Chapter 18 Leave or Drive (1/1)

Part 1- “LEAVE”Jonghyun woke up, feeling light that he woke up earlier than the alarm clock this time. He proceeded to the bathroom and brushed his teeth first-smiling at himself infront of the mirror while his mouth is filled with toothpaste. He shed his clothes after and took a shower. Singing under the shower, he doesn’t know why he’s such in a good mood, he remembers nothing that could’ve made him this way.“Hmm… yesterday? ………Nope-nothing. ‘Just accompanied the brat to the cemetery.” He said to himself. He dismissed the thought and got ready for school. For once he arranged his things inside his bag, a paper fell as he did-it was a note.-------------------------------Compose a poem….Deadline: Next Monday.------------------------------- This was the assignment given to the class by their English teacher, Ms. Shin. “Next Monday? Today?” he rushed to get a pen and paper. It may only be for today but he suddenly had the urge to do this particular assignment. He felt it’s the right moment to compose one. He thought for awhile on how he should write, then he decided he’ll go with what he feels this very moment-with this peculiar mood he’s having.“I feel….happy? Okay happy-but that’s a little weak. What the hell is this feeling?!”‘Happiness, cheerfulness, enthusiasm, optimism-ahaha! I sound freaking obsessed. Oohh.. that’s right obsessed, obsessed with what? Happiness? Nah.. childish. Hmmm..  how about-love.’ He felt as though he’s on the right path so he continued brainstorming. “What do I love? What makes me so happy that I love it?” things like eating, watching tv, doing police work, as he delved deeper the thought of his deceased parents, his non-biological father, his friends popped in his mind.“Hmm… what else.” Then he remembered how happy he feels when he finds his keys, should he include it?“Car key?  Haha! Keys? Key…” he didn’t realized it but he was already composing the first stanza of his soon to be poem(confession).------Key is having breakfast in the dining room of their mansion. He was deep in thought, he’s been like that since yesterday when they arrived from visiting his mother’s tomb. He looked so preoccupied that he didn’t notice his father, who was sitting adjacent to him, watching him. “Eat properly.” Mr. Kim’s commanding voice echoed in the silence.“Yes.” Key stopped playing with his food and started eating it.“Is it about Kim jonghyun?” key almost dropped his fork-thankfully he wasn’t drinking or else he could’ve spat it out.‘how could he know exactly what I’m thinking about?’“No father.” He lied and resumed eating.“You seem to trust him and the others here also do.” His father continued talking as if not hearing what the other is saying.‘Where the hell is this heading to?’ key wished his father could just shut up.“Is that wrong? You hired him anyway.” Key replied, getting irritated, he already knew about the fake mission his father sent them and it angers him everytime he remembers it. According to his source the objective of that suicide mission is to simply test jonghyun’s loyalty he also heard that his family already owns the whole of downtown and if they were to succeed with their mission-it’s useless.“Well the both of you were in animportant mission the other day, even though you failed, the both of you arrived scratch-less. From one time in your life he was your mortal enemy but yesterday you went with him to the cemetery and mind you, he carried you to your room cause you have… fallen asleep? Can’t help but like this man-Kim jonghyun.” His father ended with a sip of wine.Key blushed, how did he know jonghyun carried him?-he himself don’t! it’s embarrassing enough to say that your son-A MALE-was carried by ANOTHER MAN but ending it like you’re suggesting something perverse is unbearable.