final. (1/1)

The lights where blinding us but we kept on dancing to the thundering music floating through our bodies in the middle of the floor. Blood red lights hitting us, then lemon yellow and thirdly deep ocean blue everything went on and on for infinityAlcohol dancing in our veins and stopping our brains from working like it should. Stopping everybody from thinking, right from doing things right and making us a crowd of stupid bastards dancing away from our problems, from my problems.I was angry, I was sad, I was terrified of what I was doing but I was dancing with this person who had me right around his fingers. I was just a mess then and there. A broken person dancing with somebody just because some feelings were shook inside his mind.Glasses were put aside and hands became free to do everything they could. Hands started to map out the areas of our bodies, every curve, every bump, every soft area and everywhere we got a reaction were memorized in our palms. Not in our brains, because the brain was too drunk for it.Kisses were pulled out of our mouths and teeth crashed together, but nothing was given a second thought. We were just living in the moments, even if it was destroying us. We were so stupid, so intoxicated.We were moving like one together. Moving swiftly through the crowd like we knew each other, moving like this was a house we owned, moving like this place was empty. We moved like we were in love with each other. It felt so good, too good to be true, my brain accepted everything. Never gave a second thought to why I was doing this thing. Why I let my emotions take control, why I wanted revenge that was just going to backfire.But how could I care in this moment? I simply couldn’t, it was impossible. I was drenched in sorrow and anger. You can’t really think of anything except for revenge and revenge that was what I was doing right now. I was doing revenge with an intoxicated brain that controlled. With a mind that was making everything blurry.It was just going to be worse on me, than on my partner. I would get all the blame and heat. I went outside and had “fun” all night, when my other partner was inside. Sad or happy I have no idea and I couldn’t care less. My mind was a completely new person, and I didn’t know if I liked it or not.Never did I think of my partner, the one I’ve been in a relationship for years in that night. Only this new and forever unknown person for that night. It was destroying me.