OUR LITTLE SECRET 10 (1/1)

Min Ah POVAfter Seung Hyun leave me alone at the rooftop, the tears that I hold the whole time role down into my cheeks. It hurt so much. I’m hurt both inside and outside. Sometimes, I don’t understand why people need to do bad things to other people. I had hurt so much when I was in my hometown. People always do bad things to me. Sometimes, I thought, I’m not a good enough to know them. I just don’t understand. I want to scream, if all the things in my mind can came out when I scream I will do. But, I know, it is not. I need to be strong to live in this world. The thing that I face just now is one of the reasons why I want to end my life young. But I know it is worthless. There is a lot of things that I can do, to help people, to make my life better, and the main reasons is, I still have a family and friend that still care for me. I don’t know how long I’ve been here, at the rooftop. Suddenly, I feel someone put something beside me. I don’t want to look. I think I know who is he. Just only one person knows where I am, and why I am here. When I feel that he leave me, I look at the cup that heleave to me. I took it, and take a sip. It hot chocolate, my favourite. How does he know? “Do you enjoying your time?” I asked him. He startle with my sudden question. Maybe he doesn’t understand what it is. “ne? What do you mean?” “Do you enjoying your time do that to me, in the elevator?” “I’m sorry Min Ah. I didn’t mean it! I. . . . . . I just want to tease you” he answered it innocently. What the hell is this guy thinking? Is he crazy or what? Do I need to throw him from this building so that he can realize that, what was he doing is totally wrong? “ WHAT?! Do I look like a toy to you? Am I your some kind of new toy that you wish to keep at your home, with your so fucking weird collection?” well, I admit it, I’m so mad right now, and the things that I want to do right now is, throwing him from this rooftop. This is totally annoying me! “WHAT? NO! Look, I’m sorry and I’m totally regretting it! I didn’t mean it, AT ALL! And I didn’t know that I’m capable of doing that. I’ sorry! I’m so sorry. ” well, he should feel bad and sorry for what he have done. “You should feel sorry for what you have done. You should think that you have an image to take care. You have a mom and sister. Do you have ever thought if someone doing bad things to your sister and you parent? Have you ever thought that? I’m not trying to teach you right here, or nagging at you, I hate you! You should know that! And the most important things are I hate what you have done to me. I’m not your toy or a place for you to release your deeds.” Well, I might go overboard when I said that, but that the truth. I don’t want the history of my life repeat again. Enough with me. “I’m sorry.” I heard he said that slowly. I don’t know how to reply him. I just let my tears rolling down to my cheeks. I’m not a cry baby. But, this is the only things that can make me calm down.