“You even let him call you by your nickname now.”  his father added. key didn’t know how to react now so he stood up-controlling his temper and stormed off without noticing the grin plastered on his father’s face.Key shoved his stuff inside the car and entered. Frankly speaking, he is confused because of the whirlwind of stuff happening to him and jonghyun. He’s getting scared-scared that he already developed a liking to this man, as in like-like. He has never questioned his sexuality before-to think of it he had never liked anybody romantically. He’s not an idiot to not recognize this attraction growing like a bitch and pokes his heart everytime he sees the guy. He only realized it yesterday but guessing from the time he fell asleep (cause of jonghyun’s serene voice) until he awoke from the bed dreaming about jonghyun---this thing that he’s feeling is serious. He doesn’t care if this brands him as gay or a fag, all he knows is that this needs to STOP, before this infatuation turns into something worse.Key was just minutes away from school when he saw a greenish thing sticking under the seat, he pulled it out and it was the dinosaur stuffed toy jonghyun bought him. His heart started pounding as he looked at it.“This is all your fault you know that?!” he started talking to it like a mad man. He didn’t saw it yesterday but something metallic was buried inside the toy’s neck, a key-a car key to be exact.“How did it got here?” key looked at the key(XD) in his hand and as he did so he felt a shiver run down his spine.------“WHERE THE HELL IS THAT STUPID KEY AGAIN?! AISH!!” jonghyun seems to be missing his car key again. In times like this there is only one person he can think of, the one who can open any lock, a smile crossed his face as he remembered. He decided to take the bus to school instead.~~ENGLISH CLASS~~They started discussing about the famous poets around the world, jonghyun kept on trying to have a conversation with key but the latter kept answering with ‘okays’ and nods like he doesn’t want to be bothered. Jonghyun felt discouraged, his mood was on the top when he got from school but since key kept showing disinterest more than he used to he felt a bit sad, they were sitting beside each other but it seemed like jonghyun was invisible to the other.’Why is he always looking for my attention?! Aish!! This is harder than I thought.’ Key popped his earphones and decided to pretend listening to his mp3 rather than listen to jonghyun’s voice.‘What’s wrong with him? Why is he ignoring me? –Wait, Why the hell am I seeking for his attention anyway?! Tsk, I don’t get it...’ Jonghyun doesn’t understand what he’s feeling.“Alright class, last week I gave you an assignment right? Please bring out your self-composed poems please. Who wants to read theirs infront of the class for extra points?” ms. Shin said her eyes looking directly at jonghyun.‘Why don’t you just ask him to recite than give those disgusting stares at him? Why do I care anyway?’ Key looked at their teacher with his eyes transforming into slits.A lot of people raised their including doojun, joon and jonghyun.“Jonghyun-shi please read yours.” She said.“Yes mam. Ehem….Locked You have opened yet blinded my eyesYou shake me and make me sufferYou make me hungry;My thirst-severeYet I suppress it because I’m a manBecause I anticipate itBecause I want itBecause it’s you who do itI’ve become blind of all things except youExcept your scentExcept your body heatExcept those devil-red lipsTempting me;Teasing meI’ll stop my pretenseI’ll be truthfulLet me be your slave….Key was getting uneasy in his chair as he listened to jonghyun, he felt like the words are arrows flying straight to his heart, he decided to truly listen to some music to stop the fast beating of his heart. …..Let me be your foolI promise to stay with you foreverMe; forever yoursYou; forever mine.   “Very---good jonghyun-shi.” Ms.shin thought(imagined) the poem was for her.“Would another share theirs?” she looked ad though she reached cloud 9 after jonghyun recited, her hand clasped together and looking to the class all lovingly. Jonghyun felt happy as he finished, he wrote it not for a particular someone but the whole time he was reciting it the image of that person kept on flashing on his mind.“Doojun-shi please read yours.”“Yes…..StrippedYou see me as a friend but in my eyes you are more thanI wan to hold you and kiss you but nature forbidsRare smiles caress your lips blinding me from a distance-not that it was meant for me But for the person behind meSorry is what I want t sayBut what can I do?It’s better to act like you’ve never met me than know youBut never have youIt drives me insane, thinking my feeling will give you a hard time and drive you awayI will step backI will waitI will be standing from far awayI’m begging you like thisIt’s painful but I won’t share it with youI’m your friend till the end of time…… “Amazing doojun-shi. It’s like heartbreak is really existent in your