Now They Think Youre Cra (1/1)

Sungmin’s POVWe arrived at the hospital two minutes later. I was so worried about Leeteuk that I didn’t even wait for Kyu to stop the car. I jumped out, causing me to fall to the ground. I ended up breaking my ankle, but I didn’t feel any pain because I wanted to make sure that Leeteuk was okay. Kyu came and picked me up, and we hurriedly went through the doors. We found that they had already taken Leeteuk away from Siwon and he was sitting in the waiting room with his head in his hands. He looked like he had been crying. I wondered how close he and Leeteuk were for him to be crying like that. I sat down next to him. This was the one moment where I wouldn’t be crying, so I decided to ask him what was going on with him. “Siwon, are you okay?” “What do you mean?” He replied back, lifting his head and looking at me. His eyes were puffy, but he smiled politely. “Why are you crying so hard for someone you don’t really know? Unless you know Leeteuk.” I responded. “Oh, well…I’ve seen people do this before. It just scares me every time I see someone who tried to take their life. I’ve never had the opportunity to save someone in this situation, so I guess I’m still in shock that I was able to do it. My adrenaline is still going, I guess.” He explained. Wow, because that wasn’t what I was expecting. Really, how could someone so sweet have been exposed to something like this? While I was deep in my thoughts, the doctor came out of the double doors that led to the rooms. He was carrying a clipboard and he was flipping the pages up and down. I didn’t see him until he was right in front of us. “Are you Mr. Choi?” his voice scared the hell out of me but I immediately stood up. He looked at me like he was confused. That’s when Siwon also stood up and said, “I’m Mr. Choi, is everything okay?” The doctor’s head swiveled between me and Siwon, but finally, he started to explain. “Mr. Park is doing just fine. The wounds were as deep as we first thought. He did need stitches, though, on his wrists and his abdomen. He lost a lot of blood. We gave him a blood transfusion. Most of the time when a person decides that they want to die, and they mutilate themselves, they cut so deep that they lose all ability to use their hands because they severed the tendons and muscles. This wasn’t the case when it comes to Mr. Park. We need to keep him here, though, for a few days to see what can be done for him.” “Can we see him?” I asked. “Um, not right now. He’s sleeping and he needs his rest. I must warn you that when he wakes up, he is going to be in pain. We’re going to do a psych evaluation on him when he’s able to truthfully answer our questions. This will help us determine whether we should institutionalize him, or get him a psychiatrist. It will take time for him to get back to where he was before this happened. You have to be patient with him.” He nodded with conviction, then he shook our hands, and he left. I was scared because I wanted to see Leeteuk, but I didn’t know if I could handle what he put himself through. Kyuhyun turned to me, seeing that I was bawling again. He quickly embraced me and hugged me tight. He snuggled his face into my hair and I could feel the sweet, gentle kiss he planted on my head. Just that action made me cry even harder and I squeezed him with all of my might. We let go of each other, and I saw that Siwon was sitting down again, hugging himself. I felt bad for him because he didn’t have anyone to comfort him. He was here by himself and I knew he wouldn’t leave until he knew for sure that Leeteuk was okay. I got that aura from him the moment I met him. I went over to him, knelt down and caressed his face, and then hugged him. To be honest, it was weird to feel someone else’s strong arms wrap around my waist, but I knew that it wasn’t like that with me and Siwon. He knew I was with Kyuhyun, and he didn’t try anything. He just hugged me back…and started to sob hard. His whole body shook and I had no other choice but to stand there and let it happen. When it was over, he stood straight, and then looked at Kyuhyun. I knew he was trying to say sorry, and from the face that Kyuhyun was giving him, Kyu didn’t believe him.  “Kyuhyun, stop it. He needed a shoulder to cry on. I was there. You could’ve done the same thing, but you didn’t, when he needed it.” I said, coldly. I was tired of his being jealous of everything and everyone. But that’s a different story to be told another day… “Minnie, I didn’t do anything. I didn’t say anything. Don’t be mad at me!” he said, pleading. I started to giggle at how defensive he got. I loved that about him. Anyway, we waited there for a little while longer and then my stomach started to growl. I asked the other two boys if they wanted to go to the cafeteria to get something to eat. They agreed and we went down. When we came back, a nurse came up to us, and told us that Leeteuk was awake and if we wanted to see him, then we could. I was so excited that I dropped my food and ran to his room. For a split second, I thought that it was a bad idea because maybe I wasn’t mentally able to accept the reality of what I was about to see. But none of that mattered as I skidded into the room, and saw him lying on the bed. He looked almost dead. As soon as I saw him, I started to cry more. There was nothing I could do for him and that broke my heart. Apparently, he