The girl or me? you choos (1/1)

'' Alright guys, good rehearsal, it was awesome. Now go take a break, rest and sleep. I want you bright and energetic tomorrow'' The five boys bowed to the director and made their way to the lodges to change. In the room, it was silent. It always been like this lately. Since what? Two months? Three? They haven't really noticed the time passing but they just complied with the awkward silence. The two maknaes though, they remembered it all started with the leader and the older.  That day, they fought, which was unusual with Seunghyun's very calm temper. * Flashback ( about three months ago, maybe more) * Jiyong giggled, sitting in the big white couch of the lounge. Seems like something on his Iphone's screen was funny. Seunghyun was in front of the mirror setting his accessories. The leader's laughing was obviously annoying him. '' Excuse me laughing-box but would you mind to make abstraction of your private life when we're at work?'' Jiyong looked up to the older, annoyed by the remark. '' Sorry that my happiness is bothering you'' It was screaming sarcasm. Seunghyun turned to his leader, fake smile on. '' Oh, it isn't, only that hearing you laughing alone in your corner every five minutes makes you look like a mad man and it's quite scary. Don't be surprise if tomorrow on the internet you find your face along with the big white words saying you may be crazy or schizophrenic!'' The younger glared at him meanly. He stood up and went to him. Both were unaware of the three other members looking at them in worry. They beckoned the staff to get out in case it would turn ugly. Jiyong was inches from Seunghyun. '' You are ridiculous! What's gotten into you suddenly that turned you into a complete jerk!?'' T.O.P laughed fakely. '' A jerk!? Sorry but I'm not the one missing meetings and rehearsals to hang out with a metis slut!'' Sound of skin meeting skin was heard. Seunghyun was looking aside, cheek bright red. Jiyong had slapped him. The three othe were dazed. First, never had Seunghyun said mean things about anyone, secondly, Jiyong could be mean but he never layed a hand on any memebers, until now. Seunghyun looked back to his leader emotionless. But the latter wasn't, he had eyes wattery, but it was still obvious he was angry. So much he was trembling and his voice too. '' I thought that after all those years I knew you. I thought I had saw every facets of your personality. I was wrong. Seems it's real, The B types are really the mean and hypocrite ones. I thought you were an exception. Seems like you're not'' Seunghyun rolled eyes and scoffed. '' Look who's talking. The one saying no one, not even a girl, would ever stop him or distract him from work. But here you are, giving up on everything for the first whore coming your way. I also thought I knew you. But I didn't knew being an easy guy was in your genetic code. Really Jiyong, you disappoint me.'' With those words he stormed out of the lodge. Jiyong just stood still, looking down, biting on his lip with tears sliding down his cheeks. His phone rang in his hand. He groaned and threw it on the ground, breaking it into pieces before walking out the room, going the way Seunghyun didn't went. For three nights, Jiyong didn't came to the hotel despite being present to the work meetings. But neither him or Seunghyun talked without being asked something. When the manager was asking if something was wrong they both answered everything was alright. But Taeyang, Seungri and Daesung knew nothing was ok. Since then, the group had been surrounded with plain and awkward silence. * End of Flashback * At least, Jiyong bought a new phone since then. But Seunghyun and him seemed to dig a big canyon between each other. Digging it deeper day by day. The three members uselessly trying to fill it but they takes water, so it's just going in, not filling anything. Seungri and Daesung had already given up on trying to bring them back together. The maknae saying that if they want to get it sorted out they'll do it by themselves. Taeyang didn't quite agreed with him at first but seeing the leader and the older...It's obvious the three of them are useless at helping them sort their argue out. Jiyong sighed deeply, changing his shirt when he got a text. Everyone heard Seunghyun scoff at the 'message recieved' sound but the leader ignored him. '' Hey guys, I'm leaving first, I have to stop by the hotel then I'm going...somewhere'' Seunghyun leaned off the dressing counter. '' I'll drive you to the hotel, I want to go sleep quickly'' Jiyong eyed him nervously but seeing nothing in the older's eyes - much to his displeasure - he complied. '' O-Okay'' The three other members looked to each other worriedly but Taeyang only smiled a little at this. He hoped they'll try to sort things out though he had half chance they would do, or half that it would only become worse.   The ride to the hotel was deadly quiet. Jiyong only wanted to bury himself in the seat and become invisible from everyone, mostly Seunghyun. He was so ashamed of himself for being like this: too coward to speak up to his friend, having too much of an ego to tell Seunghyun he was right and...being a man, not wanting to break first. But it has been some months they were like this and he missed his hyung, very very very much. So much it wasn't describable. The longer they'd been away from each other had been two weeks and after that they slept in the same bed for a week because they missed each other. Now being by his side after so long of no touch, not talking, not even looking at each other, he only wanted to jump in his hyung's arms, burst in tears apologizing a million times and stay there for god knows how long. But here they were now in front of the hotel. Seunghyun got out, telling him to do also. The leader followed him up, walking three steps behind and looking down. The older unlocked the door and got in, heading to his room first while Jiyong made his way to the shower.  