008. pride ; hoya/sunggyu (1/2)

seems like sunggyu's been busy in my fics lately.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "You have to leave now, Sunggyu's inside."

"But Hoya, you promised to take me home to your place tonight.. And Sunggyu is stupid."

"Well now things changed. You have to leave. Also, he is not stupid."

"Fine. I'll call you tomorrow."

"Yeah."Sunggyu laid in his and Hoya's bed, hearing the same conversation he'd heard what he felt like to be a million times. Howon thought he was asleep, or maybe that the walls were thick enough for conversations in the hallway to not be heard. They weren't. Sunggyu could hear his own gasps for air as tears streamed down his face, and when he head Howon's voice get muffled by that girl's mouth he felt like throwing up. And that girl... She had given Howon a nickname. She called him Hoya. Howon wasn't Hoya, Howon was Howon and Howon was Sunggyu's boyfriend. His one and only love. Despite Sunggyu's hard crying he smiled a little when he heard Howon say that he wasn't stupid.

He heard their lips part, making the girl sigh, and then he heard the door to the apartment open. Quickly, he dried his tears and held his breath, as if that would make the tears stop escaping from his eyes. After a few moments he took a deep breath, a sob running through him, but he refused to let himself cry more. He didn't want Howon to worry about him."Hey honey, are you asleep?" Howon's voice was soft and Sunggyu almost started to cry again.

"I just woke up when you walked in."

"Sorry. Let's get some sleep, okay?"

"Okay."

"I love you, Sunggyu."

"I love you too, Howon."Howon held Sunggyu in a tight backhug as he laid behind him in bed, and Sunggyu took a deep breath. Just as he had thought, Howon smelled really strong of his own perfume, as if to cover up the smell of woman's perfume. It didn't, really. Her perfume smelled great. She was great. Sunggyu noticed that Howon had already fallen asleep, his deep breathing against Sunggyu's neck.

And the tears streamed down Sunggyu's face again. He knew very well why Howon was so tired, he knew that he had fucked that girl at least once tonight before going here and realizing that Sunggyu was home - so they couldn't fuck again. Sunggyu knew who she was, and he knew that this had been going on for around two months. He hated Howon for it and he hated himself for not leaving. But he couldn't leave the love of his life. Howon was everything to him. And he had to keep some pride. If Howon didn't know that Sunggyu knew about him and his girlfriend, Sunggyu could still have some pride in this relationship. If it still was one.

His sobs died out as he fell asleep, pictures of Howon and the girl, Jieun, crossing his mind.  -x- "It's been three months now honey!"

"Yes.. I love you, Jieun."

"I love you too."The words broke Sunggyu's heart. As if it wasn't already broken. Now it was completely smashed, and Sunggyu couldn't breathe. Coming home early from work was a bad, bad idea. He had even walked in unnoticed, Howon was probably to busy confessing his love to bother with him. Sunggyu sat down against a wall in the kitchen, the sounds of Howon kissing Jieun, the two laughing and talking in Howon's and his bedroom filling his ears. Sunggyu couldn't even cry. He thought about the whole pride-thing that always went through his mind.

The only way to keep his pride wasn't to stay. It was to leave.Sunggyu threw the door to the bedroom open. He didn't even look at Howon and Jieun who were on the bed, he went straight to the closet and started to throw his clothes on the floor.

"Sunggyu! What are you doing?! This isn't what you think!"

Sunggyu turned around to face Howon, seeing Jieun's face over Howon's shoulder. He almost pitied her.