heard my sobs, because he started to stir in his bed. His face contorted when he felt the pain that he was in. He moaned, and then he slowly opened his eyes. I held my breath as he looked at me, “Hi Minnie.” Leeteuk’s POVThis wasn’t what I expected. I expected that Sungmin would call Kyuhyun and Kyuhyun would bring one of his friends. No, what I didn’t expect was how much it hurt. When whoever it was that picked me up found me in the bathroom, I wasn’t dead. I wasn’t awake, though. I was slowly reaping the sows of what I did. The pain was excruciating. It was as though I was sent into the mouths of Hell, and there were tiny bees stinging me from every direction. I vaguely remember being placed gently into the back of a car, and then I could feel every bump and scrape that the car was given. It wasn’t unpleasant…compared to what I was feeling internally right now, everything else felt amazing. I remember the car stopping, and the sliding of doors. I was put on a cold piece of something (A/N: a gurney so he could be rolled into the operating room) and then air swished by my ears. I felt cold, glove covered hands all over me taking away whatever articles of clothing I still had on. Suddenly, though, there was a slight stabbing feeling in each of my wrists and on my stomach, and then everything went numb. I found it very ironic that this was what I wanted, yet right now, when I was getting the numbness, it was far from anything I had ever wanted in my entire life. I was scared because when I had brought the knife to my skin, I felt something. This…there was no feeling at all. I believed that finally I had died. I waited to see whether I would see the pearly gates of heaven, or the fiery pits of hell. But nothing came. There was nothing but more pain. I guess that was a good sign. Anyway, when I came to, I felt something soft under me. I figured it was a hospital bed, because I could hear the beeping of my heart monitor. I also heard someone run into the room. They went quiet for a second and then I could hear them start to cry. Did I really look that bad? I slowly opened my eyes, and when I tried, all of my body parts started to move too, making pain wreak havoc. I made a face, but I wanted to preserver, so I struggled to open my eyes. When I finally did, I realized that it was Sungmin. I thought that it would’ve been Timmy (and part of me wanted to believe that it was Kangin). My voice was shaky at first, but then I managed a, “Hi Minnie.” His eyes widened and he shook his head. He couldn’t believe that this was really happening. Hell, I couldn’t believe that it was happening, but I sat up a little and I looked at him. He made a motion to do something, but I put up my hand. I was going to do this, if it killed me, no pun intended. “Teuk, don’t strain yourself.” He said in between sobs. “Minnie, it’s okay. Please stop crying, now, it’s okay…I’m okay.” I said to him. “What the fuck?” was his response. “How do you expect me to stop crying when I honestly believed that my best friend was dying!? Leeteuk what the fuck did you do that for? I can’t believe you would even be that selfish. I knew you would do something like that; I wanted to be there for you when you broke down, but no, you had to go and barricade yourself in the bathroom. Siwon had to break down the door! This is not alright! This is not what I wanted when I told you that information. I thought about what you might do to hurt yourself once you knew but this wasn’t one of them. You know that as of now, you will have scars all over your body and for what? Some asshole who never gave two shits about you? I can’t believe you, I can’t ev–.“ I started to cry. I knew he was right; everything he was saying was true. But he was cut off because Kyuhyun came in and held him tight. Sungmin put his head onto Kyu’s shoulder and just sobbed even more. I, again, hated the fact that I was the cause of all of this sadness. After a while, Sungmin calmed down, and another boy came into the room. I couldn’t remember who he was because his hair was shorter and his face was red from crying. He walked over to my bed and then he took my hand, careful not to mess with the bandages. “Hello, Leeteuk….how are you?” he asked as his voice cracked a little. When I tried to talk, but winced at the pain, he immediately let go and made a polite gesture that made me know who he was instantaneously. It was Siwon, the nice one at the cafeteria table that day. “Oh, Siwon, yes I am okay. A little bit of pain, but I know that it will pass. I’m sorry that I put you through this. I’m an idiot.” I said. “Oh, I don’t think that even covers half of it,” Sungmin piped up. “Now they think you’re crazy.” ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- So I think this chapter fucking sucks monkeys but I hope you like it.  Just to clear some stuff up, Siwon doesn't have any feelings for Leeteuk, he just has gone through a lot when he was younger dealing with what Leeteuk did, so it's affecting him a little more... So I know I said that we'll meet knew people in this chapter, but I guess I lied. I had to be able to set the stage for them to come in lol.  Sorry about that... Anyway, this isn't going to be a Wontuek or SiTeuk fanfic just so people know.  Anyway (x2), hopefully things will get better lol.  Thanks to all who have stuck with me through all of this :) It means a lot!