He took one quickly and dried his hair. When he finished he hesitated to go out, wondering if Seunghyun would be there. His hand stayed on the knob for almost two minutes before he took the courage to turn it. He stepped out and looked around. Noises were heard in the kitchen. He had to walk by it to get to his room. Taking a deep breath, Jiyong went to it. He stopped immediately when he reached it. Seunghyun was there, only pants on, a towel around his neck, nothing covering his well built chest, hairs still damp and dripping on his chest and back. Jiyong gulped seeing this, he could still remember the feeling of having his hands roaming on these abs when Seunghyun would ask him to do after he just trained. Hearing steps, Seunghyun looked up and saw Jiyong. The only thing the leader found to say was: '' There's another shower?'' Seunghyun blinked to him. Well, Jiyong was almost in the same state as him, only that him, had a towel to cover his lower side. '' Well, my room's the only one having a bathroom connected to it'' Jiyong nodded and went to his room to dress. While doing it he could hear Seunghyun doing some things in the kitchen. Probably making himself a drink before going to sleep. He picked some clothes, dressed his hair, chose matching accessories. Kiko had texted him since she wanted to try a new restaurant that just opened in town, an Italian one. He inspected his face in the mirror. Well, some eyeliner was better. He put it on and checked himself one last time before heading out his room. he found Seunghyun sitting at the table, sipping on a tea while writing some stuffs in a notebook. Jiyong looked at the time. He still had about fifteen minutes. Better take them for useful things. He have to stop being a childish baby and face facts. He took a deep sigh and walked to Seunghyun, sitting at the table with him. The older looked up from his notebook to him, a little surprised, then put his pen down crossing his arms. '' Kwon Leadah finally honors me with his presence'' Jiyong played with his fingers, staring at the table and biting his lower lip. '' Look Hyung I...I've been stupid'' '' Fact'' '' But you've been rude'' Seunghyun scoffed. '' Excuse me!?'' Jiyong shrugged, still not looking up. '' You have to admit it, you went a little over the edges'' '' Haven't! I've only stated the truth!'' The leader looked up, frowning. '' You can't say a girl's a whore when you don't even know her'' Seunghyun pouted. '' How can you know if I know her or not?'' '' Please, I've always been around you so I know who you know'' The older scoffed. '' well, this time my dear friend, you're wrong: I know her'' '' How's that?'' Seunghyun bend to him, smirk on. '' We met at a bar, she seduced me, wanting to sleep with me. She wasn't even drunk but she did those things. I was afraid of scandal so I turned her down. She immediately went to another man, doing the same. The other agreed and they went to the bathroom. Fifteen minutes later they came out and she flew to another man. I think you know the following'' Jiyong was glaring at him. '' You're lying'' Seunghyun looked aside, shrugging and leaning back to his chair. '' Beats me If I am. You know I never'' He saw he hurt the leader, but he was doing it for him. Jiyong deserved better than her. He didn't cared if Jiyong hates him for the rest of hi life but he didn't want the boy to live lies and cheats constantly with her. She wasn't worth his friend. Jiyong stared at the table, like frozen. Seunghyun looked to him worriedly. He stood and poured a mug of tea to his leader and put it in front of him. The boy lazily wrapped his hands around it, thanking him lowly. Seunghyun sighed. '' I'm sorry for saying it like this but, you didn't wanted to listen to me'' '' Aniyo, I'm only hating myself for... trusting her blindly like I did, even though I didn't knew her. I didn't even consider that maybe you were saying the truth despite we know each other for more than ten years.'' '' Hey, women are powerful'' Jiyong laughed a little. '' Sadly they are'' It was silent for some minutes, but this time it wasn't the awkward silence, it was the one they usually had before: the confortable quietness were both know what the other is thinking. Jiyong sipped on his mug of tea. He recognized the taste, Seunghyun's favorite. He was the one that introduced the older to this flavor when they were trainee. Since then he drank only this one. '' So...we're good?'' Seunghyun rose his eyebrows in questioning? Jiyong smiled. '' I asked if...we were done with the argue?'' The older smiled back. '' Why do you even ask?'' Jiyong pulled his phone out and typed something on it before pushing the 'send' button. Seunghyun asked even though he knew. '' What are you doing?'' '' Sending something to miss Kiko-san'' Seunghyun frowned and looked to his mug, staring at the tea in. He heard Jiyong giggled and stand up. The younger went besides him and wrapped his arms around his neck in a back hug. He showed him his phone screen where was the message he just send. It read. Hey Kiko~

I know I'm late but I won't come to the restaurant, gomen

In fact, I don't think we should see each other anymore you know, people are starting to think things and...

