin snarled. I look away, I couldn’t, I had to protect Ryeowook.“I’ll talk with Diana, but I’m marrying her, I love her.” I reply before asking them to leave. I loved Ryeowook, but he was safer not loving me.