OUR LITTLE SECRET 23 (1/1)

TOP POV I don’t know what is wrong with my mind tonight. I can’t think straight. There are a lot of things in my mind right now.  Her, my family, my band mates, the world tour.“Will you marry me?”I knee in front of her and asked her to marry me. This is totally out of my mind. I never thought about this. This is just something slipping out of my mouth. Ugh! I don’t know whether I really mean it or not. I don’t know.She is a student, a foreigner, and she is just only 20 years old, and now, I’m here is asking her to marry me. Am I crazy or what?Maybe I am just thinking about myself. Ugh! I’m so selfish. I never thought about her and her feeling toward me. She is not even my girlfriend. But of course, I love her so fucking much.“Are you nut oppa?” she looks at me with her big eyes.“I don’t know Minah. Right now, my mind is so fucked up. I’m happy that we are going to have another world tour. But, I’m going to crazy to think that I’m going to leave my family again, and you. I love you Minah. I don’t think I can live without you.” I look into her eyes. I stand up and sit my chair again.“Oppa, you’ll be fine. Look, how long have been you did this? 7, 8 years? You’ll be just fine. I’m sure, it just for a while. I bet YG Sajangnim will give you guys a long vacation after this.” She squeezes my hand and smile at me.“Yeah, you right. I’ll guess, I’m going to be fine. Sorry for the silly question just now. I’m not in my right mind.”“It’s okay oppa. Come on. Finish your food. I still have works to do.” She continuing finishes her food.This is one of the reasons why I love her. She is an optimistic person. She looks at everything in a good perspective. This is why people around her always find her when they are in trouble. She is someone that she can lean on.I look at her. I wish, I can have her right now. She knows how to comfort me, even with just her words. Still, it can make me feels good.We finish our dinner and she went to her room while I’m doing the dishes. After I’m done with it, I’m continuing watching the television while waiting to sleep. I think, I’m gonna to sleep at this couch again. I hate to sleep on couch, but, because of I can’t sleep in her room and this is the only choice.Minah has told me before. She is not someone who loves to share a room with a guy. She has her own rule about it. And I’m respecting her about it.An hour later, she get out from her room, bring her blanket.“What are you watching oppa?” she asked me after she settle beside me and cover her body with the blanket.“Nothing much. I don’t know what to watch. You finish your work already?” I asked her. She looks so tired and it looks like she can doze off at any moment.“No. I still need to polish my report and the scale model. I’m just taking a rest. Let watch this drama. I’m bored.”“Okay, let watch this.” It is Arang and the magistrate. Uh! Shin Min Ah. What a coincidence. We used to have a scandal before. I hope Minah wouldn’t ask me about it.Actually, my ex-girlfriend lives at the same building apartment with Shin Min Ah. That why all the paparazzi caught me at her building. I didn’t know about it, until I saw the headlines I have a scandal with Shin Min Ah. I told her about everything. I’m sorry for her because I have to drag her into my problem. She seems to understand about it, we just let it go.“You tired?” I asked her. She nods at my question.“Come. Let me give you a massage.”She turned around, and her back is facing me. I massage her for almost 20 minute and I stop when I hand start to stiff.“Oppa, hug.” She whined me.There she goes. Maybe she feels extremely tired, that why she need someone to hug her.“Aigoo. Poor you my baby girl. Come here. Let me hug you.” We lie down on the couch, and I hug her from behind. I pulled the blanket to cover both of us. We watch the television silently.“Oppa, did you and Shin Min Ah used to have a relationship before?” she asked me out sudden. Well, I guess, my luck is not with me tonight.“No. why? Did you believe the news?”“I don’t know. Maybe I trust it. Maybe I’m not. Do you really have a relationship with her?” she asked me again.“I never met her.”She turns around and looks at me. With our face a few inches with each other, I smile at her.“You lie oppa.”“Believe me. Look into my eyes” I show her my eyes. Our face is just an inches and it makes nearer. I could feel her breath on my face.Sheesshh! I want to kiss her.“Whatever. I’m not going to buy it. It’s your life oppa.”I hold her face with both my hand. God! Please make me stop. I want to kiss her so badly.“Believe me. I’m not. She is just only in a wrong place, at a wrong time.”