Warmth (1/1)

As soon as I get home, I walk straight to the bathroom. Just as I'm about to shut the door, Yoochun stops me.    "Anio. Can't let you be in the bathroom alone with the door shut again after what happened last time," he tells me.     I sigh and look down at my bandaged wrist. I hate when I get injuries. I look up at my scary reflection in the mirror. My hair is a mess and my eyes are swollen and red. I pretty sure if anyone had seen me they would've thought my life is a mess.     They wouldn't have been wrong.    I stare at my pale complexion. I haven't had color in my face for a while now, so it's not new.    I sigh again and walk out of the bathroom to my room. I shut the door and throw myself on my bed trying to rest my sore body. I hope to never see that man again. If I do, he isn't going to be seeing the day of light again after I'm done with him.    I think you have it backwards.    Shut up...    I punch the pillow trying to be out my anger, which was not a good idea. I grab my back and cry out in pain.    Yoochun runs in and immediately runs over to me.    "Jae, what's wrong?" he asks me panicking.    "Nothing," I say as the pain fades away a bit. "Just pulled a muscle" I lie.    I sit up and stare at Yoochun, who stares at me. We stare at each other for about two minutes in silence before I turn away my face hot.    What was that?    Yoochun sighs at me then says "Be careful Jaejoong. I don't want you hurt again." I see that same look of regret I saw in his eyes earlier. He nods his head at me, then walks towards the door. As he is about to walk out, I stop him with words that make me confuse myself.    "I'm sorry," I whisper loud enough for him to hear me.    He turns around and looks at me confused.    "Sorry?" he asks me. "For what?"    Yeah. For what?     "For being such an asshole," I say looking down.    I hear him sigh again, then say "You're going through a lot, so I understand your trying to get out what your feeling inside. Don't worry about it. I just hope one day you can recover."    I would if I could.    He smiles slightly, then walks out closing the door softly. I stare at the door even after he leaves, feeling lonely. I wish I had someone to keep me company. Anybody...-except that Geun Suk guy.    I look over towards my bedside table. I look at the picture that always brings me pain the look at. It brings me pain but I still keep it there.    It shows all five of us not that long before the lawsuit. We're all making happy expression, may it be a smile or and aegyo face. Were shown close just like old times. Most people would think it is a wonderful picture, but not me. It just brings me memories I want to forget. Even though I say this, I can't take it down.    I grab the picture of the table, and continue to scan it. I see Changmin between me and Yunho. Even though we usually positioned ourselves in that order, he still loved to separate us. Sometimes I would work my way next to Yunho though. Evil maknae Changmin. I really miss him, too.    I look to the left of the picture to see Yoochun and Junsu. They've been with me through everything after the separation. Yoochun has always been there for me though. Junsu just lost his love from me with the words he said to me today. I feel anger rush to me and I throw the picture at the wall, making the glass frame shatter.    I immediately run over to the broken frame noticing what I've done. I quickly start picking up the glass as Yoochun walks in.     "I leave you alone for only five minutes and you already break something," he says walking over to me and beginning to help.     "N-no. I'll do it," I tell him quickly picking up the glass. I don't even notice I'm crying again until he grabs my trembling hand. I look at him with an expression no different than a lonely helpless puppy.    "Jae, stop it," Yoochun says with a stern look and voice. I begin to whimper as he helps me up.    Then, he does something that suprises me. Yoochun pulls me into a strong hug. I feel my heart speed up confusing me more. I close eyes as his chest warms me up. The loneliness I was feeling disappears a bit. But anything is better than nothing.     "I'll always be there for you Jaejoong. Even if you do hate Junsu, he'll be there for you too. If you ever need someone to give you love, just come to me," he tells me in a deep caring voice.    But will you always be there for me. Yunho said the same thing...    He tries to pull away, but I hold onto him.    "Stay...please," I say desperate not to let him go. He nods his head and I stay in his embrace for about five more minutes before I see the door open. Junsu pokes his head in and sees us. I see him smile a bit, then go back out shutting the door again.    I burry my head into Yoochun's chest and take a deep sniff off his cologne. Yoochun always smells good and clean. Doesn't smell dirty. Doesn't smell like alcohol. Doesn't smell like cigarettes. Just clean. He's soft like a teddy bear, too. Heart wise and body wise.    I feel myself beginning to fall asleep in his arms and Yoochun has to hold me up for support.    "Jae, I think you should go to sleep," he tells me helping me over to my bed. He puts me in my bed and covers me with my blanket. As he turns around to leave, I grab his arm.    "Please don't leave me..," I beg him with sleepy eyes. He immediately gets into bed with me and I rest my head on his chest. He wraps his arms around me in a warm embrace. I only hear a few faint words come from Yoochun before I fall asleep. The best sleep I've had in a long time.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Wooh. I'm tired =.= I hope you enjoyed it. Please comment and subscribe :) See you next update ^-^