Chapter five (1/1)

Kihyun was staring at the window that day, not being able to concentrate. It was White Day and he always felt sad for not receiving any chocolate. He knew it was stupid because no one would like him like that but he could remember the two times he got a lot of chocolate boxes and felt the strong wish to lose weight. ‘I’m not ugly, I’m just fat’ he thought, sighing when the bell rang. He walked with heavy feet behind Minhyuk but the latter turned around, circling an arm around his shoulders. “What’s wrong?” the elder asked and he shook his head.“Nothing, Minhyuk-ah” Kihyun lied because he didn’t want to make a big fuss. His best friend had his locker full of chocolate boxes but he closed it when he saw his sadness expression. They were sixteen already and he wondered when would he be able to lose weight. “Let’s go eat something” he added and hoped the other wouldn’t go have lunch with Hoseok and Hyungwon this time.“Already hungry, Fatty Ki?” Jackson started walking by his side and slapped his head before running away, laughing as he always did.“Don’t listen to him” Jooheon patted his back the moment he passed through the hallway, flashing him a friendly smile. Kihyun just rolled his eyes, saying it was fine. He didn’t get affected by Jackson that much. The latter bothered everyone, not just him, so he tried to completely ignore his existence. It was a little had to do considering how noisy he was but he did his best.The two friends kept on walking until they reached the cafeteria. The line was already long but he saw Changkyun waving his hand at him. He was saving them the spot together with Donggeun and they were pretty close to the beginning. Kihyun dragged Minhyuk there and smiled at the other two. “Hi, Ki” Changkyun said in his new deep voice. It was really weird to hear his manly voice when he was so young but the raven haired loved it. “Are you okay? You don’t seem okay” the younger realized he wasn’t feeling well and touched his forehead, showing a worried expression. He was so cute, always taking care of him.“I’m fine, I’m just a bit sad, nothing new” Kihyun confessed and Minhyuk slapped his arm. “Yah! Why did you hit me?!” he hit his friend back.“You didn’t tell me you were sad!” Minhyuk faked he was offended and the raven haired rolled his eyes. “You always tell this Emo boy everything and I’m your best friend, not him!” he complained and Kihyun sighed, not having the energy to fight with anyone.“I’m not Emo” Changkyun said. “Why are you feeling sad, Kihyunnie?” he ignored Minhyuk completely and started caressing Kihyun’s back. Donggeun only stared at them with a knowing smile, making the raven haired a little uncomfortable. Did he know about the lack of chocolate boxes he received? ‘Nah, he isn’t a bad person, he wouldn’t make fun of me’ he thought and decided it would be good to tell Changkyun about it.“It’s just... I didn’t get any chocolate boxes” he finally took everything out and Minhyuk laughed. Kihyun glared at him, making him apologize and muffle his giggles with his hand, but Changkyun ignored him once again to then hug the sad student.“It’s okay, Kihyunnie” the younger parted to then smile toothlessly. “I didn’t get any either” he admitted and Donggeun raised his hand to say he got only one.“See? It isn’t that bad” Minhyuk smiled brightly but the problem wasn’t the chocolate, the problem was that it reminded him how thin he was a few years ago and he hated it. He loved food and he couldn’t stop eating, that was the reason he couldn’t lose weight.“It isn’t about the chocolates... I used to get a lot of boxes...” he tried not to cry, it would be embarrassing to do it again in front of Changkyun and Donggeun - well, Donggeun never saw him crying but he appeared that day he cried -. “I miss my skinny body” he sighed and Changkyun hugged him once more.“You are really handsome, you don’t need to worry” the younger always told him being fat wasn’t something bad but he couldn’t believe that when all the others made fun of him, only for that reason. “Remember-“Being fat isn’t something bad, I know... it’s doesn’t feel that way though” Kihyun said. “I’m sorry, let’s change the subject” he added, smiling slightly before speaking about something else. He completely missed Changkyun’s worried expression and he didn’t realize he was quiet the whole lunch, thinking about something.   Kihyun hesitantly rang Changkyun’s doorbell. It was really late at night and he was sure the younger would be sleeping but he couldn’t take it anymore. Minhyuk took Hyunwoo to their shared apartment and was fucking him soundly. Their moans could be heard all over the building and he didn’t have a better idea than leaving. He just hoped Peniel wouldn’t wake up because he would feel really guilty. “Who is it?” it was Peniel’s voice and Kihyun’s blush covered his whole face, including his ears. ‘Fuck’ he cursed inside his mind.