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II: Her Journey Entry    Many had sent their condolences, and she knew all of them had meant well. Especially her dearest sister, Krystal was very worried her, about the well-being of her and her child. Her group mates, Sooyoung, Tiffany, Taeyeon, Hyoyeon, Seohyun, Sunny and Yuri had visited her to make sure she was fine, to make sure she wouldn't do anything silly, and to make sure she was safe and sound. She had told them she was fine, and she wanted to be alone by herself. She needed time for herself, to calm down and to accept the fact that her husband was dead. She needed to be alone.  As she stepped into his music studio in their home, she found the room more spacious and much colder than usual. And, she realized everything was really over. That rainy night, her husband had met with a fatal car accident, taking his life away in an instant. That rainy night, he had left their family, left the world and most importantly, he had left her and their child.   That room which seemed so empty now, used to be his place of inspiration, his favourite place.  She had seldom step into his workplace, maybe twice or once, for she respected her husband's privacy and did not want to disturb him nor become his burden. But, as soon as she stepped into the music studio, everything seemed to remind her of Yoona. The way the room was painted in her favourite color, the portrait of Yoona he had hidden form her, the songs he had composed, and the musical instruments he had played on, everything seemed to remind her of Yoona. It was then did she realized that, G-Dragon had never got over his first love, his past, and he had never moved on.    As his wife, she loved him, she truly did. Even if he wouldn't take a photo of her, even if he wouldn't compose any love song for her, even if he wouldn't tell her 'I love you', she loved him whole-heartedly. She truly did. She loved the way he would have dinner with her every night, she loved the way he would tolerate her mood swings, she loved the way he would massage her legs when she had legs cramps and she loved everything about him.  Throughout the times they had spent together, there were many things she was bothered and troubled, and she could never understand. If he had no intentions of telling her, she would never bother him.   For, she loved him. As her hand brushed across his table, she noticed an old familiar yellow journal book lying lifelessly at the corner. She had seen that book before, it was the very same one Yoona had used when she was filming her drama, Love Rain. She flipped the book open, only to find Yoona's hand-written entries.    Entry 001Mood: Happy, Excited, Sad, Angry Hello, Im Yoona here!Maknae gave me this journal for my birthday. I guess I should make full use of this, so I'm going to start writing a journal. But I hope, I wouldn't become a boring inflexible person like her.