“What do you mean?”“You want to hear my love story?”“You are going to tell me?”“Why not?”I told her about my ex-girlfriend. I told her almost about everything. About how we broke up, we met, and all. I told her how Shin Min Ah got into the picture. Actually, I’m not going to told her about this, but, if I want to gain her trust, so why not for me to tell her. It is not a sin, right? If she can accept me with this, I believe, she can accept me, the who am I.  “You’re so lucky oppa. You have someone who really loves you so much. Why did you break up with her? I bet, she a nice girl.” She told me after I finish my story.“I know. I’m so stupid for let her go. But, I don’t have a choice. I’ve got the pressure from YG sajangnim and the fans. I’m scared something might happen to her, when they know about her. I think this is the least I can do. But, look at the bright side, if I didn’t broke up with her; I’m not going to meet you. It is good thing, right?” I look into her eyes.Now, we are facing each other. We share a pillow and a blanket.“What about you?” I asked her. She just smiles at me.“You never have a boyfriend?” I asked her again when she didn’t answer my question.“Do you know how I know you guys?”“Yeah! From your favourite song, Haru haru. Why? There is something behind it?” I look into her eyes, and I don’t feel good about it.“Do you still remember about the music video?” she asked me again.“Yes! Min young dead. Why?”“And I’m Kwon Ji young oppa. That’s why I love that song so much. It has a lot of meaning behind it. And to tell you the truth, the music video is just like how my life. How I lost him and he didn’t tell me about it at all. First time I saw the music video, I cried so hard.”Her tear’s rolling down on her cheek. Now, I feel bad for asking her that. I rub her back to ease her. I shut down the television and hug her again tightly.We stay like that till she falls asleep. I scoop her into bridal style and bring her to her room. I put her down and cover her with blanket. When I was about to get out from her room, she call me, and ask me to hug her, and never left her. I lie beside her and hug her from behind. We stay like that till I don’t know on what time I fall asleep.*next day*I woke up at 8am after her alarm wake me up. I don’t want to wake up yet because it is feel so good to hug her like that, but thinking about breakfast we have with my mum, I force myself to open my eyes.I’m hugging her like she is my bolster and she is look like really comfortable like that, and so do I. I look at her face. She is still sleeping, and didn’t bother with her alarm. I took the alarm, and shut it off. I stay like that for a while.I touch her cheek and brush it slightly. The urge to kiss her last night is still not end yet. I want to kiss her so badly. I know, she will be mad at me and I don’t want that to happen.She is still sleeping right? So, I guess, it is not wrong for me to kiss her right now. But, I steal her kiss away. But, no one will know about it, right? Ugghh! I don’t know.Because of her face is facing me, and she make my arm as her pillow, I can’t move. I also don’t want wake her up yet.Ugh! Bad sign. Junior me down there me seem to be so excited this morning. Ottokea?“Minah, wake up. We need to get ready.” I try to wake her up. But, she didn’t even bother by it. She just stirred in her sleep and turns around, took the pillow, and releases my arm.Thank God! Now, I can move. I quickly  up, get up and go to bathroom.After I done everything, I get out from the bathroom and saw no one on the bed. I look around and there is no Minah there. But, there is a new toothbrush on the bed and a fresh towel. I take it and heading back to the bathroom.After I have done wash up, I get from her room and saw no one. Maybe she is in Shinyoung room. I wait for her on the couch while watching the television.Half an hour later, she gets out from Shinyoung room, look so fresh and already get dressed. We are running late. She quickly packs her things and we heading to my home to have a breakfast with my family.After that, I sent her to her school and I go the YG building, for our next meeting, for YG FAMILY world tour.***************************************************************************************************************************************************************************anneyyeong yeorobun!hahah. mianhea.i'm sorry tor the tease. well, Minah cant get married yet. she is still young and Seunghyun still got alot of thing he need to achieve. *bow 90 degree*anyway, do you like the last part? hehe. to tell you the truth, it make me cringe. uuhh!till thenMONGtrex~~