Fifty Six (1/1)

Emma's POVTears prick at my eyes the entire time I'm packing. I'm really leaving... Well, not entirely. I'm not leaving Korea. I'm gonna be staying with Youngbae. But it still kinda hurts to leave the dorm. Despite all the time I spent crying or in the hospital or throwing tantrums, I genuinly liked living here. Don't get me wrong, I'm really grateful to Youngbae... oppa - I grimace slightly as I make myself think the word - for letting me stay with him at his apartment. But I would've liked to stay here with the rest of BigBang. But Daesung, Top, and now Seungri no longer want me here.Not that I blame them. As I've said before, I've been a bitch to them and I know it. And let's be real, I did walk into this hell-bent on making them miserable. Guess I succeeded. I just didn't expect to feel so shitty about it. Kevin was right. That tough-girl I'm-in-charge attitude has come back to bite me in the ass... I'm lucky I'm not going back to America.Would they miss me? I wouldn't be surprised if they didn't.I can't help but think I'm leaving things unfinished. I'm not talking about unfinished business like in the movies where they go and beat people up to tie up loose ends. I'm talking about this feeling in my gut that I'm leaving things on a bad note. I didn't want all the bad experiences they have with me to permenantly ruin their thoughts on me. I mean, we had some fun times, didn't we? Watching TV, movies, going to the mall with Seungri... I had fun! Did they? I don't want them to think I'm just a bitchy little brat with mental health issues...Wait... Did I ever apologize for making their lives hell? I don't think so... I apologized to Daesung for calling him a murderer, but did I apologize for the Minhyun incident? For anything? God, I am a bitchy brat! How could I not apologize to them for this? Probably because you were still on your little ego trip. I thought to myself as I put down the clothes I was packing and walked out of my room past Chess who was meowing pitifully in his cat carrier.I walked into the living room where the boys were all sitting. The TV was on, but they were talking quietly amongst themselves. They all looked up at me when I came in."Finished packing?" Youngbae asked, standing up, fishing in his pockets for his keys. I shook my head."I actually wanted to apologize." I say. "I don't think I ever did apologize for being a bitch to you guys. Really, I had no right to be so pissy. I was a guest in your house, and you were letting me stay here. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being a bitch, and I'm sorry for the whole thing with Minhyun. Daesung, I'm sorry for calling you a murderer. Top, I'm sorry for being so mean to you when I first came here, and I'm sorry for messing around with your toys. Seungri, I'm sorry for yelling at you for going into my room and for making the decision for me to go so stressful. G-Dragon, I'm sorry for going into your closet and snapping at you on the plane. And finally," I heave a breath "Youngbae, I'm sorry for probably being one of the worst little sisters you could've had. I can see now how much of the nine hells I must've put you through."I waited, wondering how my apology would be recieved. I was honestly feeling a little uncomfortable in the silence, and I squirmed under their gazes. Finally, Daesung stood, and walked up to me. He gave me a hug, and whispered in my ear,"You're forgiven. I wanted to apologize too. Top and I should've been more understanding." He kissed my cheek, and stepped back to reveal Top standing behind him. Top wrapped me in a bear hug and squeezed."I forgive you. For almost everything. No messing around with my toys!" I giggled, but stopped when Top also kissed my cheek. I blushed. Did Top really just do that?Next was Seungri. He picked me up mid-hug and swung me around, whispering how he was sorry he was making me go and how he was going to visit. Then came G-Dragon."I still haven't gotten that necklace back." he chuckled at my expression before hugging me like the rest. "I'll visit you too."Finally, my older brother stepped up to hug me. "You were one of the best," he told me, "despite some rough patches." By this point tears had silently started to stream down my cheeks, and I scolded mysel for being so girly and emotional. "C'mon!" Youngbae said. "Let's get you packed."Still crying, I led Youngbae upstairs to my room. I heard my phone from down the hall. Someone was calling me. I rushed ahead to see who it was. The caller ID said Minhyun... I debated letting it ring out, but it stopped ringing before I could choose. I was about to put the phone down again, when Minhyun called a second time. I pressed the green accept button and held the phone to my ear."Hello?" I asked."I'm sorry. For all of it." Minhyun said gruffly before I heard a click, signalling he had hung up."Who was that?" Youngbae asked as he came in."Minhyun." I answered, staring at the phone in my hands. "He apologized.""Huh..." Youngbae muttered as he began to help me pack.The phone vibrated again in my hand. It was Kevin this time."Who's that?" Youngbae looks at me."An old friend..." I say quietly."Go talk to him." Youngbae tells me. "I'll keep packing."I nodded, and hit the accept call button as I walked into the hallway."Hello?" I greeted Kevin."Em?" Kevin said, sounding breathless. "Em... I'm really, really sorry... I shouldn't have acted the way I did. I'm not going to tell you that she's nothing, because she's my girl, but I definetly should've handled the situation with a bit more tact. I mean, we've been friends for years. I should've told you, or something.""Yeah, you should've." I say, and I can't help but let a little anger seep into my tone. I quickly reign it in, and continue. "But it's okay. It's not like I had any stake to claim you with.""You did though." Kevin responded. "You're my best friend, and you always will be. She's not going to get in between us, okay?""Okay." I smile, and whisper. "Later buddy!" I hang up, and take a deep breath. Now I'm ending things on the right note.

________________________*Sniffles* It's done. I have finished this story. I love you all, thank you so much for sticking through this with me! I really don't think there's enough words to describe the roller coaster my emotions are going on at the moment. :'( It's over! Wahhhh! This was fun though. Thank you all for your support, and I hope this ending made you happy (and possibly cry a little)!SaranghaeWo ai niJe T'aimeIch liebe dichI love you!