Thirty (1/1)

Emma's POVI dash up to my room, and lock the door behind me. I rip off my clothes as I run to my bathroom. I'm such a water waster! I thought as I set the water to the highest temperature possible. I step into the already-steam-filled shower compartment.I hear the DING! of my phone, and I sigh. I should go get it.... But it's so warm in here.... Oi vey... I get out of the shower, and paw around on my floor for my phone. I find it after a few minutes of searching. It's from Minhyun!Hey! Are you alright?Ok, at least I know he's interested in being friends... But I can't answer back now, that goes against the laws of texting! So I put my phone in my bathroom, and get back in the shower. As soon as I close the curtains, I'm flooded with texts, but I don't check on them. I continue showering, and letting the warm water sooth my body.I'm actually surprised by how quickly I calmed down. I was bound and determined to keep crying until someone apologized. For what, I don't know. But someone needed to apologize. Apologize for making me like this, I guess. Cause I was never like this before I came here.It used to be, if my doctor suggested yet another fucking shrink, I would give him a piece of my mind, the proper way. It used to be, if some whack job went and hurt me, I would hunt that bitch down and hurt them back! It used to be, if someone called my mother a slut, I made sure that they had a broken nose, a black eye, and a bloody lip! It used to be, if someone tried to take my phone away, I would steal theirs, and then some, blackmailing them with whatever I found on that phone of theirs!It used to be, I only stopped one of my tantrums if the world was ending! It used to be, I never cuddled with anyone, except maybe Kevin at a party! It used to be, people were terrified to be in my presence, and you should've been given a fucking medal of honor if you could come up and even look me in the eye! It used to be that the only time it was acceptable to even speak my name was when you had written permission from an authority figure, and even then it was iffy!I used to be feared! I used to be powerful! I used to have control! I used to make people fucking beg for my help with anything, even something stupid like squishing a bug! My mother used to ask permission before going out with her friends, because I was in charge! Not her, not anyone else, ME! That's how it should be! I shouldn't be writing notes to my traitor brother, telling him where I'm going! No, I should be out the door as I please, never having to explain where I'm going and why!I was washing my hair while this inner monolog was going on. When I'm finished, I turn off the water, and dry myself off. Only then do I let myself check my texts. All of them are from Minhyun.HEY!! Emma, come on! Let me know if you're alright!Oppa is worried! Text me back!Should I not've said Oppa? Is it to soon?EEEEEEMMMMAAAAAAAA!!Has your phone died? EMMMA!Do I have to go over there? Respond, please! I'm worried!See, look what you've done! You've triggered my OCD, and my anxiety. You must answer, or I will text you till the ends of this earth!I have unlimited texting, so... I can keep this up until the cows come home!Emma?I sigh, and text back.SORRY, I was in the shower! I'm fine! Honest to god!He responds almost instantly.OH THANK GOD!! Do you have any idea how worried I was?! That fight with your brother looked pretty bad!I've been in worse. Wassup?Eh, nothing much. My friends and I are getting ready for a party we're throwing at our place. That's actually something I wanted to ask you. You feel up to coming?I hesitate, not sure if I want to go or not. Or if Youngbae would appro--- I stop that train of thought. What was I thinking earlier?! Yeah, I am the boss, that's what! I yell at myself, before responding.Um... Sure! Why not? It's been AGES since I've been to a party, anyway. Is it BYOB?Not for you it ain't! ;)Awesome! What time?Starts at midnight.K, then! See you then!!I look at the clock. It's not even midday... This is going to be a long wait....I already know what I'm going to wear, since that dress I bought with Seungri is the only party-acceptable outfit I have. But what I don't know is what makeup looks good with that dress. Or what boots. Or if I should wear tights or not....I drag my makeup out from under the sink, and apply every combination imaginable. I narrow it down to these three: This, this, and this. I choose the third one. Now onto boots. I have a poor collection at best. But I did buy black heels that went with the dress, so I'll go with that. So for my dress and shoes, I have this dress (Just ignore the girl and the photo on the right.). I decide against tights, though it is getting cold. I lay out my outfit on the bed, and look at the clock. That took much less time than I thought... Accessories? Hair?So, my hair is usually black and wavy, but just recently I put really dark purple streaks in it. So I think my hair is good. I didn't pull out that much hair during my tantrum. No one will notice. As for accessories? I guess I could raid GD's walk in closet...I now have a black heart necklace, black hoop earrings, and I paint my nails black. I put little star nail stickers on over the black nail polish. I try to put everything back the way I found it in G-Dragon's closet, before going back to my room with my loot.I can't put it off any longer. I have to clean my room....________________________________________________OK! Me is happy! Except, like Emma in the story, I have to clean my room now... I've been shoving it aside all day... Which is why this is so short. I suck with guilt... Keep up the comments please!