I know you too.

I had great times with you but I want to end them here.

I like you very much but only like a little sister. I don't want to get further with you but I know you want to so I prefer that we don't see each other again. I don't want you to get harmed.

I wish you sucess in your future projects

Sorry and Farewell

Jiyong

'' Is that ok? It better be because I sent it already'' For answer Seunghyun turned his head and kissed Jiyong's cheek. '' It is'' Jiyong put his phone on the table, still backhugging Seunghyun. The older put his hands on Jiyong. The leader rest his head on his hyung's shoulder, enjoying that he could finally have him in his arms after so long. '' I missed you hyung'' '' I missed you too Ji'' Seunghyun pulled Ji's arms off of him and he stood up. Jiyong frowned, wondering what he was doing but before he could ask he was pulled into a broad chest, strong arms holding him still. He smiled, putting his arms in the back, pulling his hyung closer. He could hear Seunghyun's heartbeat, strangely, it was getting faster. Hearing this, his own heart too. His cheeks went pinkish and he hoped his hyung won't see it. It was too much asking because a gentle hand pulled his head up. His eyes locked with Seunghyun's but closed instantly as warm softness pressed against his lips. It wasn't like he didn't knew what it was. Heaven, it was Seunghyun's lips. He tilted his head to the side and kissed back.  Don't ask either of them how they got there, both didn't knew. But here they were, both in underwear, on Seunghyun's bed, kissing passionately. They would have lied saying neither of them never dreamt of this.  Seunghyun kissed his way to Jiyong's neck, nibbling gently. Jiyong moaned snaking his hands in the older's hair. He didn't cared about having a hickey for the rehearsal, what was foundation useful at? He gasped sensing his hyung's hands ghosting down his chest to his waist. Seunghyun had sensed the leader tensing at this. He pulled away from his neck, looking at the boy, a little nervous. '' Ji, you ok?'' Jiyong breathe in deeply. '' Y-yeah'' '' You're sure you want to do this? we can wait'' Jiyong only pulled him into a forceful kiss as answer. Seunghyun barely managed to maintain himself with his hands before he fell onto the younger. He pulled away since his leader had caught him off guard so he ran out of air quickly. Jiyong smiled at him despite having eyes filled with tears. '' You don't know how much I missed you. Being with her, everytime, I felt like I was cheating and betraying you. I didn't knew why. I was always feeling like I shouldn't be with her but, I still was meeting her. Once she even asked me to kiss her. I was about to do it but your face popped in my mind and...my heart sanked painfully. I couldn't do it in the end. The feeling of cheating was overflowing in my body, mostly in my heart. I wanted to run to you, hold you and cry, but...I couldn't.'' A tear fell as he was saying this, Seunghyun wiped it off before kissing his lips sweetly. He stroked his leader's hair softly. '' You should have come to me. I never would have turned you away even though we were angry at each other. That's what friends are. In fact, I've forgave you since long ago.'' Jiyong rose his eyebrows in confusion. Seunghyun giggled. '' You were angry by yourself Ji'' Jiyong looked aside, pouting. '' oh so now my baby's sulking at me?'' Jiyong's eyes widened a little at this nickname and his cheeks went bright red. Seunghyun laughed and leaned down to claim the lips he loves. Jiyong kissed back. He sensed a big warm and soft hand slide all the way from his chest to his waist. He tried to ignore it, concentrating on the kiss but... some fingers went under the elastic of his boxer. He held his hyung's wrist, stopping him and turned his head away, breaking the kiss. Seunghyun was a little surprised. Jiyong bit his lower lip. '' S-s-sorry'' The older shook his head even though his leader couldn't see him. He pulled off of Jiyong and laid besides him, his hand still held by Jiyong's. '' It's okay, you're not ready, that's all.'' The leader cover his face with both his hands. '' I'm so sorry Hyung'' Seunghyun turned to him and saw tears falling on the pillows. He sat his friend up, pulling the hands away from his face. '' Ji, why are you crying? it's nothing really-'' '' No! It's not that...I realized that ever since childhood, you've always been there to help me, always there whenever I need you, always there to comfort me but...I haven't been for you...I've only been a burden for you, never listening to you, I've been selfish all that time long. But you're still here by my side. I don't even know how far I could have went without you. I'm too dependent of you. I'm so sorry hyung'' He burst in tears again. Seunghyun pulled him into a tight