“It’s Kihyun... I’m sorry if I woke you, I wanted to see Changkyun and-” the beep of the door interrupted his words and he pushed it open, entering the building. Everything was quiet since it was 2am already and he started wondering if it was a good idea to bother Changkyun at that hour. He stared at himself on the elevator’s mirror, realizing how messy his hair was. The designer went out of bed 15 minutes earlier and he completely forgot to comb his hair. He even had his pajama pants on and his suit inside a bag so he could go to work in the morning.When he knocked the door, Peniel appeared with bags under his eyes and a sleepy expression. He seemed to be really tired and Kihyun felt bad once again. “Hi” the bald one smiled toothlessly, moving to the side to let him get in. He then yawned and started calling Changkyun. “Do you want to go wake him? I don’t think he’ll get up if I call him” Peniel asked and the light brown haired nodded.“I’m really sorry for waking you” Kihyun apologized, bowing slightly. “I have a very good reason, I promise” he added and the other told him it was fine.“I can go back to sleep if I want to” Peniel chuckled, walking with him through the hallway until he reached his own bedroom. He waved his hand at the designer and locked himself inside the dormitory. Kihyun hesitantly opened Changkyun’s door, walking slowly through the room. Everything was organized and it smelled like perfume. The younger was there, sleeping under the sheets and the light brown haired had to stop to stare at him because he looked freaking adorable. He softly climbed onto the mattress - after removing his coat and leaving his bag under the chair - and covered himself with the sheets too, sliding his arms through the other’s body to hug his waist. The latter frowned a bit before opening his eyes and smile toothlessly at him.“Hi” Changkyun’s voice sounded incredibly raspy and he couldn’t help to peck his lips. “Am I dreaming?” he asked, closing his lids again. It was perfectly normal he thought that way when Kihyun came out of nowhere and sneaked into his bedroom like that. The light brown haired shook his head, kissing his companion once more. “What time is it?” the younger opened his eyes again.“Almost 2:30 in the morning” he answered, earning a slight chuckle from his sleepy companion. “I’m sorry” he said and the brunette shook his head, assuring everything was fine. “Minhyuk took his date to the apartment and they woke me with their moans, it was gross” he scrunched his nose in disgust and Changkyun rolled his eyes.“I’m sure he’s doing it on purpose” the younger gave his opinion and it was very accurate. Kihyun noticed his roommate started doing more annoying things after he started dating Changkyun a week and a few days ago. “It’s unfair because we never fucked when he was there” he growled, holding Kihyun closer to his body.“I know, right?” the light brown haired closed his eyes, hiding his face on the other’s neck. “We have to stop being so considerate to people” he whispered into the soft skin, making Changkyun shiver. “Peniel is the only person we can truly trust” he kept on talking and the younger nodded, brushing his light brown hair with his chin.“I’m so happy you are here” Changkyun whispered, melting Kihyun’s ears with his deep voice - as always - and kissed his forehead lovingly. “I’ll have to call Minhyuk to thank him” he joked and they both laughed.“Why don’t you just call me whenever you want to see me?” the light brown haired gave him the solution.“I don’t want Peniel to feel like the third wheel all the time” the younger admitted and the designer agreed with him. “I want to see you 24/7 and I cannot call you while I’m teaching or working at the company because they’d fire me” he added and made him laugh again. It was a cute and funny way of saying things and Changkyun always talked like that.“I want to see you 24/7 too, dumbass” Kihyun lifted his head a little to kiss his companion’s lips. They stayed like that, feeling their lips brushing softly against each other. It was really innocent but the elder loved it. “Should we sleep?” he asked when they parted and Changkyun nodded. “Good night, my baby Kyunnie” he said, making the brunette whine and pout. He didn’t like being called a baby and Kihyun did it to mock him - and he was extremely cute too so it wasn’t a bad nickname -.“I hate you” he grunted. “Good night, booty king” Changkyun got back at him and he couldn’t help to punch his chest harshly, making him whine in pain. “What? You have a nice butt” he rubbed his sore spot and Kihyun rolled his eyes.“Shut up before I hit you again” the elder threatened and they both hugged tightly to then fall asleep.    “Come on, man” Donggeun followed him around the school that morning and it was so early no one was there. He could see girls leaving chocolate boxes inside their crushes’ lockers though no male students aside from the middle school ones. “It’s better if you go and tell him! He’ll think you are some crazy girl” his best friend kept on insisting his idea of giving chocolates to Kihyun was stupid but he wanted the elder to feel good. It wasn’t about confessing his love, it was about seeing his favorite person in the world smiling.