I Would Have Been Happy (1/1)

 How could I go on loving you , knowing what you did? Could you have done it? Yes.

With her of all people?

Yes.

But to me?

.....

No .. Never to me. I would have never thought you could do that to me. I was your love. You became my pain giver.My one and only..

My heart breaker...Who was I to think I was so special? what made you lead me on so? You could have been straight forward with me. I always told you to be that way with me! If you didn't want me , all you had to do was say so. There was no need to lie to me . I would have taken the blame for our end , and I would have been happy.I would have been right about everything , every doubt I had. But I would have been happy. Because of the simple fact , I would have known it wasn't just me. I wasn't going crazy; I was right to doubt.But no .. you made me believe that I was beautiful. You told me to believe in myself , " Have some more confidence damn it!"You kissed and caressed me out of my insecurities. And I did what you told me.And then I saw you with her.... What was the deal with that huh? Did he do everything right on the first date? Did she open her legs to you the moment you asked her to? Did she submit to your every will , unlike me?Or was I simply not good enough?No matter...

No matter ... what the reason is .. or was.

I'll never do this again.

I'll crawl back into my shell , where I'll be safe.No, I'll never love again.