writing, Last one, who would like to recite?” ms. Shin praised doojun. Jonghyun and doojun’s poems depicts opposite feelings but nobody knew they were directed to just one person.The class got silent as the person they thought least to recite raised his hands, without waiting for the teacher to call him, key stood up and read his heart-wrenching piece.Poison I want you but I don’t need youYou make me smile yet unhappyYou envelope me with warmth yet I feel cold as hellYou comfort me but still I’m disturbedWith you everything feels right yet stupidWith you my own significance turns invisibleStopLet’s stop before I start needing youLet’s end it before I find happiness and eternal warmth in your presenceLet’s draw the line before I get accustomed with your existenceLet’s not take a step furtherLet’s not cross the line where “me” and “you” vanishes to a fearful “we”Let’s stopStopThe bell rang right after Key finished. Jonghyun was immobilized by this, he doesn’t know if it was meant for him but still there is a lingering hurt and a feeling of rejection as he replayed key’s poem in his head. The class started to go out for lunch but still jonghyun was rooted on his seat.“Jonghyun-shi? Could you please help me erase the board?” ms. Shin’s voice snapped him out of his day dream. Usually key would say “let’s go” and hand the job to the others but this day was different.“We’ll wait for you in the canteen.” Key said and left without even glancing at jonghyun.“Sure.” Jonghyun agreed and they both silently erased the board, the silence didn’t last long..”Jonghyun-shi? I know this might seem sudden, but if you’re free on Saturday would you like to come with me to go karaoke? You see, it’s my birthday this coming Saturday and I have no one to celebrate it with so…” Ms. Shin put up her cutest (Xp) pout she can muster and looked at jonghyun.“Ah.. haha.. I’ll think about it Ms. Shin. I will. Advance Happy birthday anyway!” jonghyun flashed her his smile and she seemed pleased.“Okay, I’ll give you my number then. Here, call me if you’ve decided. I wish you won’t think badly of me, I just want to have someone to spend my time with.” She gave her cell number and jonghyun took it half-heartedly.“I’ll see you later then.” Jonghyun bid his goodbye and ran towards the canteen.~~~Dismissal~~~LIMOUSINE~~~“Yah jonghyun, I heard ms. Shin asked you out awhile ago?” chansung asked.“Omo?! Really? When? Where? Can we go?” joon exclaimed.Key’s getting irritated. ‘How bold is she to ask a guy out?Typical…’“Babo, it’s a datehow can we interfere?!” chansung smacked joon on the head. “Ow..”“Guys you don’t have to get all worked up about this, it’s not a date. She just invited me cause it’s her birthday.” Jonghyun explained.“You don’t have to pretend, we all know you’ve been wanting this.” Key said in a monotonous tone.“What? No, I don’t even think of coming. We have sparring lesson in your house on Saturday, right?” jonghyun looked at key, he doesn’t want to come to their teacher’s b.day party cause he felt that he wants to spend more time with KEY and the others-well, with key basically. He also wants to figure out why key has been acting like this, yesterday they seemed much closer then now, what’s happened?“Wow… Friends before others? You’re so childish and ignorant…” key said.“What the hell is wrong with you? Did I do something to you?! You’re being pessimistic without a reason again?” jonghyun can’t take it anymore.‘WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME?! I’M JEALOUS! J-E-A-L-O-U-S!!!’ Key doesn’t have the guts to say it out loud of course.“Yes something is wrong with me! I’m-I’m sick of your face! For once just leave my sight will you? Go! Go to that sluts supposed-to-be birthday party and have fun banging her!!!” key shouted.“Maybe I will. I will leave from your sight and I will go with her, please stop the car.” Jonghyun asked for the driver to stop the car cause if he doesn’t get off now he might just go berserk and end up hurting somebody.“And yeah! Maybe I should bang her too!!” with that jonghyun slammed the door and walked the opposite direction.‘haay… this is going to be a long week.’ Jonghyun sighed as he travelled by foot to his apartment.------------------------A/N: just wanna credit Hot Times by SM The Ballad and Shinee's Y Si Fuera Ella for some words in those poems. XD hello guys!!!!!!!!!! Hope you anticipate Part 2!!!!! <3