“I don’t want to tell him, Donggeun-ah” Changkyun explained once again. “I want him to be happy on White Day” he added, opening Kihyun’s locker fast not to be seen. He dropped the chocolate box in there with the letter he wrote and closed it again, feeling extremely good. “You heard him last year” he said, grabbing Donggeun’s hand to drag him far from the lockers.“And you wrote that gay letter to pretend you are a shy girl? I don’t think so” his friend was right, he wasn’t pretending, he wrote what he truly felt though it was a good thing Kihyun would think he was a girl. He didn’t feel like messing things up in between them. Their friendship was too precious to be ruined. “You told him the truth” the other kept on talking while they walked through the hallways. “What if he realizes that’s your handwriting?” he asked and Changkyun rolled his eyes.“I printed it, I’m not stupid” the blonde couldn’t believe his friend thought that low of him.“Oh, that’s smart” Donggeun hi fived with him. “I keep on thinking you should tell him tho...” he insisted but Changkyun shut him up when they arrived their class and the bullies were over their usual corner. “Kyunnie, Kyunnie!!” Kihyun yelled, running in his direction with the box in his hands. It was lunch time already and they were sitting on a table, eating. The chubby student had a happy smile on his face and he showed the object when he sat in front of them. “Donggeunie!” he said too, lifting the letter to show them. “Someone gave me chocolates! And they are homemade!” the raven haired was shinning and Changkyun smiled proudly. He didn’t do it in vain and that was the important thing to him. “You made your grandmother make chocolates?!” Donggeun told him that morning.“So? I told her they were for me” Changkyun raised his shoulders and his best friend rolled his eyes.“You make your grandmother work... you are a bad grandson” he shook his head and kept on walking.“It was necessary!” the blonde followed him, trying to re-explain everything. “That’s great, Kihyunnie!” Donggeun and Changkyun said at the same time.“I wonder who she is” Kihyun turned the letter around, checking if there was any name there. “There’s no name but the letter is really cute” he smiled beautifully. “I guess she is in love with me” Changkyun tried not to blush at that because he was doing his best not to show any signs on his face.“I think she might wear eyeliner” Donggeun said and the blonde stepped on his foot really hard. The first one widened his eyes at the pain though he made no sound and Kihyun frowned at him, not understanding his statement. “I’m saying it because I think I saw her this morning” Donggeun kept on talking and the raven haired kneeled on the chair.“You saw her?! Can you point at her? It’s not that I’ll like her back because... you know... I’m not really into women... but I want to thank her because she made me happy with this” Kihyun had expectant eyes and Changkyun was dying to tell him the truth but it wouldn’t be the same. The other would be disappointed if he found out his friend did it to make him feel better. That wasn’t a good strategy to confess.“I’ll try to find her... I think she had ear piercings too” Donggeun answered and Changkyun elbowed him this time.“Stop it” he whispered in his deep voice and it was inaudible to Kihyun.“It sounds like Changkyun” the raven haired chuckled and the younger laughed, trying not to show his nervousness. “I’ll go leave this in my locker, I’ll be right back” Kihyun got up, walking happily through the cafeteria and ignoring Hoseok, who was making fun of him like always.“You need to tell him!” Donggeun told him once the other disappeared. “What are you waiting for? We’ll graduate next year and maybe you won’t see him again!” his best friend was getting desperate but Changkyun rolled his eyes. At that moment, he was sure they would keep on seeing each other. He didn’t even imagine Kihyun would vanish from his life so he just ignored Donggeun, saying he would do it as soon as he felt comfortable. “Fine, do whatever you want” he sighed. “I still think it was the best opportunity to do it...” he added.“Maybe it was... but I’m not ready!” the blonde raised his voice a bit. “It’s not like he’ll disappear when we graduate” he rolled his eyes once more and they kept on eating in silence until Kihyun came back with his tray of food.    “Are you truly dating?” Peniel asked while they had lunch together that Saturday. “Like, real relationship?” he added and Changkyun nodded, rolling his eyes at his best friend’s behavior. “For real?” the brunette was starting to sigh in annoyance because he had been dating Kihyun for a month already and Peniel couldn’t believe it yet. “So, you aren’t fuck buddies?” he kept on talking and he couldn’t take it anymore.“No! We aren’t fucking buddies!” Changkyun growled. “We are truly dating” the English teacher took another bite from his hamburger and saw the bald one nodding.“Did you tell him you love him?” Peniel was too much those days and the brunette started wondering if Minhyuk had all the fault. He had been seeing the guy almost every