fourty three (1/1)

No One's POVAs Emma went upstairs and got ready to sleep, Youngbae was walking through the rain up to the front door, still basking in the after glow of his victory over Emma. He opened the door, walked inside, and thought he was walking into a wax museam. Daesung was standing in the shadows, looking off into space, his eyes empty and glazed over. G-Dragon was standing near the stairs, looking lost and depressed. Neither of them turned when Youngbae walked into the door.Youngbae looked at Daesung, and then G-Dragon, trying to figure out what was happening. He walked past them to the living room, where Seungri and Top where sitting in the same state as Daesung and G-Dragon."What's going on?" Youngbae asked. He meant to say it quietly, but in the unnatural quiet his voice sounded loud and overbearing. Seungri only flicked his gaze briefly to Youngbae, whereas Top looked at him longer. For the first time in ages, Top looked close to tears. His eyes were too wide and looked a little wet, his lower lip trembled and he blinked to try and keep the tears back. "Hyung, are you...?"Suddenly Top stood up, pushing Youngbae out of his way as he paced back and forth in front of his dongsangs. "You know what that twisted little girl said?" Youngbae would normally feel the need to defend Emma, but not right now. "Do you know what she said?!""No hyung, I don't, and right now, I couldn't care less!" Youngbae responded. "What could she have said now that's worse than what she's said to us already?"Daesung's tired, angry, and hurt voice said from the hallway, "She called me a murderer. Said I should've gotten worse than jail! She hates me, hyung!"Youngbae looked to Daesung, who was bracing himself against the door frame. Youngbae saw tears starting to make their trails down Daesung's face. Youngbae sighed."I'll talk to her..." Youngbae said quietly, heading for the stairs. Upstairs, there was a crash and the sound of Emma screaming. The boys of Bigbang looked at each other. "On second thought..." Youngbae collapsed on the couch next to Seungri."What happened hyung?" G-Dragon asked, standing next to Daesung. He flinched and shifted on his feet uncomfortably as the sounds of Emma's escalating tantrum increased in volume. Youngbae just groaned some unintelligable gibberish, throwing his arm over his eyes. "Youngbae hyung, what happened?! When she came in she looked on the verge of tears! Then she snaps at Daesung, feels better about herself for a few minutes, and now she's probably throwing some shit against the walls!""I might've yelled at her again..." Youngbae muttered."Wait, start from the beginning! What did the head doctor say?" Seungri asks, leaning forward a bit in his seat."Emma has bipolar disorder, she's depressed, and she's been perscribed pills for them which she hasn't been taking." Youngbae rattled off a quick summary of the things he'd learned at the shrink's. "Then on the car ride home, I yelled at her for not telling me. Said she was fucked up real bad."G-Dragon rolled his eyes. "And you thought this was a good thing to say to her why?""Because I was mad at her!" Youngbae tried to justify himself."Yeah, well you ticked her off pretty bad, and she took it out on me!" Daesung snapped, glaring at Youngbae."And no wonder she's throwing shit, hyung, you went and ruined any chance of a happy relationship with her, again!" Seungri pointed out."Hope you feel good about yourself right now..." G-Dragon chided his hyung. Youngbae crossed his arms and sulked. Seungri made a 'hmph' sound, and asked his other hyungs,"Who's gonna calm her down this time?""I've calmed her down from one of her rages at least twice, so I'm out!" Daesung clapped his hands and threw them in the air, as if that action disqualified him from the picking process."I helped after she and Youngbae went to blows." Top crossed his arms and let off his scariest 'I ain't doing this' vibes. "That leaves Seungri and G-Dragon."Seungri held out his fist for rock-paper-scissors, but G-Dragon just laughed. "By royal decree of the leader of this band, I proclaim that the maknae must do calm Emma down!" Seungri smiled at his attempt at humor."Alright. I was gonna do it anyway." Seungri shrugged, and heaved himself off the couch to go help Emma, who by now had stopped throwing things and sounded like she was trying to get the shower to work. She kept turning on the water, turning it off, on, off, on, off...Seungri climbed the stairs and walked down the hallway to Emma's room. After being pushed around by his bandmates, Youngbae followed him. Seungri opened the door to Emma's room, and was pleased to see that only mild damage had been done. Just her pillows had been thrown, the rest had just been shoved off of desks and the like. Nothing seemed broken beyond repair.The room was dark, the only light coming from the light that seeped out from under the door to Emma's bathroom. Seungri shuffled his feet, Youngbae behind him, so as not to step on anything important, to the bathroom door. He knocked."Emma? Emma! Are you