hug, stroking his hair and back. Jiyong buried his face in the crook of his neck, crying. The older kissed his neck to soothe him. It's been so long since the younger had cried, he doesn't even remember. He could hear his leader's faint voice. '' I don't even deserve you as a friend, you're way too good for me to be my boyfriend, hyung'' Seunghyun pulled him away and cupped his cheeks, looking him in the eyes. '' Why do you think I'm still by your side?'' He wasn't waiting for any answers and none came. He poked the boy's nose. '' Because I know you would be completely lost without me, silly. I'm sure you would be dead since long ago. You forgot to eat and drink when you're working on a song and I have to come and bring you food so you don't die on the keyboard.''' Jiyong smiled a little. '' ...true'' '' But'' Seunghyun pecked his lips. '' I'm still with you because I love you and I wouldn't be able to live without you. You're the hint of light in my life. Don't you ever forget it. They say you have to find yourself a reason to live. Well, you're mine'' Tears slid down Jiyong's cheeks again. Seunghyun's eyes widened. '' Why you're sad?'' Jiyong laughed, still crying. '' I'm crying because I'm happy you dumb'' He took his hyung's hands off his face into his own hands. '' You're right, I was really lost without you the past months. I felt like...I had been dropped to an unknown country speaking an unknown language without anything.'' The older laughed at him. '' Isn't this image too much?'' Jiyong smiled. '' Maybe, but I really felt lost. Like if I had been in couple with someone for ten years and...one day I wake up and realize that person's gone. All the things I was used to do with that person are to be done by my own and I have to forget them and readapt. I really didn't knew what to do. It was like our debut, not knowing what to do. Wondering if it's done right. Really, I'm not working well without you. You're like my other half'' Seunghyun rose his eyebrows. '' is this a love declaration?'' '' Maybe'' '' So, if I ask you out, would you say yes?'' Jiyong made to think about it. '' You have to try to know'' '' Then, Kwon Jiyong, would you be my boyfriend?'' The leader smirked to his hyung. '' I thought we were already'' Seunghyun pecked his lips. '' I take it as a 'yes' '' Jiyong pecked his lips back. '' Good, because it's definitely not a 'no' ''       The next morning, the five members went to their rehearsal. All the staff noticed Jiyong and Seunghyun had went through their argue and everyone seemed really happy about it. Even the director, usually harsh even on good days was less harsh. The first shots were really good and no flaws were spotted. But they had to take a break since a camera had broke. During this the manager called Jiyong. '' Yes hyung?'' '' Someone's here for you. She wants to talk to you'' Jiyong wondred who could this be. His mom? his noona? no...worse than that...Kiko. The girl seemed really pissed off at him. The leader walked to her, not even faking to care she was angry. '' Hey Kiko'' '' What the hell!?'' '' Ecuse-me?'' '' You think you could end that with a text!?'' Jiyong looked up. '' Yes, I didn't wanted to hear you scream'' The girl frowned. '' AH! You're really a playboy!'' '' And you a slut'' Kiko seemed shocked. '' I beg your pardon!?'' '' Seunghyun-hyung told me you met at a bar. You were whoring around fucking any men. You even tried him but he turned you around'' She kept quiet, not denying it. Jiyong smiled a little. '' I'll say it out loud. I'm ending that non-existing relationship we had and I don't want to see you ever again.'' Kiko was fuming. '' You're really the worst...'' '' Of course I am, I'm guessing I'm the only guy you haven't managed to get into his pants. Though you'll never manage'' He heard footsteps and soon an arm wrap around his shoulder. Seunghyun. at his right appeared Daesung, sending him a bright smile. His left was taken but another hand. Taeyang. and Seungri went directly to the girl. The maknae detailed her. He seemed to like what he saw. he pointed to her. ''  You're really a model and actress in Japan?'' Kiko seemed to be hurt by this. '' Yeees!'' Seungri scoffed, crossing his arms. '' Now I know why I prefer Korean girls over Japaneses, they're cuter!'' Kiko got mad. She stomped out the building, fuming and even broke one of her heels while getting out, making the five boys laugh. Seunghyun kised Jiyong's cheek. '' So now you're all mine?'' Jiyong smiled. '' I've always been hyung.'' Taeyang and Daesung groaned and walked away, the younger shouting back. '' guys! get a room'' Seungri was watching where Kiko had disappeared and sighed. '' I lied, she was pretty hot! I could have slept with her'' Seunghyun threw his hat at him, yelling that he was vulgar for someone his age.