ok?" Seungri asked through the door, crossing his fingers. Emma responds with a sniffle and the water turns back on. "Can I come in, Emma?" Emma lets out a hoarse cry that can be heard even over the pounding of the water from the faucet. She starts letting out full on wails, and Seungri starts getting concerned when it sounds like Emma's having trouble breathing. He shoots a look at Youngbae before opening the door.Standing by the shower stall was a completely naked Emma, her face red and stained with tears. Seungri didn't even register that she was naked, he just took in that she was in bad shape. He doubted she could see, her eyes were so swollen from tears. She was bending over slightly, one hand on her knee, the other holding her neck. She was trying to breathe, but couldn't seem to get the air to her lungs. The result was a series of ragged gasps for breath."Oh, god...." Seungri heard Youngbae breathe, before running out of the room."Emma! Breathe!" Seungri commanded, crossing the short space between them and taking her in his arms. She wrapped her arms around him and sobbed into his shoulder, holding him tight to her. He put his hands on her bare back, and told her, "That's it, let it out. But you gotta breathe, ok? You're scaring me a little! Breathe in, breathe out, ok?" Emma tried to get her breathing under control, and when Seungri was no longer worried she was going to choke on her tounge or something like that, he released her and helped her get the shower started. "Now, you shower, and I'll be out in your room when you're done. Take as long as you want. When you get out, you should probably go to sleep, alright?" Emma nodded, and went to open the curtains to the shower. Seungri opened the door to the bathroom, and was about to go sit and wait on the bed, when Emma croaked,"Wait, Seungri? Will you stay with me until I fall asleep?"  Seungri smiled at the poor girl, and nodded. Emma thanked him, and got into the shower. Seungri exited the bathroom and sat down on the bed. He noticed it was kinda bare, and looked around for the pillows and blankets. He tried making the bed, but it was difficult in the dark, and Seungri didn't want to turn on the lights for some reason. Seungri noticed though, with or without the lights, that his right shoulder was now damp with Emma's tears. He wasn't one for sleeping with a damp shirt on, and he also didn't want to lay down shirtless with Emma, so he decided to take a quick trip to his room and change shirts.When Seungri made it back to Emma's room a couple of minutes later, there was steam filtering out of the crack below the bathroom door. Seungri sat on the bed, and he could hear sniffles from the bathroom as Emma started to calm down. The door to the bedroom opened, and G-Dragon said quietly,"Youngbae left a couple of minutes ago, said he was gonna make it up to Emma and that he would be back in the morning." Seungri nodded, and G-Dragon shut the door immediately once the water turned off. Seungri chuckled as Emma got dressed in the bathroom. She came out wearing a light grey nightgown she must've been keeping in the bathroom. Emma sleep walked over to the bed, and lay down with Seungri. She curled up next to him, pulling the blankets up around them. Seungri started stroking her damp hair, lulling her itchingly close to sleep, but not quite."Seungri?" Emma asked suddenly, startling the performer."Neh?" He answered drowsily."Can you sing me a lullaby? A Korean one?" Emma requested, twisting to look at Seungri with Bambi eyes.Seungri racks his brain for a good lullaby to sing to Emma, and finally decides on his favorite one from when he was a boy."Sleep well, my child. In the garden and behind the hills, the birds and the lambs are all sleeping. The mood guards, and sends silver and golden bells tonight. Sleep well, my child, sleep well." Seungri felt his throat tighten as he sings the first verse. His mom always sang this to him when he was sad. "When the whole world silently falls to sleep, even the mice on the shelf fall asleep. The fun stories from the back room break the silence. Sleep well, my child, sleep well." Seungri's voice, normally smooth and powerful, was quiet and shakey by the end of the second verse. But he doubts Emma noticed or cared. He knew, however, that she was grateful to him.Seungri lets a few tears of his own fall as Emma falls completely and utterly asleep. He falls asleep soon after, with memories of his mother flashing before his eyes.

_________________I am a horrible person. I said I would update before break was over, and I didn't! :( I'm sorry!

But I stayed up late, it is now almost midnight, to write this for you, and I tried my best to redeem Youngbae's character, which will come through fully next chapter. Now, since I stayed up late to write this on a school night, don't you think I deserve a comment or two? Huh? XD

Anywayyyyyy.... I think I might just write another chapter if I can't sleep - HOORAY FOR INSOMNIA!!! - but Imma try and go to sleep for now! I love you all and I hope you enjoy my writing!